“It doesn’t matter if you understand what the big deal is, just follow the rules.”
Heard this from a teacher today.
Perfect way to sum up life.

Sunday night I took a walk along a bridge that I like to call Bridge Four in the city of Louisville, which I unfortunately live in. It was dark, cold, snowy, icy, and windy. I was talking along and spotted a kid up along the rail of this bridge: he was peering out into the distance, just watching the dark water below as the currents passed. As I approached closer, thinking that I would just walk by, he spotted me and asked me if I had a cigarette. Now I don’t usually smoke but once a week at the most, but as it would be […]

I’m going to try cocaine for the first time. See how this goes.. Mentally feel numb, ‘lets hope’ for physically next.

Check out this AMAZING youth suicide clip…I wrote it because I wanted to die, in fact I tried to take my life, but things didn’t quite work out that way…Check this out, share it and potentially help save someones life!

Youth Suicide Spoken Word

In a couple of days I will run through the paper banner that states in bold letters, “ONE MONTH” and I will feel the satisfaction of finishing the race.

Except, when I run through, I’ll discover that the race has not truly ended. As I look down the path, I can see an uninterrupted flow of paper banners that state the oncoming months.

“JANUARY, FEBRUARY, MARCH”

When someone you love dies, the journey to normalcy is long and monotonous. It’s running through banners after banners until the words become a blur and the sound of the starting pistol becomes vibrations that echo out of your ears.

I can understand […]

Hello everyone, I’m new to SP.

Well, to be precise, I’ve been lurking here for some time, but just managed to create an account.

First of all, I’d like to apologise for all the mistakes I’ll make, english is not my maternal language so, I’ll do my best, but do not expect much.

As I said before, I’ve been lurking here for… maybe two months ? I’ve read some posts, and I must say I’ve been moved by most of them. Not only because of the stories told, but also because it requires courage to tell it, somehown and I’m quite impressed. And because of the comments and […]

Goodbye cruel world
I’m leaving you today
goodbye
goodbye
goodbye
Goodbye all you people
There’s nothing you can say
to make me change
my mind
Goodbye.

If you could choose to be a character of any cartoon where they ate so stupid and happy and there is only hapiness and laughs whick caracter would you be and why?i would choose to be pops,of current stories because he is fucking crazy and lives in a paralel magic world.who would you be?

Which is better?

Is quitting social life is like waiting for death?

Any one in here lived alone more than 2 years?

If I spend life in forest for 2 years and rejoin with crowd, will my perception about the world changes ?

A firefighter saved my life last year, and then this year, when he left, he took my life with him.

We met last year and we fell completely in love, the only problem is that i was 17 ad he was an adult already. Everything was going perfect. We fell in love, as I said, and i fell in love with his children. I knew that I was happy and we knew we would be happy together. When i got back from my dad’s […]

i’ve probably been staring at this page for an hour now trying to figure out what i’m suppose to say. I have butterflies in my stomach right now, i googled suicide. plain and simple and a hotline number came up and this site. I’ve only told two people my story that haven’t been there with me themselves. but the people that that we’re “with me” threw it weren’t really with me at all because that might have been there for the things that have pushed me to whee i am but i guess they don’t fully understand. the first person i told, he helped me […]

I can’t think of a time where i’ve ever been “happy”. I’ve been suicidal for at least 5 years. For at least the last 3 years I fantasize about killing myself every single day. I always wanted to be an astraunaunt. My dream got killed before it could even be chased. There is no future for space. A bunch of rich bastards are destined to quible over the rest of earths resources until we all kill each other over what’s left. I’ve always been pretty smart so it was a hard blow when I really understood that the world isnt fair at all. I think […]

I’m alone almost all the time; couldn’t find success if I tried. All paths seem dark and hopeless.

It’s very slow, but with every day I grow more weary and willing to die. I’m tired of living in such an unfair world.

I’m absolutely at a loss as to what’s going on in my life. Over the course of one year I went from having everything I wanted (fiance, her children that I adored, great house, decent savings) and now I have nothing. Turns out she was using me, and left me with nothing. I have spent the past year trying to find a reason to go on, but with nothing changing I just cannot figure out why I put forth the effort anymore to go on. I spend most nights asleep in the streets. I’ve actually made it a point to get arrested on nights when […]

Long time no talk. It’s good to see you guys again. It’s always so comforting. No offense personally to you guys but I hate the fact that I need to visit this website. I wish I was just okay without having to do things to try and make me happy. Anyways there’s my daily rant. Goodnight <3

This is my #1 goal in life.  I’m not good at being honest.  I hide the truth because it terrifies me…and before you tell me that is part of my problem.  I’m aware of it.  It also helps me “cope” in whatever weird ways I “cope.”

For the past 16 months, I have been struggling with health problems.  I was severely depressed and barely hanging on before that in a high-stress job with no friends.

At this point in time, it seems very possible for me to live in chronic pain for the rest of my life.  I have no support network.  I could leave my phone […]

I have good days and bad, but I always feel better knowing you are all here. I feel less alone.

The first time i tried to kill myself, i was twelve years old. I look back on it, and i think that maybe it was naïve of me to assume that it would be so easy, that i could just try once and end it. But it sure would have saved a lot.
I don’t know how many other times i tried. I don’t doubt it was every night when i got home that i would swallow my special little cocktail, and say my bedtime prayers for death.
And then November 18th, 2012 happened.
I just wanted to say goodbye. I just talked to one […]

I’ve thought about it when I’ve been hopeless and sad, but now mostly it’s when I’ve been pissed off. I just want those who hurt me to suffer too. Guess everyone has felt this way before.

The first time I tried to kill myself, I was fourteen. It was something I had been considering for three years by then, but it wasn’t planned. I took several bottles of pain killers. I felt dizzy that night, and was sick the next day. Nobody asked questions. When I told my Mom a couple months later, she filtered it out. She’s good at that, making herself ignore or forget the bad things.
Nearly four years passed before I tried again, but this time it was planned. I broke up with my boyfriend of two years, pushed him away so he wouldn’t be hurt. I […]