I am 15, and i know you’ll probably think this is some teenage tiff but just cause I’m 15 doesn’t mean that the feelings aren’t real.
My mum and dad were never together but my mum did marry a man who decided to adopt me and became like my second dad but in 2006 they got divorced and my 2nd dad met another woman and had a child, and well basically when I’m at my mum’s and when I’m at my dad’s I’m just a ghost in the background, I’ve went through my life without a real father figure, to be honest all I’ve learned […]

I just saw something really horrible, by mistake. I was searching for a horror movie that I couldn’t remember the full name of, so I Googled what I thought it was and after searching further I came across a link that I assumed was a horror movie – it turned out to be real footage of an horrific crime that happened in the Ukraine. It was 3 boys that went around smashing people to death with hammers and they recorded their crimes, some of it got leaked onto the net and I just came across one of them.  Before I watched the video there was […]

Let’s leave aside the arguments about the existence of Heaven and Hell, God and Satan for a minute. I’m not religious, but a religious person could as easily make this cultural observation. Virtually every religion with a belief in reward and punishment zones in the afterlife places Heaven far above Earth, and Hell deep within it. That says that the quintessential human idea of suffering is to stay near this world, and the quintessential idea of reward is escape from it. Is this cultures across the globe and across time way of saying that this world sucks and we should want to leave it? Is […]

So. Sometime of February of 2010, I was playing Runescape, to bring back old memories. I got a message from a guy I knew, named Jake. He is 16 and lives in Michigan. I was simply excited that he remembered me after a year of leaving Runescape and he simply made me happy that day. We started talking a lot. I gave him my phone number, which was a stupid mistake I made. For a couple of weeks we talked over Runescape, until he got his phone back, because as of the time his phone was broken.

Sometime towards the end of February to the beginning […]

I feel stupid, I feel retarded even…I can’t forget anything even now since I’m living with my mom now…She treats me very nicely but I still hold this anger…this grudge..I don’t know I feel like a nut something wrong. Even the things I do I don’t understand.

I hate my mom…for some reason, I hate her. I don’t even know why…She was always nice to me…But I hate them both..my mother and father. My father he’s a horrible person..he lied to me as well..He got re-married and was cheating on my mom..At least that’s as far as I know. He didn’t even tell me or my […]

Hello there,

I am 17 years old and am fairly depressed at the moment. My life has been going up and down and  I fear I have a little bit of a split personality…

I have ruined friendships because of this and at school, I am always a different person than that at home.

I have been considering suicide for about four to five weeks now, but my family is all that can hold me together. However, I am also at a boarding school, which means my family is further and further away from me than I had hoped.

It feels good to let someone know about this, because […]

From rape to right in, to real to live
should I lie down or stand up
And walk around again?

My eyes finally wide open up
My eyes finally wide open shut
to find the found of sound
That hears the touch of my tears.

Smells the taste of all we waste
Could feed the others
But we smother each other
With the nectar and pucker the sour

Of sugar sweet weather
blows through our trees
Swims through our seas
flies to the last gasp we left on this earth, oh ohh

It’s a long lonely journey from death to birth
it’s a long lonely journey from death to…

If anyone reads this whole way too-long rant, thank you for putting up with this sad display of self-loathing and sadness. I should value my life more. I know. But I just don’t. (I do hope someone reads this. This is the only way I can actually say what I think and feel to actual other people).

I’m 19 and in college, a good college. I’m about to have a good living situation with people I love to be around, good friends. I have supportive parents and a loving little sister. I have friends at home and at college. I’m relatively smart (even though I seldom […]

The person I loved treated me as shit. He left suddenly after a year’s relationship. Then he came back after 6 months and I accepted him. The biggest mistake of my life?- well not really but one of the worst for sure.
We were happy. He introduced me to his new group of friends @ MBA class. Once he joked about seeing a beautiful girl in a university programme. “I wanna flirt with her if u dont mind….,” he said. Then on January 30th, I was playing with his phone and noticed a “heaven” saved. He argued its a girl who keeps calling him, bothering […]

I’m currently a 20 year old living in New Jersey, and I suffer from bipolar disorder. I got kicked out of my house, and I live at my fiancee’s house. She hates me, my friends hate me, and bascially everyone hates me. My medicine never works, and I’m always very depressed not doing what I do daily. I got in a fist fight with my best friend, and it has become worse. I’ve abused my fiancee because of all the pain I have caused, and I want to end my life. She understands why I did it, but doesn’t know how to react. Someone please […]

the title says it all.
those words came out of someones mouth who also wants me to be able to tell them everything and anything thats bothering me.

thats okay.

confusion makes the straight edges easier to wield.
in the long run, i don’t matter, i know this.

