Tag:

feel

The Dumbest Things… what are yours?

by Sammi6xoxo 5/22/2015

written by Sammi6xoxo

I’ve noticed that some of the dumbest things can make me feel completely inadequate as a human being. For example..

-I really REALLY suck at folding fitted sheets. I work in housekeeping at a nursing home and I’m in laundry tonight. All I can think about is how awful that stack of sheets looks.

– I have a little extra bounce in my step when I walk. I feel like it’s drawing attention to me so I try WAY too hard to correct it.

– i couldn’t get a bag open wjilebi was checking out at Wal-Mart the other day. I struggled a bit with it because the […]

5/22/2015 20 comments

I don’t know

by Livingwithoutyou 5/22/2015

written by Livingwithoutyou

Im just confused with the emotions i feel. Feeling a mix of sadness, guilt and anger. For once in my life i am utterly clueless as to which path i should take. I can’t stop thinking of her and the people around me aren’t helping. I hate it. When people i know pretend to have been so close to a person who died just so they feel better and can get sympathy from others. Well the truth is that you never really gave a damn about her life. I can’t go back to the place i was last with her. I tried it once and […]

5/22/2015 2 comments

by living_LIFE 5/20/2015

written by living_LIFE

I began to cut again . Six fucking months clean . I didn’t realize how much better it makes me feel. What led me to start again, well the numbness I feel inside, I want to feel something. I fucking hate it here and the constant reminder of how I am no good or that I Should kill myself. My friends always say they will there for me but when I need them where are they to be found ? So that is why i say fuck everyone and fuck and fuck what people think, i don’t want to hear it, I am sick and […]

5/20/2015 6 comments

i realize i haven’t posted in almost a month.

by spvnalittlelie 5/20/2015

written by spvnalittlelie

life is still as sucky as ever. i’ve become an automaton, just moving through the motions of everyday life without any joy. my parents still drinking. tonight they’re so drunk they’ve already fought. my mom is so drunk she doesn’t know what she is talking about. my dad was in the room, and i heard her say “what if we had another little baby?” she is 51 years old, smokes, drinks, has cancer, and is in no health to have a baby (besides the fact that she can’t because she’s in menopause). my dad is so drunk he responded with something accusing her of wanting […]

5/20/2015 3 comments

AM I A SCREW UP

by helloforever123 5/20/2015

written by helloforever123

I’ve been depressed for a really long time, and I’ve been feeling alone my whole life really. People keep leaving me and now the one person who’s made me feel happy is gonna leave me too. we met in a mental hospital a year ago and we’ve gotten really close. She had really bad eating disorder and i actually got her to start eating again. And I’ve helped to not cut and eventually she did stop,=-)… she keeps asking me why i’m so nice to her and i keep telling her that she’s my best friend and that i care about her when really i have […]

5/20/2015 15 comments

Suicide of friends/family

by RadiantLight 5/20/2015

written by RadiantLight

A friend of mine just committed suicide 4 days ago and everyone in my community is totally shocked.

I was wondering what experiences you may have had with a suicide of a friend or family – whomever – and how you dealt with it.

He was a very smart student was best in his school year and an extremely intelligent and good person. He left a note that said noone should feel guilty with all his bank accounts and formal stuff. Then he left and jumped from a 10 story building. Before he has been fighting depression for one year and had medication ( I’m not sure […]

5/20/2015 7 comments

Update

by brokenredbutterfly 5/19/2015

written by brokenredbutterfly

Hey I’ve decided the plan of killing myself on the 25th is not going ahead. In my other post I talked a lot about a guy who I lost only to find out that he got with another girl 2 days after we broke up.. I was sad about it and it made me think that he couldn’t of loved me that much :/ it would of been a year I was with him but hes moved on and I’m kinda happy for him because hes happy.. I have this guy friend who’s like my bestfriend he has been there for me a lot through […]

5/19/2015 2 comments

She never introduced herself to you guys and I doubt anyone on here really

by misssK88 5/19/2015

written by misssK88

But the username misssk88 was one of my best friends. I never got to tell her but I really did care about her… Fuck it, I loved her. I never got to tell her, might as well write it here. Anyway, she left most of her stuff to me in her actual suicide letter, which I may post here, but I still just feel really fucking weird about everything. I saw she frequented this site and for a second I got a sick feeling like maybe people on this site told her to do what she ended up doing… like some sort of weird site […]

5/19/2015 10 comments

Addiction

by QuirkyFox 5/19/2015

written by QuirkyFox

I’m starting to feel depressed again. I’m worried because this time I have nothing to feel depressed about. Besides my physical pain… Which I’m perpetuating with self abuse. I took the day off work today. I feel broken. My body is starting to die. My addictions have sucked the life from me. I have given myself entirely over to satisfying the insatiable. I would gladly die today, preferably by the hand of another. I don’t think it matters what The addiction is…Addictions destroy lives. I hate being an addict. I can’t stop, not until I am literally unable to move. Then I just collapse. I […]

5/19/2015 3 comments

all around me are familiar faces

by thedamagedarethemostbeautiful 5/19/2015

written by thedamagedarethemostbeautiful

I find it kind of funny I find it kind of sad the dreams in which I’m dying are the best ive ever had..

