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Frustrated

by Jaeline 12/8/2019

written by Jaeline

I constantly feel sad but with antidepressants somehow I manage to seem happy, but I feel sensible, I feel attacked and my parents sometimes tell me things that make me cry, and their solution to that is giving me pills and if I don’t calm down they say that I’m like that because I don’t control myself and that I’m just throwing tantrums, and then they just ignore me.

Sometimes I cut myself or hurt me, I really try to hide my lesions but sometimes they see them, and they get angry at me and say that I’m selfish that I hurt myself and that I […]

12/8/2019 1 comment

Everyone’s stressed

by clinicallydepressed 12/5/2019

written by clinicallydepressed

Ok this is my first post on this website, and it’s pretty much going to be a little bit of a rant. Nobody I know understands me, and hopefully someone online will…
Two days ago, I attempted suicide. I won’t go into detail, since I know that’s not allowed on this website. I’m a senior in high school, and two years ago my parents found out I was self-harming. I’ve been safe since then, but this year, my depression returned, worse than ever. I am well aware that I am luckier than most — I live in a two-parent, middle-class household, get straight As, etc […]

12/5/2019 4 comments

Feeling

by tentoone 12/1/2019

written by tentoone

That pain you’re feeling is real and valid. It doesn’t mean you’re weak. No one has to earn any sort of “right” to feel how they feel. And, no one has the right to tell you what you feel is wrong, or that you should hide your tears. Every day, is a fight to live. It takes a great deal of strength to feel. I won’t be shamed into behaving as if everything is okay, as if I am not breaking.

12/1/2019 1 comment

On asking for help

by tentoone 12/1/2019

written by tentoone

What kind of person criticizes you for finding it difficult to ask for help, emotes anger and frustration with you for not coming to them, then rejects you when you finally work up the courage to ask?

And, if you have the nerve to remind them they said you should ask, are offended that you would bring up something like that and throw it in their face to make them feel bad.

What kind of person accuses you of expressing genuine pain as a means of hurting them, instead of asking you what’s wrong?

People don’t ask for help for the same reason they don’t seek love and […]

12/1/2019 2 comments

In the dirt

by Tryin 2 liv 11/26/2019

written by Tryin 2 liv

Hi everyone.

First of all, congrats to all who keep and write in this website. It’s so helpful for so many people. Just a great idea.

Second time I write here. I just can’t take this anymore. My wallet doesn’t take anymore. My schedule doesn’t take anymore. My strength just run out. And people around and at work just keep pushing and humiliating me. All this effort brought me insomnia and insufferable headache, what the fuck can I do?

I may take a leave and get fired. Then I would immediately go to the streets.

I may continue like this. But my health is just at its limit.

I am […]

11/26/2019 4 comments

I can’t think

by Unsheard 11/18/2019

written by Unsheard

I don’t like to talk a lot. In school or out. I have 3 friends because I pushed everyone away and now I don’t know how to talk to people. My parents are so focused on me not smoking that they turned the house into hell. I feel like i’m constantly under attack. When I walk home I get scared to talk to my family. I can’t tell if i’m happy or sad or scared or angry but I know i’m breaking someway. I so bored with my life that I want to kill myself just to have something to do. I can’t focus […]

11/18/2019 1 comment

I like Blood

by Unsheard 11/17/2019

written by Unsheard

I like the feeling of it running across my skin.
I like the deep rich color.
I like the scars that it leaves behind, the look, the feel.
I like the stains it leaves.
I like the pain it brings.
I like everything about it.
But I hate myself because of everything I do to see it

11/17/2019 6 comments

A faulty compass still works

by Yoges 11/17/2019

written by Yoges

Rifling my garbage of memories, kind of auditing my choices and mistakes I’ve made, I realized how many speedbumps, potholes, ditches and wrong turns there had been en route to Shitlifetown, where I’ve taken up lodging. Why did I keep going like that?

I just couldn’t apply the brakes and stop for any course correction. I had no map for my life in front of me either. Okay that’s a dishonest excuse, I guess. Nobody got it except freakin’ Nostradamus. But still so many people make it to Disneyland in season.

Fact is, they made use of their compass and I pawned it off upon hard times. […]

11/17/2019 3 comments

I wish I could just disappear

by Peraspera 11/17/2019

written by Peraspera

Things are going kind of fine but something seems off, maybe it’s myself, maybe it’s the people around me, whatever it is, it’s draining my soul and my will to live I just don’t even know how I’m continuing to live, I just want to go away and make things better but I can’t.

11/17/2019 2 comments

Letter in a bottle.

by Silversilvers 11/16/2019

written by Silversilvers

Can I ask you a question? What the fuck?

You started this whole dramatic chain of events that completely threw my entire world out of balance. Of course like the Piscean that I am, I sat here and mentally dissected the entirety of what happened and I’m even more confused.

You claimed that I was the most amazing person that you know. “I have always been in love with you” and “you’re perfect” were just some amongst the gallons of word vomit regurgitated at me on a daily basis.

Everyone likes compliments. Maybe I kept you around to hear them. I don’t know. But anyways.

