There really isn’t. So what happens when the drugs don’t get you to were you ned to be (over several years). Is it really just me? Anyone?
So, at this point, it seem that the drugs prescribed are there to help my marriage work. It isn’t doing it anymore. Whant happens when you end it? I wan’t to see my kids on the other side – BAD. My kids are my life, What to do.
My goodness. Does anyone ever wonder WHY we do the things we do? Go to work, come home, ENJOY spending time with the kids, put them to bed, and then …. NOTHING. I feel empty.
My wife is not interested in me, and I’m not sure she’s interested in our 2 beautiful children. She loves – above all – her dog (of all things). What the hell is the point of going on through this painfully boring drivvel.?
I’m a beatiful person who feels a severe lack of passion in my life, and am not sure how to get that back. It is driving me wildly crazy.
SOMEONE […]
I feel like sharing some of my thoughts. I’m able to write very well when I’m upset, I’ve noticed. Two things are always responsible for making me upset or suicidal. This has been true especially for the last 5 years. The first thing is my physique. You know what an anorexic is, right? Well for different reasons I exhibit some of the same feelings an anorixic has, but just the opposite. I cry about not being big enough. I do whatever I can to GAIN weight, which is exactly the opposite of what an anorexic does. My therapist reminds me that quite often, anorexics aren’t […]
 All I’ve ever wanted was to die. I first attempted to kill my self at 7
I’ve had 8 serious attempts at suicide. Failing at that just made me hurt more. The people that know me would be so surprised at how much fear I’m in. They never see that side of me. But I am so scared. But it’s just waking up tomorrow that scares me the most. I get scared that I might be immortal. I know that’s crazy. I just can’t stanmd the crushing feeling all the time. The panic attacks. I’m rambling now aren’t I?
I dislike the idea that I’m so cut off from the people around me that I seek solace in the company of strangers, but at the end of the day I guess this is merely another means of protecting myself. But here is where the problem lies, for a long time I’ve felt complete inability to trust, not that this means I don’t let people know my problems and difficulties, but it’s easier to appear trusting for me than to actually trust, the best way I find for someone to not really know me is to be honest. It sounds strange, but the truth is […]
I dont know where to start, My life has never been a shining example of humanity. We all have our problems.
When I turned 21 I started having Grand Maul seizures and none of the doctors seem to care…no insurance. One day I woke up in the hospital and doctors standing over me telling me I had 3 seizures and they cant figure out why, but none the less I was told i am not allowed to work or drive anymore and i need to get on disability immediatly. That was in 2006, since then I have had over 200 seizures and busted my […]
No one knows my true feelings.. I so bad want to write a status on Facebook or Myspace and tell how i truely feel so maybe someone can help me but they’ll all think im crazy and weak. I like scream inside wanting to post something for everyone i know, to know my true feelings. Does anyone else have this problem? Or have actually posted it?
I honestly in my heart feel life wasnt meant for me. I feel broken. I know i can not be fixed. Marriage, kids, a career life isnt for me. I know i’m broken. I just don’t know how long this misery will last for me.
‘I’m drowning in these feelings and it’s scaring me to death’.
I have been suicidally depressed for 9 months to a year. Things haven’t got better. I’ve tried all I can. Things never will get better. I have lost my life – my friends, family, career – through this illness.
I just can’t cope. Please someone take the pain away. Make my head right again and my spine pain-free. I could deal with the pain on its own, but with this enduring mental distress.. it doesn’t end. I haven’t healed from one trauma, let alone deal with another and another and another.
I need someone to talk to […]
Why is it that when I cut myself, I feel good?
i wonder why i am here i really do.
i can have everyone around me and still feel lonely i dont belong here , i dont belong anywere im a nobody im worthless , this sadness has gone on for too long now ive gotten to the stage of pushing everyone away from me yes its my own fault but no one understands me they look at me and ask me whats wrong , why do you self harm your just stupid grow up. but i cnt help it try living as me try having the feelings i do ? try sitting here on a […]
im a 13 year old girl who hates life so much i want to die , ive tried self harming ive tried suicide 2 times. but some one up there must be looking out for me cos im still here. life depresses me i dont no what i want in life i push my friends away that now they just dont carre if i was here or not, the only person who ever made me truly happy was my boyfriend but even he couldnt cope with my depression and he left me, and from then everythings got worse, my friends ask me whats wrong with […]
for as long as i can remember, i’ve always been different from everyone else.
eventually i came to accept it; i basked in loneliness, despite the fact that it was “wrong” in the eyes of others. it was wrong to sit in my room alone. it was wrong to ignore others. it was wrong to not be like everyone else.
so i put up walls and i lived behind a mask for years. it was nearly perfect, as everyone bought into my lies. they believed that i was the person who i pretended to be.
yet one person knew.. he was the person closest to myself. he […]
I am a 19 year old who has been in and out of psych hospitals and regular hospitals since i was 15. I started self-harming in 8th grade because my mother was up set at how i expressed emotions so i stopped expressing them altogether. I tried suicide when i was 15 because we had a foreign exchange student who kept telling horrible lies and my parents and friends believed her over me and i was left out in the cold. My sister found me dazed on the bethroom floor and called my mom. After two tubes of charcoal later i was put in a […]
Hiii. I’m a 17 year old girl and i hate everyone. Everyone at my school likes to spread rumors around that i’m actually a boy, because technically i used to be one and people from my middle school/freshman year of hs remember that (i “transitioned” like a year and a half ago). But i pass extremely well (like my voice is good and everything) and i have a straight bf and stuff, and a lot of my friends don’t even know about “that”. People still make fun of me though, and everyone thinks i’m a total freak. Like i’ve been followed home before and been […]
I have recently come back to suicidal thoughts after a few years away from them.
I have recently taken a huge step in an attempt to improve my life, I have moved from the UK to the US to be with a partner that I once let get away from me. But now that I am here I find myself isolated in the house when she goes to work, I have no transport, no money and no-one to talk to most of the day. When she gets in from work she is exhausted and in no way able to cope with my feelings and her son […]
I am not looking for sympathy
nor help, nor empathy nor understanding. I am just writing this so I can get a clear mind about what I am about to do, or at least try to do.
Hi…I have been following your story. I just had to try to reach out to you and tell you I am so sorry you are having to experience the pain depression. You are very articulate and seem to have an awareness of the magnatude of your plight. I want to give you some added information that my help you feel there is real hope for a true change in your life that will lead you out of a world of pain and into a world of hope and joy and creativity. First you need to know that depression is a biolobical […]