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Solitude is beautiful…(this is purely a rant…)

by OddOneOut
written by OddOneOut

Right now, things seem to be getting better. I’m able to go on without my razor as much, I can enjoy music like I used to, laugh purely because I want to, not feel that pain that can’t be explained somewhere within my heart…

But that will all change when school starts again. When I have to rejoin the real world, and see it for what it is. When it presses itself against my face – when reality comes back to wake me from my dreamworld that I created to protect myself – It will all be as it were. I’ll be cutting again, empty, emotionless […]

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15 reasons

by passionfruit3
written by passionfruit3

reasons for doing this
1. Im addicted to trying to hurt myself
2.I have loads of pills its to hard to get rid of them.At at least for me.
3. Im pretty sure nothing will come of it anyway. After all ive attempted suicide more times than can count and a lot of the times i was never admitted for treatment.
4. Ive been very scared lately of death which is very ironic.But the point is i dont want to be around without the people i love.I dont want to feel the emotional pain of loss.
5 I cant survive on my own.One of my […]

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My Fault

by xYuuji
written by xYuuji

I lost one of the last few things that kept me going. I pushed him away but honestly I never really understood him. He was just there. He promised he would help but he lied and I knew he never cared.
Every morning he would annoy me by poking me or calling me stupid. We had those retarded kiddy fights and it was just frustrating at times. I don’t know what I wanted from him but I felt I was better off just cutting all ties with him because he just doesn’t care. I sound so selfish for saying so and I’m terribly sorry.
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survivor

by redhatjunker
written by redhatjunker

Hi,

I am new to this sight, but wanted to share just a bit to those who are considering suicide.  As a bit of background, I am a nearly 60 woman with 4 grown kids and 3 grandkids, married to the same man for over 40 years, upper middle class, fairly attractive, intelligent, witty, talented and loved.  But last year all hell broke lose…..

My first time in the hospital was in Dec 2011, I self checked in because I had become obsessive about suicide and was tempting fate with pills, a loaded gun, knife to wrist and other dangerous and fatal things and ideas.  I didn’t REALLY want […]

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My Time Is Coming To An End

by Mike777
written by Mike777

As my days tick down i grow a little nervous, but at the same time relieved that my suffering will soon come to an end.  I’m starting to feel the emotional pain of those left behind and what they will feel.  But I’m really not close to my family and have no kids so they will recover just fine. i think they will understand that my mental illness has been too much and the future looks grim. I’m wrapping up final details here and there.  tomorrow I get dog his bordetella vaccine so he can be boarded for 3 days till my father picks him […]

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To put an end to the misery…

by YetAnotherPunkRocker
written by YetAnotherPunkRocker

It was a normal saturday. And a lonely one at that. It was late at night, music playing and I was drowning in tears. I lay staring up at the ceiling with thoughts circling round in my head on repeat like a broken record…’Nobody will miss if I die’ ‘I’m worthless’ ‘I’ve got nothing to live for’.

Those words followed me everywhere, and my mind was consumed with the hopelessness of ending my life, and that night, that was the decision i’d made.

To end my life.

To put an end to the misery.

I went into the bathroom and grabbed the bottle of sleeping pills i’d been eyeing […]

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I have a Major Moral Delima

by jamaisvutoo
written by jamaisvutoo

I have always believed that Suicide is a personal choice and that it should be a lawful and valid answer for any ADULT (sorry, there is SOOOOO much drama during the teen years that if legal EVERYONE would commit suicide) that is in so much physical or psychological pain that they just want out.

If you are in so much physical pain – from an illness, injury, birth defect, etc. – that day-to-day life is a struggle and you are in constant unbearable pain, I believe that if all else has failed and you CHOOSE suicide, then you should be supported in your decision.

If you are […]

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30 day self harm challenge (all in one go)

by Crazypandachick
written by Crazypandachick

This is suppose to be over 30 days, but I’ll probably forget about it if I do that, so I’ll do it all now. To be honest, I don’t cut anymore, but I still thought it would be useful to do.

1. How long have you been self harming? Discuss why you started.
On and off for around three years. The first time I started when my brother tried to commit suicide and all the stress from that.
2. What part of your body is most affected by it?
Legs, breasts, back, you know, all the places that are easy to hide the scars
3. What […]

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hi.

by bella
written by bella

hi there, im a girl

and i am currently suicidal.
everyday i wake up, and try to think of three reasons to live, i only ever think of one. My friends, even though none of my friends know im like this, no one knows (except for my sister and i will explain that later), they are literally the only reason i keep on living because i love seeing them everyday, those four people being the only ones who can make me smile. I have a feeling one of them is like me, but i haven’t got the nerve to ask. I told one of them about […]

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Eraser

by cynr1023
written by cynr1023

I want to erase myself. not kill myself, but erase myself, I feel empty. I wish my parents would never have given birth to me. I don’t want to be a memory I want to dissappear. To have never existed.

