Today I’m feeling like nothing . Nothing has entertained me today. Or made me
Happy . I came home from class and slept for hours . It’s like nothing even matters anymore.
Hi all,
So i am writing this post, lying on the bed, completely scared about my physical/mental state. My anxiety has taken a new, aggressive form and my physical condition is getting worse day by day.
I have been learning a lot about how to cope with all disorders i have. I have learnt not to give up. But day by day this monster of anxiety has been becoming more powerful.
Sometimes i seriously think i will have a heart attack/stroke because of the way anxiety has affected my body. I am again on the verge of giving up. I know i won’t give up easily; but now […]
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Does anyone here know the feeling of being so calmed (with no reason) after being so so sad?
It is like being ok about all the shit. It kinda scares me (not really, but in a way) because I feel really capable of ending up everything but I do not want to hurt anyone, I do not want to make them sad.
I don’t know what to do. I’m numb.
Warning: for those reading this, I apologize for the lengthy post. I just can’t help but feel trapped in my body. It seems I can never escape the thoughts in my mind besides when I’m sleeping. I just want to sleep forever.
Why is it always me??? Why can’t I find the happiness I so truly want and deserve? Why do I feel unwanted? Used? Betrayed? Unloved? Is something wrong with me? Maybe I’m destined to be alone forever..and if that’s the case, why am I still here? The man I love doesn’t seem to love me back… yet I’ll find any excuse to try and […]
I’m judged by closest people around me. How can I face this situation? Feeling melting down and broken. Help me.
I need to write a letter to myself, so I can read whenever I start shaking, sobbing and attacking myself.
I was doing fine. This just makes me feel worst. Oh, dear brain how I wish you were calmer.
All of those rage moments make me bleed, break stuff, beat the shit of my face, and sleep doesn’t solve anything.
I need rest.
And I am sorry for my behaviour.
I am so sorry.
I always get blind from my rage.
I need to grown up.
Feeling twice as guilty, I’ve told my boyfriend I’ve scratched and cut myself, and he told me that he made a […]
So, today I’ve relapsed into depression. I was doing really well, I really was…but now I am just failing at life. Or at least, that’s how I feel. School’s got me feeling like that and it seems like no matter how hard I try, I’m just a failure. I mean, I can’t really excel at anything but I guess I shouldn’t be surprised. Whenever I try to look up, the world slaps my face downward. It gives me subtle reminders that I’ll never get what I want, or I’ll never be happy, or that I don’t even matter. There’s always something. Maybe I’m still stuck in […]
so I haven’t been on here in a while so I thought it was a good thing but you people on here always help out when I post something and reading the comments you place really help me a lot to help myself.
I have been getting bullied a lot I dunno why. I have been getting called fat so I started going to the gym a few months ago I thought twas improving my appearance til some people at my college started taunting me calling me fat and ugly. You see I have a twin and she has always been the one people idolize over. […]
I painted this picture one day when existentialism was strong on my mind. I hadn’t painted it because I was feeling suicidal. I hadn’t painted it because I wanted some attention from my parents. I hadn’t painted it just because it looked cool. I painted it because it spoke to me. I hear a lot of negative opinions from all of my family about suicide. They say those people are cowards. They say those people don’t know how good life is. They say those people are selfish. They say those people are mental. Well I say different. I say suicide is damn ugly and suicide […]
I’m struggling with my self confidence. I feel so ugly and I hate my body. My ex boyfriend watched porn behind my back, huge tit porn. I don’t have big boobs and It has made me hate myself so much. I wish I had big boobs, I wish someone would love me for my body
Is only me
I’m not capable of such kind
But surely I loved you
Your feet to the ground and to the view
Feeling, all that I feel is ultimate agony
Call to me, the poor and agony
You beautifully blow into a black-hole
The Blue Marvel, do not gravitate me farther in time in your fate
Faith, keeping me upside-down in irony
Allah, I call to, Allah
At the moment.
I consider myself to be an Empath. You might be one too. It’s been extremely difficult to live and function in a society where people don’t really have empathy so it’s hard for them to really feel what somebody else is going through. And that’s why so many people are ruthless and cutthroat, you know. Being and Empath is like having a finely tuned ‘Bullshit’ Lie-Detector. It’s really strange to have the ability to really feel what other people are feeling because I don’t know how to handle and cope with it. Now, staying away from strangers is easy enough; I just don’t go outside […]
I’m feeling like really blank right now. Like when your not happy not sad, your mood is just blah. Idk. Anyone else feel like this…?
“I’m afraid of dying” was something that I used to think and say a lot, but I have forgotten how it feels to be afraid and not ready to die.
For about 5 years, I’ve felt constantly sad. Can’t say I’m depressed since I’ve never been diagnosed, but I can say that feeling hopeless is now my “normal” feeling.
So I wonder, what is the normal “normal” feeling? It’s obviously not hopelessness, so what is it? I wish to love life again. Either that or just not live. It’s not like I’m actually living, anyways.
-V
I’m the youngest child of a survivor who made multiple attempts on her own life. How bad is it that I really really wish she had succeeded? I hate her with a passion. She is the worst narcissist I have ever met, myself included. She is extremely manipulative and it may be possible that she is trying to drive me into a nervous breakdown.
My father is a recovering alcoholic, and I have heard from many people (my mother’s own siblings included) that she literally tried to get him to drink himself to death. He has no idea how I’m feeling, apart from my anger towards […]
I am married, have 2kids, working, I just can’t manage any thing in my life I feel like I fell in a big hole that I can’t get out of it and my husband dome times supports me and most of times not, he is a destructive person always want me to do what he wants immediately without thinking we are not getting along these days my life with is always ups and downs we are in down state always argue about every thing (cleaning, washing dishes, doing laundry, doing homework with my son, my kids hygiene and so many other things) he helps me […]
About a month ago, I was in the most terrible place in my life. That choking feeling you get when your about to lose your shit or flip out – I carried that around everywhere from the moment I would wake up to when I would eventually fall asleep. I cried almost everyday for a long time and watched as every single aspect of my life slowly decayed. I wanted to die. I hated being alive. I would have done anything for someone to kill me, for a car to hit me, for things to just cease. I came very close to committing suicide on […]
Ever since I was younger, I have always put on a mask. I only let people see what I want them to see. And what I let them see is me, happy, hardworking, selfless, caring, okay. But because of this, I always end up bottling up the bad thoughts and feelings inside of me.
I have a great life compared to many people. I know this. I have great parents who love and support me. I get good grades in school. I’m from an upper middle-class family. I go to a great university and know I can go to a great graduate school. I’m healthy. I’m selfless, respectful, […]