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Sometimes a happy childhood can do more harm than good

by Hampshire_Girl 3/4/2016

written by Hampshire_Girl

Reading people’s reasons for being on SP, I feel in comparison, that I have very little to complain about. My childhood was mostly a very happy and stable time in my life.

I realise now though that the insular life we led was because Mum and Dad were so in love, that they only needed each other and that was enough for them. This doesn’t mean I didn’t feel they loved me, I always knew that. It’s just I grew up with a sense of exclusion, of being judged and constantly found wanting and just not being good enough. After going through counselling, I […]

3/4/2016 0 comment

Goals

by Woozi 3/3/2016

written by Woozi

I have done everything i wanted to do.
I got a decent job.
Some materialistic desires.
The guy.
Money.
And repect?
Its not enough. I dont feel anything. In fact i feel worse.
Instead of climbing out of the hole im just making it deeper.

3/3/2016 1 comment

Making the World Stop

by Kalazii 2/29/2016

written by Kalazii

I’ve struggled with it for so long. I thought that loneliness was something I had to protect myself from. I spent so much time putting up walls that I didn’t realize it was coming from in me. It wasn’t seeping its way into me, because at my core and my karmic debt, I am loneliness. I don’t deserve to have people who cherish me.

I’m not enough. I’ll never be enough. I can’t save people. What good is someone like that? I keep trying though. I find people who need someone. Someone to fill that place that sits somewhere behind their heart. They only need me […]

2/29/2016 1 comment

Honoring The Fallen. The Ascended. The Free.

by HERE4UOK 2/29/2016

written by HERE4UOK

Hello SP –

Looking for your help with a small project.

I need to know about any confirmed departed fellow members you can share.

I am putting together a tribute video (or trying to at this point) and would greatly appreciate your kind assistance.

Their member name is enough. I’ll search the site for their posts and quote highlights from their words.

Thank You!

HERE4UOK

2/29/2016 31 comments

I’m really scared

by such catcat 2/28/2016

written by such catcat

I’m trying to slit my wrists right now, it’s just so painful, I don’t know how I’m going to go deep enough to bleed out. I’m really scared though.

2/28/2016 102 comments

feeling depressed again

by evildandelions 2/28/2016

written by evildandelions

Feeling depressed sad, not grieving sad. At least it feels like it, like I’d be feeling this way (mostly) even if my fiance and I were still together.

I do feel like I’ve sort of accepted she’s gone and what’s happened, maybe. But it feels like my life is just a cycle of loss and tragedy on top of unrelenting depression and anxiety. The only reprieve I’ve had was when I was with my fiance/girlfriend. Our first year together is probably the happiest I can remember ever being- not only was I in love with an amazing woman who loved me back, but right before we […]

2/28/2016 9 comments

soon I’ll have a concrete choice

by 4beyondhelp 2/27/2016

written by 4beyondhelp

I’ve been in counseling for like a month. I thought it would help more than it has, but I guess it isn’t much of a surprise that my counselor can’t just fix for me what I haven’t been able to fix for myself. My counselor hasn’t offered diagnoses and I haven’t asked. She doesn’t know all the information, quite frankly because most of it is really embarrassing, and also because if I said I was suicidal she might tell my mom or the school. I’d rather go unchecked and kill myself than let them find out and have to explain it. And how would I explain to […]

2/27/2016 2 comments

I wanna be…

by Kaylee_Bush 2/26/2016

written by Kaylee_Bush

I wanna be a fairy Miranda style

I wanna be a unicorn Kaylee style

I wanna be a sportsfan Nut style

I wanna be something new the Universe’s style

I wanna be SUCH FUN Penny style

I wanna be amaze balls Tilly style

I wanna be wearing baby gap Stevie style

I wanna be a savory muffin Gary style…a savory muffin? No life has enough madness.

I think, I wanna just be, something other than me.

Can I be a doughnut? Jelly filled pls.

Could be the bolly talking. Cheers all! Have a fun weekend!

2/26/2016 21 comments

Hello from bed.

by Cordless 2/26/2016

written by Cordless

This amused me:

http://www.theonion.com/article/report-getting-out-bed-morning-sharply-increases-r-52430

Sure, it’s satire, and somehow also unmistakably true.
Although I must admit, I’ve been stuck in bed since Tuesday night (the usual health issues), and things aren’t much better here either.

On the bright side, the health issues attacked at the same time as a load of winter weather crap, so I wouldn’t have been able to make it outside either way.

Enough about me.
How are the rest of you?
Did YOU make it out of bed today, and if so, did things get rapidly worse like the article said?

2/26/2016 34 comments

“The greatest thing is Love.” You ARE Valuable.

by HERE4UOK 2/26/2016

written by HERE4UOK

I hope you find it in your heart to watch this video and realize how much you really are cared for and how much we need you here.

The End? Sure, you’re in control of that. It’s your life after all, right? But stick around long enough to see you pull through this day… week… month and years. Before you know it, you will have succeeded.

