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Friendship

Afterthought

by anothertransguy 11/11/2021

written by anothertransguy

Afterthought

‘I’m fine’ the mantra in my head

The lie I speak everyday

‘I’m not fine’ words you don’t say

But I hear them anyway

Carving more of what little is left within

To be there for you

Because I’ll always be there for you

I’ll always elevate you above myself

Sacrifice my needs to meet your own

And I know it’s not balanced

I know it’s not healthy

But this is the friendship paradigm

I’ve grown up believing

The issue is others don’t see that

They see a good person to talk too

So, they keep doing it

They see someone whose handling everything

So, I keep doing it

Except I’m not

I’m slowly cracking from within

Depression seeping under my skin

Infecting old scars, I […]

11/11/2021 2 comments

Fake Friends

by Lostsoul_20 9/11/2017

written by Lostsoul_20

I hate that my “friends” are all friends with my rapist – they claim not to be but they very obviously are. Always talking to him, laughing with him, partying with him, visiting his place, cooking for him at one point fucking him. I wish they could see how deteriorating this is. Its not enough to say I should be the one to say don’t hang out with him. if some guy that you say you’re only acquaintances with rapes you’re friend you get rid of the guy. Don’t make excuses as to why you continue to get close to him and apologise and continue […]

9/11/2017 6 comments

The reason for me to live, is so others may not die

by KoertsMeijer1997 8/23/2017

written by KoertsMeijer1997

I honestly am not sure where to start this all off. This is a very long story, just to let you know. For starters, I am a 20yo male. I’ve dealt with severe clinical depression, anxiety, and anger issues since I was 11yo.

I am a current EMT and am a Paramedic student in Maryland. I joined the fire department when I was 17, and have been an EMT since I was 18.

One of my first calls as a 17yo EMT student, it had been a pretty tough day. We had already run a cardiac arrest, and I was in general having one of my down […]

8/23/2017 5 comments

A life not worth living

by FilteredSoul 7/26/2017

written by FilteredSoul

Dear M, My one and only friend

You were the best person I ever met. You always took care and looked out for me even though im such a child. Everytime I feel apart you helped pick me back up. You pushed and motivated me to be something with my life. I looked up to you in a lot of ways. You pushed me to get a job, mostly because i wanted money to hang out with you but i still had a job. You even inspired me to give college another chance. Your the only person I trust with my life. Your the only person […]

7/26/2017 0 comment

Haven’t left the house, ate four instant noodle cups, psychedelic medicine, hope,and a short rant

by rayonhousefly 5/13/2017

written by rayonhousefly

And seriously want to murder my moms drunk loser of a boyfriend. Maybe one day if things get bad enough, I’m really just waiting for him to hit her or something then all bets are off. I mean I wouldn’t kill him, probably just stab him a few times.

So I’ve been really good since my last post, did an ibogaine treatment and have been living in Mexico ever since. Been clean for longer than I ever have, and the visions I had will be with me for the rest of my life. I became a part of the ibogaine community here and made tons […]

5/13/2017 0 comment

i need advice. please. i need it.

by anne33 4/23/2017

written by anne33

this problem will sound pathetic if you have never really loved someone. so please dont think im screwed up or crazy, because if you have loved someone truly with every piece of yourself, you will understand. ok?

I NEED ADVICE.

so about a year ago i started talking to this guy and immediately i felt like i could trust him. i felt connected to him. then he ended up getting a girl friend until september. then we still talked a lot, before and after their break up. not in a romantic way of course but as good friends. Then we started to talk more after september, facetiming […]

4/23/2017 3 comments

I feel like I don’t belong; like i’m lost.

by lulu1999 11/26/2016

written by lulu1999

I’m a 17 year old girl in my senior year of high school. I don’t do terribly in school, but i also don’t do great. I’m kind of mediocre at everything I do. I’m also kind of a pot head. I don’t get along great with my parents, we have really different views on everything. I have always had a good amount of friends, but recently started drifting from a lot of them. I have one best friend, and she is sort of my only friend at the moment. Don’t get me wrong, I love her like a sister, and she is a really good […]

11/26/2016 3 comments

Introducing myself

by Hope342 5/8/2016

written by Hope342

Hi guys, I am new to this site, came across it while looking for an outlet for my negative thoughts. I struggle to talk to people about how I feel, and I am finding it increasingly difficult to live with the loneliness of not being able to express myself. My friends are kind. I don’t have many, but the ones I do have I appreciate and are there for me often, but more in terms of meeting up and having fun, rather than being able to specifically talk to them. That’s why I am here.

For many years, I have felt insecure. I was severely bullied […]

5/8/2016 5 comments

Why does everyone always leave?

by Metalgore 2/6/2016

written by Metalgore

I never really had a problem with people abandoning me because of what had happened to me a couple years ago. I was 10 years old when my best friend passed away due to an asthma attack. I was so devastated and I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t know how to go on with my life now that my only friend had gone.

I never wanted to get out of bed and i especially struggled when it came time for me to go to school. I lost so much weight and by the age of 11, i started cutting. I didn’t know how else […]

2/6/2016 2 comments

I Have No Hope In Anything Anymore

by wastedlifeat21 12/23/2015

written by wastedlifeat21

I have no hope for anything anymore, why should I keep living? I just want a reason to still be alive.

I struggle in school. After I messed up kept failing classes and failing a whole semester, it’s going to take forever for me to graduate.

