For those who have passed on.
I need ways to die within the next 45 mins please help!I know what im doing im not going to miss out on anything just please give me ways to die asap! Email me at darkerimagery@gmail.com
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Stories of Loss
Im 19, A few years after I was Born my parents divorced and my mom and I moved away from the big city to a smaller city not to far. The divorced didnt effect me much because I was so young but it showed in my mother and she began to drink a lot.
by the time I was in grade 3 I was very unhappy with life, There was rarely any food to eat in the house and I was in a very abusive relationship with my mother. I was regularly running away from home and staying with my grandmother who lived in the same […]
A close friend of mine did something similar to this on his page so I decided to try it too. The difference is I guess my suicidal thoughts and low self esteem started long before online friends or dating.
I grew up in a family of eight plus. We did foster care for two kids so there was sometimes an extra girl in the house. I was always biologically the oldest though. If you’ve grown up in a big family, then you probably understand where I’m coming from when I say it’s like survival of the fittest. And when the three oldest siblings are you […]
A lot has happened to me recently I joined a support group so that’s why I haven’t been posting as frequently and I saw the social worker at my school to get help that was an alright experience she called my mom and my mother didn’t really understand and told me I should just pray to God and also today I apologized to my friends whom I cut off only two of them replied and the reactions are fifty fifty one of them forgives me and the other is mad and even told me “why do you even bother apologizing?” the thing is if you […]
I’m a very emotional human being. I’ve gone through so much, like any other 16 year old.
Last summer my Boyfriends cousin passed away. Since then I’ve been depressed, even though he wasn’t family I still became one of his best friends. Ernie was ONLY 14 years old and died of Leukemia. He was so funny and nice. He even had a crush on me :3 He had so much to live for, and he wanted to be a doctor. I felt so bad for his family. He was the only boy and his mom and dad loved him. He was like a piece of glass, so fragile. I would […]
The day I met her, we both realized we could help each other. No one else could look past the point we are both girls though. Everyone laughed at us and called us names, but we smiled and helped each other through it. She cut, so do I, the difference.. she didn’t know when too much was too much, that’s probably why she’s gone. We held our heads high, put it started to get worse. I would be hit, and punched and kicked down, and so would she. I tried to help her I just, I wasn’t strong enough. Her cuts started getting worse, she wouldn’t even wear short sleeves […]
Iv suffered with depression my hole life, but if you knew my story maybe you would understand?
I have tried suicide 3 times in my life. first was wen i was 12 it was a O.D attempt. second i was 14 and it was the closet Ive came to death, it again was a o.d. and lastly i was 16 it again was a another overdose. i guess i just thought going to sleep was the most painless way to go. just falling asleep and dieing just sounded so peaceful to me.
sense the day i was born my parents were addicted to drugs. first it was […]
So Its another day. Again im still here amazing how i can try too pull my life together when its easily falling apart. Like people care. Im not eating.im cutting.Not takeing my meds.My papas drinking all the time i dont understand this anymore whats going on with him ?? i mean hes been acting strange we barely have food in are house because he spends all the damn money on beer.Me and me boyfriend broke up and now i feel lost like everything i had going for me turned out for the worst i mean i loved him. Where Still gonna be friends.. Im going […]
I was just going through my old pictures when I stumbled across my pictures from 2009 summer pictures. I didn’t think anything of it until I found the pictures of my friends. We spent basically the whole summer together. It made my chest hurt, just seeing my smile and all of my friends together. We haven’t really been like that since our friend Andrew killed himself.
We had our little “gang.” four girls, four guys. There was me, Kelsey, Anna, Shiney(real name), Max, Henry, Andrew, and Toby.
