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Stories of Hope

Gratitude is overrated

by niki 11/23/2022

written by niki

Gratitude is overrated, like many other optimistic/positive-thinking advices. Not everybody can do that. It’s unrealistic, and honestly full of BS (bullshit)

Gratitude has become today’s current hype which everyone seems to be doing, and even keep posting about it constantly on social media. Everywhere you see people always talk about gratitude (& with all other optimistic/positive stuff usually).

It becomes irritating however when gratitude is forced and shoved down our throats, as if everyone should (or must) do that. In reality, you can’t just force other people to keep showing gratitude constantly. Things happened, shits happened; problems, pain, & sufferings happen to some people, which is ridiculous […]

11/23/2022 0 comment

I need advice

by i_need_advice 11/7/2022

written by i_need_advice

11/7/2022 2 comments

Hope…ful/less?

by Jaeline 10/23/2022

written by Jaeline

Even when the world is cold, I still want to find the heart not to be. -LIT (jjolee)

It’s been a while since I’ve written here, and every time I remember this place I come and reread posts that I only have as drafts, I remember how passionate I wrote them with pain and crying while at it.

Tho this time is different, and still think life is worthless and I want to die, I now don’t actively look for death, I dunno if it’s because I’ve come to terms that I’m not brave enough to commit suicide or because I’ve […]

10/23/2022 1 comment

Connect.

by Thanatos.Nykthos 10/14/2022

written by Thanatos.Nykthos

Healing.

That’s the word we keep using.

Healing the inner child. Healing the past, Healing and moving forward. Moving with each other.

Special.

What we have is clearly special.

It’s not like we love each other, but we care. We keep using that word, too. Care. I care for her. She cares for me.

…

Pact.

We made a pact together.

We would be alone with each other if it helped and also avoid self-isolation.

Her mind. Font. Her Font. She is so similar to me. She calls it OCD and Anxiety.

I am afraid to speak before her.

but my words

become easier as they leave me

when I speak with her –

i feel heard. After all. Somehow. […]

10/14/2022 2 comments

Please read this.

by Im begging you not to give up hope 9/30/2022

written by Im begging you not to give up hope

Hello there, friends. I just ran across this website tonight. At first I was shocked because it seemed to be promoting suicide, but then I read the rules and realized that wasn’t the case. However, I didn’t worry any less about the people on this site. I don’t know any of you but I’m guessing I know the feelings you’re feeling. Please take a look at what I have to say.

Disclaimers

I’m going to make a few disclaimers before I start. First of all, if I accidentally say something that offends you, I apologize and recognize that your viewpoint exists. However, I don’t apologize for speaking […]

9/30/2022 12 comments

this one album..

by Furby 9/1/2022

written by Furby

lonely, i’ve been. no matter how much i say that, it still doesn’t change. i’m stuck in this pit.

my own little world has been harder and harder to focus on, a place where i’m not that lonely.. but this one album(s) makes me carry on. it’s called The Metal Opera by Tobias Sammet’s Avantasia.

i found it simply on a whim, i started with one song called The Seven Angels.. and ever since i’ve been hooked.

I bought the gold edition CD, and reading though the whole lore makes me feel more connected to the characters, the world. i love everything about this album and i can’t […]

9/1/2022 0 comment

more nervousness

by Furby 8/24/2022

written by Furby

nothing bad has happened, not yet.

as this day reaches its end, i get this very very sickly feeling in my stomach. butterflies! so many.. i can feel myself almost puking out of anxiety.

but not because anything bad is gonna happen tomorrow (i hope). i’m going to a club in my school, and hopefully meet some new friends. i know if i’m that anxious, i probably shouldn’t go, but i still want friends. i won’t let some butterflies stop me.

8/24/2022 3 comments

Taking the pain away

by Thanatos.Nykthos 8/20/2022

written by Thanatos.Nykthos

I am afraid of harm.
I have grown wise about harm.
But I just found that when I perform it, the crippling pain leaves in a way and for a time while my wound remains.
I am scared of myself now.

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8/20/2022 17 comments

Self Reflection or Lurking About, Lost in Thought

by trulymindless1 8/17/2022

written by trulymindless1

So I’m back home for the first time in 5 years. It’s so odd to think about where I was since I’d been gone. I’m actually having a good time back. I was in probably my absolute worst state of mind when I was here last time, and now, that seems so far away. I’m a different person now, and yet, some things never change…

I just needed to reflect. I’ve been lurking around this site for a long while at this point. I only hope that people here find closure, their resolution so to speak, however that may be. There are many good […]

8/17/2022 4 comments

Never Loved

by Thanatos.Nykthos 8/4/2022

written by Thanatos.Nykthos

Looking to golden lights, disoriented by gossamer affection

You never loved me- lie no more. Leave me or love me, I shan’t stand for your façade any longer. I see truth, I knew from the genesis of your sin, it held no virtues.
You called my light delusion, and you called my patience an unchecked ego. When I spoke clearly at last, your shell crumbled, you held no quarter to the lies before which you had brought forth against me. You say it “I love you not, I care nothing for you however you shall live.” And so it was laid plain.