Interpersonal relationships always seem to fail in some way or another, most people seem to want to take advantage of me, and leave eventually. Not to mention that I’m ugly and unlovable, so no one cares about me. I just let everyone down and disappoint them.

My father hates me so much, he changed his will to replace me with my cousins […]

12/23/2015 1 comment

Friendship

by Bouret.1 11/7/2015

written by Bouret.1

you run , you love,
you could you wont,
you stay, you feel,
you should, you wont
You wont be allowed to being attached to someone without pain.
You wont be allowed to get what you want without hurt someone.

there are friends outhere , waitting for you
and most of the time they love you more than you will love them .

This time…

theres is no one waiting for me, no one who could love me more than I do,

I need to talk , to do something, to get out of my head all those “friendly” people who doesn’t love me back!

Damn it im such […]

11/7/2015 0 comment

Friendship

by Delisnak 10/4/2015

written by Delisnak

I wanted to talk about something im having a problem with…friendship. I have one friend i’ve known her for most of my life she’s really great. We got into a fight over a rumor passed around school that I was messing around with her boyfriend. She beileved the rumors and said alot of hurtful things like, go cut yourself and no one loves you. She knows i harm myself its a sore spot for me and i instantly started crying. This happened during school so it drawed in a crowd and i felt like my whole world was crumbling around me. As if ive […]

10/4/2015 3 comments

What Are Friends

by operationmintyhippo 9/9/2015

written by operationmintyhippo

Sorry I’m so wordy, and you probably don’t care. I guess I’m just whiny.

My timeline of friends and now I have no one..

9/9/2015 9 comments

I don’t like people anymore

by FrenchyGirl 8/20/2015

written by FrenchyGirl

I’ve been a very sensitive person, who loved other people very much.

I was always ready to help them, to support them by listening them.

I realized that people uses me like a diposable tissue, throwing me away when I stop to be useful to them.

I realized that I can open my heart to other people, but they never open their heart to me.

I realized that I can help other people, but when I am the one who needs help, nobody is there, neither the person I’ve helped, neither the other person.

I stopped helping, listening, or socializing, it hurts too much.

I realized I’ve never met a good […]

8/20/2015 21 comments

Im nothing special

by Hi 6/15/2015

written by Hi

I have no really good friends and im sick of it. I try to see what the problem is and the only thing I can think of is that I dont “pop out” like everyone else does. Everyone has something special about them. Not me, Im just a boring, depressed person who dosent have friends. I dont blame people that they dont like to talk to me. Also, everyone that I know has had at least 1 boyfriend before, but me. I know im not popular but seriously. I feel unloved. It feels like I have a dark pit in my heart because Ive been […]

6/15/2015 6 comments

My Depression

by Hi 6/4/2015

written by Hi

So, I have nowhere to rant so im just gonna do it here. Excuse my incorrect grammar and spelling or confusing stuff. Here goes. Please stick with me.

Everyone who I thought was my friend just ignores me. Im never invited anywhere when all my best friends go out together. People never text me, I have to text them first, and they just ignore me. I’m fucking sick of trying to make everyone happy when no one gives a shit about me. Thats one of the reasons why I have depression. Now let me tell about other stuff.

Im not sure how this all started off. I […]

6/4/2015 3 comments

Friendship?

by defeatedbyrain 6/2/2015

written by defeatedbyrain

I’m tired of always initiating conversations, and never willingly talked to.

I’m tired of being the one to invite them, and they don’t even consider inviting me.

I’m tired of sacrificing my free time planning for us to hang out, and then be ignored when we’re together.

I’m tired of always listening to their troubles and soothing them, and be ignored when I’m sad myself.

I’m tired of the fact that everything I do is hypocritical, and that they are always right.

I’m tired of being told I matter, even though they do all these things to me.

I’m tired of having friends that make me feel like shit and let […]

6/2/2015 3 comments

Friendships never last.

by Terrible 5/28/2015

written by Terrible

When push came to shove, and I found that most of my friends left me. It seemed like they had left me to die.

I will never forgive some of them for leaving me when I needed someone. I felt so alone already, and when they left, I fell into a deeper depression than I was already in.

I guess I’m writing this to tell the truth. Most friendships don’t last. I was friends with someone for 11 years, and as soon as high school came around, everything changed for good. We drifted apart, as people do, and became different people.

We don’t talk anymore. There are still […]

5/28/2015 2 comments

I’ve Fucked Up – Again

by Crazyhorse 3/28/2015

written by Crazyhorse

I’ve got a roommate that I love dearly. Keep in mind, I knew that he didn’t want to marry me, he claimed is was just his friend. He’s was not in the best of health, and I’ve done things for him that only medical people would do; enemas, insulin shots, emptied urinals. I’ve even handled his mail and banking when he’s in the hospital. Now, after 15 years, his health is better, and he’s going back to his old self, screwing any female that looks like a stripper.

But this man, whom I love dearly, doesn’t love me. We got into a hell of a fight. I’m […]

3/28/2015 2 comments

Friendship

by ojx402 2/5/2015

written by ojx402

I don’t really know how I feel.

I haven’t talked to my friends in a month or so, at first it was because I was kind of lazy and didn’t feel like talking, but as days passed I realized how little my “friends” care. I mean, did I really mean nothing to them? All the communication I had was with one of them because she replied to something I tweeted. I know they check my twitter all the time, so they know I have been feeling like shit and they don’t fucking care! I just don’t know if I’m angry, or upset, I don’t know. I […]

2/5/2015 4 comments

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