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Happiness

I am wasted space. I do nothing but harm.

by xabbysaurx 1/5/2013

written by xabbysaurx

I will kill myself.

I just need a letter.

I’m a waste of space. A stain on society.I’m marked with my past. All over.With ink, scars. My skin is like a road map.

I have no friends. No family.

My only loving sibling is gone. Deceased for over 3 years, now. My older sister resents me. My younger sister hardly knows me.
I’m never even around.

I don’t deserve to be around.

I know I won’t be missed.

No one will ever be upset.

That’s just the way it is, I suppose.

I’m hated, anyway. Why stay in a place where you’re stuck? Where you’re hated.

Where you’re nothing but a waste?

I imagine other people […]

1/5/2013 5 comments

You can’t say I didn’t try!

by catfreak 1/4/2013

written by catfreak

I’m exhausted. January 2nd was my date. All set then I had a psych assessment appt come through so I thought I’d move it to the 3rd… Then a job interview on the 4th ok so the 4th is my day. Fucks sake! How do you people not notice? A psych evaluation where I pour my heart out about how I’m not going to be here next week and still evokes nothing? Why am I surprised tho? This system has failed me so many times so I should know right? Wrong, my selfish, self involved side took over and thought someone would give a […]

1/4/2013 2 comments

maybe it’s all in my head.

by b1urr 1/4/2013

written by b1urr

i can feel myself gaining weight
i can feel the escalating urges to self mutilate
i can feel the loss of sanity
of minor happiness
i feel the pain that shouldn’t exist
i’m weak
too weak to kill myself
but too weak to give no fucks and live
this aching is tearing at my wounds
these thoughts drowning me
i’m suffocating by the sorrow that surrounds me
alone i’m feeling all of this
yet, alone, i feel nothing

… because i’m worthless.

1/4/2013 2 comments

Endlessly Alone

by lumo93 1/3/2013

written by lumo93

8 months feeling thisÂ loneliness, I feel that the more it goes on the more my worthlessness shows. I have no one I can call a brother, not even my own. It doesn’t matter how many people I am around, I will always and forever feel alone. I start to see why, I’m worthless scum, needy for attention, at the same time I really just want a really close friend. Someone who we can be there forÂ each other. Seems impossible at this point, I don’t see why I haven’t already just ended it. I’m stuck on the thinÂ threadÂ on staying and leaving this world,Â super-gluedÂ and hanging upside-down. I […]

1/3/2013 5 comments

New year equals a new beginning

by christine123 1/3/2013

written by christine123

I know that for a lot the new year doesn’t seem like it is going to be full of great things or maybe so far the year hasn’t been good. Just keep positive because I have been there and I know what it feels like to be completely alone and wanting everything to slow down and stop. Sometimes no matter what people said to me like ” don’t worry, this will pass” or ” ignore what others say” or the best..” this is just temporary” ended up pissing me off more because when it is you personally going through a rough time no one knows […]

1/3/2013 6 comments

I’ve lost myself

by SimplyConfused 12/30/2012

written by SimplyConfused

My whole life I’ve always thought of Â myself to be this “good girl”. Like success was the only option and I was so confident that I’d get the whole “storybook” lifestyle. And I’m not someone who believes things are handed to you so I knew there would be some hardships but I just don’t think anyone should go through such constant disappointments. I think I’ve reached my limit, I’ve completely lost myself. Nothing I do makes any sense to me But I just can’t stop it. I just want to be happy, but I never can. I’ve always been a good student but I’m flunking […]

12/30/2012 2 comments

Interesting Week

by RuinsOfTheVoid 12/30/2012

written by RuinsOfTheVoid

So as it turns out one of my closest friends is gay. He came out about 4 days ago and we were all shockedÂ becauseÂ he has had more GF’s than me in the past. WeÂ didn’tÂ really know what to say, weÂ couldn’tÂ really say much since he just text us this.

We all met up the other night and it was the first real test to see if things were going to be different just because he was gay. Â I like to think we are an open minded bunch, and I also liked to think that I am notÂ prejudicedÂ againstÂ anyone for any reason.Â But you never really know if your comfortable […]

12/30/2012 9 comments

These walls were built around me.

by OddOneOut 12/30/2012

written by OddOneOut

Depression…It can come to anyone but that doesn’t mean it comes to everyone. It doesn’t just HAPPEN like that either. If you’re depressed, there’s a reason to it and it’s not something silly or stupid, it’s actually quite serious.
Right?
So that means all the people telling me that I’m looking for attention are wrong, and that something has happened within my lifespan to cause depression in my life. I’m not being an a**hole, attention-seeking or anything. I’m actually depressed.
But then there’s no cure to this. No-one to talk to around me, those whom I CAN talk to are far away, nad many people […]

12/30/2012 4 comments

Chains of bondage

by Harley Quinnlette 12/30/2012

written by Harley Quinnlette

Dark, suffocating darkness, no light
Despairing place with no way out
Chained to a wall inside this putrid place
No hope of happiness coming soon.
So lonely, so very lonely
A body lies beside, but itâ€™s cold
This person is cold, cold of heart
No emotions presents
No comfort, no support, no encouraging words
Only radiating hatred, to keep you where you are.
So lonely, so very lonely.
Chained to this place with a cold person
A person you once knew
A person you once loved
A person you once called your love.
A person who no longer loves you
A person who no longer […]

12/30/2012 0 comment

what i feel.

by bella 12/29/2012

written by bella

i kind of feel like nothing. you know?

as in. i feel empty, literally.
like i have no stomach, or liver, or kidneys, or lungs just nothing. i feel nothing. im just an outline of a figure holding a sad soul, that has already died.

the only thing i know exists is my brain, because the voices are haunting it.

my feelings are gone. i thought i felt numb before, and would occasionally notice a feeling, of somewhat happiness that would last mere seconds.

but now. it’s like i don’t even recognise emotion.

i ‘smile’.
it feels like any other movement.
it doesn’t hold any true feeling of happiness. nothing. […]

12/29/2012 2 comments

My Depression: The real reasons…

by CryingForHelp 12/29/2012

written by CryingForHelp

Hi, I’m Destanie. I’m 15 years old. I turn 16 in May, but I don’t think I’m going to make it to see my birthday. Here’s why….

