Guys short post. You can do it. Stick with it. I know you can. Just takes time. (((HUGS)))

i am fifteen and am home by myself most of the time. my little brother is the happiest kid i know. my mom acts like a teenager and goes out all the time, leaving me and my brother home alone. and well, my dad is dead. lately ive been the most unhappy person you could probably ever meet in your life. ever. i am always having to hide how i feel. i wish i could tell my mom that i smoke weed to make myself feel better and to escape reality. but even weed hasn’t been helping my problems lately. i am alone. my friends dont […]

1,2,3,4,5,18, how many times am i going to cut, before i realise that watching my blood seep out of my arm, doesn’t solve anything ? Yes, i tell myself, you shouldn’t do this! What is wrong with you ? You’ve never done anything like this before! But the scissors just keep coming back to haunt me. 18 times, 3 times in 2011. On my legs, on my arms, hidden so no one will ask questions. Its time to stop, but once i stop, i just start again. Whether it be a week or year later, its impossible for me to move on and never go […]

I feel so alone…again.
Maybe this so-called Real world is just not for me, or ‘weird’ people like me…

Here’s why:

– I can’t relate to 80% of people (society) around me everyday, in that they’re actually enthusiastically talk only about money, how to get more money, and how to spend more in luxurious things.
– Music has always been my utmost passion & dreams that I intend to pursue it (so much that I in fact just decided to quit on my 7-years dull furniture-factory family-business job, a decision which shocks everyone in my big Asian Chinese family), but lately after hearing my friends’ talks, and […]

i’ve been taking pain pill almost everyday for about 3 years now and it’s destroying my life.  im going to my first counseling/rehab meeting tomorrow, and i’m scared the withdraws are going to lead me to think about suicide more than i already do.  i sniffed my (hopefully) last two 40mg opanas a few hours ago.  The place i’m going really pushes its patients to take suboxone to curb cravings and withdraw symptoms, but i can’t afford it.  i’d rather kill myself than be a burnout drug addict the rest of my life.  my loving family is the only thing keeping me from blowing my […]

that’s it. game over. there’s no one left for me, so this year i’m finally going to go through with my new year’s resolution: i’ll get a head start on 2012

I’m young (15 years old), but I can’t handle anything anymore.  I’ve been diagnosed with chronic depression and put on medication which doesn’t help much, although I’ve switched medications almost ten times already.  I’m just tired of it.

So I’ve read into the exit bag method.  It looks promising, but I don’t have the helium or carbon monoxide readily available.  I do, however, have canned air.  I researched it, and even though it’s the opposite of helium (heavier than air rather than lighter), it makes you pass out, regardless, which is the point of the helium anyway.

Anyway, I’ve read about people failing because their body reacts, […]

Help With Depression and Suicide

Guys I want to help everyone, so I made this video… I hope it will save a life. Maybe get someone out of depression, and maybe someone can relate along the way…

If you feel the need to talk some things over, or even get help, PLEASE! EMAIL ME!!

Don’t you get it? You need to talk!

Suicide is not chosen; it happens
when pain exceeds
resources for coping with pain.

That’s all it’s about. You are not a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed, because you feel suicidal. It doesn’t even mean that you really want to die – it only […]

[Natalie] Anything you wish to say at this very special moment?

LIAR. FAILURE. FAT. WHORE. USELESS DROPOUT SHIT. TOXIC PREGNANT CUTSLUT. JERKOUT TRUCK WOMAN WITH A MANUFACTURED EGO. HOPELESS AT LOVE. WORSE AT LIFE. MENTAL WASTEOUT COCKEATER. DETATCHED MUTE GIRL. SEMI AWAKE REJECT. RSA ENCODED GOVERNMENT SECRET. NAUGHTY NAUGHTY FINGER FUCKIN HORNY LITTLE NAUGHTY PANTY CAM GIRL.

[bleach the girl][a bleach bottle on an empty cabinet]

[comatose[corrode[Clorox[low

Imgonnatearyouapart[imintearsasireadthis]

peroxide. mechanical surveillance culture. misery butterfly. studio meds.

i think youre conceited[and i dont believe you do care]

next to you [they [sic] love you] in the mirror

in the bar. then outside. i fell into the trap. i am a child in playboy bunny […]

Guys I want to help everyone, so I made this video… I hope it will save a life. Maybe get someone out of depression, and maybe someone can relate along the way…

If you feel the need to talk some things over, or even get help, PLEASE! EMAIL ME!!