Let life do its job. You? Be the difference in someone’s life… especially in yours.

Hi. I Care. I’m HERE4UOK

2/26/2016 13 comments

Hell has a special place ready, apparently.

by thehusk 2/25/2016

written by thehusk

I don’t think I should exist. I’m a terrible person. That’s not an emotional response, just a plain statement of fact. And I don’t think I have it in me to do better. I don’t want to do better. I want terrible things.

Except I don’t. It’s hard to explain. I have enough of a conscience to see what an awful person I am, and feel bad about it. It’s tough for the ego, realizing you’re at the bottom of the heap, morally speaking. But not enough to really want to do the right thing. I don’t care about anything or anybody enough for that.

I just […]

2/25/2016 5 comments

by Drowning 2/25/2016

written by Drowning

Was meant to go college today set my alarm but when it was time to get up I couldn’t get up iv had enough of this shit everyday waking up tired everyday no motivation I could easily sleep 12 hours I don’t even like college ok it gets me out the house and I’m almost done well I think I’m planning on another attempted once I finish college I don’t even no what to do with myself my life has fell apart I’m rock bottom I can’t live like this anymore

2/25/2016 1 comment

Quintuple My Quentapine Please

by EtiLamb 2/23/2016

written by EtiLamb

Ah yes, another junky clean. I honestly want to stay off of shit this time around; I have no interest in being dependent on chems or people. I make enough money, and function well enough to maintain an addiction for years, but the problem is I know I would end up just dropping dead. Well, drugs normally drive me out of control with depression, and on an almost cyclical clock I make an attempt at suicide. Playing with your brain chemistry like I do results in incredible unpredictable mood swings. That being said, honestly drugs always helped me control my anxiety and anger levels, but […]

2/23/2016 2 comments

wow…

by Alan Ominous 2/22/2016

written by Alan Ominous

http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2016/02/tmp_23933-Session-121220324555.mp3

Found an old recording. Just my guitar and a drum loop. Too many effects dials and not enough production experience. Oh well. Have a good laugh. If you listen in headphones, turn them down, it gets stupid loud and squealy.

Edit: I know the rules say no hate, but feel free to hate on this. I’ll be the first to admit it sucks damn hard.

2/22/2016 7 comments

Not Ready to be 20

by chelle428 2/22/2016

written by chelle428

I thought I’d post what’s on my going on in the series of setbacks that is my life since I have no one else to talk to.

My car is having problems and it’s super old so I’d say it’s about done, and I don’t have the money to replace it. I had a nicer car before, but someone totaled it and openly admitted they knew the accident was their fault, they knew they were going to hit me and still hit me going 75 mph. His insurance had to cover that car, but the car title was in my dad’s name and my dad kept […]

2/22/2016 10 comments

Leaving Home

by YouAreStrong 2/20/2016

written by YouAreStrong

Was wondering if anyone one here has tried this before, kind of like running away I suppose.

I’ve had this idea now for a while and honestly I’m really wanting to go through with it.

I’m 17, failing college, deeply depressed, I have no idea what I’m doing with my life any more and some days it’s a miracle I am even here the next morning. For a while now I have had this idea in my head to pack my bag and leave a note to my family basically saying “Don’t look for me, I will find you when I’m ready.” After leaving home my plan […]

2/20/2016 8 comments

A body dysmorphic story

by Rotted_Flesh 2/20/2016

written by Rotted_Flesh

So when I was around 17 years old, I was quite the insecure little guy (still am, just not as bad). I always hated how I looked, thought I looked weird, that everyone was always staring at me, never satisfied with my appearance. I was in and out of school, really only attending classes if any friends were in it, art class, etc… So I remember one time I got my hair cut and I thought it just looked awful and too short (I had my bangs covering my eyebrows because I really fucked up plucking them and they looked awful), I was unaware and […]

2/20/2016 5 comments

Had enough

by Drowning 2/20/2016

written by Drowning

Iv really had enough now I hate waking up everyday I’m not living life im just surviving each day and that’s a battle life isn’t for everyone and I’m one of them people life will carry on if im here or not so what’s the point the world is a horrible place let alone feeling lonely depressed anxious need to build up the courage to try again

2/20/2016 4 comments

Protected: I’m so thankful to have an art class in my schedule.

by whiskered-fish 2/19/2016

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

2/19/2016 2 comments

I’m back, after a long time

by chelle428 2/19/2016

written by chelle428

I haven’t been on here in a very long time, I don’t even recognize any of the users now. I stopped posting because I didn’t think it was really helping me, but I’m really needing a place to share how I’m feeling again.

I thought things were getting better for a while, I had a counselor and I was on antidepressants for a while. The antidepressants were helping but then we found out that I’m severely allergic to most medications. The only medication I wasn’t allergic made me incredibly sick all the time and made me feel worse. My counselor was very nice, but all she […]

2/19/2016 12 comments

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