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Feeling guilty about you guys

by fitzgerald 4/18/2016

written by fitzgerald

Hey, just wanted to let you know here how much I appreciate everyone here. I think we all were looking for something unheard of in the real world when we joined up.

I also just wanted to let you know I read as many posts as I can and even though I don’t have the words to help most of the time, I do support you.

Thanks everyone who responds to my posts for putting up with my whining even though you clearly have your own trauma to deal with. I feel I don’t have a lot to offer in return. But sincerely, thank you.

4/18/2016 6 comments

How my mind works

by NoMoreHopeLeft 4/18/2016

written by NoMoreHopeLeft

It’s strange. Just some minutes ago I was feeling numb and empty and now my feelings are taking me down. I stare out of the window asking myself “Well, would those stones really kill me if I jumped with my head ahead on them?” Then my other voice decides for me: “Too risky, the chance of surviving and end up in a clinic with everyone thinking you’re mad and idiotic and eventually leaving you too is just WAY too high…” Wow. My mind sure knows how things work and what makes me feel better again. Not.
I’m in this I-hate-myself-can’t-do-anything-anymore-but-being-depressed-I-just-wanna-die mood again, if you know […]

4/18/2016 4 comments

Still alive

by Drowning 4/17/2016

written by Drowning

hay guys I’m still alive iv been trying to keep busy just in case you was wondering how has everyone been holding on I hope we’ll I’m not sure when the next time il post again but if u want to chat feel free to email me new and oldies on here indigojones5@gmail.com

darktide cordless hazy phantom crowbar procel and a few other names iv been thinking of you guys thanks for the support I appreciate that we have met and help each other though some rough dark nights thanks you everyone who is joined to suicide club

drowning hi5 everyone stay stong il be back like […]

4/17/2016 4 comments

Dropping Out

by JiminyCrispies 4/17/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

Everyone seems pretty adamant I’m going to college tomorrow. They don’t understand that I don’t need college, I’m doing a bakery business and I’m going to write. Wasting my time and effort at college doing art is stupid when I could be writing, or starting up the bakery.

I gave a hint about me not going, and my mum blew up at me on several occasions today. Great. I need to just avoid it all week until Friday, and tell my therapist. She’ll get it across into my Mum’s thick skull that I don’t need college. I’m going to fail anyway so why drag it out […]

4/17/2016 8 comments

Thanks SP Community

by chelle428 4/16/2016

written by chelle428

I know I’m not exactly the most popular, the most interesting, the most insightful, or the most helpful. I know I don’t always post that often. I just wanted to thank everyone in the community for always being kind and considerate of me and thank those of you who read my posts, especially the ones that are so long they’re practically a novel. And thank everyone for their sharing themselves on this site and making me realize I’m not alone in this. I’m glad I have a place where I can share my feelings openly with people who can relate a little better than most. […]

4/16/2016 6 comments

Thank you

by whydoiwantto 4/16/2016

written by whydoiwantto

thank you everyone for your support. i’m awake now and doing alright, feeling sick but hopefully that will pass soon. this community has been so nonjudgmental and kind throughout this all, i really appreciate it. thank you so much guys, love you all.

as far as feelings… i’m angry that i failed again, angry that i tried to begin with… when did things start getting so bad that it seems impossible that things will get better? my mind is scattered, i feel like a failure. i’m just glad i wasnt found while i was out… i might find my way into the psych ward again, but […]

4/16/2016 5 comments

Uncertainty

by J Doe 4/15/2016

written by J Doe

Hello. I’m very uncertain about a lot of things. I’m not even really sure that I’m suicidal. I think about killing myself all the time and I even daydream about how I would do it. But if I was really suicidal, wouldn’t I have already done it by now? Literally I could just go into the kitchen while everyone’s asleep, get a knife, cut my throat, and lie down on the bed. But every time I’m at my lowest and feel the urge to do it, I just can’t bring myself to do it. I guess I’m too afraid. I imagine I’m put in situations […]

4/15/2016 6 comments

Inferiority

by thehusk 4/14/2016

written by thehusk

I don’t want to die. I want to be happy. I want to be normal. I want to be fulfilled. But I don’t think I can be.

So instead, I’m this poisonous, negative force. Because I can’t be happy, I want everyone else to be unhappy as well. I want to drag them down to my level, so I don’t feel so jealous and inferior.

I think maybe it would be better if I was dead. I don’t think I have it in me to come to terms with how much I’ve fucked up my life. And I can’t see any way to really live a fulfilling […]

4/14/2016 12 comments

I hope everyone has been okay :)

by nicole123 4/13/2016

written by nicole123

Hey guys .. I haven’t been on since January or the beginning of February . I’ve been so busy with my job .

Let’s just say my life has dramatically changed in the past few months . I got a new job and have been making good money , and met a whole new set of friends . I never thought my life could change so quickly . I was doing really well but I feel like I’ve been slipping off into my depressed state again. But it’s not as bad as before.