Don’t you get it? You need to talk!

Suicide is not chosen; it happens
when pain exceeds
resources for coping with pain.

That’s all it’s about. You are not a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed, because you feel suicidal. It doesn’t even mean that you really want to die – it only means that you have more […]

Paradise Lost – Hollywood Undead Being in my head gave me a lot of time to think; What happens after, Whats the point, Will the person even care when i do it? I am going to admit that i did smoke weed on the 12/26/10 and 1/1/10. One time created problems ( http://suicideproject.org/2011/01/i-cant-take-these-lies-no-more/ ) and the other time it helped. So i’m happy cause the second time was all i needed. Right now i’m talking to the world’s  bestes friends on Twitter. Right now all I could lose in  my life is them, and i will never let that happen. My family doesnt […]

I’m a newcomer to the site, I’m female (15 yrs.) and want to end my suffering.

You may think I’m dumb,crazy,messed up, or whatever but take a mile long walk in my shoes…

Everyone thinks I have the perfect life: cool and easy going parents, lots of friends, middle class, etc.

But in reality my life sucks.

I feel like I fail at everything I do. I’ve been getting into random fights with everyone lately, including my best friend, for no appearent reason.

Now my brother (13 yrs) has a high case of autisim. I love him to death. But I’m worried that later on, that I’ll let him down. I’m […]

So, I’m getting ready to go using the helium hood method. I was hoping I could get a little advice from you guys.

OK. I don’t REALLY hate it.  The part that I hate is when I spend days and days working on a hat and then I look at it and say “this is ugly” and pull it out.  Then I start re-knitting it in a new way. Inevitably, I hit a similar spot and then pull all my work out again.

People tell me that this is the fun of knitting. Personally, I like wearing a hat and having something to show for my work.  I don’t mind re-working stuff, but it’s a little ridiculous when you can spend an entire winter season working on stuff and […]

Its the new year.. I survived the two worst years of my life. Butt the worst is yet to come. My dad still lives. I am happy that he lived to Christmas.. But.. Now i have to wait and continue to watch him die… I dont think anyone out there knows how much it hurts watching someone you love die.. Especialy your own father.. I sit in my room blasting music by Breaking Benjermin. I cry. I pray. I hope. And sadly.. I die.

My light has left my sole. And i know now it will never come back. I sit and think to myself. “Why am i still […]

ONE OF THE HARDEST THINGS i’m going through, and that makes me want to go “home”, is remorse.
i’m talking about deep, deep regret about things you’ve done and that caused you great harm. it can be the stupid way you’ve handled a relationship, it can be a job you quit or a job interview you screwed… my life is full of it. i feel like a pile of regret, i’m soaked in it and i alwyas mess up again and again. i never forgive myself – how can i stand my own pace of terrible mistakes.
i know, i’ve been thinking. i know […]

I have attempted suicide 3 times.  I’m now 27, the first time i was 14, the second time i was 21 and the last time was april last year.  I’m currently having suicidal thoughts but i will not give in to it.  sometime your worst enemy is yourself.  sometimes the information you recieve from your own brain is not correct.  When i was 14 i lived with two alcoholic and abusive parents – i wanted a way out.  I was not succesful but gradually life did improve – it was hard work and took forever.

Now i’m married and estranged from my parents.  I’m in therapy […]

Comeing Apart Amv

I’m almost 42 years old, and I’ve been fighting depression since I was eight. I’m so tired. My counselor is a kind, sweet person, but I think she’s done all she can. Medication does nothing for me. My family and friends don’t want to hear about my struggles, and judge my depression as a character flaw if I talk about it. I feel very lonely, isolated, and as if I don’t have a voice. Also, I’m a Christian; I’m active in my church and I pray regularly, but there is no relief. (And I really don’t want to hear that I’m not faithful enough…you’d lose […]

Hello everyone.

I have decided to use the helium method to end my life and save myself from this pain.  I have read Final Exit and have already purchased the supplies to make the exit bag.  Tomorrow morning I will be going to a local party store to purchase two helium tanks to complete the process. My only problem is that I am unsure of what type of tubing I need.

Is it something that I can purchase from a local pharmacy, such as nebulizor tubing?  Or can I locate it at a hardware store?  If someone could please tell me the type of tubing I am […]