Back in June of 2012 i fell in love with this guy Tyler. He gave me the happiness I needed. He made me feel loved and wanted. We started dating but it only lasted about a week. For 3-4 months after that, I kept trying to tell him I still loved him. Finally he started talking to me again and I told him.. He told me he still loved me too and that he wants to make things right. […]

12/29/2012 10 comments

arghh

by born to die 12/27/2012

written by born to die

another sleepless night with crying, screaming into my pilllow and suffering 🙁 i wrote this in the night…. hope you like it.

fires ablaze within my eyes

a smile concealing all my lies screaming, begging calling out

a final frantic desperate shout.

i dont know why i feel this way

i never asked for pain, tears or suffering i was normal at one point in life

i was full of smiles, laughter and happiness

i wish i knew the cause of this pain to find a way to make it all stop.

have you ever felt like giving up this fight

have you ever slit your wrists or

have you ever picked up a knife

i […]

12/27/2012 3 comments

???

by Ricolas 12/24/2012

written by Ricolas

Days like today makes me feel like I’m a fucking piece of shit waiting to rot away, or a waste of skin maybe. Fucking tire of people feeling ofended with the things I say or do… and people pushing me to care about them when it’s fucking clear they don’t give a shit about me, or else they would call me or text me or look for me…

What a wonderful fucking world !

12/24/2012 4 comments

Why is high school so long?

by hogpotter 12/22/2012

written by hogpotter

I can’t wait to finish high school and leave this hellhole for good, but why does it take so long???? It seems like I have suffered for years and years when actually it’s still December, have got 5 months of school left. I really hate it here… I want to leave… What should I do??

I’m a grade A student, but I hate school second to hating the woman who gave birth to me.

Sometimes I feel so depressed waiting for school to end that I am tempted to cut.

And trust me, when the time finally comes for me to leave here, I’ll never fucking come back. […]

12/22/2012 0 comment

Cyanide minus the happiness…

by Alayna 12/17/2012

written by Alayna

I’m unhappy, more than unhappy actually. I don’t know whats wrong with me I have nothing left to live for and if I could I would drop dead right now. I know there are people that love me but the one person I want to love me doesn’t. The women who knew me before I knew myself, the women who carried me for nine months hates me, and I cant do a damn thing about it. Today I realized that I have become just like her. i am mean and I say things to people just to hurt them. I can’t stop myself and it […]

12/17/2012 6 comments

stanley blade

by anytimecutter 12/16/2012

written by anytimecutter

Although i keep you close,I wish it was happiness that I choose, now all is dry and faded away, at least till i see stanley again,people call you “bad” and “not a real friend”,but they dont know how deepÂ and caring you are stanley, your always there and you’ll always listen and always care, you hold me close like its all gonna end you may be cold at times but no worries i will give you a place nice and warm and once again my arm…my body will be a blood storm, but stanleyplease dont let go i promise no one will know, […]

12/16/2012 0 comment

Heart Pain is the Worst Pain

by NowhereRoad 12/15/2012

written by NowhereRoad

I’ve said a million times that I would rather be beat up than to hurt emotionally, but it never seems to work out that way.Â As I found out on Thursday night, even if you are beat up physically, your heart will still hurt.

I am not getting any younger.Â I am 29, I have a seemingly great life;Â I have a full time job at a great company, I have a wonderful apartment near my job, I have my two cats that I live with, some great friends, a supportive family…Â But there is one thing missing – a relationship with myself.

I am constantly trying […]

12/15/2012 0 comment

Saying the Words & Denial

by Abselom 12/15/2012

written by Abselom

Actually SAYING whats wrong, or that youre upset, or cutting or whatever.. just makes it THAT much more real… so i think thats why depressed people keep it to themselves. As soon as we say that somethings wrong, it all becomes real.. completly and truely real.. and thats the worst thing…

Deny it… maybe it will eventually work if we just deny it all..

Denial… maybe it will work someday.. hopefully…

so i will continue to deny it, and fake my happiness…

12/15/2012 2 comments

I’m so messed up…

by OddOneOut 12/11/2012

written by OddOneOut

This isn’t my first post here…But whenever I post something on this site, I feel like how I constantly feel when I do something like this in the real world – that I’m saying things that no-one wants to listen to, bothering people with my problems when nobody gives a damn. It’s been that way for a long time. Whenever I vent and rant, people just never cared. All they wanted me to do was to shut up and get on with my life, without giving a damn about what my problems were. That, mixed with the near-physical discomfort I feel when I cause someone […]

12/11/2012 11 comments

This ugly boy needs to die soon

by legrandincendie 12/11/2012

written by legrandincendie

I don’t really care what people look like. Ugly people have every right to happiness and success as the beautiful, but I don’t feel that way about myself. I have not been able to look in mirrors since 2002. I’m so fat and ugly and I want Â to die. I will never be able to accomplish anything good in my life and I will only get uglier as I get older. But how do I do it? I need it to be painless and it must be successful.

I have always felt ugly since at least 8 years old. I remember getting in trouble at school […]

12/11/2012 3 comments

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