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Death

April 11th, 2018by spreject

I recently read about some folks (Redditors, I think) who look at pictures of

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The only thing saving me

April 11th, 2018by 1Goofygirl

The thoughts are more and more often how I want to just go to sleep and not wake up. The only thing saving me is the thought of my 12 year old son feeling all alone and thinking it is his fault. He as well suffers from depression. I feel stuck!

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What part of Life do you hate the most?

April 11th, 2018by eternaldarkness

*aside from Living
*and school/work

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Jesus fuck..

April 10th, 2018by anthropophobia

I can’t do it anymore. I’m more alone than I’ve ever been. My mom and dad moved away, out of my town. My mom, who moved several years ago, lives 1000 miles away. My dad, who moved last year, lives a 2 hour drive away. I’m not interested in seeing my dad, he’s a bad guy, just a complete asshole who looks to tear me down for no real reason other than his own insecurity.

I recently just visited my mom, for the first time in a year. I miss her so much, and she’s been the only friend I’ve had in years. I love …

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Decisions

April 10th, 2018by SuperSoup

I keep thinking about how my life would end and what other things I’d to prepare for it.

My mind keeps running in circles on whether or not I’d leave a goodbye note or just disappear without telling anyone. I’m afraid they’ll talk me out of and then I’ll have to face them later. I wouldn’t want someone to think they caused it but I want to tell them that they’ve been good to me.

I’d want to die quickly. I keep replaying a gunshot as the way I’d go I can imagine the barrel of the gun against my head and all (as you can tell …

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I’m so tired that I don’t even know what to write

April 10th, 2018by madhurgupta

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Slipping Through My Fingers

April 10th, 2018by J Doe

I can’t say that I have a complete grasp on things. I’d like to think that I’m trying my best, but it would be untrue I think. It’s all just slipping by. This isn’t the first time. This won’t be the last time. I’d like to think I’ve made it this far on dumb luck alone. That and I had somewhat of an understanding of the numbers game. I hate that numbers game. I hate playing it. It feels stale and tiring. I think that my blended brain makes my emotions unstable. I think …

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Another One

April 10th, 2018by AestheticKing

Is it bad, that I cry until I cut myself? Because then, it all stops. I calm down and I draw the blade against my skin for another cut. To due my respects, it actually feels really good and pleasing. That might sound a little psychotic but I actually really like feeling the pain withing my wrist. Is it just me or does anyone else feel this way?

 

I stopped believe there was a better way out of my situation after my last girlfriend broke up with me.  After that, I didn’t feel like anything was important. So, I let everything slip…my grades, my average of …

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Feeling neglected

April 10th, 2018by Number

I feel so insignificant to my boyfriend. I feel more like his housemate then a best friend or lover.

Maybe i crave more attention and affection from my relationships than he does?

I feel like he loves his phone more than me. Why cant, instead of talking to everyone else, he puts the phone down and connects with me?

I would rather be with a loner who gets jealous …than someone who speak with everyone and doesnt have time for me.

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Aimlessly Wandering

April 10th, 2018by SerendipityJune

There’s a weight on my mind that only seems to be increasing as time goes by. I first noticed the weight a few years ago, but at that point, it was little more than nonexistent.

Now, the weight is crushing most rational thoughts, and leaving room for only a few crazy, creative ones.

When I was young, I heard from many that I was the happiest child alive. Always telling a story, or a joke, or laughing.

When I grew older, age eleven or twelve, I thought something was very wrong with me. Boys were of no interest, and I began to speak less. I …

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odds?

April 10th, 2018by LMNO

What do you think the odds are my popping  back on SP and simply posting about my desire to die will be cathartic enough to let me sleep,wake up, and deep good for once?

My money’s on 0.

Side bar, totally pro gun yet I don’t own any guns. I think at the end of the day (one of these days) I know I’ll blow my head off if I had one. So does that tell me how I want to live? I still have hope? Or is the thought of suicide still too fearful for external reasons (as I suspect)(know)?

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problems

April 10th, 2018by slumpy6dog

I’m severely depressed. I don’t want to get into the details of my life, it’s just been shitty. What makes me feel even more down is the fact that I have no dreams or aspirations. Nor am I skilled in anything. And to top it off I’ve come to realize my feelings for someone that I think I love. What’s sad is they had feelings for me in the past that went ignored by me. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. When I envision a happy future, I think of me working a career where I’m living a comfortable life, married with her. But …

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Brain in a Blender

April 9th, 2018by J Doe

It’s all goopey. All slimey and chunky and has a rubbery texture. It’s on pulse so the paste isn’t consistent. My brain is in a blender. I’m bad at medication. I’m bad at alot of things. I just want to cry. My brain is in a blender. All slimey and yellow. My dssdf fingers are heavy on rt the key board. I can’t stand up straight. I’m tired. So tired. What does it even matteskr. sssjjj I’ts all juust a joke. A big ugly jokse. rrrrrrrrr SOme one just …

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Alive But Not Living

April 9th, 2018by IrrationalLion

I’m so over life. My life has been a living hell since 2017 started but really since 2016. Every year it gets worse than the last. I have no friends. I have a lover who probably doesn’t love me back and if he does he surely doesn’t show it. As far as family goes I really have my mom, dad, and sister. I’ll never be close to my mom or dad to the point where i’d say they know me. They think they do though of course but no. My sister lives the life I’ve always wanted. I spend my days filling it in. School. …

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Flashing lights

April 9th, 2018by Jules


!!seizure warning!!
Has anyone had electroshock therapy? This is pretty much how I feel about it, but in song form.

Credit: The Mind Electric by Miracle Musical

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April 9th, 2018by Hulk

Fuck you Mother, grandmother and the rest.

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It hurts

April 9th, 2018by YukiBlueBells

It’s so hard to pretend that everything is OK that I am happy. When in reality it is just the opposite I struggle to keep smiling to keep being happy.

I thought I should have got used to it yet it seems I am slowly falling deeper into the darkness while everyone else sees the smile from an empty shell but that is enough it seems.

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Getting it off my chest

April 9th, 2018by Brother Blue

Hey everyone.

I just want to start off by saying how glad I am this website exists. I’ve only been here for a couple of days, but reading through the comments some of you have left on other people’s posts, you all seem pretty decent.

Which is why I am posting this here. Because I hate bottling this up, and you all know what it’s like. So…

I’ve always had suicidal thoughts floating around in my head going way back to when I was about 16.They were never more than idle ideas, never more than me just wondering about it. I was never seriously depressed or anything. These …

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The issue of timing…

April 9th, 2018by ladolcemorte

Well, made it through a family member’s birthday.  I told myself I would not off myself on a family member’s birthday because well, it’s pretty rude to interrupt the celebrations and even ruder to force the person to associate their birthday with your death.   (Am I the only one focused on timing in this regard?)

I’m preparing myself mentally and emotionally, and getting practical issues in order.

I’m fixated on the timing.  how much space do I need to leave between the family member’s birthday and my death day?  I guess there are no formal etiquette rules on this…something Emily Post just failed to turn her …

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STOP

April 9th, 2018by J Doe

STOP THINKING. STOP BREATHING. STOP MOVING. If you keep going bad things will happen. DON’T BLINK. DON’T LISTEN. SHUT YOUR EYES. BUT DON’T BLINK. It all has that silky gloss over it. So pretty and tempting. But it’s a lie. All a filthy, nasty lie. The only soft warm thing is solitude. It has this sort of shiny quality where everyone has these big smiles on. Except it’s not for people like me. Not really. They seemed genuinely sad when they heard I was quitting. It’s strange because I …

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