It’s one thing to be alone..but when ur around people who make you FEEL alone..that’s the worst! Sad… we live together but hardly ever speak even when the opportunity is there..we pass ec other without ever even looking up..its to the point where u realize the people ur suppose to know the best are really just strangers…

5/19/2015 0 comment

by hiitsme0819 5/18/2015

written by hiitsme0819

i never want to sleep again whenever i do i wake up and feel like im a pos at least when ive been awake too long and start to feel the effects of sleep deprivation i no longer care that life is a joke seems like my most suicidal moments are in the first 12 or so hours after sleep really wish there was a drug free way to sleep even less than i do now it would be really nice to just not wake up

5/18/2015 0 comment

Can’t go back, can’t move forward

by genieheart3 5/18/2015

written by genieheart3

I’m so close. Once this morning, I don’t know how close but it was this weird split state of a happy dreamland – very nondistinct, I would describe it as fairies, la-la land but there weren’t an any actual images, just a state of being – and another part of me just instinctively knowing something is wrong and my body trying to untie the knot. My body won.

Once my body won and I came back to this reality, I immediately threw the rope (bathrobe belt) back into my packed up things and crawled into bed. My neck hurt a lot.

But the thing is… I don’t […]

5/18/2015 1 comment

whats left

by hiitsme0819 5/18/2015

written by hiitsme0819

when youve lost all hope of ever being happy again whats left
when youve lost interest in everything you used to care about whats left
when you feel completely lost and hopeless whats left
when your whole life falls apart around you whats left
when it seems like the world is going on without you whats left
when everybody elses happiness makes you miserable whats left
when just waking up makes you feel like shit whats left
when negative emotions are the only ones that remain whats left
when you see death as the only way to escape the sorrow whats left
when the pain […]

5/18/2015 1 comment

Lost and confused

by DarkCloud13 5/18/2015

written by DarkCloud13

Lost and confused…

Im not quite sure what’s wrong with me. I have been struggling with certain “awkwardness” issues my whole life, and have been extremely depressed for about the last year or so. I now feel helpless, I feel like all this struggle is pointles, and I have found myself contemplating suicide on the daily now.

I have always been known as the quite guy and have never been much of a social butterfly. It is hard for me to make new friends or to work up the courage to even call the ones I already have. Its like I have a deep fear of having […]

5/18/2015 1 comment

Im new here, do you want to hear my story?

by Ashweed 5/17/2015

written by Ashweed

My name is Ashley Im 18 and I have severe deppression I dont have any friends I have my fiance and my dogs thats about it I first notticed my deppression when I was about 11 I started smoking weed when I was sad and I notticed it made me feel so much better probably because it would make me eat and go to sleep things didnt get to bad till I was 14 9th grade that was the age I began cutting my self and the age I first tried killing myself I was extremely skinny not because I cared about my weight but […]

5/17/2015 10 comments

by sleeplessinSTL 5/16/2015

written by sleeplessinSTL

I’m forgetting him. I don’t remember what he sounded like without listening to a video. I have a faint memory of it, but it’s fleeting. I honestly think I’m going to forget him completely. I can’t do that. I mss him and I can’t stand the fact that I’m never going to see him again. I’ll never see that cute little crinkle in his nose or his weirdly thick eyelashes. His fucking blonde hair and his stupid fucking face. I wish I could feel something. I can’t tell if I’m mad at him or if I’m sad or if im just fuckedd up. He left […]

5/16/2015 15 comments

No Will to Live: Part 4

by QuietlyBleeding 5/16/2015

written by QuietlyBleeding

After middle school, Isaiah decides to do somethinf about the bullying. He works out everyday, starts getting his hair cut, and begins to change his overall appearance. At the age of 14, he begins to feel better about life. Why? Because not only is he looking and feeling different, but people are treating him differently. People begin to become nicer to him. For once he begins to feel love and attention that he never recieved as a child. He doesn’t know how to handle it so he eats the attention up and becomes a bully himself. He unconsciously wants to spread pain to other people. […]

5/16/2015 9 comments

Why is it so hard for ppl to love you the same way you love them?

by alliwantislovenhappiness 5/16/2015

written by alliwantislovenhappiness

I’m 33 and I have felt unloved my entire life. My family doesn’t think Im good enough. My dad called me a screw up a loser n that I’ll never amount to anything. And no man will ever love me. I have been in love with a man (my sons father) for 10 yrs. yes he cheats. Yes he’s living with his daughters mother but still is wanting to be with me. I am naive. I have never felt love like I have felt from him. I trust him I adore him I stood by him thru think n thin. He helped me become better. […]

5/16/2015 10 comments

Guilt and self-destruction–desperate for communication

by teana 5/16/2015

written by teana

I’m so unhappy. I feel there must be something wrong with me in that I don’t have any friends or relationships, I have no one to talk to and I’m desperately in love with a person who does not give a shit about me. I feel worthless and guilty all the time and it’s devouring me. I can’t accomplish anything without being moderately intoxicated. I hate myself and feel like I don’t deserve to be alive. I try to change my thinking and I can’t seem to stop it, but I want to feel better so badly. I just want to feel okay with myself but […]

5/16/2015 2 comments

at the end

by missti sal 5/15/2015

written by missti sal

it isnt loneliness that i feel anymore, its more than that. its the feeling you get when you realise your life was a lie, when you realise that everyone around you lied. its the feeling of being let down and rejected. where do i go from here? please help me..

5/15/2015 1 comment

Newer Posts

Older Posts