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I don’t know how I feel

January 24th, 2010by Sebs

I just read a post someone had written, saying they were not suicidal but just wanted to die. I know exactly how they feel, it was like reading my own thoughts.

I really don’t want to kill myself, but when I am driving I find myself wishing somone would crash into me. When I am in class I wish the building would catch on fire. I don’t want to die, but I want something to happen that reminds me I am alive.

I’m a 23 girl, and to the outside world my life is good. I am doing a masters degree in mental health nursing, I have …

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Thinking about it again

January 24th, 2010by yayihaveanemail

This is a continuation from what I posted maybe 6 months ago. http://suicideproject.org/2009/08/i-may-sound-conceited/

I’ve had so much happen to me these past 6 months, and not a day passed without me thinking more about suicide. I got rescinded from college because I got a D in English. I was accused of cheating on my homework by my teacher even though I didn’t even do the homework, nor did I attempt to write anything on any sort of paper. I got kicked out of my Mom’s house when she found out I got rescinded, so I had to live at my Dad’s. I went to community college …

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where do i start

January 23rd, 2010by voxborn

i mean i have been going through shit in the past. i cannot retain consistancy for long, find it hard to concentrate blah blah blah but yeah i got loved ones too. no i wont suicide but i will stop this identity.. see its not you its what you’ve become all the shit you’ve took from your past. trust me that everybody is what they were. no more living this way.. erase all my emotional memory and start from a scratch. i feel life taking a blade and tearing my laptop screen…. i feel that i have become psychotic at times no longer controlling myself. …

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what now?

January 23rd, 2010by jess4

well, this is now about my 4th post on this website, and within that time, i meet someone through one of my stories were now really close mates, and he has helped me through thick and thin, and i would be nothing without him, but has he lives in a different country the time zones are different, and it sometimes gets hard, i cant talk to him now, so i may as well leave a comment
heres my story:
my life has been fucked ever since my mother meet my step dad, ive had alot of disapointments in my life, hes not what a dad is, …

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mm

January 23rd, 2010by mm_mm

Death, is all i think about now, in street, in the classroom,

I want to die, to end this pain, no one gives a rats arse about me, if i died, the world would only shrug,

I have no friends, only memories, which come and go, throughout the day,

I have no life, only pointless errands, which i do to take my mind of the pain

I don’t want to die i have to die, because the world wants me to,

Please let me die,

These are some of the thoughts that enter my head in the day, its horrible and frustrating, i’m sick of therapy its not working, i just …

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Is this normal

January 22nd, 2010by Daniel21

I have been taking anti-depressants for around 2 months. And for a while they actually helped me…but they are doing the exact opoisite of what they should be doin rite now. They have put me into a worse depression than i have ever been in, and i want to die more than ever. Now, i cry every single nite, i have started cuttin again, and im thinkin bout suicide more than ever. I dont know why this is happenin 2 me. Is it normal for anti-depressants to backfire eventually and make you more depressed and suicidal?

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Depressed Rabbit Attempts Suicide

January 22nd, 2010by rubywilliams

A male rabbit named Furball had lost all hope. The female rabbit he had lived with for an entire year had left him for another rabbit. The owner of the garden he usually dined at had just put a fence around it. A fox had nipped one of his ears. And, at his most depressed, it seemed to him that all life is mere ephemera in the eye of time.

The only thing to do was bring an end to his sorrow, hunger, pain, and inability to find meaning even in a moment. He would take his own life. The question became, how?

