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Legalities

June 14th, 2017by nokshus

As if it wasn’t already a ***** enough. Fuck sakes you deal with the trivialities daily. The unending grind and minutiae. The milieu of reckless absolvency. Fuck, you go from the boredom to the banality. It’s all stupid shit.

Introduce the legal system or any of the bullshit bureaucracy into the fuckshow that is life and it becomes a whole new ball game. Fuck the legalities and hoops it makes you jump through. For real. Fuck incarceration.

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Is this life?

June 14th, 2017by Grass

Sometimes I want so badly just to do something. To create. Instead of that, I do nothing. I sit here in my lonely hole, and try my hardest to empty my head and hands of everything that troubles my soul. My words don’t even come out right anymore. As the years pass, I grow more reclusive and distant from myself. It’s as if I’ve almost disappeared sometimes. Am I even real? Am I even alive? And what does living mean anyways?

I posted something here a couple years back, and its as if nothing has changed. I’m just as miserable. If anything is different, its that …

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not weak

June 14th, 2017by nonserviam

depressed people are not weak. they are the strongest people. they fight more than anyone else and fall more than anyone else but still decide to get up. depression is a very deep battle inside a human being and is not fixed by blaming them for being depressed. love them no matter what they are going through, embrace them when they are frustrated for no reason and don’t give up on them. just don’t.

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not asking for help again

June 13th, 2017by Milestiba

I put off asking for help for months because of a doctor’s treatment in Fall 2015. So a few weeks ago I asked for help instead of risk organ failure with another failed OD. And they put me in that same hospital and I was assigned to the same doctor. I really wished I had just OD’d. He’s arrogant, has a God-complex and even the staff called him an a**hole. I only began to comply because they forced me to appear before a judge. But I just spent the whole last week lying just to get discharged. Now I am home and no better off. …

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Second

June 12th, 2017by Demonqueen

He’s destroyed me.

I won’t survive in prison.

He’s got what he wanted all along.
I won’t be able to have kids.

He’s destroyed every inch of me.
I have nothing left.

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He made me feel like a fool again. This time our relationship paid the price

June 10th, 2017by GerbzBaby

I’m irritated to say I’m writing about this particular “friend” again.  I’m beyond angry with him. If you don’t know we and him have a history of “love” together. The last time I hung out with him he was kissing me on the cheek, cuddling with me, laying on my leg/ chest and jealously asking about my love life. Which to me seemed as thoughts still like me but boy was I fucking wrong.

 

Today I found out that he  lead me on and fucked me over for my sister. At first he refused to tell me, saying I would be mad at him forever. Damn …

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First

June 10th, 2017by Demonqueen

I just really want to die.

The last seven years have been a blur.

But 7 years… 18-25. Years I haven’t lived.
Heck, I wasn’t even living before then.

Don’t get into a relationship, you’ll lose everything.
Time, friends, sanity, freedom are just a few.

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Goodbye

June 6th, 2017by My life is over

I’m gonna do it from me to humanity hold on and don’t give up stay strong.

 

 

It will be rope this time

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quiet house

June 6th, 2017by vee

tonight when i arrived from work, i was welcomed by silence and lights out, which meant everyone was asleep. i was not surprised, considering i just got here and it’s 11:10 pm. even though i understand why they’re asleep, considering it’s a Tuesday night, i still know that deep down i wish they were waiting for me. but they don’t care that much, and i understand that. i’ve felt very anxious all day, and i don’t know why, considering last night i tried to get more sleep than usual. it’s weird. speaking of weird; today is the birthday of an old friend of mine. she …

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Misery

June 5th, 2017by Purpleunicorns

Misery loves company

I lack company. All my 16 years it seems I’ve ever only known misery. I spend my time faking my happiness and crying alone in my room. I’m tired of being lonely. I’m not even bold enough to end it. *sigh* I just wish I had someone around me who even slightly knew this pain.

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1:41am

June 3rd, 2017by vee

you know those days where you wake up and decide you will definitely enjoy that day? you decide you’re going to do anything you can to feel happy and do everything you always put off. you feel determined and excited. today was supposed to be one of those days. since yesterday wasn’t the day off i would’ve liked it to be, i decided to try my best and have an acceptable day today. it didn’t particularly work, and i’m not surprised.
numbness is a very strange feeling. at first, you don’t understand it; but after a while, you forget how you felt before. what it feels …

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25 Days Left

June 3rd, 2017by nova88hb

(I wrote this a few days ago, so now I’m down to 25 days)

“I have always heard that you should never make a decision based on a whim, and that if you are in doubt, sleep on it, before deciding.  Considering the magnitude of terminating my own life, I decided to sleep on it quite a bit- I’ll give it a whole month.