I realized a lot about my self over the past few months . I’ve […]

4/13/2016 3 comments

Letting Go

by jay7436 4/12/2016

written by jay7436

I’m finally letting go. Life just keeps on getting worse. Nothing good ever happens anymore. I always have to put up a façade that I’m happy and hope that people don’t see what is really going on. I know if I act unhappy, people will ask and I know I will never be able to give a good enough answer without everyone being suspicious. I know I have to ‘catch the bus’ soon. I always wonder if there is an afterlife or if we just turn into ghosts and just lurk around, basically stalking people just we aren’t really there. I know I’m going to […]

4/12/2016 3 comments

Too Late

by Zetsumei 4/11/2016

written by Zetsumei

I can’t do this, anymore. I’m done. I don’t even care about the mess or scarring my family, anymore. Here’s hoping I don’t see everyone on the other side too soon. Cheers! *drinks my fizzy chocolate milk*

4/11/2016 5 comments

Need to leave

by goodbye4now 4/11/2016

written by goodbye4now

Everyday I constantly think about ending it and I can’t stand it. I think now is the time to go. I don’t want to leave my family and friends but I don’t want to live in a world where I have to fake all my emotions to everyone. I tried to tell them but they ignored me. Nobody will take me seriously.

I want to leave today.

4/11/2016 3 comments

I don’t see a reason not to

by haileewantstobehappy 4/10/2016

written by haileewantstobehappy

I’ve been flirting with suicide a lot more lately, and I’ve realized that it’s the only way out of the mess called my life. It’s shitty, but it’s what it is. I wasn’t blessed with a good life or happiness, I don’t get the same things other people get. This isn’t a suicide note or anything, just writing my feelings. But I’ve realized that the only thing stopping me from killing myself is fear. It’s a cliché fear but I don’t want to stop existing for eternity. I just want to be happier. And there’s a tiny bit of hope that I’ll finally be happy […]

4/10/2016 1 comment

Am I The Only One?

by conflictedcollegekid 4/10/2016

written by conflictedcollegekid

I have a question for everyone on here. I’ve been dealing with suicidal thoughts and depression and anxiety shit for about a year now. Whenever I have a good day (though those are extremely rare), I find myself missing the mental state I am comfortable in–the state where thoughts of suicide and self harm control me. Does that happen to anyone else? Does anyone else purposefully trigger themselves to be in a depressive state when they are in a “normal,” good, happy mood? Or is that just me? I don’t know why I do it…but I do. Sometimes I am mad at myself for doing. Other […]

4/10/2016 6 comments

Half and Half

by jmc22 4/9/2016

written by jmc22

Sometimes I just want to yell at everyone about all the things that they’re doing wrong. I want to throw tables and punch everyone.

But I also want to ignore everyone and just not care.

I want to tell my feelings to someone because hopefully they’ll understand.

But i know that once I tell someone my feelings i’ll just beat myself over it because no one ever does understand what I’m going through. I don’t even understand it.

Even on this website there are people who criticize me. I’m not trying to be a downer, but when I come to this website I’m just looking for an escape. It […]

4/9/2016 3 comments

Me again…

by Ashley 4/8/2016

written by Ashley

Do you ever get tired of helping everyone else with their problems?

Do you ever get tired of no one helping with yours?

Do you ever get tired of being sad?

Do you ever get tired of being happy?

Do you ever get tired of nosiness?

Do you ever get tired of unconcernedness?

Do you ever get tired of being underestimate?

Do you ever get tired of being overestimated?

Do you ever get tired of being alone?

Do you ever get tired of being crowded?

of faking a smile?

of pretending to care?

of being burdened?

of having nothing to do?

of low self-esteem?

of being “plain-jane”?

of being liked?

or of being ignored?

4/8/2016 5 comments

Don’t let me drown – drawing

by Drowning 4/8/2016

written by Drowning

I think iv refound an old hobby thanks to u guys the drawing might not be that greatest but hay it’s keeping my mind at rest of a wile thanks guys Suicide club -drawing how’s everyone doing

4/8/2016 2 comments

Name suggestions and mental illness

by Drowning 4/8/2016

written by Drowning

depression anxiety suicidal insomnia paranoia self harm BPD Adha are done

🙂 how is everyone

4/8/2016 6 comments

A Pact of Lies

by SevenQueensFall 4/7/2016

written by SevenQueensFall

I’ve seemed to stumble into a place where everyone tells lies to me. Those I love, those I am of service to, those I call family, my society, my government, my country, my species, and even myself. If that is not a hard concept to grasp, or even handle, I don’t know what is. We are all living in a place where it is rewarded to lie, but the moment you are caught, you pay colossal penalties. Not only does it feel like everyone is against everyone, we have decided that, as a whole, “all for one” was the best way to achieve greatness; unknowingly […]

4/7/2016 1 comment

wazzzz upppppp

by Drowning 4/7/2016

written by Drowning

So all my characters have names now thanks for the help guys how’s everyone doing today I see a lot of new people coming to the suicide club welcome guys hay let’s chat I’m bored and want more characters ideas comment or email me indigojones5@gmail.com

4/7/2016 10 comments

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