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Hi everyone

  January 6th, 2019 by Undesirable

(tl:dr- hi, I’m depressed too)

I discovered this site back around March 2018. I used to check it every night or so, just see what others were going through. Since then I’ve checked it now and then, but not much. The only name that still sticks in my head is Clipped Wings, I forget why though.

I’ve been depressed for a few months over a year now, and I think making an account here might help, and give me the chance to help others. I’ve always thought of killing myself, I’ve come close only a few times though.

I’ve had a girlfriend for the past year.

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Longing

  January 6th, 2019 by thehusk

Every day is the same. I spin through the same cycle of emotions. I long not to feel so alone anymore. To have a partner, a wife. Someone I’d want to spend my days with. Someone better than me. Someone who understood. A connection.

The truth is, I don’t deserve it. Nobody could see who I really am and still want to be with me. At least not anyone that I’d want to be with. It’s hard to imagine a woman on my level, but I think they’d have to be highly deranged, as well as repulsive, to be desperate enough to want me. Possibly a …

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  January 6th, 2019 by headupunderdarkcloud

Often times, I find am keeping myself going purely for a future self who appreciates it later.

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Empty

  January 6th, 2019 by unknownsoldier

I have a lot and yet I still feel so empty. I have this urge to start cutting again. Fuck this

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  January 6th, 2019 by nobodycares

are you happy?

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Today was my day

  January 6th, 2019 by Lilaquoi

Today I decided it’s time. I’ve been hopeless for more then long enough. I’ve got no one to talk to. I’m oh so lonely and even my exboyfriend stalker quit stalking me. Ive been told 6 times this year let’s be a couple and by Sunday they forgotten the loved me an went back to their ex’s. Apparently the only thing I’m useful for is a pump & dump from the usual married cheating ass hole and the younger men who can’t seem to find another woman who will let em jizz on her sheets an leave before it’s even dry. I’m tired of being …

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I’m sick of life

  January 6th, 2019 by Lilaquoi

Men have been wanting me for so long. Sexy men, younger men, married men even have had a taste of this. They say they love me and care for me. Can you believe it took me 48 years to realize, their just using me as a hole to fuck. I used to think I was beautiful. Now I know they just realized how easy a fuck I was.

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I thought it was real

  January 6th, 2019 by Lilaquoi

We’ve been together for a year. He tells me he loves me. I’ve never felt passion for any man in my life like I do for him. I’ve never been this in love before. Last nite, he held me down and beat me over and over again. But you said you loved me.

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Misery

  January 6th, 2019 by ravingbean

I stopped caring. I stopped caring about myself. I stopped caring about others. It’s the last step. Now I can go.

Goodbye.

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I rather be alone

  January 6th, 2019 by nonexistingsoul

Today, being alone is the biggest comfort

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I want to be connected to you all

  January 6th, 2019 by nonexistingsoul

Hi. How’s your day?

Some are good some are not huh?

For those who had a good day, I’m glad. It’s a miracle for us to have those days. We wish it wouldn’t leave. I sincerely wish your happy day turns into happy week, happy month, and even a happy year 🙂

For those who had a bad day, I’m with you guys, well a lot of us is. I wonder how long are we gonna suffer.

I self harmed again recently. My heart feels really heavy. Want to cry but can’t. I’m too tired to cry.
Tomorrow’s Monday. I need to go to school again and I’ll see those …

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Tired

  January 6th, 2019 by Jane doe

A common slant on this forum seems we’re all so, so tired…!!!
Tired of struggle from one miserable day to the next
Tired of having no joy anywhere in our lives
Tired of wanting to die but not quite having completely given up.hope or not having the guts ,the means or the opportunity to end it.
Tired ,tired ,tired..
People who don’t know any better think suicide is a “cowards way out” , an easy way out, selfish..
But actually taking your own life, takes a LOT of guts, a lot of bravery.
Coz it’s so final .
I’m talking sure fire ways of dying, jumping, shooting yourself through the head, no …

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Calling all time travelers

  January 6th, 2019 by Salt

Need backup. You know when to find me. This communication ends now.

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Wrapped

  January 6th, 2019 by morado123

Cutting again is a bad choice.

I remember the time I hid a pocket knife in my sleeve and went to a bathroom stall.

There, I cut myself…again and again and again on the same spot.

Bleeding was quite severe. The bandage was soon socked with blood.

And the bandage wasn’t enough, so I used my watch to somehow put pressure on the wound.

Somehow, that fact made my extremely happy. Euphoric, even.

I guess I was really sick at that time. So mentally ill to be pleased at the fact that I cut too deep.

What happened next?

The bleeding stopped.

And my wrist smelled of bandage for months.

 

Because I’m just an young …

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im a monster

  January 6th, 2019 by viola

out of anger and stress (due to school) i told my boyfriend id kill him because hes the only one stopping me from killing myself so if hes dead i can kill myself in peace but what the fuck right!!

i said sorry so much and i said maybe itd be better for us to break up but what what what i dont wwant this to happen again fuckuf ukcufkcu fuck!!!

i let my anger take over me again

i just want to die

please

he wont break up with me and now im afraid i will actually end up killing him even though thats not what i would …

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Adult

  January 6th, 2019 by Calico

Am I mature enough?

Am I enough?

Always playing the adult role.

It hurts.

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Happy birthday?

  January 6th, 2019 by Lostlullaby

It is my birthday today or it is supposed to be. I don’t know, the weird, disgusting and disproportionate face that looks at me in the mirror doesn’t seem to be me. Is it some kind of dream? Am I real, am I alive? But I see that little girl dying over and over not long after her birthday. And this little girl was me, wasn’t she? I’m so lost and tired I can’t do anything, I have a dozen exams coming up but nothing seems to matter. I feel half dead like I’m only a walking corpse. Do Zombies celebrate their birthday?

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I Think I Understand Now

  January 6th, 2019 by Two-Faced

Friday morning, I got back for my second semester sophomore year in college. I am on scholarship (For reference). I had so much going on last month, I had all kinds of bills flowing in and no way to pay them. So I decided to ignore all that and focus on getting to school. Then the moment I got to school, I wasn’t allowed to register in my dormitory because I had “An unpaid balance”, so I check my school account for the first time in a month. There’s a $17,000 bill looking right at me. I’m thinking aren’t I on a scholarship? So I …

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  January 6th, 2019 by Tellmewhy

I wish l had a friend to go out with amongst other things.
I wish my neighbours or city dwellers were frendlier.

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I just can’t anymore…

  January 6th, 2019 by cursedcat

I’m so fucking worthless, no matter what I do, I’m never good enough…

BF thinks I’m too insecure because I worry about him, he says he’s going to do something and then he doesn’t do it, his behavior or normal daily habits change instantly and I’m concern that something happened, it’s sucks being in a long distance relationship for over a year… but I’m not allowed to show I care, because that makes me insecure? I’m not thinking he’s cheating on me, I think that something bad fucking happened because it’s not normal for him to just say NOTHING to me for 24 hours! When he …

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