At first i was supposed to make this post about gay suicides, but then again i kind of changed my mind.

It apears there is extreme anxiety on this site relating to suicide, wich i really cant relate to.

Why are you people being so judgmental of other peoples choices? You obviously do not know the reasons behind there actions. Why all the judgment? The Bibble for example doesent condemn suicide.

Some Near Death experiences do, but it is not automatic. There are differenting accounts

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F0g0FefaQZY

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3IqEMIunsZ0

The point is;we are not judged based on the way we died, but the way we lived!

And NO! Suiciders do not automaticly go to […]

I hate my life right now. Really really hate it.

The more I try to smooth things over between me and my parents, the more it all gets fucked up.

All of this mental & physical abuse has been going on for the past 20 years but I don’t think I can take it all anymore.

I’m getting weaker, day by day. I might give in to this flood & put myself out of my misery; not right now or maybe I might.

I don’t know, I’m just too weak willed to make any decision on my own but I guess there is always a first time […]

To start, I want to tell you a bit about myself. I live in Canada, and I like models, music, and my favorite insect is the moth. I am going to turn 19 in exactly 10 days.

When I was 14 I tried to kill myself. My father was a war veteran, and I took an entire bottle of narcotic sedatives he uses for pain. When I took the pills, I felt horrible.. It wasn’t about dying anymore, I just felt like I let everyone down. I apologized as I laid on the couch waiting to die. I […]

I’m a mess ,

due to my alcohol use 25years worth ,my wife and two kids have leafed me 12 months now.

23y of marriage2 wonderful Kidd’s now don’t even want to see me.

its been 12 months i have had a drink .AA helped me and the thoughts of reuniting as a family aegean keep ed me from the drink.

As i confess that I’m a alcoholic. and all that comes with alcoholism. even now I’min sobriety, thay wont have me back.

the house will be sold soon all that i put in to it sweat, blood,and tears gone, me to be tossed out of the house i once had a family […]

I swear that you don’t have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you (I had in you)

Too late, I’m sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words, so sing along for me, baby

For heaven’s sake I know you’re sorry
But you won’t […]

I’ve written countless suicide letters. The last time I tried to commit I just wound up half dead in the er and then shipped to a mental hospital. Honestly I’m sick of people sayin how selfish I am when I cut or burn myself or try to take my life. It’s me, my body I can do whatever the hell I want. I hate MY life yea it sounds selfish but if you lived it you’d know why. All the scars I cause myself just give me another reason to end it. I’m done with the scars I’m done with the lies I’m done with […]

well it’s time 30 – 40 minutes, time to signoff with you all. It’s been entertaining my last few months on the site. Good fortune with your lives.

Hey everyone,

I’ve lost my will to live because my bipolar disorder holds me back from keeping a meaningful job or achieving anything concrete. I only feel really hopeful about the future when I’m contemplating suicide.

However, promising as the thought of dying sounds to me, up until now I have failed miserably at dying, and woke up once in ER and once in a Psych Ward.. Lack of experience I guess 😀

So is there anyone with practical knowledge in here? I’d like to know more about how to make the “helium method” work. I’m not interested in links, but in advice.

The method consists […]

Guys, this will be my last time visiting this site. I committed suicide yesterday, overdosing of paracetamol and naphthalene balls do worked, I felt very weak yesterday and fainted, at that point of time I am so scared, feeling so hopeless, I realised that I don’t wanna to die anymore, I missed my family so I called the ambulance. The after period was a toture, I am feeling so weak, I am conscious yet I can’t feel any energy. My tears kept on dropping as I saw my family’s hurtful faces. Regretted, I really do. I promised them and myself to carry on with my […]

Today I had to go to the store with my stepmom I felt like everyone was staring and my eyes weighed 500 lbs. It’s been so long since I’ve been outside it’s weird awkward I think this has been my most depressed week ever I feel kinda of bad because there’s blind crippled people in the world who would love to have sight or walk but I’m taking it all way I’m kind of happy that the date is almost close except I heard of this circles of hell thing but it’s a myth so I shouldnt be worried

well finally I get to lay to rest in a few hours THANK GOD (lol whats so funny I just recently started saying thank god the past couple days knowing I will be dead and at peace).