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cant wait to die

by over it
written by over it

Ive decided to go get a rope tomorrow from the hardware shop instead of going to see my doctor. Everyday im getting worse, ive been on various types of antidepressants and they have all made me even more anxious and fucked up like i was on a pill or something. Im done trying to get better, I dont give a fuck about what happens to me anymore. Ive got a bunch of pills i plan on dropping with some alcohole before i jump.

My options are as follows :
ramming my car into a tree at high speed
taking all of these pills […]

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Attempt #3

by Steph
written by Steph

It’s laying late in bed. There’s a thousand & one reasons to hate yourself. I’ve given up on myself 6 times. The most severe time that I do remember was on February 2, 2012.

I stayed home from school (my senior year). I don’t like going to school when I feel really depressed. I usually just told my mom that I was sick. MY mind played tricks on me & my nerves made me sick. There was a full bottle of NyQuil & full bottle of Extra Strength Tylenol. I took both. I chugged & swallowed. Things shouldn’t have gotten this bad. I called my friend […]

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In so much pain

by Mona_22
written by Mona_22

Have you ever wanted to get out of your life? out of your skin?
Why do i have to suffer?

I just want a different life, i want to be happy
i want this pain to go away

I can’t even feel anything anymore, nothing makes me laugh or even smile. I am just a broken mirror, useless and worthless.

I feel cold, joyless, hopeless, helpless and broken
There is no one to talk to ,I’m all alone in this painful world
I just want one day of happiness, just one day in a different life

I want someone to guide me, to hold my hand and take […]

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Wanna know THE answer to your problem?

by peregrinatingdream
written by peregrinatingdream

If you don’t take away anything else by the time you finish reading this entry, then I hope you at least will take away this one thought that could perhaps be the greatest revelation in your life which you don’t even know about yet; and it’s this…………………………

 

YOU. MATTER.

 

Your problems matter. And someone out there does love you even when you think you’ve been rejected, hit rock bottom, and can no longer find comfort in living.

 

…Hey, been there. Done that. I have the scars on the inside and out to prove it….and no, I don’t care for a repeat either because as much as it lingers […]

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How does one go on?

by 1233
written by 1233

Today I burried love. I dont  think  the statment needs an explaination, anyone who has truely loved and lost  must know how It feels. For those who don’t imagine choking and trying to breathe yet your unable to, one must not confuse it with physical pain but the emotional pain which one is unable to overcome. But the post today isn’t really about explainations, this time i dont need them… burrying love doesnt have a justification, or an explaination.

This post is about questioning how must one go on, I mean what do i do now that the future seems to be becoming my past, tomorrow it will […]

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Im so depressed… and feeling alone…

by davidjonnson
written by davidjonnson

I hate my life… I’m currently 29 years old with no job, no money, no spouse of any kind, no career, no car, failed college, no friends,  no hopes, dreams and goals for my life. I’m so sad. I live with my mom because I have no where else to go. The love of my life, we weren’t official but it felt real for 3 years, left me for one of my friends in July, 2011. I got fired from my old job in November 2011 and ever since then I cant seem to get a job thats willing to hire me. I been so […]

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Reassurance

by Good_Guy_KC
written by Good_Guy_KC

I feel really abandoned. This is related to events occurring months ago, but I feel a resurgence of the emotional pain. All my friends from college save two stopped talking to me about a month or so after I graduated in December. When friends leave I usually let that happen because I know friends come and go; however, I’m twenty-three with no current future plans, so these friends were my only social network. And they just stopped communicating with me. They moved on, so I can’t blame them specifically, yet it still doesn’t change the fact that I’m upset and alone. I’m really well-meaning, and […]

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I wish there was a pain reliever for life

by nothingmatters
written by nothingmatters

My bad attitude caused by frustration and self hatred has pushed those who used to care about me far far away. I know we’re all alone no matter what, but it kills me not to have at least that illusion making us feel as though we are not alone. I started cutting a few days ago and each day the  cut gets a  little deeper. I was just looking for a distraction from my emotional pain. I haven’t felt happiness all year. I’m beginning to question if there even is a possibility for me to feel happiness again. I used to rely on strangers to […]

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the Suicide

by the Guardian
written by the Guardian

the Suicide

Death dwells in the shadow just at your shoulder. You invited it in, you dined with it, you bathed with it, you lay with death.
Consumed by and consuming, death becomes both a path and a destination for you.
You write a final letter, a final note, and gulp down a bottle of pills, hoping it will all be over soon…

And then…

You wait…

But not long for as you soon take you final step…

You call for help.

But wait, this makes no sense?

Why would you wish for death, plan for death, and attempt to kill yourself only to give up and try to save yourself in […]

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the Cutter

by the Guardian
written by the Guardian

the Cutter

It feels a little tender at first, hot as blood rushes to greet the sharp edge of your relief.
You promised yourself you wouldn’t, but the pain is just to much, inside. If only you can find a balance, a balance between the lonely suffering of your internal hell and the sharp, clean, slice of your external shell. Deeper this time then ever before. You must dig deeper to let it out. Your inner hell, red in its anger, hot liquid in its trespass.
The blade slices, a dance of blood lights it’s way, your focus follows it, watching. You feel almost outside o […]

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