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Hello everyone, I have been on this site for a while,never really spoke about myself,not sure if someone is going to read this,but here goes anyway.I grew up in Brooklyn NY,im male Hispanic 36 years old.I never felt like I was a part of this world, I always felt different,always had different feelings towards people,feelings of compassion of helping others out.I never really understood why people were so evil.Why everyone just mostly cared about themselves.As a boy this is how I saw the world (and still do as an adult).Growing up I had 2 parents.For the most part my mother was always sweet and loving,never […]
Has anyone ever kept years worth of emotion bottled up to the point where you’re afraid to release it anymore? to the point that you feel every ounce of rage you can muster suddenly flare whenever the slightest thing irritates you?
This is my third post. It’s been a couple weeks since my last and I’ve gotten a bit better; my first two posts would’ve persuaded any psychiatrist I was ready and willing to commit suicide. I’ve gotten better. Things have started looking up a bit. But that pain still lingers. And with it, an anger I can’t even begin to describe. All my life I’ve […]
I think it’s time for me to go. I’m still fucked up, if not more fucked up than when I first came here. Trevor loves Kendall, and I think it’s time for me to realize it. Yeah, he flirts with me, but he flirts with pretty much every girl; he’s a flirty person. He doesn’t like me. My grandma isn’t going to get better. Lacey and Papa aren’t going to come back. My parents love my little sister more than they love me. I can’t make them happy. I take all Pre-AP courses offered, I quit cutting, I’ve never had detention, I’ve kept all A’s, […]
Today a girl talked to me. The one I’ve been wanting to be friends with since I  turned up at the college. Her name is Tina and she’s from a parallel group. I honestly don’t know why she gifted me with that 5-minute chat. She was bored, obviously. And probably in a bad mood because of having to get up too early. It could be just that none of her friends was around to engage her, so she sat next to me and complained. It felt so awkward, I couldn’t find words to keep the conversation going. All I could manage was a couple of […]
Believe me, I know about importance of life. How many cries echoed near the dead bodies of beloved ones? How many deals were made in desperation?
But somehow, against all my laws and rules of my family, sometimes I want to break myself, like toy soldier.
I thought that whining about how screwed up your life is – cowardliness and weakness, if you don’t have enough reasons to complain. If you’re alive, your family and friends is okay, then it’s fine. Even if there’s a little flaw somewhere in the basement.
I wish I could talk about anything about fear of being a burden. But I can’t. I […]
Got my iPhone 4s and my licsence.. yet today has been horrible. not horrible really… just a bad mood guess.. depressed, anxious, pissed, irratated… PMSing? sorry to gross anyone out.. but its the truth! UGHHHHHHH. just that kind of fucking fuckedy fuck fuck mood.
It never gets better.
Maybe it does for others, but not for me.
When I was younger I heard a song that said “love heals the heart,” and I protested, saying that it only seems to heal the heart, and just brings more pain. The last year had changed my mind. My boyfriend is great. Finally felt safe. But now I’m realizing I was right. I love him. So much. Yet he still brings pain. I mean we all do, I guess. But it’s so unfair.
He hurt himself again tonight. 10 minutes after the promise not to expired. I was planning on renewing the […]
And all the stories you can say, All the ways that you deceive, Will never stop me getting through, I will fight my way to you….
by Nat....
written by Nat....
So this week has been pure shit. I mean, Suicidal thinking shit. Obviously.
First, I just haven’t been my self this week. I’ve been a blend of the the bad Nat’s that we know and love :3 Secondly, Thursday was 27/9/12 (The ‘day’ that the voices have been talking about for months) Nothing bad happened on that day because I didn’t go into school… Friday however was by far the worst day of the week.
So Friday- Woke up feeling okay, did all my routines. Did break down a bit third lesson but I brought myself back from it. Cue fourth lesson. I got a facebook message […]
Hello everyone.
My name is Belle. I have never been on here before but I’ve been observing Miss Kyu for a while and I decided  why not try it out just for the hell out of it? Seems fun enough. I am miss kyu’s darker and more hated side. She hates me. Haha. But she has no choice but to want and need me. Where else will she push all her regrets and negative emotions? Today is her birthday, she hates her birthday. So it’s a day where she runs away and lets me out for some fresh air. All day, both of us have been […]
I found this website a few days ago when I googled “I want to die”.
I wasn’t looking for something in particular-just some kind of…answer… or help. I’m not sure if I actually want to die or not.
