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Stories of Loss

For those who have passed on.

I’m tired.

by Confused93 4/9/2012

written by Confused93

I just joined this website and i made my first post a few hours ago, but it just seems that depression gets worse by the minute.

Being gay and catholic is not easy.

Being gay and really following any set religion is not easy.

I am losing my boyfriend and my closest friends because of my depression due solely to religion.

They worry about me all the time and tonight my boyfriend told me that he feels lonely.

When he said this, he cried and it broke me.

He is an amazing guy and he loves me so damn much.

I never knew love was like this.

He buys me things all the […]

4/9/2012 16 comments

Why God? Why?

by Confused93 4/8/2012

written by Confused93

I’ve never posted on this site, but this is relatively long. I’m just venting I guess.
If you care to read it all, thanks.

I’m quite tired of life.
I have been looking for a purpose to it, but have found nothing.

We live in a very fucked up world where everyone judges each other.
My best friend who was very very close to me took her life when she was just 14.
She was lesbian and no one understood what she was going through.

I am an 18 year old man and I too am gay.
I can’t stand being alive anymore.
I have a very accepting […]

4/8/2012 5 comments

Watching Myself Fall Apart

by anartistonthenet 4/8/2012

written by anartistonthenet

Shortly after you read this article (and I’m done writing it), you will not see a single reply from me on this website.

Unfortunately, I don’t think there’s any article of dissuasion or persuasion that will change or affect how I view this. It’s just over. Done.

I’m tired. I’ve been trying to put up a fight every day. It’s not even a commendable fight. I’m not fighting against soldiers, diseases, or gangs. I’m not cleaning my room. I’m not working even though everyone thinks I am.

I’m drinking. I’m smoking. I’m telling everybody I’m okay when I know I’m not. I don’t know if I -want- this […]

4/8/2012 3 comments

Tattoo Therapy

by irenehgood 4/8/2012

written by irenehgood

I started this project, Tattoo Therapy, a few weeks ago (need to get funding by the 28th.Â It’s the story of my 2008 OD and my “coming out” of being bipolar.

Last night, I found that a former high school friend killed himself recently.Â I can’t tell you how saddened I am, yet this affirmed how important my project it-Â we can’t lose another soul, we just can’t.

Please watch my short video, comment, pledge, give ideas…Â my heart is broken but I know that what I’m doing will help others.

Blessings,

-irene

http://www.kickstarter.com/projects/1579326023/on-being-bipolar-tattoo-therapy

4/8/2012 0 comment

I’m lost

by lostchild445 4/7/2012

written by lostchild445

I chose this to be my username for a reason. I’m out of options. Everyone says I’m not allowed to kill myself or self injure or smoke or drink or do drugs but at the same time they say I don’t need therapy. They say I’m not allowed to die but I can’t stand living another day. I’m living my life for other people, cuz I sure as hell don’t want to be here. If I’m living just so someone can see my face one more time, why bother? I’m dead on the inside. I might as well make the outside match. I’m tiered […]

4/7/2012 2 comments

My Life Story

by forever_lost 4/5/2012

written by forever_lost

i am 16 yrs old. my momÂ is 32 and my dad i dont know becaus e he walked out n my mom when sheÂ was pregnant. i live with my mom and step dad who are married and have been for 12 yrs. they have 5 kids together. my step dad raised me but i was never close to him. my father figure past away 2 yrs ago. i didnt know how to handle his death so i started cutting again. i started cutting when i was 8 and stopped when i was 14. my mom doesnt know that i cutÂ and no one in my […]

4/5/2012 2 comments

Death date possibly moving up.

by U.N. Owen 4/4/2012

written by U.N. Owen

Probably getting our hours cut at work down to part time in the next few months.Â And my other job is laying me off.

Which means even less money on top of the salary cut last year.

And they are adding considerably more work and duties.

Not complaining but this place is just jacking us left and right.

Even though we exceeded paramaters for a year without a manager and six months without a direct supervisor.

Was trying to hang on until January of next year for my birthday but seems like it will be sometime this summer.

Guess I can take someone’s advice on here and get a credit card […]

4/4/2012 15 comments

End of my rope

by lostchild445 4/3/2012

written by lostchild445

I really can’t take it anymore. I have scars everywhere. I can’t bend my arm or my wrist will split open. My girlfriend is gone, my therapist is on her side, my friends are on her side… I know that if the opportunity came for a quick death, I’d take it. I’m scared. If I found a gun or a lot of drugs or anything like that, I know that’d be it for me. My friends said everything is coming together, but it’s really falling apart. I can’t go back to the hospital, but if any of my counselors knows I’m suicidal again I’ll have […]

4/3/2012 3 comments

Bleeding out

by lostchild445 4/2/2012

written by lostchild445

i lost her. My girlfriend. She was all I had left. She promised she wouldn’t leave and now she’s gone. I’ve got nothing left to live for. Soon this gouge I took out of my wrist will make me slip away. I expect to pass out soon from the shock response, so to all of you here, I say goodbye

4/2/2012 2 comments

What is wrong with me?

by pseudowoodo 4/2/2012

written by pseudowoodo

I couldn’t sleep last night. I barely got 2 hours. I dreamt my father came to me just to tell me how much of a nuisance I am and how much trouble I’ve caused him. I woke up, just in time for class, but I couldn’t find the energy to get up. Once it was too late to go, I started crying. Â I’m going to screw up my whole life, or should I rather say, I’ve already screwed up my whole life. I’ve been going on like this for months now, and I can’t find the courage to tell anyone.

