Hey.

Hey, you.

Yes, you.

You’re the one reading this, aren’t you?

Well, let me tell you something.

You need to know.

DON’T SCROLL, please..

I know, I know I’m a stranger here on the internet.

But, I guarantee you, you need to hear this.

Are you in a dark place?

You aren’t alone.

We all were there, y’know.

Feeling Suicidal?

Please don’t.

I think you matter.

Even if I don’t know you, I still think you matter.

You are the best stranger I’ve met.

So, do something for me real quick.

It’s quick, I promise.

Drink some water.

WAIT! DON’T WIPE THE WATER OFF YOUR LIPS YET!

Look, see how they shine?

See how they twinkle and glimmer?

it’s like you.

Even in the tiniest bit of light, […]

Today is my birthday 4 more years until I’m an adult, they say every year gets easier but they couldn’t be more wrong. Getting older doesn’t do anything besides take us one year closer to death. At all cost just keep your head down and fake a smile. I’ve been doing that for almost 6 years and I’ve seemed to get passed the world and there standers. Everyone is wish me a happy birthday and all I can say is thank you if even that. Life gets harder every year you are alive and everything just sucks. I’ve been losing sleep, yesterday was my first […]

Having discovered the PERFECT method, I’m one step closer. A life-lover with a battered heart and a soul so tired there’s no word in the world to describe it.

I got here by mistake. Wrong door. I do not need to stay. I tried. I’m done trying.

Somehow we always find our way back here. These ideation are getting out of hand. I know there’s someone else for you to talk but I guess I foolishly thought I could be the number 1. You’re all I’ve ever wanted and even This I fucked up.  I could say sorry a million times for wasting your time and it wouldn’t be enough… I am sorry I swear I’ll fix it

I want to go back in time. No not for some stupid purpose like to win an old flame or shit like that. I want to go back to the day I met the ***** known as my ex wife and tell her to fuck off. That way I never would have made the 17 year old pissant that has to hide behind mommy instead of manning up. God damn id like to lay him out..find out just how much of a man he is. Pfft he’s a god-damned fucking *****. He’s a 17 year old arrogant pissant that believes he has the […]

People suck. Everyone in my life except my wife and daughter needs to go take a long fucking walk off a short fucking cliff. People that can’t fight their own battles need to fuck off. People that go running to their mother(my ex wife) when I have a problem with them need to fuck off and fight their own fucking battles for a fucking change instead of fucking running to the goon squad so they can blow me up about the half fucking truths from the fucking pissant otherwise known as my son. One of these days I’m gonna get to lay him […]

This feels like a joke… My whole life has been a joke… My mother was to go away on a trip and it was cancelled over and over thanks to Corona. She was going in a few days and I had already planned my death.. Even if it wouldn’t have worked, I was at least going to try to end this misery. My mind is deadly, it’s making everything seem like it’s out to get me.

I had backed up our family photos on a cloud, which took me hours. Only so that my family won’t forget to do it after I’m gone. I take any […]

What are the weak-points that they all have and that are unique to each one of them. Yes, this distinction, now gives the toy so much more, depths. This notion was made very distinct at first while uncovering, the Mankey, and their tail, in which compare to the rest of their body was held there, delicately. Then, one finds out that, in one way or the other, that they all share that same attribute, whether, a foot, or a tail. So, then it’s like, who’s the best! And, Pikachu, was.

And, by the way, Oddish’s suddenly one flaky leaf isn’t too far off from, […]

Mega construct / Pokémon

Island friends set of five, (and more, where lava came spewing). Our very first built, and it is very pleasant, indeed. Pikachu, can smash, or otherwise, has the most potential, to. Their decapitated build, seemingly from their lower limbs, actually serves purpose, in which is that they have no weaknesses, or otherwise, makes it so that they have less weaknesses. In other words, Pikachu, has good defense, other than, their weak-points, in which they all have, but where, Pikachu, does a very well-job, to say the least, at covering, but we will talk about that in the next sequence. Although, […]

at 25 years old my life has been turned upside down..

A year ago today I met the most wonderful and beautiful person ever!
we quickly fell in love and got engaged. It all came crashing down because I was too scared of commitment. I’ve gotten in to a lot of legal issues trying to get her back and she wants nothing to do with me. No one compares to her and I cant go on with the memories of her and knowing she is going to make someone else very happy. Im planning on ending my life tonight =, I have my suicide note ready […]

Why was I born with this body? I fucking hate it. My tits look like deflated balloons. I look so much better clothed. It’s so saddening, knowing that my naked body will disappoint every and anyone who sees it. How could it not? I’m disgusting. I’m sick of trying to comfort myself. I’m sick of wishing I looked like someone else. I wish I could afford plastic surgery. I’d fix my tits, get a nose job, give myself an ass, and suck all the fat from my stomach and arms. If I could change something about myself, I’d change everything. I’d kill to be anyone […]

no point. arbitrary.

Anyone else just have the feeling with the new year that we shouldn’t have made it this far? I didn’t want to make it this far. I still don’t want to make it this far. I’m tired, so so tired

I’m so very empty… For 4 years you had been my best friend. But I didn’t feel important to you for a long while. I’ve cried out, for more time with you, more affection, but no matter how often I did, you didn’t care.. you didn’t care enough.

I’m not a happy person and I need more than other people do. I’m sorry, I’m like this.. I really am. Telling you goodbye, was one of the most painful things I did this year already. Great start of 2021.. Now I see you removing everything around me, that had anything to do with you. It hurts. But […]

i think i’m just scared of everyone dying before me. i always thought i would kill myself before i got to high school, and now i graduate in june. the thought of being an adult and going to university  scares the hell out of me and i don’t know if i should go on.

If you could have one wish, what would it be?

I’m so tired of holding in 80% of my pain. Somehow others don’t notice the 20% I do show. And if I show more, no one wants anything to do with me. I mean, I get it. Nobody wants to hang out with a sourpuss, who ruins their happy mood. I’ve really tried my best. I did, lovelies. I can’t keep upsetting everyone for being too busy to give a fly.

So the solution is simple. I have to go away. I have to leave everything behind. Everything I’ve ever owned, been gifted or bought myself. And most importantly, the people I’ve constantly upset with my […]

In the end, who should I blame?

It’s always been my fault, because my brain works this way

It’s always been my fault, because even if i tried running away from my problem it still keeps following

It’s always been my fault, because even if i tried to change the demon won’t let me

I can’t blame anyone even though I want to because its always been my fault from the moment I was born till the day I die

Here to a first post, tired of keeping everything inside.
Reading so many of your posts helped me so much, so I decided to start doing the same, I don’t know if it is appropriate for this site to become my journal but at this point, you know.. when you reach the point where other’s judgments become finally meaningless, well everything is at this point really.
Here to a new year filled with unknown just like the previous ones, hoping it to be the last, the last sight of darkness or the finale end.
Despite feeling so empty, there is always this last bit of […]