My reasoning for this decision is not actually all that important.  There has been a building pattern of unhappiness in my life, and one event was finally the proverbial straw that broke the camel’s back.  It was not the …

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Today…

June 3rd, 2017by GerbzBaby

I felt today didn’t start so good. I told my two friends I didn’t want to hang out because I was in a depressed mood (told them I didn’t feel well) and I had to clean. But they ended up showing up at my house anyways. I agreed to go but I told my sisters not to come even though my friends asked them to come (I get jealous and lonely when I, my sisters and my friends hang out together.. all they do is pay attention to them.. but that’s another story). The whole time I felt horrible. Horrible for not letting my sisters …

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I’m done

June 3rd, 2017by silent_songbird

Life has been such a huge freaking struggle and I feel like I’m done. The chronic pain I suffer from, my sick family, my failure as a person, I’m sick of it. I’m tired of living…but, I’m not positive I want to die.

I’m kind of convincing myself not to off myself by challenging the concept of suicide. You see right now, when I think about suicide I ask myself how my corpse will look, or how others will react as well as the bliss of nothingness. If I was going to really commit suicide, I’d have to stop caring about superficial aspects of my postmortem …

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I’m beginning to hate my “friend” again

June 1st, 2017by GerbzBaby

Okay  before I give you any details  in what’s happening now, let me start by saying me and this person have had beef together in the past. And.. we both liked each other.. not to sure we both like each other anymore. If you want to know about some of the past issues  I have had with him check a few posts from 2016.

Moving on…

So the other night on snapchat I saw him making very concerning posts. Stuff like “I wish I died before the ambulance arrived at my house,” “I already know I’m not wanted, don’t have to remind me,” so on an so …

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I Don’t Just Want To Be Tolerable, I Want To Be Likeable

May 31st, 2017by ShiSui

Sam’s Point

Myself included, I tolerate my existence I don’t like it at all. What’s the point then? Why tolerate it? And even worse if you know you can’t fix it, like I KNOW I can’t fix me, the fact while my peers live their life I’m trying to work at being mentallly ready for life falling further behind day by day, just to be a different me, can you be a different you? Really what’s the point of getting out of bed and looking at things just looking right through them instead of at …

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Will a life left unanswered

May 31st, 2017by Killstead

When I look back upon my life, I see the many pitfalls I otherwise naively walked into. All the potential and talent wasted because I had convinced myself it would be a worthless endeavor. I never believed I was intelligent even when I heard it said of me. I had thought, if I am so smart – then why does it all seem so dumb? Why were others so capable of being satisified in the struggle of accomplishing something? All I wanted was to be distracted. Distracted from what was wanted, needed, desired, and/or demanded of me. Not that I wanted to become lazy, or …

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so many

May 31st, 2017by babypanda

I don’t want to be suicidal. I don’t want to feel as though the only way to make things better for everyone is through my absence. But that’s always where I seem to end up.

Too many feelings all at once

I don’t know how to stop

Wish it would end

I don’t want to be here

It hurts to be alive

It hurts to hurt you

I’m tired of trying, of being, of

Why can’t I be normal??!?!??!!?!??!!?!??!?!?

What is my purpose

Why am I here

Jumbled thoughts running through my head

Just keep living

One more day

Make it to the next

I am calm

The storm has passed

More like locked away

But we don’t talk about that

I never talk …

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What Hurts The Most.

May 29th, 2017by kellinandrew

Many things can happen in life,

This I know.

But what do you do,

When the pain is to much to bare.

You hurt yourself,

And call It fair,

You tell yourself that it is your you fault,

That you should have cared.

Now it’s to late.

I didn’t think it would happen to me. At all. Why would it happen? That is what I don’t understand, he tries to help, and I know he cares. It hurt him too, but why? Why does it hurt? Why am I so upset? The baby, can I …

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Lost

May 28th, 2017by melancholychild

I feel like everything is working against me right now. I feel very tied down, and I want to run away. I have responsibilities, and I have a path planned for my future, and I have goals I need to achieve to reach that future. But they aren’t what I want to do. They don’t make me happy. They don’t bring me satisfaction. I like writing — a lot. I like writing stories about people who would literally be considered my alter ego. If I could sit and write all day, every day, for hours and hours on end, there is no doubt in my …

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