)if i grow up anymore, i’ll fucking die)

you’ll never find this, cruel world, you’ll also move on, and be happier.
they think i am just a drama case.
they’ll never see me for who i am.

silence is deadly, and a favorite among those who don’t really care.

i’ve been holding back, but it wont be long now.

It’s all my fault,
Every last drop you drink,
Has me to blame.

It’s my fault,
When the room starts to spin,
And you start to giggle,
Just a little too hard,
To be normal.

It’s always been my fault,
That your becoming, 
almost as fuked up as me.
That in the end,
Your the one in need of a true friend.

We shared so many secrets.
And made so many promises.
But it my fault I can’t keep it,
The one promise I made,
To never give up and die,
To never say goodbye.

Everythings my fault,
I’m to blame,
Just give me some time, 
to hang my […]

im losing somebody i love who helped me through the years of pain who was there 2 comfort me when i came home from school crying bcuz i was being bullied teased or made fun of i was hated for what i looked like and constantly beaten up all the time nobody helped me so i always cried 2 my parents and they wud tell me im just faking using it as an excuse so i wont go 2 school, each night i wud hide in my room 2 cry and cut myself on my wrists nobody cared for my pain i go through it […]

first,excuse me my english is not tht good…i came to the US from a southamerican country,6 months after i got here i meet n started living with this amazing girl,she treated me like a king,she love me like no one before n i was an idiot,i was in love with her,and i show it to her during the first 2 years,even though from the beginning i wasnt all tht caring to her…i just lost her 8 months ago,after 6 years together…i miss her so much,i miss her voice,her smile,how silly she can be…i dont even know where she is anymore,ive try to find her just […]

Everyday i wait for my life to change and it dont even thou i want to commit succide i have always feared death i dont have no friends hardly cant never get no girls i feel possed in the head even thou im a nice guy which makes me feel even words i concimplate sucidide dailey but never can get the guts up to do it

I wanted to get other people’s opinions on dreams. Ocaisionally, when I sleep, I won’t dream at all, I don’t understand why. The majority of the time though, I have really good dreams, dreams where I’m happy and surrounded by people who love me; however, when I wake up I feel really depressed. I personally w0uld rather have a terrible dream, then wake up to reality and be content with it, considering that it is much better than what I was just dreaming of opposed to having a good dream, and then waking up to realize that none of it was real, and I’m still […]

I decided to commit suicide over a month ago. I’ve been preparing and now I am spending my last couple of weeks doing this;

I am not going to work, I am spending money on all my favourite food, music and films. Today for instance, I have cleaned up my house, and myself (I was a bit of a mess), and went shopping. I have just eaten my favourite meal and I intend to snack all day. I am lying here on the sofa, listening to the wind blowing outside, and watching the trees, I am about to put on a f@cking great film. I feel […]

i hate life.  if i was given the chance to end it right now, i wouldnt think twice about it. i just want to not exist anymore. i dont want to commit suicide incase i fail and become a vegitable or just be know as the attention seeker. because i am not seeking attention. i have never told anybody how i feel. i feel unloved and empty most days. i feel guilty most days as i have a good life, good friends, mom who loves me. and i am an ungrateful *****. but i feel like each day is just a drag. i dont think […]

I hate it all, everything is ona nonstopn decline friends truth trust loyalty they are only fucking words but at tis point it’s not suicide I want to die but not before them all of them, I wanna punish them by sim[ly smiling knowing I will outlive you’re cock sucking self my hate drives me only when it is gone can I die still fuck them all once again fuck them fuck them fuck them! if there is a god I hope he can peer into the true darkness of hatred as I will be left smiling truly for the first time in a long […]

i feel like crap… my girl friend or baby mother keeps tellin me that im a piece of crap a no good father and jus makes me want to end my life an im tired of the way she isi have tried my best since we have been together to chill out but i cant its been like this ever since she started her job and thinks she is better than me… when on the other hand im the one that to care of her and HER son for three years…. i dont know wat to do i feel like i dont need to be […]