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Depression

Am I in love?

by rawrimaturtle.. 3/5/2012

written by rawrimaturtle..

I can’t concentrate. I always think about him. I day dream about him everyday and dream about him almost every night. I’m sad when I don’t talk to him. And he’s the only one who can make me happy. When he’s in a bad mood. So am I. When he’s sad. So am I. I can’t stop thinking about him!Â

Is this love?Â

Like in that one song that goes like “love is what you want it to be. It is haven to the lonely”. I think that’s really true!Â

-Morgan……RawrImaTurtle…

Ps:I sill feel broken inside tho. But not when I talk to him. He makes me forget my […]

3/5/2012 2 comments

It’s a little funny

by charlay 3/5/2012

written by charlay

It’s funny , i found this site by accident really..

I typed in two words into the google search bar for no reason than to just let someone know.. Â those words? Â “I’m Fucked“.

those words led me here, led me to making an account, led me to write down these words, just to do somthing that may or may not have any meaning.

The two words have been in my mind screaming at me for a long time now, if it was just for a stupid little thing that made me realise that im “very well fucked in this moment”, i dont claim to have depression nor do […]

3/5/2012 3 comments

More then enough to handle

by grimallthetime 3/4/2012

written by grimallthetime

You know you’d think your problems would end when you grow up, more time goes by everyday and i realize i had it so much more easier when i was sixteen then i do now.

everything started when i was fourteen i lost my grandmother and my dad in one year. my grandmother was just the start of my fathers depression. On my fathers side most of my family are bipolar and have anxiety. So with it i have also developed these unwanted traits. after my father passed my whole world dropped. I started contemplating suicide at sixteen and i was always a failure at it. […]

3/4/2012 3 comments

Just can’t help feeling like this.

by Letgo 3/4/2012

written by Letgo

I wouldn’t say I want to die, or commit suicide. I just feel like I don’t want or belong to this world. I’m seventeen and I’m halfway through my a-levels, the only place out of this dump and I’m not getting through it very easily. This place is horrible. It’s so unambitious and it eats at me. My dad’s messed up from the result of his past drug issues and is on medication. He has serious mood swings, and when I get home from school I fear seeing his car on the drive or the kind of mood he’ll be in when I get through […]

3/4/2012 1 comment

Depression…

by Unknown_Schizophrenic 3/3/2012

written by Unknown_Schizophrenic

I sit here and all I feel is pain
wanting to cut and make my wrists rain
make them rain with blood. I get no love
I sit in my room all alone, me and my pain
pain is all I feel, pain is all I know
Noone will ever know how I feel, or what Im going through
when you smile and laugh, but you know it’s just a show
Im the only one to blame for a meaningless life
so I sit in my room alone, just me and this knife
not wanting to take my life, just leaving a lifetime scar
a […]

3/3/2012 1 comment

The cycle repeats

by Disease 3/2/2012

written by Disease

I’ve lurked here for quite a while now. I’ve spent the last few years suffering on and off with “depression”* of increasing regularity and severity. I came out of my last depression only 2 weeks ago and now it’s starting up again. Every down is getting longer than the respite preceding it and I don’t want to live like that. Tonight was the first time it hit me while out and about. One minute I was sitting down with a drink actually trying to enjoy myself and the next I was punching the shit out of a wall because I was suddenly overwhelmed. I don’t […]

3/2/2012 3 comments

Lost In my thoughts

by Unknown_Schizophrenic 3/2/2012

written by Unknown_Schizophrenic

Every now and then I catch myself getting lost in my thoughts.Â I know Im not the only one, but at times I feel that I do it more than some. My paranoia will kick in, I start getting lost in the thoughts, and ideas that it brings. I catch myself thinking that this and that are true, but deep down I KNOW that they are NOT true. This has gotten worse within the past couple of years. I know that the thoughts I have are not true, but I often think what if that is, what if that will happen? When this first occured […]

3/2/2012 0 comment

Tonight is too much for me, To get through, Tomorrow’s just a darkened hall, To an empty room, When I’m far away from you….

by Nat.... 3/2/2012

written by Nat....

Im so depressed. This week has been shit. And the worst part was it was all little things that have made me think about how good that shiny piece of sharp metal would look in my wrist.

1. School stuff- things about a crappy tattoo portfolio and being called wierd and having something taken away from me? which is quite confusing.

2. Maths exam- ah…exams. doesn’t everyone love them? espicially those with OCD who are terrified to write in pen and hate the thought of people staring at her because her seat was quite near the front.

3. i not long ago dropped my iPod touch in the […]

3/2/2012 7 comments

Just a rant..

by Wake 3/2/2012

written by Wake

I guess I thought going back to school was going to make me feel better. I thought it’d make my depression and anxiety go away and I’d be instantly better..but it didn’t. I’m still depressed and miserable, I still feel useless. I just want to be gone. The things that made me happy don’t even make me happy anymore. They’re just nice distractions, because when I really think about it, I’m not happy. I literally have no one. I just feel like a burden to my family. I know, there’s people on here that’s problems are far more worse than my own, and even now […]

3/2/2012 2 comments

Sharing my story

by Shirra 3/2/2012

written by Shirra

All my life I’ve always put up a front. Its become my defense mechanism. I can’t bare the real me. Everyone knows me as the happy, hyper girl who’s kind to everyone, and always has the right advice for any situation. I don’t know exactly when i started cutting, but it started as a ploy to catch my parents attention; show them how much i was really suffering. I was adopted, my birth mom was a drug addict and she drank and did drugs while pregnant with both me and my sister. My birth dad abused me. I have 2 siblings I’ve never met. My […]

