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Completely Lost

June 14th, 2009by wishingfool

Yeah. Here it goes. I’m 19. Dropped out of school. Nothing going on in my life. My best friend has just stopped talking to me, probably for good. I’ve been in love with this girl for the past year or so but I haven’t talked to her since the last we saw(a year ago) I just got the courage to try and talk to her. Just talk to her. She doesn’t want to because she thinks it’s weird. I’ve been thinking about suicide for about two years now but it was only until a month ago that I actually came close to going through with …

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Help

June 13th, 2009by emogirl1995

I came here 2 seek help it seems like no one understands me and it hurts my own parents don’t understand me I’m so hurt inside and I feel as though no one cares if I die I feel like the only way out of the pain and suffering is 2 die will someone plz help me I’m so dead inside

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They said it would go away with time…

June 13th, 2009by luke5119

I guess I’ll start off with a quick synopsis of who I am before I start explaining what is that’s making me feel suicidal.  To start my name is Luke, I’m 19 and I live in St. Louis Missouri, have my whole life.  I graduated highschool a little over a year ago and I’m currently going to ITT Tech.  I’m overall a middle of the road kinda guy on almost everything.  B average student, somewhat attractive, funny at times, etc.  Just normal.

Anyway as of late I’ve been feeling pretty bad.  Actually I haven’t felt this bad in a long time.  For some reason I’ve been …

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To: Donna Meta

June 13th, 2009by jeannie812

So much has happened to you.   How can you explain it all?  I would be talking gibberish if I went through that.

One thing I have learned from my life is that the more bad stuff we have to explain,  the less sense we make.  People tune it out.  They are looking to “fix”  our problems and when it gets beyond “fixable”   they tune it out.

Sweetie,  go to the Mayo’s clinic.

There is one in Rochchester,  Minnesota,   and one in Rockchester ,  New York.

The Mayo’s clinic is the best.   They will fix you.  smile

If your insurance won’t pay,  well,  then ask for donations.   Ask and you will …

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Endless loops of emptyness…

June 12th, 2009by Swiz

I guess ill start by stating the facts… Im currently 17, I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes when i was 4, fell into a deep depression in the 6th grade, and am still feeling depressed. although i manage to have an outward appearance of being fine, im not. I was also recently diagnosed with severe POTS… some shitty thing where my blood pools in my legs, so i have a high heart rate but low blood pressure. If i compare my life to others, i know its damn fine. I have a loving mother and three loving sisters. My dad loves me in his …

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Andy was so mean and hateful that I never thought he would

June 12th, 2009by jeannie812

Andy promised me the sun and the moon.  He was great at first.   He helped me with my car and home repairs.  He helped my kids with their homework while I cooked dinner.   He taught them how to swim.   He taught them how to build a tent and how to do yard work.

But,  Andy was a lie.   He showed his true colors very quickly.  Andy was so into himself.  He was grandiose,  schemy,  and must have been bored out out his mind.  He was king of the couch.     He turned into the tyrant on the couch.  He had a bad temper.

He lived with me for …

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Will it ever end?

June 11th, 2009by sophiaxx7

I’m not aware of how this whole thing works, and if I’m making a complete fool of myself oh well. I am not begging for sympathy or anything, but i just want to vent.

Please do not message me saying your too young for this. It’ll just support my reasons for committing suicide. Age shouldn’t matter.

I am 13 years old. You all must be thinking what a psycho this girl is. Why would a thirteen year old want to die? Well I’ll tell you.

My family fights. My brother and mother. And there’s not a thing i can do about it.

My brother hits my mom. He’s 18 …

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wanna die…..

June 11th, 2009by somebody...

I’m really from norway so my english might not be the best….

my life has never really been good, I’m a christian and partly because of that people have allways bullied me. first I was in a kindergarden where we were out playing all day, and we werent allowed inside. I don’t remember this sinse I was moved to annother place when they saw how I was treated (the kids was the mean people not the grownups). there I was still badly treated, but now it was rather passive. in norway we start school as 6 years old. I started school, but the kids there were as …

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trying……..

June 11th, 2009by hazelflames

there is a bit of comfort here in this place. knowing that noone knows me or how to find me.  knowing that i dont have to answer any questions, and can say whatever i want.  i want to be numb. honestly the only reason i am still alive and breathing is because i havent found a quick way out of this life. i have attempted overdose of pills which only landed me in ICU with a tube down my stomach and 24 hours of isolation. I have had a gun to my head but then was afraid of knowing that it wasnt a big enough …

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So Alone

June 10th, 2009by Mechanical

I’m not even sure what to write here, but I guess I’ll start with why I feel like killing myself. I have a sister and parents and you’d think we were a normal family. Instead, I hate my parents so much. I love my sister but she doesn’t love me. I love her so much and above all that makes me want to die, knowing she doesn’t love me. When she was 12 our father sexually molested her. I don’t know what happened; I don’t really know anything. This went on until she was 15 and a family friend found out, and put a stop …

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Circles

June 10th, 2009by Thoughtless

Tired of the same thing. Every day. Feeling like garbage, wishing I was normal.  