Just printed my last few letters for mailing and can now relax my last few hours. Just have my hand written suicide note to be left behind, which will be short n sweet.

So I’ll have a few drinks, suck down some premo 420 and eat a home made 420 brownies I made a few days ago around 7PM EST

What i think about myself. I am a complete screw up. I screw everything up. I am pathetic who has no right to live at all. I dont want people in mine lives. They will end up leaving.I can’t accept it anymore. I don’t want anymore friends. I don’t even want to meet new people either. I sick of your sympathy. You just don’t understand. Why do i even bother trying anymore. Nothing will change. I will always be the same fat pig who doesnt want to be bother with sympathy or friends no longer. I’m planning on drowning, Hyperothermia, or overdoesing. Just as long […]

explaining your thoughts or views on something to people who view it differently like the whole rest of the fucking world is like talking to a fucking wall with a speaker in your ear repeating the same old shit over and over again

Well this fucking blows. I come up with the perfect plan to kill myself… Hanging at my parents businesss, which was supposed to be empty all day today. Then last night we find out a pipe burst and the whole place was flooded…. Inches of water everywhere. So my dad has been there all day, cleaning and getting things moved out so the restoration crew can come in tomorrow. Wonderful…. My private date with a rope and my suicide playlist cancelled. And please don’t say this is a sign I shouldn’t do it… I don’t believe in that.

My mother and I are staying at home instead of going to my aunt’s pool party today.

Why?

Well due to one of my car’s turn signals being broken my mother though it best to not have me drive it to one of my aunt’s houses(this aunt was supposed to be our ride for the pool party.) “Why couldn’t you have driven it anyway?” you might ask. Well, I haven’t driven for a year due to having no insurance/being at school. So instead of risking it and going ahead driving and signalling turns with my hand, I decided not to risk and just ask the aunt who […]

it’s pretty much what i’ve been doing the last 6 years (and a half) and i managed. but now i messed everything up. you see, i cut SUICIDE along my arm, from my elbow to my wrists (which is already covered with scars) and i cut a smiley into my right arm (which looks rather mad and sick as a scar) and i think i’m gonna have trouble hiding that since it’s summer now. and everyone knows that i never feel cold, so they’re gonna get suspicious if i start using that excuse. btw, no one knows about my depression and suicidal tendencies. i was […]

Not to be all lengthy but I am twenty five years old, I am married with two children. My father hung himself when I was five years old, and I have always resented him for that. Everyone talked of how wonderful he was as a living human being, however that never affected my opinion of him. Until I was twenty one I lived a pretty normal life, by twenty I had met the love of my life. March 8th 2007, I went to an old fashioned holiness church and Jesus Christ delivered me from too many sinful vices to name here. I felt god asked […]

I can’t get my mind off him.  I feel like it is a never ending fantasy.  I feel like I have no one.  I live in a world that does not exist.  What is wrong with me?

Do you hear me???

Well, my best friend wrote me a really long and sweet letter to me last night. She told me how much she loves me and cares for me and misses me( I’m in another country visiting family).  And she is the top person I love and care for. I couldn’t live with out her. Literally. And she told me should couldn’t live with out me either. I guess our friendship is a bit odd. We want to off ourselves together. And we have been planning that for some time now. I really think its gona work. But we want to use a shotgun, to be […]

Once there was this guy I really liked, he hugged me before I had to leave. I would have hugged him longer, but dad was standing right there(this was like a year ago). ughh. anyway. he was so warm and I felt so safe in his arms, even though he didn’t know I liked him. I wish he could have held on to me forever. I’ll probably never feel that warm and safe again. I’m not gonna make it to my next birthday.