I’ve been reading some posts, but I’ve been afraid to comment on any… I’m extremely afraid of talking to people, especially strangers, even if it is online, but I need to talk about it to someone, or some people, who understand.
I’m horribly, horribly depressed and I’ve felt like this for years. I’ve recently spoken to my doctor about it and he’s put me on medication and referred me to […]
people who arent suicidal trying to make you feel better. its pretty annoying. whenever my friends or family is trying to make me feel better, seeing that im in a pretty bad mood they just say something like: oh think of someone who is worse off than you..
I mean, I get it ok? there’s always going to be someone who’s in a worse situation than me. but here’s the thing about when you say that. thinking about all that, the people who are close to me with cancer, starving, hurting….i cant deal with it it just makes me more depressed. also i know they […]
Nathan has left the premises. It is I, Rogue Shadow, who has taken his place. I chose to document my presence since Nathan seems to refer to me as his deity, savior, and hero. If only he would realize he can be everything I am, just by trying hard and not giving up. How shall I do it. If only I had more control over him.
Whether it’s true or not. It’s good to attempt a different perspective on it all. I took a small survey/quiz by the teacher. It was meant to see if you’re more rebublican (conservative) or democratic (liberal). I took it and […]
so today was good. i walked in, did my job and everything was right with the world. even though my boss hasn’t said anything, he atleast, even though he again was in a bad mood, made it a point to have fun with me. we got along fine. respect is still something that is going to have to be earnt as i still am quite pissed at his actions, but i have in a way forgiven him. i still have dark niggling feelings that threaten to push me towards the edge, but when i am focused on other things i can push them aside for […]
Why should I bother wasting my time to try to make other people happy when I’m not happy? Its fucking ridiculous and I really don’t know why I continue to do so each time. Everyone always comes to me for advice but then when I need something in return its like “wtf you’re stupid you’re psycho”. This is why I hate everyone… literally. I always wish to be alone and I can’t wait until I’m old enough to live alone far from everyone. I can’t even depend on my family. Even if I’m in a bad mood, I am just that person that has […]
I like to smile,alot actually and you know what? I love when people smile and when they’re happy it’s sorta like i feed off of people’s happiness.I smile at everyone,I smile and say thank you to everyone because the way i see it,maybe that person was feeling under-appreciated,sad or just like it wasn’t worth it anymore and then you come along and flash them this great big smile and say “thank you” or anything won’t it brighten there day alittle? I hope so. Whenever i see a sad status on Facebook or anyone who looks like they’re in a bad mood,i do all i can […]
I can’t concentrate. I always think about him. I day dream about him everyday and dream about him almost every night. I’m sad when I don’t talk to him. And he’s the only one who can make me happy. When he’s in a bad mood. So am I. When he’s sad. So am I. I can’t stop thinking about him!Â
Is this love?Â
Like in that one song that goes like “love is what you want it to be. It is haven to the lonely”. I think that’s really true!Â
-Morgan……RawrImaTurtle…
Ps:I sill feel broken inside tho. But not when I talk to him. He makes me forget my […]
Well if the title doesn’t say it all today sucked for me,well this is what happened. I’m on my break idk why but yea a week of no school ends today 🙁 I decided to hang with my best friend J and my girlfriend A and we started off at the mall ten we went to A’s house and stayed there a while. While at A’s house I was texting J’s crush B and we started secretly talking and A asked what we were saying and I int know what to do so I said no because B used to be her ex so […]
I cut myself tonight. Pretty badly actually. I haven’t cut myself for nearly six months. I was actually feeling really good today, but then everything just kind of fell apart. Nothing of censequence really happened to make me feel this way, it was just a bad mood swing. I wasn’t really thinking at all when I grabbed the exacto-knife from my drafting and jabbed it into my arm, I was bleeding worse then I ever have before.
But now I’m just really pissed at myself. What the fuck was I doing? The bleeding is starting to slow down, but I feeling kind of light-headed.
I’ve never cut […]
I’ve always been afraid to talk about my suicidle thoughts that haunted me for years and years back,afraid of considered a crazy pothetic person with no beliefes and courage.
My parents were divorced when I was only 7 years old,it was hurrable and i was forced not to see her or even mention her name or say”mamy”for example,it’s all because of my dad,I had no relatives,my sister and brothers were all I have,could’t communicate with anyone in a normal way..still I am that way..
I got married to a sick man and had 2 wounderfull boys and after 7 years of merrage i am fighting for divorce […]