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Stories of Loss

For those who have passed on.

AI in the future ; Life is boring ; Life sucks

by niki 5/27/2019

written by niki

Title: AI in the future / A.I in the future / Artificial Intelligence in the future ; VR in the future / V.R in the future / Virtual Reality in the future ; Transhumanism in the future ; technology in the future ; Life is boring ; Life sucks ; escape from reality

The more detailed post:

AI is the future
A.I is the future
Artificial Intelligence is the future
because Life is boring / reality is boring / real life is boring / real world is boring

VR is the future
V.R is the future
Virtual Reality is the future
because Life is boring […]

5/27/2019 3 comments

The Perks of Being a Wallflower

by SkyButBlue 5/21/2019

written by SkyButBlue

I wanna see it happening. To see that I’m not just a sad story. That it’s real. I want to feel alive. I want to feel that there’s something for me out there. Something that will make me keep on going, keep on moving forward. Like Charlie did. I want to have someone to love and to be loved back. I want to have someone that will like the real me. That can see me, see through my eyes without even asking what’s wrong with me. I want to feel that I can live. To live with much love and hope like Charlie did. Like […]

5/21/2019 2 comments

What Really Love Is?

by SkyButBlue 5/16/2019

written by SkyButBlue

Back in High School, there was this girl that i like, like A LOT or should i say I LOVE HER. She’s pretty good looking, athletic and the coolest girl that i know but she was out of my league, that’s the problem. I’m this skinny not good looking guy. Like I’m the complete definition of a NERD. But i didn’t care. I had to gather all this guts to prove to her that I can be the GUY for her. I want her to like me. I heard she had a boyfriend and then they broke up. I know it was a good opportunity […]

5/16/2019 14 comments

Hey i made it!

by SkyButBlue 5/13/2019

written by SkyButBlue

Another day. I made it. Everything’s as usual. Some things sucks but some are getting better. I’m just hoping that i would at some point would feel different than i was yesterday. Like a happy story in some books or movies. I’m trying to be like i’m not a sad story. I mean, there were moments that i felt that i succeeded but at the end of the day, all came back. When i lay down in bed, these thoughts and feelings haunt me. I didn’t know what to do. So here i am. Writing this and hoping that somewhere someone is feeling the same […]

5/13/2019 1 comment

My one last goodbye

by Insomnia disaster 5/12/2019

written by Insomnia disaster

She took a deep breath,
She counted to three,
A picture in her head,
Of who they wanted her to be.

They wanted her to be normal,
Happy and kind.
They never thought,
That this girl would be blind.

Not blind by meaning,
But blind in the heart.
Blinded by darkness,
Blinded by dark.

She walks around lifeless,
Her heart is beating but she feels dead.
A walking corpse.
She is lost inside her heart.

Things have no meaning,
At least not anymore.
She was not how she was once before.

She is one of the livings,
But one of the deads.
A part of her is missing.
She hangs […]

5/12/2019 4 comments

RIP Nihmasohm

by Klownisak 5/8/2019

written by Klownisak

Residential schools operated for 150+ years. Over 150,000 Indigenous children were taken against their will and thrown into schools, where christianity was forced upon them, and they suffered sexual, physical and emotional abuse. At least 6000 or more of those children died while in the system, buried in unmarked graves on school grounds. 67 percent of schools were run by the Roman Catholic Church, 20 percent by the Anglicans, 10 percent by the United Church, 3 percent by the Presbyterian Church. The last school closed in the year 1996.

5/8/2019 6 comments

Cutting again and again

by Ritacu Isn 4/30/2019

written by Ritacu Isn

Idk why I am posting. It’s not even really suicide related nor do I plan to.

i found this website out after trying to find tools to cut with more since I was getting bored with it (as sick as it sounds…) and found this website. Originally, I thought it was a dead website since the look of it looked like it was stuck in 2010 as well as the only post I saw dating to 2013. However, I saw the recent posts dating back to an hour. All my life I struggled with my identity, depression, anxiety as well as now my cutting addiction just […]

4/30/2019 4 comments

I am anyways

by Ava shade 4/10/2019

written by Ava shade

I am anyways letting you know…

Since age 10, I had depression, Now after 10 and more years I have realized it. Crying alone was the solution to all of my problems..
It’s true that I have tried to die 3 times. All in vain. I now live without any contact to the outside world. No friends. It didn’t hurt me so much before. But now it does I don’t know why. Who am I? I ask myself this question every day after opening my eyes from a long troubled not deep sleep. I cry every night in the darkness of the night when everyone is […]

4/10/2019 0 comment

im still here

by li 4/3/2019

written by li

i’m still here
i hate it
i fell in love
but she’ll never get it
i want to die in her arms
i hope she’ll understand it
maybe one more day
maybe
i gave her my heart
but she dont know it
its on her table
she’d never see it
ive been through enought
to know i wont have it
i guess it is time for me to sleep
for a long time coming

goodbye
i might be back

4/3/2019 0 comment

I don’t believe in friendship

by Walkingghoul1739 4/3/2019

written by Walkingghoul1739

This summer, two friends of mine seemed to become overly skeptical of me…. They seemed to always hint and nudge that they felt that I was a “*****”. I went from enjoying spending time with each of them to only seeing them grow more and more restless and uneasy around me and seeming to insult me at any given opportunity, and often for no reason at all.