My reasons for not […]

11/16/2019 0 comment

Only Human

by JudgeMeNot 11/14/2019

written by JudgeMeNot

I lost my youth.
I’m older now, while time eats away my energy soon it will consume my fate.
Life doesn’t teach anything. Only death speaks truth. Brings emotion that’s beyond life itself. I envy the dead. There is no righteousness or reason to abide by morals in this common Society.

Dont do this/dont say that, right and wrong, good and bad.
Let’s not censor the barbaric nature of humanity for it is, who we are. Always have always will. The only way to get you’re point across is to be violent.
Yet words can be just as dangerous, sadly it cant defend you […]

11/14/2019 1 comment

Hello square one. Long time no see.

by Silversilvers 11/13/2019

written by Silversilvers

My heart was broken again today. I can’t believe I’m back to this shit again. Why do people play sick love games and lie to each other. We all complain about being so lonely all the time and try to find these connections and acceptance, but we don’t. Why the fuck is that? Our world has never been full of so many people; Technology has made it so simple to communicate across the fucking globe if we so wished. Yet still, we can’t find not one person that accepts us? Why not!?

We are too busy judging one another and setting these ridiculously high standards; hating […]

11/13/2019 2 comments

Whats the worst?

by Unsheard 11/13/2019

written by Unsheard

If I went back to who I was, what is the worst that could happen. The old me was so happy just living. Yet for some reason i’m scared of being normal again. It’s been years since I was happy just being alive and going through the motions of life. Then it took one girl to unravel my life, that’s bullshit and I know it. Still there’s something holding me back…

11/13/2019 1 comment

What You Put Here

by DogCat 11/12/2019

written by DogCat

I’m just bored. You know?

I knows it sounds stupid, “I want to kill myself because I am bored.”

I also know it is always more to it than that. I have a 4 year degree in psychology.

I want to get my masters, but I have to pay off the state from my previous failed attempt at a Master’s before they will release my transcript and allow me to try again. One of thousands of dollars I owe people.

That’s the thing. I fail at everything. Well, not really. I don’t fail…I quit. I am a quitter.

I just can’t do things. I can’t stick with things. Either chronic […]

11/12/2019 4 comments

Being Well Adjusted

by arachnophilia 11/11/2019

written by arachnophilia

The thing is, my whole family’s depressed, and has always been depressed, for as long as I can remember. It’s just that I can force myself to function more or less to the standards of the outside world, where they don’t. I can drag myself to work, I can take a shower if it’s a weekday (and I have to go to work). I can slap on a smile and strike up a conversation. Sure, I can’t do anything else–can’t buy food for myself, eat, cut my hair, clean, read, pursue a hobby, buy a phone, or do anything other than shut down and become […]

11/11/2019 0 comment

19:49

by plasticflower 11/4/2019

written by plasticflower

to say i’m stressed would be an understatement.
these days have been so hectic, i feel like i can’t keep up with everything, but everyone is constantly telling me to keep up, to cheer up, to calm down, to just stop feeling stressed. mental health has been a mess lately, and today is just not working for me. sometimes i wish i caught a cold so i could rest in bed, but then i remember that even if i’m too ill to get out of bed, i’ll still have to do everything.
the problem isn’t having stuff to do, the problem is having to do […]

11/4/2019 1 comment

I can’t out of my head

by Unsheard 11/2/2019

written by Unsheard

I’m so in my head lately. I eat pretty much once a day but not cause i’m trying not to i’m just never hungry anymore. I don’t do anything all day unless I have school but other than that i’m alone in my room all day. I can’t seem to get out of my head. I’m scared of what people think about me constantly and I wish I just didn’t care. I don’t want to die but I just am so bored with my life and I don’t know what to do. Even when I do go out of the house I only have 3 […]

11/2/2019 1 comment

Shouganai, Que Sera Sera, C’est La Vie.

by LiquidHuman 10/26/2019

written by LiquidHuman

I feel alone. But the kind of alone that a small fish in a large ocean feels. There’s so much around me. So much to see that I could never view it all in one lifetime. And let me just say that I’m perfectly fine with that. I think life has beat the curiosity out of me. I’ve learned curiosity often kills the cat, and some things are best left unsolved. I like life that way. Unsolvable. I don’t really question why everything is here anymore. I don’t question why we travel around the sun, or why out of all the balls of rock and […]

10/26/2019 2 comments

Things get worse

by deaths.muse 10/25/2019

written by deaths.muse

Living really takes it out of me. Just breathing, surviving another day. It requires so much effort.

Being alive is honestly the last thing that I want. I absolutely hate myself. I hate this world too. I can’t look at myself in the mirror, and I don’t want to leave the house. I don’t have any talents and I am not attending school at the moment because I don’t have the energy (to deal with people’s shit and I don’t see the point in doing work because I am unable to take that work further due to my lack of skill and talent). I practise the […]

10/25/2019 1 comment

No hope

by 3nd... 10/24/2019

written by 3nd...

How do you keep living when you have no hope of getting better, I don’t even know if I want to get better anymore. I hate this world that humans have created, I find it impossible to exist without feeling guilty for being part of the problem, but if I kill myself I’ll feel guilty for hurting loved ones. I’ve had major depression for just over a third of my life there doesn’t seem to be any treatment that works, so how do you carry on?

10/24/2019 18 comments

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