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#3 Short, but direct.

  June 4th, 2010 by loopey

‘I’m drowning in these feelings and it’s scaring me to death’.

I have been suicidally depressed for 9 months to a year.  Things haven’t got better.  I’ve tried all I can.  Things never will get better.  I have lost my life – my friends, family, career – through this illness.

I just can’t cope.  Please someone take the pain away.  Make my head right again and my spine pain-free.  I could deal with the pain on its own, but with this enduring mental distress.. it doesn’t end.  I haven’t healed from one trauma, let alone deal with another and another and another.

I need someone to talk to …

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Question

  June 4th, 2010 by METALINGUS

Why is it that when I cut myself, I feel good?

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chelseagarvey

  June 4th, 2010 by betterofwithoutme

i wonder why i am here i really do.
i can have everyone around me and still feel lonely i dont belong here , i dont belong anywere im a nobody im worthless , this sadness has gone on for too long now ive gotten to the stage of pushing everyone away from me yes its my own fault but no one understands me they look at me and ask me whats wrong , why do you self harm your just stupid grow up. but i cnt help it try living as me try having the feelings i do ? try sitting here on a …

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i hate life.

  June 4th, 2010 by betterofwithoutme

im a 13 year old girl who hates life so much i want to die , ive tried self harming ive tried suicide 2 times. but some one up there must be looking out for me cos im still here. life depresses me i dont no what i want in life i push my friends away that now they just dont carre if i was here or not, the only person who ever made me truly happy was my boyfriend but even he couldnt cope with my depression and he left me, and from then everythings got worse, my friends ask me whats wrong with …

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humans are too selfish.

  June 4th, 2010 by calmthedarkness

for as long as i can remember, i’ve always been different from everyone else.

eventually i came to accept it; i basked in loneliness, despite the fact that it was “wrong” in the eyes of others. it was wrong to sit in my room alone. it was wrong to ignore others. it was wrong to not be like everyone else.

so i put up walls and i lived behind a mask for years. it was nearly perfect, as everyone bought into my lies. they believed that i was the person who i pretended to be.

yet one person knew.. he was the person closest to myself. he …

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Get to know me

  June 4th, 2010 by Kina

I am a 19 year old who has been in and out of psych hospitals and regular hospitals since i was 15. I started self-harming in 8th grade because my mother was up set at how i expressed emotions so i stopped expressing them altogether. I tried suicide when i was 15 because we had a foreign exchange student who kept telling horrible lies and my parents and friends believed her over me and i was left out in the cold. My sister found me dazed on the bethroom floor and called my mom. After two tubes of charcoal later i was put in a …

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Working up the courage/mega rant

  June 3rd, 2010 by 31Flavors

Hiii. I’m a 17 year old girl and i hate everyone. Everyone at my school likes to spread rumors around that i’m actually a boy, because technically i used to be one and people from my middle school/freshman year of hs remember that (i “transitioned” like a year and a half ago). But i pass extremely well (like my voice is good and everything) and i have a straight bf and stuff, and a lot of my friends don’t even know about “that”. People still make fun of me though, and everyone thinks i’m a total freak. Like i’ve been followed home before and been …

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Listen

  June 3rd, 2010 by METALINGUS

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8HMkSWiwWoM

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Isolation

  June 3rd, 2010 by Stressedbunny

I have recently come back to suicidal thoughts after a few years away from them.

I have recently taken a huge step in an attempt to improve my life, I have moved from the UK to the US to be with a partner that I once let get away from me. But now that I am here I find myself isolated in the house when she goes to work, I have no transport, no money and no-one to talk to most of the day. When she gets in from work she is exhausted and in no way able to cope with my feelings and her son …

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I think this is it

  June 3rd, 2010 by myself

I am not looking for sympathy
nor help, nor empathy nor understanding. I am just writing this so I can get a clear mind about what I am about to do, or at least try to do.

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suicide project

  June 3rd, 2010 by Cat

Hi…I have been following your story. I just had to try to reach out to you and tell you I am so sorry you are having to experience the pain depression. You are very articulate and seem to have an awareness of the magnatude of your plight. I want to give you some added information that my help you feel there is real hope for a true change in your life that will lead you out of a world of pain and into a world of hope and joy and creativity. First you need to know that depression is a biolobical …

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Why is suicide wrong?