The first thing he …

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please let me help you

January 21st, 2010by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

“Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” – Jesus, Matthew 11:28

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life

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Why I Died

January 21st, 2010by long dead

The reason i died is i hated my life every day i would i would bottle up all my problem’s until the day i said fuck it and killed myself i killed myself 3 times yet each time i was brought back at the time i was pissed but now i realize that i have so much to live for i have people who love me and i love them so a word to the wise sit down and think about how this will affect you the first time was because of depression second was anger and the lats time was because the women i …

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Long hard Battle

January 21st, 2010by zacky_lover7

i dont know what i can do to be happy. ive been fighting this battle since i was 12. i love cutting myself, its sick i know. but being able to see the blood flowing down my arms excited me. ive been using drugs since i was 15. my drug of choice/choices was xnax and heroin. i did xnax alot more then i did heroin. i recently was hospitalized for attempting suicide for the 3rd time. the last time i tried killing my self, my best friend got there right in time before i jumped. she ended up taking me to the hospital where i …

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Contemplating

January 21st, 2010by Messed Up Mind

To begin with I have considered suicide for far too long in my life. I am now 22 and when I was 15 I did try to end it. I took a bottle of asprin and landed myself in the hospital but obviously I am still alive. It didn’t do much except wreck my liver. There was a time when I was happy that my life didn’t end that night but thats not now. Last year I found out that my boyfriend of 3 years didn’t want to be with me anymore and had been talking to other women online and phone. I didn’t know …

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What the Fuck is IT all For Anyway?

January 21st, 2010by Selfish

You know some people believe that we chose this life. That before we were born and still in a spiritual existence we chose the parents we would be born to and even the specific traits that we will possess as individuals. Even if you have some type of debilitating disease or deformity. Everything. Right down to the life circumstances and the people who will surround you (we choose each other of course in this regard). And the reason is because we are all in reality God. The purpose of all of this is God or the Creator seeking to experience many different identities. But it’s …

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please let God help you

January 20th, 2010by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

“Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” – Jesus, Matthew 11:28

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life

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No friends, hospital stays, still faking it

January 20th, 2010by Kim

Sometimes it just takes a third party or an anonymous person to comment and  show that they understand or can relate.  It has been years that I have been fighting the urge to kill myself.  I used to stock up on medications that I had reactions too, in order to prepare for the day that I took them all.  Well, one day in therapy I admitted that I had the stockpile of meds & my psychiatrist made me agree to get rid of them.  Which I did because I know that I have a loving husband & 2 great kids.  No friends though.  My brain …

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Suicide survivor

January 20th, 2010by LIFEAFTER

For those contemplating i have been there and would like to share abit. Year 2002 After battling depression for years, drove my car 75 miles an hour into a semi-tractor trailor, slit my wrists, tried smoke inhalation.Am still here. My conclusion 1. only God has the finally say. 2. He must have created me for a reason.3. He does not give us all the answers immediately concerning life and difficulties. 4. most answers i have found in the bible when no one else could answer.5. This life is not easy and will never be. 6. This life does seem and may be is unfair in …

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Tomorrow

January 20th, 2010by Entity

So, here I’m again. For a past few days I was thinking like it’s getting better. OK, no more depression, it was just an illusion. You are not really depressed. Just a moron who thinks that he has a bad life even though his life is a godlike from an objective point of view. But this morning all hope was gone. Here I’m again thinking about the fact that tomorrow I will get an ultimate chance to finish it. It’s so easy, just take a plastic bag, fasten it around neck and wait. 1 minute, 2, 3, 5, 10 end… So what the hell I’m …

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If anyone knows how you feel its me!

January 20th, 2010by Christina

im just going to make it quick, i’ve been going through so much stuff for so long now, i do want to kill myself and all that i know how everyone feels so guess what im here!

e-mail me anytime…

e-mail-mkafan12@yahoo.com

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i need help

January 20th, 2010by kcvoodoo913

i am at school i need someone to talk to b4 i go home maybe for the last time

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grr

January 20th, 2010by wishicould

i hate this constant battle in my head. i wish i could just do it :'( im such a coward.

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I am tired of being a failure

January 19th, 2010by chrday

When I was young, I was the nerdy kid that no one liked.  All of the adults in my life kept telling me that I was going to end up doing something really special, because I’m smart and learn new things easily.  So I kept clinging to that hope, that someday my life would not suck.  Well, it sucks, and it still sucks, and I’m tired of it.

I went to college and had my heart set on becoming a high school history teacher.  I knew the job prospects weren’t great, but I had a bunch of people telling me to follow my heart and the …

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