I’m even starting to feel like, I don’t belong even on this site.

Like people are judging me, thinking I’m pathetic or not worth the time.

Even on a site where, suicide is the topic, and people are sharing their troubles, I feel like I’m not worthy of doing the same.

Guess it doesn’t matter if I eventually get the ending to my pain that I really want.

Today I have a lot of tings i have got to get done,but i dont have the energy to do anything. I’ve been walking around my house doing nothing. I didn’t eat anything, because nothing sounds good. My mom and step-dad yell at me for not eating, if they understood how i felt they wouldn’t yell at me. My friend thinks I’m tough because I don’t cry in front of people, but I’m not tough, I’m scared to show people my weakness,because every time i do, i get stabbed in the back.  When I do cry i do it in the shower,or in my closet. Every time i think im going to start crying i […]

I found out that when I cut I go into a state of dissociation? I think that’s how it’s spelt.. it’s like derealising your self.. like youre not real and you’re watching someone else cut. I also feel no pain when I cut, only later on when I’ve finally come back to reality..

Another thing, what do I do.. the guy I adore and cherish saw my cuts for the first time & I honestly think he was scared. Or put off.. maybe both..

I’ve been stocking up on pills and really tempted to take them if they fail then it’ll be a get drunk and a wonder down to the train tracks I can’t see the point in carrying on, I feel I’ve let everyone in my life down

This is the first post i’ve made to the internet since all this has happened, but here goes:

My girlfriend of 14 months left me in december and it was pretty sudden. We’d been having a few problems, nothing major, but we’d worked everything out. She was lying to me alot, going out to parties and telling me I couldn’t go with her and the reason was so she could see her friends as when i was there she felt stuck with me. She was talking/flirting with this boy alot online, I’d seen it and asked her but she  insisted they were just friends. She promised […]

Does anyone remember a girl called Glamgirl, or something like that, she supposedly commited suicide by setting fire to her house, and putting a bullet to her head. Her ”brother” posted comments on her posts.

I swear, with every bone in my body, I just saw her on Omegle, same hair colour, same hair length, same hair style, saame face, same sun glasses she wore in the pictures she posted on here. It was HER, but she disconnected before I had a chance. I think she’s alive, I really do. Urgh, I’ve found the same people on Omegle before, I’ll do it again.

I’ve been having a rough time trying to deal with everything.  My parents seem like they are splitting up.  I’ve been “dumped”.  Everyone acts like I should be the strong one.  I can’t be.  I’m going through life now pretending to be happy.  My friends think I am, that is.  I don’t want anyone else worrying about me.  My parents know about my cutting now.  Last night I refrained from cutting myself when I found out about how my parents see everyone in our household.  I told them they are pathetic for both of them to give up.  That was selfish of me, I know, […]

I find little hidden meanings in everything, I mean everything. I usually despise that I do that with every fibre of my being, thinking, it brings nothing but sorrow into my mind.

The scars on my shoulders are healing, when I put concealer on them, they’re barely noticeable, I even mustered up the confidence to go on Omegle, in a fucking tank top!

So my friends, my little meaning for this wonderful happening.

My scars are healing, and so am I!

Blame the effing SuicideProject.org for my wretched re-birth. ;D

Hello i am going to kill my self soon. Like next week. I am straight male and not a cross dresser or in to wearing woman’s clothes but i was thinking when i kill my self what if i was wear in a dress & high heel’s. When im found what would people think. I think it would be funny

So i had a few suicide attempts not very succesfull however this time i got my hands on a exit bag + a helium tank 8liter size. Just waiting for my flow controll to get here.
I been chronicaly ill since i was 16 with SLE and now im 23 , my life is basicly ruined and its nothing left for me to do i tried all other options such as therapists , pshyciatrists etc.

Im just curious if anyone else has simmilar strategy in mind to exit i read all the proper details about it from the books.

I am not gonna do anything, I can’t because I’ve got two sons, but I want to die so badly it physically hurts. Just venting hoping it will relieve the pressure. Going through a really nasty divorce, its all shit, I’ve got good friends though. But I am soooo overwhelmed with the stress and the sadness and the feeling of betrayal, just wishing for the everlasting peace of death, it would be so easy, living is soooo hard and painful! As I said, just venting.

I can’t no more. lately fucking everything is coming down on me,if it wasn’t enough i’m feeling sick, having suicidal thoughts. the most sad part is i aint brave enough to do it, so i’m literally trapped in hell. I wanna let go but somehow i can’t, i wanna change things but i’m not strong enough to do so. i’m feeling so pathetic, like a little ball for my enviroment to play with. i praying every day thatt god might either give me the strength to do it or the strength to change everything, because i can’t go on like this

I feel like all I’ve done lately is wake up, eat and sleep lately. It’s somewhat depressing, but at the same time, it’s not like I’m not loved or needed/wanted. BF keeps me company when he can, and I just feel it’s all worth it. Sometimes though, I just don’t feel like doing anything but sleeping. Today I’ve had an issue where it feels like my right rib is all bruised, but I didn’t do anything to hurt the area, so I’m a bit confused on that. While BF was out most of the night, I pretty much just slept, I could of hopped […]

It feels like the loneliness is what will kill me before I get the chance. I thought that I have been fighting it and keeping it back well enough. But I feel like it’s eating me alive and I can’t sleep anymore unless I cry myself to sleep but I have to be careful because of the people I live with. I’m starting to slip at work and things are getting to me more and more. Everytime I turn around I want to cry until I stop breathing. I never get to that point though I usally fall asleep be then or someone has come […]

:'(

someone keep me company?

17 female

ugh

alot to handle

I don’t care anymore, theres nowhere I can go and be happy, I go to school and I’m miserable because someone is going to either fuck with me or be mad at me sometime during the day, I come home and I’m miserable because my parents scream and fight all day.  I can’t be happy anymore, no matter how much I try.  Every time I am happy for a second it just turns into anger.

Earlier today I was listening to the song First Date by Blink 182 and daydreaming about going on a date with this girl I have a crush on, but then I […]

We only have one really tall building in my town, it was just built so they kind of put a lot of pride into that stupid Bank of America building. I mean, who really needs a 32 floored building just for bankers and their offices?

I am sort-of glad they’ve built this. Before we had this building there was nowhere for me to jump off of, or even ponder jumping off of. Believe it or not, the times when I’m thinking about committing suicide is when my mind is most clear, when it’s not just the thought of cutting myself or burning myself or something minimal, […]

This picture always cracks me up

I just cannot deal with life anymore. I cannot deal with circumstances and things that I hate so much but cannot change. I cannot stand to look in the mirror at myself, at things that I hate so much but cannot change. Every day is torture for me. I cannot function anymore. I stay in bed all day and have no motivation to get out of bed and face the day. I hate to see the day and the sunshine and know the most people out there are so happy while I am suffering so miserably. I yearn […]

I am nothing but a nuesence in evrybody’s life.

Why can’t I be the one that everybody cares about.

The perfect body.

The perfect face.

The perfect girl.

The perfect life.

The Perfect.

But nope.