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Semi delusioned

October 10th, 2017by Urm8451n

thanks to a comment here, I just understood that I shifted hate from many aspects of my life into two personas.

Sometimes “not giving a fuck”  is the best thing to do. I was angry on many things, and was too focused on my anger more than on realization.

Thanks to a comment here, I managed to focus and let go of the anger.

She is now out of my mind, for good.  she is a person who has their own life,  we had a good past together and that is all I should remember. Remember, but not miss.



Always know that honesty is important for friendship.

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I wasn’t prepared…. were you ?

October 10th, 2017by Urm8451n

Good day you all,
This post will include; panic attack, co op failure, overcoming love.
Added bold words to make reading easier and able to jump
edit: Also added conclusions down the page. 

start Today I had a great day, studied, and got few compliments, perhaps even started few new social relationship here or there.
It is really nice to start a new page at a university.
change in events I went back home, a friend contacted me, he asked if I wanna go out with him like we did two days ago. Back then [8.10.17] he said “I want you to know that I completely respect you, and I haven’t done anything with …

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I can’t understand

October 10th, 2017by idontevenknow2

I can’t and don’t understand why people would give me compliments. It’s just stupid, cause I know they are not true. And I am not saying this in the “omg like ahahh i can’t understand it ahhah” kinda way. I literally can’t. Why would people think that about me? That I am kind? Or look good? Or whatever? My mind can’t understand it and doesn’t either. It just doesn’t work out. And the thing is that I really want to be able to accept compliments and you know idk but like try to work on my self image, but I am just stuck, cause I …

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October 10th, 2017by lostallhope001

Does anybody know a cure for narcissism? Even brain surgery anything?

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Fuck tdcs

October 10th, 2017by lostallhope001

Fuck my last post. Just forget it. I thought I healed, but I was just high on zolpidem. I hate my fucking life even more now

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I ha8 myself.

October 10th, 2017by ME Thal

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Peace. I hope it stays. In fear it may leave me.


The premonitory of a monster

I’m a failed optimist i’ll admit…I used to dream of a fantasy fit to my desires, a reality in my mind, but a fantasy to the outside world. I always silently hoped to awake in that fantasy of mine, always lying to myself each day, that tomorrow would be the day I would escape. You […]


I need out of this world

October 9th, 2017by TheMadHatter

Really need out of this zoo. God I wish I could kill myself right now


I forgot

October 9th, 2017by outinthedark

I forgot how much it hurts to talk to your mistakes. To have a normal conversation but underneath it all to realize what happened can never be spoken of. It hurts. To pretend to forget what happened. But it’s for the best. But it hurts and I just need him gone so it stops hurting.


October 9th, 2017by checherose555

I just want to say I will keep my posts to a limit. I think stuff going on with me is minimal, compared to what I have read. Out of respect for everyone, I’ve decided to leave space for the important stuff. But I am reading and I’ll comment if there is something I feel compelled to say. I wish better days and nights for all of you.


For all the night owls, here’s a beautiful theme

October 9th, 2017by hurrdurr


Quote of the Day

October 9th, 2017by Mordred

At the office:

“You look like a demon.”

Great. As if I’m not already aware.


Cleaned… My Life!?

October 9th, 2017by CARLOSPEJUAN

Literally cleaning today. This is weird. I don’t understand how in the world this is happening. I really need to get tested for bipolarity disorder. I’ve never heard of this. I’m turning my life around. Out of NOWHERE!!!!! IM CONFUSED ASH HELL!!!


Attempts to be meaningful?

October 9th, 2017by whynotorwhy

Someone came by

and started to peek behind

this smiling mask I had,

and when they saw the broken pieces

hiding behind it,

they began to pick them up.

I found that behind their smile

lay a thousand shattered pieces.

One by one

we are putting each other back together.



Happy thanksgiving (if you are in Canada)

October 9th, 2017by ladolcemorte

Im eating alone at mcdonalds on thanksgiving. And they are out of ketchup.

I realize there are people who have even less than I do on thanksgiving so im not going to sob about it or anything. (Just whine a little) But…..still this is pretty pathetic, and emblematic of how my life is going right now.

This is why I want to end it. Because as aware as I am that things could be worse, Im also aware that they won’t ever get any better than dinner at McDonald’s alone, without even any frickin ketchup.


October 9th, 2017by TheMadHatter

♪now she gone

i dont know why

up till this day sometimes i cry

she didnt even say goodbye, she didnt even take the time to lie♪


Never Going to be Good Enough

October 9th, 2017by BlueDiamond

I was rejected by the independent living faculty. What a waste of time. This is why I never get my hopes up. Guess it doesn’t matter. I’m one step closer to suicide. YAY! I posted months that I didn’t want to live past 30. I want to go out peacefully. Want the exit bag method expect I’ll use a cap mask because it looks easier. I’m only happy when I’m sleeping. Any advice on how to sneak the air tank and stuff without my parents noticing. Thinking about having the parts shipped to the post office, might have to ship each part to a separate …



October 9th, 2017by eternaldarkness

So stressed out.
I feel like vomiting.



October 9th, 2017by eternaldarkness

Goddamn liars. The people who own the apt complex are assholes. They always lie about inspections and never give you enough time.

3 weeks ago, they put notices on our doors with a notice to enter unit with the reason being “to show perspective buyers.” But no one came that day. Then last Friday, at 5PM, they put a another notice on our doors saying the same thing, notice to enter unit for the purpose of “showing the apt to perspective mortgagees.” The notice said it would be between Monday- Wed. Because no one showed up 3 weeks ago and …