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I dunno

August 9th, 2017by Theycallmedramatic

I have so much to say, so much to think about, but I feel like I can’t find a part of humanity that will understand my way of thinking. In this world people care so much about things I find uninteresting. Maybe that is just an example of everyone being different, sure; however, I desperately need an ear like my own to listen to me. I am only eight-teen but my severe life-long depression and anxiety has stayed by my side like a shadow filled with pollution. I wanna die, but that would break a promise. But I wanna die still. That promise is my …

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slaves to our needs

August 9th, 2017by Life

I’ve been thinking about the world a bit differently and realized everyone is ensalved to their needs. Think about it you love people cause you want to be loved. You lust for people to feed your reproductive needs. You make money to survive in the society. You make friends to feel less lonely. You eat cause your hungry. There’s nothing more to life but feeding your needs that’s all we are or were programmed to do.

 

aside from that Ive learned to try and help others so they can feed there needs. we should all became more selfless, and put others before us even though they …

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August 9th, 2017by DeadHeart

I have the same feeling sometimes, I feel a little cheered up, I have a laugh but I remind myself that this is temporary, the way I really feel, miserable, depressed, crushed, bogged down, stuck, jealous will return shortly.

My thoughts of suicide use to be just thoughts but lately this has also changed for me, I’m coming to realize that my life isn’t going to change, no one is going to come save, I either I have to begin to enjoy this miserable life or end it.

I know I won’t be able to enjoy this life, its literally to hard. I’m so far behind

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Is It Really All It’s Going To Take?

August 9th, 2017by Eccedentesiastsoul

I do not think I am capable of being loved. I fear that I am never going to be able to find someone who will love me the way I fail to love myself. It has always been my only hope. What if it’s the only way all of this will ever get better? To find the right person who will always be there for me. The thing is I’ve been lied to so many times that I don’t think I can trust anyone anymore. People talk to me when they need something then they just disappear. If I refuse to do what they ask …

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SP does not have a Facebook page…correct?

August 9th, 2017by PhotographyIsMyLife

I came across this during my travels.  Does SP have a FB page?  Something about this just seems…off.  Be careful.

https://m.facebook.com/story.thesuicideproject/

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Better days? No. Not for me.

August 9th, 2017by eeyore

Days pass on.
Days that I spend crying my heart out. Days when I don’t eat. I don’t sleep. I don’t enjoy anything. I don’t feel happiness. Nothing satisfies me.
Everything is a blur.
And when the world is sleeping, I’m awake thinking what I could have done differently.
What if I tried harder? What if I fought for what I deserved? Why did I give up so easily? Why? That’s the question I’ll never have the answer to

You may not realize it or fucking care, but you broke me I’m shattered. You took away the one thing that gave me slight happiness. The one fucking thing that made …

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I don’t feel like I can go on much longer

August 9th, 2017by noah5678

every year, every month; my life ONLY gets worse. Nothing gets better ever. There is absolutely NOTHING that could make me happy and absolutely NOTHING that could convince me that my life is worth living. I feel like the most fucked up, empty, miserable, depressed person in this whole universe. I keep wanting to kill myself every day, but can’t because I am too afraid of the pain I will feel when I do it. I am absolutely empty, and I just feel so… strange all the time. It’s really hard to explain. I really wish I had the guts to commit suicide. Even if …

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What do I want?

August 9th, 2017by miracles

I feel so confused. It’s been some years since I first thought about suicide. At first it was only occasionally, but then this thought became stronger and stronger. A couple of weeks ago I decided to turn all this into reality. I’ve started writing a plan on my notebook: I’ve already decided how and when to commit suicide and I’m convinced of what I’m going to do.

What scares me the most, however, is the fact that I’m happy to be sad… Today, for example, my father told me that today was going to be a good day (after having seen me crying last night), and I …

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The resolve is back…..

August 9th, 2017by ladolcemorte

So I posted before about how I was in an almost magical trance of tranquility and really ready to go.   Then some physical pain set in and snapped me out of it and I wondered if I would even be able to execute my carefully crafted plan.

Yesterday the physical pain came down significantly as a result of some intense pain killers but the pain killers are wearing off and the pain is coming back.

I can’t tolerate another day of feeling terrible, and my resolve is stronger than ever.  But this time, I’m not in the magical trance.  I just feel really clear headed.   …

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Untitled

August 9th, 2017by DeadHeart

Yea I’m so distraught this morning I’m having trouble for my own thoughts, I’m shaking a bit, just immense amount of stress, 30 years old, I live at home, been alone for fucken years now maybe three maybe four, my mom seems retarded.

I’m honestly exhausted. I won’t leave a note, I don’t wanna go through with this but I know these people around aren’t going to help me, there happy with me just going to work and coming home and paying them there rent money. It’s mainly my mom I’m tired of taking care of her I’m not his husband.

