I love you. Sit here and just think of your future. Your future if you don’t do it.
I don’t know what you’re seeing right now, but I can tell you that your future is amazing. How do I know?
you are the one who decides what your future is.
you.
you can fight for any future you want, any future you need.
It’ll take work, I can’t lie about that. But I’m proud of you if you do work for it.
i’m proud of you
i love you
I think I have bipolar and only realised it this week, but am too scared to go the doctors to have this confirmed because I fear this may well push me over the edge.
Right now the suicide demons aren’t on top of me, but they aren’t too far off at the realisation of this new mental health condition sent to test me.
Am not sure that I can cope with this new awareness of sickness – or if I adopt a glass half full approach – “life challenge.”
It was my brother that asked me whether I thought I might have […]
This society is so brainwashed and ignorant. They tell men that expressing emotions is feminine. Another problem is telling men ”what a real man is”. Men are not robots. We are human beings that deserve to be loved.
I never had a good childhood. I forgot many of my memories a long time ago. I’ve been suicidal for a long time but I can easily hide it. No individual will expect me to do it. Honestly. I never wanted to die. I just don’t to want live a horrible life.
My mom died of cancer(when I was 10) so her friend adopted […]
https://youtu.be/BVt7mXJ8fJM?si=Kn-3V5ptqap7Tcpj
I told my therapist about this video one time. I haven’t gone to therapy in months, I feel a lot better. Today I thought about this video, and it appeared on my youtube feed. The title of this file in the game it’s from is “inconvenient body”. I used to think my body was inconvenient, but now I like my body. I am working to become stronger. My life has never been better than now. About a week ago I felt suicidal one time, but I went to confession and I felt a lot better. I am happy. The problems I had […]
So lets start from the beginning back to the pandemic. Honestly I consider the pandemic the best time of my life! Despite it being terrible for everyone else, it was truly the best. I had lots of friends I spoke to everyday, school was incredibly easy, and my parents were proud of me. Fast forward to the July 2021 and I realize I am fucking trans. It was the worst! I knew I was bisexual for most of my life (despite me constantly hating myself for it AMAB btw), but now I was trans? Fuck. So I came out the month later and mom didn’t […]
There is no meaning of life. We just exist, and die. And life goes on, and on, and on. For million, billion of years, etc etc etc.
We are just a speck of dust in the vast universe, in the grand scheme of things.
Of course, 90% (or 99%?) of people (human beings) will always try to find or give ‘meaning/purpose’ in their own insignificant lives, because the reason is simple: it’s survival instinct. Human beings (people) will (usually) try to keep living, keep surviving, no matter what. It’s evolutionary. It’s in human nature.
Even if it means people (humans) will create anything as their toxic positivity […]
The thing is eventhough we are not together . I cant some times get over our memories together . I feel like i loved too much . The bond I thought forever is shattered into pieces which cant be fixed back ……
I respect his decision . I think he left for a reason . Let him be whatever he wants to be …..
We cant like hold on to the people …. And i didnt do that or fight back because we must not be in place which is not ours …. I AM A AVERAGE , BROWN GIRL ……… IF THIS WAS THE END WHY […]
Dear younger me,
I know you’re hurting, I remember how it felt to live in the chaos that was our mind. You’ve been through way more than a kid ever should, and you’re scared. The people you call your parents let you down, time and time again. I know it breaks your heart to not feel loved by them. I know it hurts when those kids at school call you names, ignore you or hurt you. I’ll be honest, it still haunts me sometimes.
I feel so sorry for what happened to you when you were 12. He broke your trust and left a mark on you […]
I used to be very active here in summer and autumn of 2017, when I was 14, terribly depressed, suicidal and self harmed every day. All I remember of that summer is light, which makes no sense looking back, considering I was awake all night every night and would go to sleep just as the sun would come up. I would write about wanting to die, but not wanting to hurt my friends, my family, about wishing I could just disappear. About feeling completely alone and unloveable.
All of my old posts from that time are still public. Reading back through them now is an […]
When someone has a simple (singular) problem, usually and logically there will be a simple solution. For example, there’s something in a person’s nose, they’ll sense an itch or tickle and naturally sneeze.
If that doesn’t resolve, they might next try self-help such as over-the-counter medicine.