We were always happy and having fun. Then, when Andrew killed himself last June, it was like a piece was […]
I don’t know how to start this.. I pretty much decided to make this to be able to vent about everything. My life is eating me up day  by day now.. It started when my dad had died. Suicide got to him. It was last year, January 7th. I know, I know, dude that was a year ago why are you finally talking about it? How about this- I didn’t have as much depression until now. Not many people understand how fucked up you can get from a suicide, bullying, and no one caring.. Everyone thinking that you’re fine. When in reality, you’re not. My mum […]
I don’t know how to start this but i guess today has been a shitty day for me and it got me thinking of how shitty my life has become-_-
Let me start this by telling about how over the last few years i have been in love with this girl and 4 months ago we finally realized we were meant for each other and are happy together. Also to mention we are long distance. sounds great? Well it almost seems like when we started dating that my life turned to shit. None of this is because of her, she has been amazing and she is […]
im just broken and hurt and lost i feel like suicides the only answer ive been told over and over im worthless and i should kill myself already PLEASE HELP im only 15
let’s start from the beginning, since im new to this…..
i thought we had a happy family, me, my mom, my dad, and my brother. when i was about six i started to notice things weren’t as great with my family as i thought they were. I was eight years old, when my parents got in a really big fight. i mean i actually thought that , this fight was the end of our family. that was the first night i ever cried myself to sleep. my parents always talk about how they were so happy and shit before i came along and sometimes before my brother. […]
I wish my parents were different. I’m sick of never doing anything right. Oh well, I guess. But I realized something. I don’t want to ever marry a guy. I’m afraid that he would treat my kids the same way that my dad treats me. I won’t let that happen. I don’t want any little girl to go through anything like I have. Or any little boy, for that matter. Seriously. As much as it hurts me, I don’t want anyone else to go through it. So I’ll live alone. I’ll do whatever I want, and have no one else to judge me. That’s another […]
I have never been a very social person, thats how im going to start this story. I never had any friends growing up and I was always labeled as a weird kid, but nevertheless I wasnt bothered by this. somehow during highschool I found myself making friends and going out riding around and having fun times. After high school I went through a shit load of shit and you know what? I learned that no one cared. So I learned how to isolate and seperate myself from the rest of the world, and maybe for once in my life I was content that I didnt […]
I wrote a poem today. About all the misunderstoodment about how I look like and how I really feel. My therapists don’t understand me, I explained it so many times. They keep saying that I don’t have a mask and that it’s the real me how I act, but that I think it’s a mask. Yeah right, so I have feeling so depressed for so many times, but acted like I was happy, but my therapists tell me that I really was happy in that time. So they tell my that I haven’t felt suicidal and depressed? How can they know what I feel?
Here’s the […]
I did something brave this week I went to my school social worker and got help but things didn’t work out the way I thought it would although going to the social worker was not a bad experience. She made the call to my mom(both agreed on) Â my mother doesn’t really believe me and told me not to go to back and that what I need to do is pray and read my bible and that the social worker wouldn’t even be able to help.. *sigh* Â I actually used to pray for my depression to go away for a while. I didn’t think it […]
Hello everyone.
Today is my last day. Tonight I will be ending things and finally finding total freedom and nothingness.
To my dear Nat, goodbye my sweet Princess. Just keeping my promise to tell you goodbye. Sent you an email not sure if you got it.
To any others who I have conversed with. I really hope things have improved for you or will improve. And that your pain lessens enough for life to be at least somewhat joyful. Many of you are suffering mainly or totally because of others and I wish I had the power to take that pain away from you. Sometimes people are treated […]
So, I have a bff (she is a girl) who has been in love with a guy for almost 4 years, but she is too shy and insecure to even go talk to him, and he is very snob and arrogant, so she is afraid of rejection, anyways, this guy has a friend called G. And last year Idk but I felt a connection with G. He is A VERY VERY SWEET guy, and he is very shy too. I tried to approach him many times, and he was always very nice and kind. He used to spend his free time with his friends, and […]
All the crazy emotional experiences have come and gone. Years has passed and time heals all wounds. Yet, here I am with all goals killed and/or died. I shouldn’t have made it through the experiences I experienced. Now here I am alive and empty. Somewhat like Salmon spawning. They swam upstream and laid their eggs. But unlike the salmon dying soon after, I’m still alive.
I’m not a young kid. I’m 50 and have a career. Here is my story. I lived the American dream. No, not a millionaire but I am ok making 89K a year. It all started about 5 years ago. At […]