3/2/2012 6 comments

How Could She

by hateeverything88 3/2/2012

written by hateeverything88

The girl love of my life dumped me after three years for another guy. I have struggled with depression before this but this really pushed me over the edge. I had done everything for this girl gave her the best two years of my highschool and she dumps me like trash. I don’t know what happiness is anymore. All day in school I think of ways I need to kill myself. She was the only thing that made me happy and now she’s sucking some guys cock. I tried to move on with other people but I find it impossible. I have sex but everything […]

3/2/2012 10 comments

Depression

by NotSorry 2/29/2012

written by NotSorry

It’s been a couple of months since the last time I wrote here. For awhile I was feeling better, but now I feel even worse then I did before. The last time that I wrote here for me suicide was just something that I kept thinking about, but I wasn’t ready to do it, I was just too scared of dying. Now I think that I’m ready, or at least I’m not scared anymore because I know that whatever will come after death it’s going to be different from how I’m living now. Anyway there are two reasons why I’m writing here now, but since […]

2/29/2012 6 comments

tommorow for sure

by passionfruit3 2/29/2012

written by passionfruit3

I overdosed like two weeks ago. But i never took all the pills.Im tired of seeing people suffer around me and im tired of suffering. So what ive decided and this is not for sure but to either take the remaining pills when i see my psychiatrist tommorow. Ive tried this before. People think im joking so im going to prove that im not. Im scared but i know what i have to do. theres no turning back unless the pills magically dissapear which i very much doubt. SOmetimes i feel like a drug addict cause whenever i have pills i end up taking them […]

2/29/2012 2 comments

I’ve love to say its gotten better

by banker1 2/29/2012

written by banker1

I started to cry myself to sleep when I was in the second grade.Â I was bullied, and could never really find myself with any real friends.Â I have always tried to be overly accommodating hoping that this would help people like me, but it doesn’t work.Â I am 25 and still do this, and it still doesn’t work.Â I am used at work.Â They take advantage of me because they know I will not say no.Â I feel like I am back in second grade.Â Killing myself has always felt like it will be the best thing for me.Â Too bad I’m more afraid […]

2/29/2012 3 comments

There is Hope; I know this

by apylespledger 2/28/2012

written by apylespledger

I have been struggling with self hatred and poor self esteem for most of my life. It is through a change in friends and family that I have surrounded myself with positive, truly amazing people. I didn’t think life could be lived happily. But it can. I used to cut on myself, I used to do drugs and drink, among many other self destructive behaviors. But it was through the death of my mother through which I know was suicide related, even through my family lists it as “undetermined” that a new path has been made for me. I am now a Christian, I am […]

2/28/2012 0 comment

Well…I think I am going to Kill myself some time soon

by iusedtobenormal 2/28/2012

written by iusedtobenormal

or it certainly seems and feels like I will.

I have had mental health problems for years now and I have always actively tried to help myself. I have always sought help and have been medicated for a long time. I think it was hard because I was never ill enough for it to be noticed by anyone but ill enough for it to interfere with my life daily.

I just hate myself. Every time I close my eyes, my mind is screaming for me to end it. I just cant do it any more and I have no other choice. I have never visualised myself being […]

2/28/2012 10 comments

shame

by Darkpasenger 2/27/2012

written by Darkpasenger

When I searched for this website, I was totally suffering from my depression. I never went to a consultant but I knew I was depressing.

I was living in a city that everyone has the desire to living here. A wonderful city that make me fall in love with but also drain me in the hell. Two years ago, I graduated from high school, and apply to one of the university in the city which the agent helped me to prepare it all. I got a really bad high school GPA that I was really afraid of the university would’t take me. Eventually I went to […]

2/27/2012 1 comment

I don’t no want to do?

by shockwave 2/27/2012

written by shockwave

Hi guys
ill try and make this short.i have being feeling like committing suicide for the last 2 years. i badly want too but i guess i’m scared of hurting my family, i don’t want to hurt them i’m not saying i’ve got great relationship with my family but i do obviously care deeply about them.. I’m very sad and i must suffer from depression,, i don’t cut myself or anything. I feel so sad everyday i get up is terrible everything is a constant struggle… I do feel for so many people that have posted on this site.. I have a […]

2/27/2012 1 comment

i feel alone

by this is not my life 2/27/2012

written by this is not my life

i suffer from depression and lately i don’t know whats wrong with me but ive been so emotional and sometimes i think it would be better if i wasn’t here anymore. I have friends and everything but sometimes they dont seem like friends if that makes sense maybe im over reacting but i feel alone and i have no one to talk to so i geuss im just venting. I miss someone i was close with she not long ago passed away and all the time i wish it was me instead of her why am i here and why do the good people always […]

2/27/2012 11 comments

Almost Done

by sunbird 2/26/2012

written by sunbird

Hi,

I don’t come on here much-some of the replies I get actually make me feel worse. But its the only anonymous place I can express my feelings without fear of being locked up or talked down to(well,as I said earlier,some on here continue to,but its easier to ignore a post than a person LOL!!)

Anyway,I’ve almost made it to my trip to Australia,so yay me!! for hanging on. I am going solo, and plan to have an awesome time. After that,I’m going to give myself the ultimate reward.

I have absolutely nothing to come back to,and my life is going to be a thousand times bleaker upon […]

2/26/2012 3 comments

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