I live a pretty interesting life… I’m on seriquil right now 100mg. Not taking it right now… not for the last 72 hrs… makes me sleep.

listining to life is beautiful by Sixx AM off the album the Heoin diaries.

I believe  that the closer we get to death the closer we feel alive… becuse your never more alive then when your dieing that includes killing yourself.

I believe that we are all running out of time and we are all going to die… so fuck it… and enjoy life… its coming and we can’t stop it.

I do believe that I made a deal with god… that I […]

I’m only 14 and i cant stand this life. My heart is completly broken my mom is a ***** and always wants me to be miss perfect and my dad wants me to be pro at sports and my friends just dont uinderstand any more. the only true person that understands is a guy that im dating but he has another girlfriend and for some reason im ok with it. But i dont see him alot so i dont get to talk to him. i could care less if i died tonight. Honestly i wish something or someone will kill me tonight. No one will […]

I realize that you mean well, but your pat answer of “life is worth living” is kind of empty. The reason (as sad as it is) that many of us are on this site is because we DON’T feel that way. One more cheery person telling us differently isn’t going to automatically change our minds.

I don’t want to discourage you from trying to dissuade people from taking their lives; actually, I applaud your desire to help. Maybe a better approach would be to ask why they feel the way they do. Many people in this situation are looking for empathy from those who understand, […]

Is it wrong not to hate a person even if that person did something unforgiveable cuz i dont know i dont allow myself to get angry and i dont believe in hate i  think your truely bad when you let hate run your life… ANYWAY This weekend was great their was no fighting and nothing.On saterday we found a stray dog  its a white minature poodle and we’re looking for the owner but so far no luck my aunt is supposed to be takeing it.The family called it whitney because we found it on whitney ave.UUUGH!!! I might get my report card tomorrow i should […]

Any one know about how long it would take?

Why should I live, whats in it for me? the pain,

the feeling of loneliness, feeling of hatred

why should I stay around no one care if I live or

die. I know that alot of people would be very

happy if I just fall off the face of the earth. I aint

no body so why should I live?

I’ve never been able to be honest with anyone when trying to explain how I feel. Everytime I do talk I gloss over the nastier aspects of what goes through my mind.
I would’nt say I’ve had the hardest life or the easiest, but I cant stop feeling like I’m on the edge of cracking and losing it completely. I get this rage and want to smash and break everything including myself. i scream because the pain is just too much and i cant get rid of it. it eats at me everyday and im so close to tears all the time. I am however […]

I don’t really know my story. I attempted suicide at fifteen, was in a coma for five days and in hospitals for months. Eventually – I felt better, like I’d finally crossed back over that line, the one where you can almost label yourself “normal”. I finally thought I’d appreciated surviving, that it had happened for a reason. But every so often those thoughts cross my mind again. 
Sometimes I think it’s more than depression, like there’s something deeper. But to me that void seems so complicated it’s not worth exploring. I can never draw the picture.
Now, I’ve got my life mapped out. I […]

I posted a few days ago asking that you don’t try to talk me out of ending my life of crap and did not want to give you any of my bac.kground information so you would not try talking me out of it.  I also stated that I would spend some time looking through posts to see if I could get any help from them.  Well after reading through tons of posts I see that my situation is very different than everyone here so I will give you my story

First the good:  I am a 38 yr/old healthy male.  I have a job […]

Lying down
Faint light shining through the window
Grey
Our star’s light is altered by our water, floating through the air
And yet science explains it all, as normal
People say no to the world, they must be crazy
People put man on the moon, that’s normal

Thinking of how to end ones life
Then to be hit with scathing criticism
“Your crazy” they scream
Meanwhile a butcher severs a chickens head
And a fellow being cuts open a living person to save them
Yet all this one is doing, is saying “no thanks” to the world…
“Free me, to another”

– MyChoice

I think tonight I will ask my mum if she’d be willing to do it with me. I know that I am her only reason she carries on life, she told me it many times. And I would’ve killed myself long, long ago if mum wasn’t so dear to me. So we both are our only reasons to live and we both wanna die.
So why wouldn’t we both die?

I am a total failure. I have failed my own suicide many times, c’mon failed on failing? Lol. I’ve been struggling with school and hardly gotten through, every teacher hates me for I try to be […]

tonights one of the worst ones

already had an attempt, but somthing holds me back

and im really glad it does, i know i dont wanna die. i just know it. i just dont wanna live like this anymore, its got to be the most painful thing to go through. i cant sleep. i cant eat. ive lost over 15 pounds now. my hip has my cuts than you can imagine, my hand is burned with blisters. theyve tried everything. and so far nothing will help. when i call, no one seems to understand whats going on. i feel like they dont even care. like that theyy […]

I’ll give you all of myself, bit by bit, until you feel whole. I just wish you knew you keep coming back for more when there’s nothing left to have. There are only the roots left with this flower. Please, don’t dig up the rest of me.

All i ever wanted was to pick apart the day and put the pieces back my way,
and now i’ll be able to, on my death date.

I’m 23, and have been depressed for maybe 4-5 years. I’m debating going ahead and killing myself…the only thing that’s preventing me is the insane college debt I have. While I would love to be rid of it and not think of it, my parents cosigned all my loans, and I fear I would bankrupt them if I died. They are loving supportive parents, and while I think they would have a difficult time losing me, I could still do it. But to put them in a financial crisis? That just seems like something that’s too cruel to do…they’ve worked hard all their lives, and […]

Because I still laugh at funny things and enjoy certain things. I’m not asking am I depressed enough for me to kill myself, because I want to kill myself but I am not depressed… how would that look to someone who doesn’t understand and instead just saw some person kill themselves (not literally) and then found out they didn’t stay stoic for days on end, didn’t cut themselves (I know not all cut themselves), didn’t cry, or show much signs of sadness because they weren’t sad.

Plain and simple I hate the world, I don’t wanna even bother wasting time living it because as I […]

I’ve been through so much in my short life. I’m 23, my first attempt was at 12, self harmed from the age of 7. I persevered, really tried to make something of my life. Now it’s time to just give in, and accept things will never get better. I’m planning to CTB on February 6th, using HS2. If anyone wants to join me, email me at skatemetohell@hotmail.co.uk. Serious replies only please. I live in london, I have a car and the means. I want someone to CTB with, but if it doesn’t work out, I will go ahead anyway.

I’m almost 42. For those on this site who are closer to my age (i.e., not teens or early 20’s)…have depression & suicidal feelings been a longstanding issue for you? If so, do you remember any extended periods of relief? Just curious. Thanks.

I feel so alone. Unwanted by friends. Unloved by the one that has my heart. Hated by my family. I don’t know what to do anymore. I tried to kill myself awhile ago and obviously failed. I’m slipping down that path again. I started cutting again. I stopped taking those stupid anti-depressants because they don’t help for crap. I want someone to notice and care, but nobody does. They only care about themselves. I wish I had at least one person that cared…

Would you guys agree with my new thought: Loneliness is the only real pain.