i have been suicidal for 2 weeks. i feel like i am losing my mind. i cant think straight and i have lost a sense of sustainablity. i want this nightmare to end, i want to be done with this cumbersome task of trying to be happy.

last week while standing on the chair with a rope around my neck, trying to find the courage to step off, i thought to myself ” wow i am this fucked up.” i started to think about all the wrongs in my life and what has transpired over the past couple of months, that make me want to […]

               Well I am just waiting for the effects of the Vicodin and alcohol kick in. I have overdosed so many times and I have slit my wrists just as many. Yes at first it was a cry for help but now I really want to die. Everything in my life is falling apart. I was pregnant and forced to get an abortion by my parents. I have regreted that for awhile. I am living with my grandparents and they keep taking advantage of me. I also have been disowned by my mother, she hates me so much. I am also dealing with an eating disorder and I can’t […]

I don’t see the purpose in continuing to live. What’s the point? As long as men act as they have, the world will continue to spiral downward, with no hope of ever getting better. Ever.

Men rape women, men, boys, girls, infants – even animals. The damage men do from the wars they start… from torturing other humans and animals for fun or a thrill, to humiliation of weaker or lesser beings, or the enslavement of others for sexual purposes or personal gain… The damage men do is mind boggling. Completely astounding.

Someone says something a man doesn’t like, […]

I feel so depressed i can’t concentrate I get so agitated just being here all I’ve been having is thoughts about killing myself there’s nothing worth living for, even in my dreams I dream about killing myself you know how bad that is when you dream about it all I want to do is to end it all. when I do not feel right I rather be In a dark room and just seclude my self away from the world and drink my life away.

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I feel so unwanted my parents fucking hate me I don’t have any friends I have turned to drugs for happiness all I got was more depression I’m so sick and tired of everyones shit I feel so low I feel like I don’t even fucking exist most of the day I wonder how it would feel like if I jus fucking shot myself this world is fucking sickening I’m tired I want to free myself

I was told I’d be someday happy…or even comprehend what happiness meant. For right now…I need to share my story. I need to let strangers know before I can explain it to my own family and friends, why I tried to kill myself.

You might know me…or know someone like me. That ‘perfect’ kid from the ‘perfect’ family. The one that has just about everything going for her. I was the top student in my school, class president, valedictorian, NHS president and so many more things. I was the girl that ruled the school in a sense…I was looked up at and put on a pedestal […]

so difficult, so mysterious, we ask for so much; recieve so little.

what do we have to live for?…thats for you to decide.

i personally am angry at it. how can it give us so much pain? heartbreaks,death, losses, killings. whats wrong with the world?! its getting more and more pathetic every day and thats just sad.. and i have no one to tell my problems to because they dont understand how i feel, what i hate, and what i cant live for. i have no god to pray to, because sadly, i have no point of view in religion anymore.. is there really such a god?or […]

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him or […]

Well I just tired of caring ,why should I care about what I do and how I turn out . no ones ever gave two cents about me even worst Iam depressed. I always was the type I got happy and seeing and helping others but when I needed help no were to be found. Iam so sick of life and this peace of crap world, all people do is think about there damn selfs and hurt each other , Iam 25 yr old male and I just can’t seem to do anything right .any one care text me 407-683-5883

So, i can’t say i understand anyone elses pain but my own and i can’t say that i know how to help… but i can try. I can listen and i can relate and i can care. Maybe it’s not enough for some people to just have someone to listen but for others it is enough for others it make everything seem a bit smaller.I’m not the happiest camper out there, and you know it’s life, i’m human we’re all human it’s how we are. It’s in our nature to be over-whemeled by emotion and completely lost in life. To feel alone… to feel like […]

help me,,im losing it,,

Life…oh how I loved the innocence of being a child.

I went through the ages of 5-16 a happy “person” (I’ll explain why I put quotes around the word person a little later) primary and secondary school were great, I had lot’s of friends and a healthy social life and was quite the extrovert character. Shortly after I left secondary school things went sour, for some reason my friends just suddenly stopped hanging out with me and decided to spread vicious rumors about me to everyone, I thought to myself “Fuck ’em” and decided to keep away, this lead to me losing contact with everybody I […]

Two weeks ago my life was so different. So much can change in just a few moments.Two weeks ago I was mourning the loss of a potential pregnancy, feeling awful about my GRE scores, stressed out about applying to Doctoral programs, faced with losing a friend from a small circle who showed up to a party with the person I was divorcing, all on top of working and going to school full-time. All things considered… its not exactly a totally surprise I ended up where I did.

I ended up drinking that night seven nights ago ( I tend to binge drink despite being on anti-depressants […]

Like i love my life but i dont want to live it… I lost my aunt a couple months ago from Alzheimers. it really hurt me.. i started to cut, but not deep, i tried to kill myself but my best friend talked me out of it, and i recently (today) cut my wrist, not deep though.. i guess im looking for someone who also needs to talk to somebody i guess i wanna hear from people just like me… im 14 btw.. text me if anyone needs to talk.. 860-597-9651

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him or […]

I dont know why I’m writing this, I’ve never done anything like this before but I’ve reached the end of some sort of coping point and I’m getting to the end of what I can manage with.

I’m 24 years old and I had an awful childhood. I’m ashamed and horrified by it to the point that I can’t bring myself to write on here exactly what happened, but then, the very nature of it does tend to shame its victims to silence.  I used to have counselling but I stopped going just because I couldn’t talk,i mean,the words just wouldnt come out. I recently wanted to start […]

Everyone has a reason to be upset. They lost a loved one, They have a fatal sickness, They lost friends, Something. For me it’s different. I go to a great middle school where I have plenty of friends, nice teachers and my grades are up. I have parents that love me and provide a house and food for me. My brothers and sister care about me and always help me out. I have a boyfriend that I’ve been with for three months. Sounds pretty good, doesn’t it? Well for some reason it’s not. For some reason I’m constantly trapped in my room crying for hours, […]

Somewhere i am cold, somewhere i miss my dead mother who died less than a year ago, somewhere i want to tell my boyfriend i love him but i just don’t know how because people use the phrase ‘i love you’ all the time that it doesn’t have any meaning anymore. Somewhere i feel like i’m standing in the middle of a room crowded by people and there just pushing around and i keep stumbling and falling down but no one sees and no one stops to help me, they just keep going pushing shoving and ignoring me. I start to scream and no one […]

Well I thought things were looking up. ran an awesome district race for cross and everything but the next day my gf dumps me for a runner who is ranked in the nation. im trying to move on but that coupled with only getting a 3.4 gpa(yeah it seems so bad i know but when your used to a 5.0 it sucks.) i just dont want anything anymore. i told the people who ive writtten letters to how to get them off my laptop and i figured out how to make my suicide look like an accident. no on will ever know i actually committed […]