Ate for the first time in a week.
Half a greasy pizza. 😐

He hasnt been online for 10 days and i suppose he’s gone.

Safe Journey, see you somewhere better, brother! You’ve had it worse for sure.
You deserve the peace.

I’m not far behind in the line…

To me, the world is simple, very simple, only that everyone is plotting schemes to complicate it.
god ? the scapegoat for problems.
ghost ? only the insane sees it.
health ? the winner gets it.
happiness ? to parasite and suck.
pain and hate ? while you can’t parasite and suck.
love ? is to possess.
life ? material weighed as success.

truth ? ignorance is bliss.
If you agree to all the above, it can be just summed up as greed.
Greed upon others, trying to subjugate something, somebody to be under your service.
And you just failed to gain a vantage on greed, […]

Heres my gun, heres my soul..Both rdy to leave the chamber they inhabit, and I know that it means nothing in the end of the day..No one will care, and I honestly dont want them to, why would I want them to? This is going to happen..there is no escaping it..IM tired of being like this, and I know it wont get better it never has after all these yrs..Hold you friend in his lap when he bleds to death..Look ur mother in the eye when she says she never wanted you and that if a doctor would of done the surgery you wouldnt be […]

When I wanted to die, I used to stand by the side of the road and think about how easy it would be to walk in front of a big truck and get mowed down. I figured it would be quick and easy, except I felt bad for the driver and what they’d have to deal with.

I went to the hospital once because I was so low and I couldn’t stand living that way any more. I didn’t want to die, not really, but I wanted to stop feeling like life wasn’t worth living. I wanted to stop waking up to a sick stomach, stop […]

Unlike those who are going through a rough patch in high school or college stress, I’m 26yrs old and out in the real world. When I was in elementary school I would go home and cry because I had no friends. My mom told me it was ok, middle school would be better. The same happened in middle school, highschool, and of course college. Each was suppose to be the “best years” of my life. I’m now in the largest city in the country without a single close friend, a girlfriend, or a rewarding job, and I have $60k in student loans with a […]

In early January I decided it was about time I get myself into post-secondary but I had to start with upgrading. This was discussed with my employer and I registered for school but due to a miss-communication I was left without a sustainable amount of hours. In light of the events and having $5000 cash on hand I decided I would move out of my town and into the city so I could be closer to school and have better opportunities for work.

My first month in the city an uninsured driver cut me off and totaled my car, leaving me without transportation in -40*C, I […]

ok so i just keep cutting in an attempt to die hope it goes through ima teen but nobody seems to care im tired of my friends acting like they know wats wrong i just want it to stop so im ending tonite goodbye lifes pain

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MKfDwChOoHI

No matter how much I try, there is no sunny side to life or anything to do with it. things in this economy are looking so bleak, I just cant imagine how i’ll manage to survive it. This country is headed to oblivion, wtf!!!! I flippin hate looking at the stupid sheeple who live everyday as though nothing is on the horizon, its sick…

To those that know me you know who I am, I am not a video game character but a person as lost in life as everyone else here, a person who fears the future, who fears how his life will turn out.  Who knew that life would lead me to this?  Who knew that one day I would kill myself, my point is I am no longer happy here, my coping skills have been decimated, I don’t think I can stand living any longer, even longer than a year.  I know my family will see me again,  I have everything panned out all I need […]

people keep…noticing. they keep asking me if I’m okay. They keep saying ‘oh, you just sound down’ or ‘you look depressed’. even teachers. there’s this one teacher, Everytime I pass by him. ‘you alright? you look upset…y’sure?’ I know what you’re thinking, I should feel grateful right? Then how come I don’t. Well, I do. I’m just scared shitless. Have I really become that obvious? I thought I could hide it well; My mask is slipping, and it’s the only thing I have.

I told myself I’d never let anyone know, without me telling them…I can’t even keep my promise to myself, what the fuck is […]

i started smoking again bad idea.. but it did calm me down you have no idea what i’ve been through the last three days… oh and thanks to those who gave me there emails that’s real sweet. Makes me feel good. something i havnt felt in awhile…i think im gonna try some hard core drugs, im nervous but i’ve seen people do it and it helps them cope right? well, anyone try anything really illegal? crystal meth? heroin? crack? coke? i just want to know before i ruin my life… but for the last three days i’ve been putting on a show for these people!! […]

MAKING THINGS RIGHT
I’m sorry that I hurt you
Is there anything I can do
To make things right
Holding on so tight
I’m sorry for making us fight
I see the light
With all my might
I say that I’m sorry I never meant to do this
It wasn’t a trick
I was just mad
And made you sad
I guess ur glad
That were friends
BFFs till the end