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Wants vs. Needs

June 19th, 2017by muspelhem

One thing I dislike about the modern world, or about humans, or maybe about myself, is that we

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Why are we our own worst enemy?

June 19th, 2017by eternaldarkness

We spend 100% of the time being us, being with ourselves. We should theoretically be our own “BFF” if you will, but instead, we are our own worst enemies. We tell ourselves we’re failures, good for nothing, useless, fat, ugly, lazy, hopeless, that our lives are over, etc. Our minds’ mouth is the harshest person to us.

We do ourselves in. We eat too much, drink too much to numb the pain, cut ourselves, cut ourselves away from humans and hibernate, and do a whole bunch of other self-destructive behaviors.

We know this isn’t good. We know it’s bad to …

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Numb

June 19th, 2017by hope1996

Sometime you just have to be numb.

You catch you other half doing things like motivation of another women body when the one right beside him hates herself and her image.

numb to the fact of no matter what you say it will be twist into it’s all my fault.

numb to the fact my feelings don’t matter

numb the fact that no one cares

sometime numb is the best feeling you can have……

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What else can I feel ?

June 19th, 2017by wanderer

When did I become so numb?
When did I lose myself?
All the words that leave my tongue
Feel like they came from someone else
I’m paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things
I know I should
I’m paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I’m lost and it kills me inside
I’m paralyzed
When did I become so cold?
When did I become ashamed? (oh)
Where’s the person that I know?
They must have left
They must have left
With all my faith
I’m paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things
I know I should
I’m paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I’m lost and it kills me inside
I’m paralyzed
I’m paralyzed
I’m scared to live but I’m scared to die
And if life is pain …

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June 19th, 2017by noah5678

I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!

basically my whole life is a NIGHTMARE!

I am in SO MUCH discomfort; both physical and emotional.

i also feel like I am more confused than 99.99999% of people in the ENTIRE world. About EVERYTHING, like why I have to be me, why I can’t be someone else I want to be, why I can’t be someone who isn’t struggling THIS much. And as a result, I wish I was never born more than ANYTHING. I HATE BEING ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!

That doesn’t exactly mean that I want to die, but I wish I was never born. I HATE THE FUCK OUT OF WHO I AM, …

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Rape??

June 19th, 2017by lonelymolly

Please help me..  i think I was raped a few months ago. I’m not very 100% sure, but I think it’s highly likely. I think I was having a hypomanic episode for just over 3 months (from really late December to March/April), I’m not diagnosed Bipolar but a relative is and they said my symptoms are the same.
While in this hyper episode I occasionally snuck out the house late at night (I’m an adult, but currently live with my parents), and I’d stay out for a few hours. They don’t know about this as I’m typically a very shy person who never leaves the house …

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Im bored as fuck with life

June 19th, 2017by drugzarefun

Does anyone here have Snapchat and wanna talk on there.Im good to talk to if ur depressed. 🙂

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Nitrogen didn’t work – now what happens

June 19th, 2017by handmedown

My dad told me to go ahead, kill myself & get it over with the other night. So I filled the bag with nitrogen and pulled it over my head. I lost consciousness almost immediately. Came to later with an empty nitrogen tank. That was Thursday night. Since then I have irregular heart rate, shortness of breath, memory loss, horrible headaches, hives all over my body and want to sleep all the time. Anyone else try the exit bag with nitrogen? How long before my body feels normal again?

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I ain’t made for

June 19th, 2017by Forevertorn

This society. I wasn’t made for it. I do it all a certain way they do it a certain way but that’s not the question. They all have ‘something’ in common which binds them together whether it be disgust for outcasts like me or another thing. To live in the fact that I will have to keep away from most people for the rest of my life in a way that I don’t take up a profession and regret doing it. The very presence of a creature surrounding my surroundings is enough a dose to me let alone having to bear the talk or their …

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Have to actually ‘adult’ today

June 19th, 2017by labtech93

It’s been a terrible weekend. Not in terms of being lonely, or anything like that. I had friends over and I was around people. The problem was being in my head all weekend. I hate not being able to have normal relationships due to my PTSD. I don’t let anyone get close, keep em’ an arms length away. Mostly to protect myself, but now it’s interfering with having someone significant into my life. At the same time though when things got rough this weekend all I heard was ‘you need to chill out’ ‘you need to calm down’ ‘you don’t want to see me mad’ …

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That Ghetto Life

June 19th, 2017by Todamnbad

I shit you not, a girl i fucked from two years ago, messaged me on facebook out of the blue and sent me pictures of a kid that looks like me claiming its my 1 year old son, like the fuck? Out of all days to tell me this, you tell me on Father’s Day? Wtf? I told my friends and shit and of course they’re fucking laughing…it gets better tho..some other fool signed the birth certificate so im not legally responsible at all for this child that is mine..so my niggas been telling me i got the golden ticket out of this shit if …

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2

Empty.