Eventually, if their remedies fail, they will seek a medical professional, and then the medical care will bring healthy closure. But let’s say it gets worse, first prescriptions fail, then chronic sinus infections, etc. Usually, a doctor’s last resort is surgery—because of the inherent risks and not guaranteed final results. If all fails, then ultimately the health problem will lead to […]
my life has been going rather fine! we moved into a new house and i’ve been helping out a lot with home improvement stuff and cleaning out our yard and planting stuff! i got a garden growing and some flowering blooming.. we have so many plans for this house.. it’s overwhelming, but in a fun way. me and my brother seem to stay out of eachother’s way, but he’s still an asshole time to time, but that’s it.
but another thing always comes again to ruin it.
about two years ago, i went through a breakup over call when i was venting to my […]
I am a 22-year-old male. I grew up in an abusive house and was never shown what love really was. I did everything I could to stay away from home but was always pulled back by the threats. My dad said he would hurt my mom, my mom said she would hurt herself. Everything was put on me. I had to hold my entire family together while I was already falling apart. When I was eight years old I went walking down the street to my friend’s house (just a few houses down, not like my parents cared anyway) and the cop that lived across […]
What’s up gang, it’s burgerpatty.
I’ve been writing entrance exams for college recently and have been tanking them, I mean absolute abysmal marks.
I was a straight A student and now I barely pass, I screwed up my exams so bad people couldn’t believe the marks I was getting. But I’ve never felt this alive a light, I stopped cheating, these are the marks I deserve, it feels like some sort of atonement for all the things I did for marks.
I’m not giving up on myself, each day I wake up with motivation and am the happiest I have ever been.
As for college, […]
Let it go. Go ahead. You don’t deserve what’s happening to you but that doesn’t mean you should stop being nice. You can find joy in spreading it to others, and while some may find it fun to bring you down, it slowly destroys their soul. I don’t have anyone to tell my feelings to. Talk with your consciousness. It’s okay, Trust this struggle is part of the process. And trust that as long as you don’t give up and keep pushing forward, no matter how hopeless things seem… you will make it.
Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that […]
trying to maintain my mental health thru someone
someone that love me and know my story
weve been together since 2010
from a friend to best friend to love
from cheerful to depressed version
started to
loving myself
grooming myself
looking into the bright side
trying to be better
but i
afraid to be in relationship
relationship is a frail thing
break like a glass
cant be forever
and what makes me scared the most
what if i dont love him back
what if he develop depression too
what if i fail you?
just like today
when my parents trying to take the mental health stability i earned and […]
I thought telling myself im getting better
Telling you im getting better
Will actually make me feel better
But its not
Its just makes me feel lonelier more than before
Trapped in my box of lie coating with happiness
Im so sorry i choose to left this way
But even if i ask and scream for help
You wont help me
You wont be here
Only my smile and cheerful side makes you happy
Makes you closer
Guess everyone loves the sunshine
But forget about the rain in the same sky
Hello 🙂
Im not here to vent but instead share my story in the hope that i might be able to help you if you need it.
During the past three years i’ve been incredibly depressed and suicidal. I used drugs in an attempt to numb the pain but instead i came out of my addiction with more trauma than before. I went to extreme lengths to numb myself to avoid truly feeling the overwhelming feelings that i knew might swallow me.
However despite all that i’m still here today and doing better than ever.
Thats not to say i’m happy, i still crave drugs but i’m 10 […]
Hey hello you there.. if you see this post may you keep reading.. i really need your help.. SO
There will be a wedding party around 2 weeks from now. The groom is one my best friend and the bride is a fake friend/ a witch/idk what i should called her. As you guys know im battling my depression for 2-3 years and i just getting better this month, struggling by myself without medical, parents, or friends help.
Now i am fatter like 10kg more than before. Ive been locking myself all these years and doesnt want to meet my friends. One of the reason why […]
Life……it’s a complicated thing for many people. Some of it is brought on by ourselves, though some of it is thrown upon us outside of our control. Both good things and bad things work that way. Sometimes you have to take a step back to see the full picture to not get lost in the details, and sometimes you have to take a closer look at things to find your way through the forest. Balance won’t always be the same. The scales can shift. The weights can slide and you have to be ready for when they do. Not everything in the future is foreseeable […]
Gratitude is overrated, like many other optimistic/positive-thinking advices. Not everybody can do that. It’s unrealistic, and honestly full of BS (bullshit)
Gratitude has become today’s current hype which everyone seems to be doing, and even keep posting about it constantly on social media. Everywhere you see people always talk about gratitude (& with all other optimistic/positive stuff usually).
It becomes irritating however when gratitude is forced and shoved down our throats, as if everyone should (or must) do that. In reality, you can’t just force other people to keep showing gratitude constantly. Things happened, shits happened; problems, pain, & sufferings happen to some people, which is ridiculous […]
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