One day I got sick of it and stopped talking to each of them. I went from hanging out with these 2 kids that I had been best friends with since pre school (we are now 23) almost every […]

4/3/2019 3 comments

It shouldn’t take tragedy to make change

by Artemis Lemieux 3/28/2019

written by Artemis Lemieux

I’ve been lurking on this blog for some time but felt compelled to post today for several reasons. I hope that writing it out will clear up some of my thoughts.

Two days ago, someone at school died. I hesitate to call it a suicide, as the information has not been published yet, but regardless of the fact it was a loss to our community. I was in class when I heard the announcement and can remember vaguely stumbling through the first two periods numb to the fact. I had not known him well, but we had interacted somewhat and I would play board games with […]

3/28/2019 4 comments

Slowly losing faith…

by Escaper Boy 3/25/2019

written by Escaper Boy

I feel like my time is “near”.

I was doing my best to continue. To advance one day, followed by another day. I was grateful if I could pass another day.

But, it seems like such luxury will vanish soon. Enduring a single day is enough to make me suffocate. I even have trouble breathing as I writing this. (Note, I never have asthma.)

Right now, I’m anxious if I have enough strength (or luck) to reach tomorrow. I don’t know what I’m trying to accomplish with this post.

For now, I am doing my best to breathe deeply. Hoping my anxiety and fear would pass.

3/25/2019 0 comment

The beginning

by awis 3/17/2019

written by awis

Hello everyone, I’m not a native speaker, so at first I would like to apologise for any mistakes I’ll possibly make in this post.

I don’t plan to leave any suicide notes, because I don’t have anything to say to most of the people and those to whom I do, wouldn’t want to listen. I’m writing this journal, because I don’t want people to freely shape my image after I die. Especially that they only see me as an idiot, or a monster, or a silly fool. Or a failure (that part is true though).

I found this website, while searching for the most suitable metods on […]

3/17/2019 6 comments

Running on low expectation

by wearehannahbaker 3/10/2019

written by wearehannahbaker

Three weeks into antidepressants and met someone amazing.

It was all sunshine for a moment there but then it poured.

He told me he was moving away, wasn’t looking for anything serious and that he enjoyed being single. Running on low expectation all over again. I had to push him away since I was already having feelings for him and yeap that’s insane because we’ve only been dating for like a month. I guess people like us get attached too easily to any slight sign of happiness and when it goes away it feels like our world comes crumbling down. I haven’t stopped crying, can’t get out […]

3/10/2019 1 comment

Stigma and Ignorance RIP

by SleeplessMind 3/9/2019

written by SleeplessMind

Tuesday morning I received news of my friend/former lover’s suicide.
His family posted a short “R.I.P. ______ , service Sat. At ________. Everyone welcome” via social media.
Nothing further was acknowledged. No written obituary. Just RIP, and done. Ridiculous, in my opinion.
Avoiding the stigma of having mental health problems seems to be a big concern for people around us suffering. Society doest point the finger at the sufferers if the family denies it’s there..

So, today I write a proper obit to a good man:

J*** H.
Though he was often a man of few words, he made the ones he said count.
His laugh […]

3/9/2019 9 comments

I’ve Lost Everything

by Justanotherfaintstar 3/7/2019

written by Justanotherfaintstar

Every time I have been faced with multiple options for decisions, I have picked the wrong one. Every. Single. Time.

Ten years ago I decided to go to a school that was more expensive than my family’s socio economic status because I thought the investment would pay off and I would get a good job. I had a great experience, but everything came to a screeching halt when I graduated, was hit with my first student loan debt bill and I found myself unable to find any sort of entry level job in my field.

I made the mistake of staying in my home state, which isn’t […]

3/7/2019 1 comment

Burden

by Hiccup 1/27/2019

written by Hiccup

I tried but I’m just not good enough for my friends. I’m sorry for ever bothering you guys. I’ll just leave you alone from now on.

1/27/2019 2 comments

I just wanted somebody to know

by soul4everlost 1/24/2019

written by soul4everlost

I really don’t know where to begin but my current situation is i am sick and have illnesses that have be going on for a long time also i suffer from depression, anxiety, stress and many more symptoms of mental illness i also don’t have the money, support and resources to get help or get better i can only wait to die by the illnesses slowly or kill myself and maybe end my suffering or be in a worse condition.To give you a short summary of my life i never had anything no love no support i was hated by many people just simply because […]

1/24/2019 1 comment

Euthanasia in Belgium and the Netherlands (and the debate surrounding it)

by Taf Taf 1/19/2019

written by Taf Taf

I must apologize in advance, because I’m going to put a lot of videos and articles in this post and it will probably occupy a lot of space on the starting page of this site (needless to say, feel free to write your opinions about euthanasia in the comment section).

https://theconversation.com/separating-fact-from-fiction-about-euthanasia-in-belgium-58203

Euthanasia in Belgium

https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3748787/Euthanasia-tourists-rush-Belgium-free-lethal-injections-staggering-2-023-medically-killed-year.html

https://newsmavens.com/news/aha-moments/2088/belgium-fears-euthanasia-tourism

https://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/2018/12/24/brussels-denies-eu-rules-encourage-euthanasia-tourism/

And a PDF about euthanasia in Belgium:

Euthanasia practice in Belgium

1/19/2019 10 comments