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For I’ve returned, with less pain

by Mimo 10/13/2018

written by Mimo

To have been broken and fed to hounds,

Restiched and tossed once more. I must find my own paths alone.

For I am too broken to be man,

Too heartbroken to feel winds,

Too thought provoken to be alive.

I question whether I should attempt once more, knowing very well that I’ve failed countless of times, but what else am I supposed to Do?

After all that has happened, just forget?

Pretend that it never occurred.

I believe we suffer longer than others,

I understand you want to better yourself, but in doing that it moved me eleven steps back.

I’ll act happy to win you back, maybe that’ll work.

Because with my thoughts invoked in […]

10/13/2018 1 comment

The Beatles – Eleanor Rigby

by Taf Taf 10/12/2018

written by Taf Taf

Lyrics:

Ah, look at all the lonely people…
Ah, look at all the lonely people…
–
Eleanor Rigby picks up the rice
In the church where a wedding has been,
Lives in a dream…
Waits at the window, wearing the face
That she keeps in a jar by the door,
Who is it for…
–
All the lonely people,
Where do they all come from?
All the lonely people,
Where do they all belong?
–
Father McKenzie writing the words
Of a sermon that no one will hear,
No one comes near…
Look at him working, darning his socks
In the night when there’s nobody there,
What does he care…
–
All the lonely […]

10/12/2018 1 comment

Blank

by NumbExhaustion 9/3/2018

written by NumbExhaustion

I don’t really know where to start with this. The school year’s just begun but I already feel like I’m dying. Like, I really just want it to end and I feel all alone and I dunno. I know that people would miss me if I died but now I just can’t bring myself to really care as much. I’m just empty and numb and I don’t know what I’m doing with my life. Like, why can’t I just move out and go to college already so that I can fuck up my life without anyone here to see. Like, why was I born. Why […]

9/3/2018 5 comments

Kostis Palamas – Agora (The Market Place)

by Taf Taf 8/29/2018

written by Taf Taf

Just as dry summers pant for the first rain,

so thou art thirsty for a happy home

and for a life remote, like hermit’s prayer,

a corner of forgetting and of love.

–

And thirsty for the ship upon the sea

that ever onward sails with birds and sea-things,

filling its life with our great planet’s light.

But unto thee both ship and home said: ”No!

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Look neither for the happiness remote

that never moves, nor for the life that ever finds

in each new land and harbor a new soul!

–

Only the panting of a toiling slave

for thee! Drag in the market place thy body’s

nakedness, strange to the strangers and thine own!”

From the poetry collection ”Life […]

8/29/2018 1 comment

Remembering Vincent…

by Taf Taf 7/29/2018

written by Taf Taf

Vincent Willem van Gogh – July 29, 1890

https://www.vincentvangogh.org

http://www.vggallery.com/painting/p_0612.htm

http://www.vggallery.com/painting/p_0779.htm

7/29/2018 4 comments

New Order – Truth

by Taf Taf 7/23/2018

written by Taf Taf

7/23/2018 0 comment

What Happens After Death?

by LoneRed17 7/21/2018

written by LoneRed17

I’m starting to permanently make up my mind when it comes to suicide. I’ve had suicide attempts before and I’ve bounced back from depression at times, but this time it’s different. This time I can feel something pulling me towards death. It’s as if the world wants to take me back or as if death has fallen for me and it wants to take me home. I’m scared of shooting myself, I’m scared of waking up in a place full of pain and suffering despite the fact that I want to die in order to escape the daily pain I feel.

I have no idea what […]

7/21/2018 1 comment

Happy?

by Chanty 7/19/2018

written by Chanty

Happy. That’s a word I wish would visit me more often. As I sit here and write my “feelings” or whatever, I think about the “happy” moments of my life. You know, when life looked colorful and pretty.
What changed?
That’s something I would love to know.
I was never miserable. I was always smiling and I did what I was supposed to.
Maybe that’s where I went wrong, maybe I should’ve rebelled a little.
Maybe I should’ve experienced more things.
Maybe, then, I wouldn’t feel so wretched and miserable.
I keep thinking that I will run out of tears, but they just keep coming.

7/19/2018 2 comments

The Madman

by Taf Taf 7/18/2018

written by Taf Taf

Wouldn’t it be better if everyone of us could live in his/her own unique madness?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F7YEVP4r2ok

Lyrics:

Leave the madman in his madness

And don’t try to bring him to his senses

You don’t know what is hidden

Inside the mind of a madman

–

He might find in his madness

Everything he has desired

And wasn’t able

To see and to obtain

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Leave the madman in his madness

Leave him in his dream

He’s been sick and tired of this world

And he created one of his own

7/18/2018 4 comments

Why not Vanish?

by BenzQoa 6/3/2018

written by BenzQoa

Can I vanish?

Hello everyone, I believe you all know why I am here posting this. I feel empty, loneliness, hopeless. The will to live longer inside me has vanished, I do not wish to live any longer. I have friends, but none has really understood me. I have a wealthy family, but wealthy does not mean joy. I used to be a genius at school, but due to the current situation, I do not have the will to learn any longer. I cannot feel the joy inside me much longer. I just feel like it is worthless to live […]

6/3/2018 1 comment

I Cant Go On Anymore!

by Icantgoonanymore37 6/3/2018

written by Icantgoonanymore37

I can’t go on anymore! I feel I’ve reached the end of my road! I’m sitting here all alone wondering where it all went wrong.

