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My Suicide Note
At 6 AM in an all black outfit I ate ” Coffee lovers Only Ice cream @ Coldstone
At 7 AM in an all grey outfit I saw Jack the only person who would know my fate
Fast track:
5 PM I am at the tallest Building watching and internalizing the fact that I am not going to a better place but running away from this hell of a state.
I can’t say that throughout the day i was petrified, disturbed or unsettled
BUT I can say that I was at peace. At my utmost tranquilized state
I WAS FREE.
UNTIL
I will let the blade gash through […]
The future isn’t some far off thing . Its right fucking now! And I could be waiting for things to get better and hoping for a better future for days, years, or months. Its a bunch of bullshit and everyone dies it doesn’t matter when you die as long as you do. There is nothing wrong with wanting to be in control of your death but also I get to die when I WANT to die. Because its MY life not my moms or my sisters or my grandparents or my friends life its MINE! and the only reason people want suicidal people to stay […]
Where to begin…
I feel like the mice my kittens liked to chase around. When the mouse knew he was cornered and couldn’t get out, he would panic and run full speed into a wall knocking himself out so he wouldn’t have to deal with his inevitable fate.
That’s how I feel. I feel like knocking myself out so i don’t have to be eaten up by the big bad world.
I guess you could say I got myself into this mess. Well, some of it. I let someone that I thought loved me take advantage of my situation and now I’m paying the price.
I would say that […]
i finally found the place for my next attemp i just need to experiment a bit and write a letter so i have everything in order hopefully its less than a month i am happy only regret i cant finish reading all things i wanted to read but i cant put it off
Dad, I’m sorry. I love you. Its weird writing in the past tense when Im not gone yet.
I was your project. I could never stick to anything. Please don’t blame yourself though. this was entirely my fault. My idea. It was what I wanted. I loved danciong with you when i was little
but I’m not little anymore
I know you stay awake some nights wondering why I cant have a passion for fitness, a passion for my own health like you do.
Mom please know that I felt loved. I love you and Dad so much. More than I can put into words. More than I can […]
I was doing so well. I was enjoying life more than I could have imagined for the last few months. I have great career prospects, excellent friends and a marvellous family but there’s that one thing missing, that one thing which will always be missing.
I need advice on what to say in a note related to my suicide but it’s not my suicide note.
written by wishingforatimemachine
I have no idea what state my body will be in when I finally do this. I don’t want to traumatize my mother with the sight of me like this. So I need to post a note for her outside my bedroom letting her know that she needs to not come into my bedroom, that I’ve died, and she needs to call the police to handle it. And I guess that’s where some angels on the internet come in to tell me if I sound like I’m being cold or if it’s going to make her want to come in the room more and so on.
This is […]
Damn, when you marry someone, you vow to love, honor and respect them, to never hurt them. To stand beside them through think and thin, no matter what. Your spouse is your forever person, the one you make all your memories with, the one that stands by your side faithfully, the one that holds you up when you’re down so you never hit rock bottom, that’s the person that is supposed to protect you from everything, even yourself. That’s the person you’re most safe with, they’re not supposed to be capable of seeing you pained by their hand…
I showed him what […]
She didn’t want to do it anymore. People say that are there for her but when she needs them, they all call her crazy. She isn’t needy. There are times that she just needs a constant. Someone or something that won’t leave. That won’t lie. That won’t hurt. She is depressed. She didn’t want to live. If she died, she would leave her family with all of the bills. Maybe that’s why she hasn’t done it yet. She smokes hoping cancer will get to her and it might be terminal. She drinks to hope for lung or kidney failure. She takes ‘medicine’ trying to make […]
Dear mother,
I know you tried just to hide your secret hatred for me,
But I guess you shouldn’t have bothered ’cause you knew that I was gonna go anyway.
Dear father,
I’m sorry that I was never what you ever wanted,
But I guess you won’t even bother, ’cause at least I’ll never disappoint you again.
Hey there, long lost friend,
Do you finally want to see me again, now that I am long, long, gone?