Sick of feeling sorry for myself, thinking about my problems instead of helping myself or others.  I recognize that I am self absorbed, but I can’t stop these thoughts.  I want them to go away, but they don’t.  I’ve tried Diazepam, Ativan, Effexor.  They didn’t help me feel better, they just made me feel like a zombie;  Neither good nor bad.  I spoke to a medical doctor, a therapist, a psychologist, a parent, and a friend. They helped me hang on.  Told me pleasant lies to subdue my anxiety and placate my mood, at least for those moments I was with them.  But …

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Enough is enough!

June 10th, 2009by grtguy

I am 28 yrs old.  I am your typical white guy.  I am married to a beautiful women be she doesn’t live with me.   I use to own a business but with the economy I had to shut down.  I have had a rough life I spent 9 yrs in stae and federal prison. I went in when I was 18.  I came out reformed and ready to work.  I met my wife who was my sisters best friend about 4 months after i was released.  I started a moving business and did great with it.  i was able to do more stuff with my life in …

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I’ve been thinking…

June 9th, 2009by westflame

   Hi, I’m Daniel and I’m new here…and well I’ve been thinking about killing myself as of today. And it’s not like I just decided to kill myself because of a sudden mood swing, I’ve really thought about this long and hard for several years. I’m not asking for you to sympathize with me, I just want people to lsiten for once.

   Well to sum it up, I was bullied on my first day of high school which ended up lasting for several years untill all of the verbal, physical and sexual harrassement stopped during the second semester of grade 11. I was laughed at, teased about my looks and …

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Is suicide a sin?

June 9th, 2009by Thoughtless

These are excerpts from letters written by Robert G. Ingersoll that were published in the New York World, 1894. 

 

 

 “People should not suffer for the sake of supernatural beings or for other worlds or the hopes and fears of some future state. Our joys, our sufferings and our duties are here.  After all, death is not so terrible as a Joyless life. Next to eternal happiness is to sleep in the soft clasp of the cool earth, disturbed by no dream, by no thought, by no pain, by no fear, unconscious of all and forever.

 The fear of God, of Judgment, of eternal pain will cause such believers …

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Let me go!

June 8th, 2009by Suicidal

I Don’t know where else to go. i spin myself all around but i always seem to fall on my ass. This life seems to short to live any longer. I can’t seem be to alive when all the world is a burning hell, A total disaster. everyone wants me to die just let me go. i look in to the ungrateful mirror to find out that I’m worthless.I try to be gentle but my gentle is destruction. My life isn’t hell but close enough. My voice scars those who hear it. My parents don’t understand The say i’ll never do it but

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What I think.

June 8th, 2009by helper

I really don’t know what to do anymore… its not that I’m really giving up, I just don’t know what to do now. I have been thinking about life, and what to do. I want to live happily, and I think about the future, and I know how I’ll feel and yes I feel like that sometimes but other times I just go down and it all seems to slip through my fingers. I just don’t know what to do right now. So I’ll just keep sitting around hoping no praying I can get better, you see I know why and the reason for

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so tired

June 8th, 2009by lost hope

The every day has become so petty.  It is such a struggle to put up the front of being “okay” with the way things are when it all seems, and often is, so meaningless.  It takes courage to walk away from a job and security without a backup plan.  How do I look at myself and decide what I can do that makes me feel good…maybe a long forgotten chidhood dream can be pursued.  It seems  easy to be surrounded by selfish and weak people and hard to find people supportive and caring. 
Suicide is not easy; Although many people say that it is.   It takes …

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The Existential Vacum

June 7th, 2009by Twilight

I am a 35 year old female. I’ve had the condition of depression and an anxiety disorder since my teens. I am on medication which keeps everything other control. And I feel I have lived long enough.

I am not married and have no children. Infact my world is quite small. Occassionally I see my sister and brother and the one or two friends I have.

I am unemployed at the moment. For the last 2 months actually. It wasn’t the economic recession that got it’s fangs into me in the form of cutbacks. I wasn’t fired. I didn’t have a better job lined up. I just left voluntarily.

I had no idea if I would …

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dead

June 7th, 2009by helper

I do not think I handle this anymore, I have breakdowns and no one ever sees it. I mean first I isolate myself after something very small, then I get really mad and then sad and have talks with like my family im not sctiofranic, I know I am not actually talking to them, but it calms me down, and no one has to see anything. But its killing me. Right now I am sitting in my grandmas guest room, my moms going in and out, I want to show her how I am feeling right, show her to try to feel better, but

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i dont know how to do this

June 7th, 2009by hazelflames

i dont know what to write, say or even think right now. all i know is that i am tired, not in the physical sense although it it exhausting to wake up every morning knowing it is going to be the same bull shit that i have been putting up with to long. medication hasnt helped, mostly because i cant afford to stay on it, hospitals dont work-twice now at least, and friends dont work because nobody wants to be bothered, which is why its called “pity party for one”. I AM DONE. i dont want the attention of fake people saying they care knowing …

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