  June 3rd, 2010 by METALINGUS

Why is it wrong? Please someone tell me a good answer

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Trust

  June 3rd, 2010 by Vamp

Why is it that I cannot trust anyone? I refuse to trust even myself at times. I can’t trust my parents, my friends, or even my girlfriend. Am I really alone, or is it just what I believe, regardless of whether I want to or not? Am I truly so worthless, so lifeless, so useless? I wish I could be someone else. Everyday, just someone else. No one understands my pain. No one could EVER comprehend my pain, my suffering and sorrow. No one…

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relationship problem…someone help i desperately need it.

  June 3rd, 2010 by hmayes87

i am a 23 year old guy and my girlfriend just broke up with me after 4 years. i moved here in ’06 with her, leaving all my friends and family behind. the past 2 weeks, she has left me at home…wont come home or even answer my calls. i havent eaten in the last 3 days and ive been throwing up the water i drink and almost passed out twice. i just need a little advice on this because im all alone here and i have no friends to talk to this about.

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~Invisible Threads~

  June 3rd, 2010 by SempaiRuinz

Puppet- noun :: A puppet is an inanimate object, or representational figure animated or, manipulated by a puppeteer. It is usually {{but by no means always}} a depiction of a human character, and is used in puppetry, a play or a presentation that is a very ancient form of theatre. The puppet undergoes a process of transformation through being animated, and is normally manipulated by at least one puppeteer.

~Marionette~

Imagine what it’s like being a puppet. Someone’s always controlling every move you make, everything you do. Day in,

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my life

  June 2nd, 2010 by twiggy

so i just turned thirteen about a month ago. i havent had a boy friend in about 4 or 5 months. i dont care though. i have my friends and that’s all i really care about. im on the cheerleading squad. im on the soccer team. next year i’ll be on the speech team. (i like having a lot of extra curricular activities so im not stuck at home day in and day out)

i have several best friends (casey, wylie, kirsten, and sometimes julia) they have helped me through a lot of things. i return that favour as often as i can. when Kirsten’s sister’s …

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lost in my own world.

  June 2nd, 2010 by ez123

To many people, my life seems like a fairytale. I have an adorable boy friend, get straight A’s, have friends, have an okay family, and nice clothes. Countless people tell me I am beautiful but that doeskin make up for the haters who call me names and say im “easy and slutty” every day. I’m only 12 and I have had 5 boy friends. 3 of them were serious boyfriends and we went our for 3 or more months. I fell for them so easily and i regret doing that. My current boyfriend flirts with girls all day but says im “the only one who …

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Lost who I am.

  June 2nd, 2010 by LostWhoIAm

My life isn’t some tragic story.

I just lost something along the way, I lost things I now wish I could have hold on to. I have to make myself go to a school I feel like i’m drowning in, It feels like if I can’t breathe. I don’t want to be here anymore. Mom met someone she loves, it didn’t work, he became a father and they don’t want to hurt anyone more than they have. Mom is not okay. The thing is that it didn’t bother me that she’s inlove with someone else. The only thing I could say when she told me was: …

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my life

  June 2nd, 2010 by michya

on the surface my life doesn’t look to bad, parents deforced maybe a problem, but not in poverty by anymans standards, I’m not exactly thick either, I think. but underneath all this I wish I was dead. My parents aren’t devorced, my dad left to be a woman (i’ve got nothing against that, but the way he done it broke my heart), we’re actualy struggiling to keep me at my school. I went into a deep depression for months, i don’t know how long because I can’t remember. I relied so hevily on my then girlfriend that I ended up forcing her away, …

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No Easy Way out

  June 2nd, 2010 by tulip

I am not sure there is an easy way out. Instead I am trapped in this miserable existance of soldiering on for the sake of not causing pain to my loved ones. However I continue to cause them pain and worry through my continued sadness. So what do I do? I exist, I can’t say that I live life because it doesn’t feel like that at all anymore. It feels like I am an empty vessel that can just about function but breaks down periodically which is what led me to this site. Another moment of panic and feelings of isolation, despair and helplessness. I …

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