I’m not at all concerned about …

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I’m not happy

August 9th, 2017by jmc22

I know that being unhappy with you life can be common, but I’m just so tired of everything. I want everything to pause. Even just waking up and going to bed have become tiring and pointless. It’s just another step on repeat. Does it get any better? School, family, they just seem to take away my happiness. Is there any way I can be happier and satisfied eith my life? I’m so tired.

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No energy

August 9th, 2017by labtech93

I have almost no energy at all I do is snap over small things and lay around all day before I head to work. Even talking to people or having to explain myself makes me tired. I keep thinking I should just go get help but always cancel last minute. I don’t know why I’m super tired all I do is work and then go home. I’m always jumpy due to my PTSD, someone barely walks up behind me and that’s all it takes. I kinda just want it all to be over already.

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It’s all so Painfully Beautiful, I Just Love to Hate

August 9th, 2017by RightsideDown

Forced words won’t give accurate details of condition, they’ve continuously deluded me into relying on myself and others for some level of validation, no matter how low. I was content with the hope that alluded to my grief, and the death…the death that could be seen through it! Where my time’s gone, is with the faith that’ll carry me into a secluded pass of leaves, of trees, and of a cloak that would dry the tears of those who believed in the sanctity of existence and recovery of the diseased. Deceit’s mace is flower scented, and self-deception serves a purpose equal to that of a …

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Last friend is gone

August 9th, 2017by brokenpottery

My last friendship is over. After becoming increasingly fed up with my lack of drive, ambition, and interest in putting my life together, my last friend finally told me off.

Rather than the wake up call he may have intended it to be, I just cut him off. I said if you don’t want me around, then I won’t be around.

One would think it would be painful, but rather when I examine the “friendship” more closely, it is clear he has hated me for a while, and I do not provide him anything he couldn’t go without.

I know I am the problem, but I do not …

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If you are young, please DO NOT kill yourself

August 8th, 2017by HadEnuff

I am 64-year-old man. 48 years ago tonight when I was 16 years old I tried to end my life.

My life was awful. I was in intolerable pain. I I won’t go into all the details as to why because that’s not important. What is important is that my attempt failed. I took a whole bottle of Bufferin and the result was I got very, very sick. However four months later a friend of mine in my high school class did kill himself. He shot himself in the head. Like me he was 16.

This past Sunday I went to visit his grave and all I …

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Why are we still here

August 8th, 2017by wanted85

It’s been a long time. I thought I was doing better however I have not been better I’ve just been drowning my thoughts with liquor. Dumbass, I was cut free for three months yet tonight I decided it was the only way to relieve the pain. I hurt I hate I am just done. I can’t keep going on like this. I currently have the face of a monster, many ask what happened? I truthfully have no idea I’m just bruised and battered all over my face and have no idea where the bruises and markings came from (thanks jack Daniels) but I won’t blame …

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Thoughts That Kill

August 8th, 2017by Todamnbad

Been dealing with severe depression for awhile now. Cant hold the weight that’s on my shoulders, why does life have to be a living hell? Its the type of shit that makes you believe there is no God. Why do so many people have to suffer? And in my little time on Earth, so many people i knew have passed away. I’m actually jealous of the dead. They don’t have to be miserable no more..I been contemplating to kill myself, but after so many failed attempts, you just stop trying and just say fuck it, i gotta live. But in my Honest Heart, i feel …

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Night

August 8th, 2017by thehusk

It’s 3am, and I’m lying awake again. I want to go to sleep. I want to just let go. But I can’t. My mind knows that nothing is ok. There is nothing that can comfort me. There is nothing I can do to make things ok. I have to just live with that. Or not. And that’s fine, during the day time.

But at night, I need comfort. I need to feel that there’s some way that things will be ok. I need some story to tell all my worries and anxieties, to quiet them down for a few hours. But nothing works. I can’t convince …

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Dead Inside

August 8th, 2017by velveteennightingale

I’m trying to stop cutting so the cuts don’t show through my dance tights but it’s so hard and it’s only been like a week and a half! The only thing I can think about for the last two nights is killing myself-which hasn’t happened to me in a little bit. God, I feel so dead inside. I don’t know what to do. 🙁

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I’m scared of being 30…

August 8th, 2017by nvm12

I posted a few days ago, and here I am making another post. I’m almost 26 and I dread the moment I’ll be 30. I’ve been obsessing about it lately.

The reason I feel so scared is that I’m only getting older while still having done nothing in life. I’ve never had a career and all I’ve had is random jobs such as plastic factories and fast food. I’ve never had a girlfriend and never touched a girl. I gave up on my driver’s license after 5 failed tests.

I’m just extremely depressed and I don’t know what to do. I haven’t seriously considered suicide in a …

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