Ever since one of my best […]

4/2/2012 4 comments

Selfish. Living or Dying.

by U.N. Owen 3/30/2012

written by U.N. Owen

This is not a judgement on anyone’s life or lifestyle.Â

I have noticed how the pro-life people always say that suicide is a selfsh act because it will hurt people who are left behind. Or maybe it will leave certain responsibilities unfinished or undone.Â Â This is true to an extent.Â What they are saying is that others lives and comfort matter more than yours on all levels and you should bear suffering and responsibility for the sake of others in your life.Â Except for a little personal pleasure that you should seek out meaning by serving others.Â It is a vlaid viewpoint.

There are people all over […]

3/30/2012 19 comments

A Letter

by cbrown 3/30/2012

written by cbrown

It has almost been seven years since you were taken away from me. Every holiday, especially Mother’s Day, your birthday, and the anniversary are particularly hard for me. However, what is killing me is that I cannot remember how your voice sounded, how you smelled, whether your hands were soft or rough, how it felt to be hugged by you. With every passing day your memory gets fuzzier. And I am in so much pain because I have had to grow up without you surrounded by people who do not appreciate their own mothers. I hate how people make passing comments about “my mom” without […]

3/30/2012 3 comments

i just cant take it anymore

by bookworm1540 3/28/2012

written by bookworm1540

I just cant take it anymore.My dad was an alcoholic and died from it about a year and a half ago.Please don’t ask why but I cant see my mom until I am 18.My friends don’t know anything but if I told them they might laugh or even worse.Only 1 person knows and I begin to regret that.I consider suicide more and more often.Most nights I cry myself to sleep.But noone not even family knows what I am going :through because if I told them they would send me to a therapist and that wouldn’t help me.Sometimes I think was I put on this earth […]

3/28/2012 10 comments

The Unbreakable Bonds of true friendship

by Unique 3/27/2012

written by Unique

Today i live in a nice two storyÂ apartment, its safe and secure, its not on the ground floor, its quite. (I love the quite) I have aÂ full timeÂ job, good friends and i can say that i am honestly happy again. But my life was not always this way.

A few years ago i was living on the streets, i had no money, no was looking for me because they knew where i was, i was depressed and high and i had given up on life, and my then family and friends had all given up on me. (Its not their fault, i was being a totally […]

3/27/2012 2 comments

Do it already

by ycontrol 3/26/2012

written by ycontrol

Well, I’ve been sick all my life, asthma, allergies, skin diseases, mental issues, social issues. I was always a quiet kid and didn’t have many friends. My dad use to spoil me as a kid because I was youngest and always sick, I believe, until I started noticing that my sister wasn’t getting the fair attention, so I asked to stop. And he did. In school I was made fun of as a kid, then later I just became awkward to talk too. I was never considered one of the pretty girls. Boys only talked to be to get with my friends or my sister. […]

3/26/2012 0 comment

i pushed myself

by killme39 3/26/2012

written by killme39

i pushed myself to get out of bed today to go to work

just to find i dont know if i can put on that fake front

for anyone anymore. i’m scared to let anyone get close

to me again. im tired of being hurt and abandon by

people who say that they love me. i’m just so tired of

hurting inside and hiding it. i hope i can make it thru

today. i feel so sick and my hands are shaking so bad

i can barley type. i just want evething to go away.

3/26/2012 3 comments

i always fail

by killme39 3/25/2012

written by killme39

im a 39 year old man with no life, no wife and no future.

i just tried to hang myself and failed. why do i feel this way

all the time. did finding my mom in a field with a bottle of

pills do this to me. nobody cares anyway. is it because i

drink like my dad did. i miss mom and dad so much. now

that they are gone i feel so alone all the time. no one

knows how hard it was growing up with a suicidel mother

and a drunk father, but in the end i still loved them. i try to

drink to kill the pain, but always […]

3/25/2012 3 comments

Losing People

by farmerstrong13 3/22/2012

written by farmerstrong13

You know, it really stinks to watch people struggle and fight to live for almost a year, only to be told that they are too “weak” to handle any more surgeries and die. It’s hard to watch their family try to cope with such a traumatic loss while being supported by thousands of caring people. Every person you lose, it feels like you lose part of yourself.

Rest in peace, Sgt. Jarboe.
“If you ain’t Cav, you ain’t shit!”

3/22/2012 2 comments

I have no words

by reachingoutformom 3/22/2012

written by reachingoutformom

my mom hung herself from a bike hook in the garage this sept. I miss her. she was in so much pain. she had no hope she talked to me and I talked and read and and we fought and she battled and i searched and she persevered but she couldn’t hang-on any longer. for anyone that is reading this and thinking about suicide please know that you are not alone. please know I care. please know my mom was lost too. please know that while I can accept how you may feel about the world and even yourself- the […]

3/22/2012 2 comments

No.

by lostchild445 3/21/2012

written by lostchild445

Just no. I dont even know what to say now. My girlfriend left me. My parents didn’t get me anything fir my bday. No one called. Not one person. So just as I’m about to kill myself, my mom calls me. She bitches at me for 15 mins about failing a class this quarter. I pull the trigger, nothing happens. My dad demilled the gun. There’s no firing pin. So now I’m left sitting here with my wrist gushing blood from my self injury. I don’t even want to try anymore. I want to cut my neck open and die.

3/21/2012 5 comments

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