June 19th, 2017by cassiopeia

I´m tired of all of this, I want to be nice and happy but I just can´t.

I want to be in my bed all day thinking in him. Because I only can be with him in my imagination.

I feel different from the others. And I don´t like that.

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Even on here I feel pretty much alone…

June 19th, 2017by duringmydarkestdays

My eyes are so sore and my stomach is churning. Lately I’ve just felt every strip of happiness torn from me. My heart’s covered in scabs. Everything is empty. I just feel useless at the moment. I can’t even project my thoughts clearly. I’m in a haze and just… 

Had my first few drinks last night and slightly hungover… deciding whether I can muster the strength to drink some more… I just feel so alone… nobody really understands my issues on the outside world… I have no energy… I’m just tired… I just want to sleep… 

Honestly, I’m not even sure if I should even be on

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I need some help

June 19th, 2017by DemetriSon

I’ve had a rough week in a rough month that has rounded out a rough 2 years. The woman i’ve loved for 9 years and dated for 8 is getting married to her boss that she left me for in a couple of days and I’m not sure how to cope. I’ve written my notes, but I don’t know if I have the balls to follow through. Any advice would be appreciated.

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I just want to talk to her

June 19th, 2017by Allelsefails

I have a friend that I have known for 13 years and now she won’t even talk to me because She says she can’t handle me right now. Since the last time I saw her I’ve gotten a lot better about being more private about my mental health and only sharing with the right people.
She won’t even read any of my messages or go out with friends if i’m going to be there. It hurts a lot and I just feel so lost and sad that she hates me so much.
I don’t know how to get her back, and if she ever does come back …

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Negativity and it’s impact on you

June 19th, 2017by hope432

First of all, thank you for being so real. You are not like “normal” people who behave according to what they are told by society and who pretend that everything is good with society at least most of the time and that there is something wrong with you, the depressive ones. They make stupid claims and give you perhaps imperative commands such: Be more social, be less depressive; or in most cases simply despise or abandon you. Then when a suicide shows up in the news they say: what a terrible tragedy!

Yes, society is wrong. I agree with you. And I see from a previous …

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June 19th, 2017by CodenameR

Why do i feel so sorry for myself? I’m the cause of most of my problems. Sure if can blame my parents for being awful, but that excuse can only go so far. They’re not why I’m such a shitty person. I can only blame myself for that. Ok maybe I’m not the worst, but when all the self-loathing and lack of worth  catches up to me i can’t help seeing everything i do as some grievous sin. Is it any wonder I’m impossible to love? People prove it to me again and again that they don’t care.  But how can they care about a …

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No one knows you

June 18th, 2017by arachnophilia

I have the ability to make myself an island. When I am an island I am apart from others, and their approval, their rejections, their problems and emotions have no bearing on me. I am keenly aware that no one really knows me, just as I don’t know anyone. No person can know another. When others think they know me, it’s really only a creative interpretation of fragmented evidence–actions they’ve seen me do, words I’ve said, which aren’t even a fraction of my lived experience. Even when I try to know myself, I fall short. My memory is limited, my attempts to describe myself biased, …

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Note to self:

June 18th, 2017by verbalhues

You must first fail to succeed, everything in life.

Like your first step as a baby, you try but fall so many times over, but eventually you learn to walk, and then run. That was your first challenge in life. If you decided to quit then, you wouldn’t have learned to walk at all. Sometimes we forget the very first lesson we learn in life: Baby steps.

With every stage in life, it presents different levels of challenges; fighting to survive your unfortunate circumstances or fighting to defend and accept yourself or fighting your dissatisfaction. These challenges help shape the person you had become and will become, …

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Midian Monster

June 18th, 2017by eternaldarkness

Hey, where ya been? Haven’t seen you around for a bit. Are you doing okay, or have you joined the McRib’s Farewell Tour? 😛

Who am I going to made McRib jabs without you, MM?
Or say shite to?

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