8/4/2022 1 comment

One day you will see it

by butto_love14 7/30/2022

written by butto_love14

I am incredibly sorry if somebody made you feel as though it was difficult to love you . I am so incredibly sorry if you have ever felt this way. But i promise you…… the universe will send you someone so unexpectedly. Someone who will every day and forever remind you of how great you are. Someone who will reinforce your belief in love as well as in yourself. Someone who will see your flaws but will forever remind you that your imperfections ,are what make you so perfect. Just tightly hold onto this belief . In the meantime fall in love with yourself – […]

7/30/2022 5 comments

Mr.Gentlemen

by butto_love14 7/29/2022

written by butto_love14

He chooses present over perfect

Trusts over journey of change

Had a strong belief that things go with flow

He belives in simplicity and does best at his abilities

Loves deeply and think deeply about life

His purity makes him who he is!!!

For now he is an unseen world

Soon he is going to be rockstar with all love and success!!!

He knows to wait and believes that there is aways time for everything

7/29/2022 0 comment

MY WAY

by butto_love14 7/29/2022

written by butto_love14

I am who I am

I’ve been where I’ve been

I’ve done what I’ve done

And that’s what makes me

I’ve made my mistakes

I’ve got my regrets

But now I’m moving on

I’ve broken many hearts

I’ve had some break mine

It hurts like hell

But it just takes time to heal

I know I’ve done right

I know I’ve done wrong

Sometimes I’ve done nothing

And that’s just part of life

It’s my life and

It’s my time and

It’s my place and

I’m doing it my own way

7/29/2022 1 comment

Never found – ai art

by Thanatos.Nykthos 7/25/2022

written by Thanatos.Nykthos

The playlists abounded, the only things left besides the journals upon journals, notepads chock-full

7/25/2022 0 comment

“Greetings.”

by Thanatos.Nykthos 7/24/2022

written by Thanatos.Nykthos

https://creator.nightcafe.studio/creation/lgZAU77M5JbFZvkkBCuY

It is human to, at this point, put forth a greeting to the community i have just joined here. Hello. I want to die. I shall start with a recent tale of achievement in my life.
-I am very happy that recently, I secured my avenue of prospective death in a manner of which I shall not discuss, but which brings me great solace to find was appropriately covert and fruitful. I feel peace knowing I can hold the hand of death this way, and have been more productive for having this comfort.

This is all I shall share for now.
Wishing […]

7/24/2022 1 comment

I ‘made it’. Maybe you will too?

by kinziek 6/30/2022

written by kinziek

On a whim I decided to see if suicideproject was still around, and to see if I could log in. My posts were from 2015.

Wow, was I in a bad place. I remember the event in particular that prompted me to start cutting again, and to spiral into one of the lowest points of my life. Thank you to the commenters on those posts. Wherever you are now, I hope you found what you are looking for.

I wanted to write some kind of denouement here, because I am certainly glad I didn’t do it back then. I know reading some inspo stuff isn’t going to […]

6/30/2022 1 comment

the turn toward better

by heartlessviking 5/19/2022

written by heartlessviking

look, I’m a cynical hateful shell of a person who happens to be having a very difficult to ignore good week.

so if you are assuming that down the line I’ll return to my anti life anti organizations anti capitalist apathy, know that I am too.

I still hate the cheery; “Oh, nice things happen, therefor they will continue” which is usually a terrible lie.

Which is the amount of cautious framing I have to do because if I say things are going better without that, my distrustful wounded brain will rebel, because we’ve trusted people before, and that didn’t work out.

I’m working as an electrician, which I […]

5/19/2022 3 comments

I’m 40 years old this year, and I still don’t know what to do, and whether I should continue to live, or just die?

by niki 4/25/2022

written by niki

Long story short, my life is a complete failure. It’s full of wrong decisions, (in)actions, regrets, mistakes after mistakes, that I honestly think maybe it’s already too late to “fix everything” (eg: I’m losing all the good chances/opportunities, as I’m getting old now). It’s really ironic & tragic, because a lot of people always say that I’m very talented especially in music (I used to be quite an active musician & composer/songwriter, but sadly I’m still not famous & successful), smart, a deep thinker, a highly sensitive person, etc etc.

I am also an idealist, meaning that I actually have a BIG vision & idea for […]

4/25/2022 4 comments

JANE

by Itscolourlife 4/6/2022

written by Itscolourlife

4/6/2022 2 comments

The story of the Barren Fig Tree

by Total3gal 3/21/2022

written by Total3gal

Then he told this parable:

“A man had a fig tree planted in his vineyard; and he came looking for fruit on it and found none. So he said to the gardener,
‘See here! For three years I have come looking for fruit on this fig tree, and still I find none.

Cut it down! Why should it be wasting the soil?’

He replied, ‘Sir, let it alone for one more year, until I dig around it and put manure on it. If it bears fruit next year, well and good; but if not, you can cut it […]

3/21/2022 5 comments

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