I can’t take it anymore! All that’s left for me in life is a gun. I’m never going to acomplish anything in life, and even if I do, I won;t even begin to compare with my dear sister’s acomplishments. I don’t see the point in living if all that goes throught my head is depression and confusion. Confusuin to what I am. I know I like other girls, and my friends have accepted that, but am I bi or Lesbian. Bi is one thing, but would they accept lesbian? Not only that, but this is my last year of freedom. I’,m pretty much out at […]
Why is this blogging site called THE SUICIDE PROJECT, what do they mean by project. Is this a site studying emotions of dpressed people. I know I will get a lot of rage comments but I would like to know. It sounds stupid just reading it over. But still I wish to know
Today it was decided that for my safety and my little sisters safety it would be better to put me in a ward for a couple of weeks or months… You see that my mother is a extremely strict Christian – And after i came out to my family as a homosexual – She know believes i am possessed by a demon… So after a couple times of trying to kill myself because my father is disappointed at me , and tells me im disgusting she decide for ” my own good ” And “The protection of my little sister” That i need to go […]
Everyone has troubles. It’s life. Everyone endures bullshit from time to time. Though some, in fact, are worse than others. I’ve never told anyone any of this before. And to be honest, I’m scared. I’m afraid of being judged. Of being misunderstood in my story. But I’ll tell you.
Here goes nothing.
I’m seventeen years old, and a senior in high school. I’ve always made decent grades, and am well liked by most people. I’m the funny chunky girl. Here’s the catch. I’m dying on the inside. I feel so.. broken. So lost. And to be honest, I’ve felt this way for years. I put a smile […]
i feel so stuck in this life, school, work, homework, boredom. my “friends” never have time to hang out so the only interaction i get is with my boyfriend and fake friends who only use me for my cigarettes or money. i yearn for an adventurous life but it just seems impossible. i have no major in college because none of them interest me and i can no longer imagine a future for myself. i have terrible social skills so making new friends is next to out of the question.. i see other people laughing and having a good time and my envy enrages me, […]
Normally when I have a flashback or nightmare I write about it in my journal. Today I decided to post about it on here just so that I don’t have to keep this mess hidden inside me. This is hard for me to write about so I’m sorry if it doesn’t make too much sense.
I don’t usually have good sleeps, some nights I don’t sleep at all. I’m terrified of the dark in fear of my abusers getting me. Last night I dozed off, I didn’t fall asleep, just went into a trance to try to calm myself. Around 10am this morning I was triggered when I […]
Hey, anyone who’s a little interesting in this stranger. I already wrote something saying that I was thinking about killing myself and also talking about my own life. Anyway, I’ve decide to leave the world but I can’t. I’m so angry right now. I can’t kill myself. I was thinking in committing suicide by carbon monoxide poisoning.  I can’t because my parents, aunt or grandparents could see me. I thought committing suicide by taking too much pills (my original plan). Then I felt really retarded when I notice that wasn’t as easy as I thought. I don’t want any suffer so I’m not going by hanging, wrist cutting, suffocation, hypothermia, electrocution, […]
I want to die, but of course I can’t. First I’m scared of dying but I’m sick and tired of trying to live happy. My parents stalk the hell out of me whenever I try to talk to a boy and my dad and mom beat me. What am I supposed to do? My friends tell me I look weird when I don’t smile because I smile all the time. Why do I smile? Why am I completely at peace when I’m at school, but at home I dread it and want to die
I’m tired of living. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of doing […]
Lights off. Ears plugged. Doors locked. Notes placed. Water running. Blade cutting. Perfect. All according to plan.
Lights fading. Consciousness slipping. Room spinning. Parents sleeping. Blood pouring. Finally. Time to go.
No more. The End. Black. Infinite black. Peace. Calm. Eternity.
Then noise. Faint. Distant. A hum. A buzz. Audible only because it it the only sound in the beautiful void.
The hum won’t stop. Won’t go away. Won’t leave me alone. I have to find out what it is. What is it anyway!? Look around. Just black.
Wait, I didn’t look around. I couldn’t. There is only black. Maybe if I open my eyes. Then I could find the source […]
I HATE my life. That’s it. I spend all my time, hating my life. My kids, take turns BASHING and PUNISHING me. I am terminal anyway. It takes so much energy to HATE anything, or anyone for that matter. I know that someday I will be in Heaven with my Father. I can not believe that He Hath Forsaken me. I knew the consequences of coming back, I should not ever have come back. I HATE it here. I am so emotionally abused…and everyone sits around like that is an acceptable action ~ to be verbally, mentally, physically, and emotionally abusive. My son in LA, […]
if we were all born with sin,and none of us are good enough to get to heaven,then we are pretty much fucked over,i think of every possible reason,what the point of life would be,but i cant think of any,i try so hard to be strong,but the humane in me cant fucking take it anymore,if i dont have nobody,then why do i stay here,if i wanted to jump a train right now,i could,why cant i just get up and leave,theres nothing here,fuck it,
PlPlEase dontt  go the same way as me, talk to someone it may help, wish had x
Hey, you can call me Mordecai. Mostly cuz I love the name because of Regular Show and Borderlands. and for privacy reasons. I guess I don’t know what to do or say. And that’s the problem in a way.
I used to be suicidal a long time ago, can’t say if I’m not anymore. Growing up I’ve always had a lot of “friends”, more what I’d call friendly aquaintances. You know, those people you meet and like and say hello to but you have no real connection with in almost any way. Well I moved across town in elementary and then in 4th grade there was this new […]
I hate how people joke about dying or someone killing themselves… it is not funny and is in no way something to joke about… those jokes are all i hear anymore and it makes me mad that they think of it as a joke ugggh i hate people….
This is my story for what its worth and for whom it may concern, its an ongoing story and its ending is yet to be decided but in any case it isn’t going to be an “and they all lived happily ever after” kind of end, and nothing can change that. So if you want a story with a happy ending stop right here. However if you want to find out why the course of this tale can’t be altered and are prepared to peer into the mind of a madman… read on.
Ever heard the saying:”Beware the quiet ones” and asked yourself, “why?”
Have you […]
I bought a house recently. I have a good job, and I figure I can afford it. This is my first time living by myself, and it’s really depressing and scary. I come home to an empty house, and I don’t even know what to do with myself. I seriously don’t do anything. I deal with some pretty major depression and anxiety, and being out in public by myself is really hard for me, and I avoid anyone I don’t already know. It’s been years since I’ve made a close friend. I haven’t had any contact with anyone […]
That fucking hurt. Ouch.
‘Going to throw a party next Thursday, Hopefully got something to celebrate’ I hope you realize how fucking sick that is. Twat.
So anyways, Yeah. Next Thursday. Let’s do it Nat. Things aren’t going to get better, are they? Just going to get worse. So come with me.. We can go and we can go to that place.
What is wrong with me? why has the past two days been terrible.
I had a breakdown at school today. I genuinely believed that the school were going to do something to us, I couldn’t stand being in a classroom full of guys. I felt so alone.. And […]
Never want
Never hope
Never dream
Never belief..
i just think if i did try i would have to do it right to NOT come back