Don’t you dare apologize for all those things that you didn’t do,
’cause every conflict that we had was for me to take the blame, and it’s always been my […]
Well i guess my story isn’t really easy to tell, without talking about my past. So if your willing to read a page to listen, i would be thankful.
If you want to skip my past then why i will be killing myself at the end of the year, Will be at the bottom of the page..
(Forgive my spelling and grammar.. I have no education )
Before i was born, i was not exactly planned. My mom was 17 and my dad was 21. Both my parents had really bad and horrible pasts. My mom was raped as a child by a lot of men, And no […]
A Suicide Note To Myself (AKA, More Bullshit That I’m Too Self-Centered To Keep To Myself)
written by AKidWithAName
DEAR FUCKING ME,
As of yesterday, I’ve officially come across the most miserable day of my year: the day of my entrance into this god-forsaken abyss! Who wouldn’t want to remember my birth, where I nearly died twice before I even got out of my fucking mom (who didn’t even want me, by the way). I really must’ve fallen short; birth is an easy time to die.
I could always blame it on the sadists the world calls doctors. They didn’t really want me to live either, I’m sure (who could fucking blame them?). Unfortunately, their job calls for them to try to keep even the most […]
just felt like posting to deal with my emotions sorry if its bad
by Moon gazer
written by Moon gazer
Chasing after the moon.
Under a cloudless sky.
The stars suppressing my sense of self.
Forgetting my demons.
Forgetting my scars.
Trying to grasp the moon.
Hoping to steal the secret to its peace.
Content to rise and fall.
To always shine just for itself.
My cries fall into oblivion.
My hands always failing to reach it.
Still chasing after it.
Awaking from my dream.
The moon still in the sky.
Still away from my reach…
by moon gazer
All my life I’ve tried to do the right thing and all my life I got pain and abuse.
Years back everything was destroyed by a hurricane and lost that I owned and my health started to fail.
In 2014 my father died due to med mal. I’m on disability having gotten a severe debilitating condition. I’m in massive chronic pain. Greedy relatives tried to the little money my father had.
I have no one to help me.
In 2015 I got abused by 2 medical facilities and imprisoned in one due to a false statement someone made. I witnessed an African-American beaten by hospital security severely in the […]
my name isn’t very important, i been dealing with depression since I was 18 that’s when it all started. When I turn 21 got married the a year later she left me for my cousin, then I found out that I had gout, then arthritis, high blood pressure and finally kidney failure, I’m tired of my life. I can’t never be happy. When I talk to a girl and tell her that I’m on dialisis they stop talking to me. I been contemplating suicide for a few day now, I been thinking how to kill myself, if I should take oxycodone, methadone, trazodone or all […]
I’m finally at peace. Please don’t be mad. I know you will miss me, but take comfort in the fact that I don’t have to be miserable anymore.
I know “things will get better”. But things always go back to being unbearable. Even when I was doing good I always had the fear of it going bad. The worst always comes when things were going good and the rest is just difficult. 80% bad versus 20% good is just not worth it.
I didn’t do this out of distress or even depression. I finally feel calm and at peace. I’ve never had that fight for life feeling. […]
My humanity is rehearsed; I am merely a set of learned & adaptive responses.
by NoOneIsHere
written by NoOneIsHere
As a teenager and through my early twenties, I used to think that me being alone was because the world was full of **** and that I was being graded on how well I conformed. But over the years I’ve begun to see that I’ve failed everyone in my life. I don’t know how to be a real person. I cannot give people what they need. I know the words but I don’t know how to speak the language. And I can no longer delude myself into believing the world is at fault while pretending that I’m not an empty shell of a human being. […]
After rebuilding my life to a point of “ok”, I met someone.
2 years we’ve been together now and I just give give give and she sucks the happiness from me.
2 years it took her for to tell me everything was a lie.
5ft 9″ drop length, 10000N force, 16mm triple braided rope.
Thank you for being a place to vent in times of need; hope you all find what you’re looking for.
Bye.