37 years old and I feel so Worthless & Totally fed up with life! I just don’t see the point anymore! Why do I still continue to try, when it gets me Absolutely No where!! Everyday is So Freaking hard, & I’m still struggling to see the light at the end of the tunnel! Why you ask? Well, the last 37 years of my life have been absolute hell here on earth! I don’t have anything left inside. I pray for […]

6/3/2018 1 comment

My Experience with Borderline Personality Disorder

by sisterofnight 5/15/2018

written by sisterofnight

Hey. For starters, I’m 18. As soon as I turned 18 I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. It’s the youngest you can be with this diagnosis. I grew up in a stable house hold, with stable parents, and 2 stable older brothers. Where the hell I came from is beyond me. From an early age I showed signs of isolation and poor self esteem. In the 6th grade I wrote a letter regarding how depressed I was to my teacher. No action was taken.

Even as I type this, I feel no attachment to my past. I feel no connection to the daily self harm […]

5/15/2018 3 comments

Reality is boring ! Real life is boring ! Real world is boring ! Humanity/Mankind must move beyond money & politics for real progress !

by niki 4/14/2018

written by niki

Reality is boring, Humanity/Mankind must move beyond money & politics for real progress.

Although technology have been progressing rapidly nowadays, yet sadly in many aspects, Humanity/Mankind/Society still have slow progress; Everyday is still the same day & problems over and over again repeatedly.

I believe that in order to make a real progress for Humanity / Mankind, we must quickly focus & do the followings:

1) We must move beyond money & politics. It is outdated. A lot of problems in this world today basically stems from these two root causes (& also superstitions especially in religion, as well as in Ignorance & Stupidity due to failure in […]

4/14/2018 5 comments

Daily Fees

by XLondonDeathX 4/7/2018

written by XLondonDeathX

I WAS (less than 32hours long) getting to a spot in my mind that the “bill was going to be paid”….not dying…but that my grieving was actually a good thing. I was dancing with my toddler, jamming some tunes & *toons*, some other songs by different artists. & when it was naptime (about 2 nap (for lil one &1 nite…well a MOST the night sleep) i would let the sad out. I went thru some pictures of my oldest…. sadly I don’t have many. but I was building the mindset that *my grieving*….makes me a gud mother.

Cuz WUT kind of mother wouldn’t?

I was setting aside […]

4/7/2018 0 comment

sick of life

by Lokhar 3/22/2018

written by Lokhar

hi this is gonna be a long story so better grabe some snacks while you can buddy.
so let’s get started i’m a 16 years old guy born in Morroco my childhood was kind of nice my father was strict but loving and my mom too in primary school i had always good grades even had people i called friends well in fact they were just using yep even my best friend al of them so in a burst on anger in tried to fight and just had my ass kicked all of primary chool by “friends” pretty lonely childhood am i right, the relationship […]

3/22/2018 2 comments

Going Blind

by ShesAnAcid 3/22/2018

written by ShesAnAcid

This is my first time writing here and also writing about this so openly. I don’t know where do I start, but I do know when will all of this ends, very soon actually. I’m on the edge now which isn’t so very surprising considering there are about millions who are like me too, some, worse than me. It saddens me that I’m just one of those millions who suffer like this, that I’m only a part of some statistics scientists conduct every year. That I’ll never be someone, I’ll just be a part of something bigger. And soon, no one will remember that I […]

3/22/2018 8 comments

Help? No thanks!

by pockytaemin 3/9/2018

written by pockytaemin

At this point, I don’t even want help, I just want to die.

It’s not like there’s any help anyways.

3/9/2018 2 comments

A calming place

by ataria-coronaria 2/20/2018

written by ataria-coronaria

Woke up some time after 4pm again for the millionth time in a row when I could have been productive today. I know over sleeping makes your body feel worse but I just can’t will myself out of bed until I absolutely have to. Because of this, I eat one meal a day at most (the term meal used loosely).

Thinking about a commenters words of finding a calm place. I’m not really sure I have one. Sometimes sleep can be freeing, but tbh I am often plagued by reoccurring nightmares of traumatic experiences and will cry in my sleep. I never really feel well rested […]

2/20/2018 2 comments

Fire.

by AlwaysSoTired123 2/12/2018

written by AlwaysSoTired123

Have you just wanted to grab all of your belongings. Everything that makes you, “you” and just pile it all up. Clothes, jewelry, bills, credit cards, medication….

Just a few ounces of lighter fluid and a match…it all just go away and leave nothing, but ash and smoke.

Watching it all burn down, all the materialistic shit that you have accumulated in all these long years….wishing that you could go into the fire and be burned away.

I don’t want to live anymore.

2/12/2018 3 comments

Sittin’ on the dock of the bay,wastin’ time…

by Taf Taf 2/11/2018

written by Taf Taf

2/11/2018 16 comments

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