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in the end

It was going to be today…

by disgusting 7/30/2015

written by disgusting

Last weekend I decided on today to be the best day to kill myself. It made a lot more sense than 7/2/15 because I didn’t see a connection in those numbers. But I like, and do like, how 11/30/77 to 7/30/15 looks and sounds. I’m a bit of a numbers freak, so dying on the same day of the month is appealing, along with the connection between my birth year (two 7’s) and it being the 7th month. Close enough. Like I said, I’m a numbers freak and I pay crazy attention to numbers. But what stopped me???? ….

I was (and do still) feel so […]

7/30/2015 6 comments

I wonder how my life will end…

by munckin 7/27/2015

written by munckin

I wonder… I long for death.. and would welcome.it if it came so that it was not my who does the deed.. nor would I die without a struggle to go on.. this is in me. As I have proven for the last two years. I showed it with staying with the person who crushes me.. the person who took my sanitty.. or at least that what was left of it.

Some if if was taken by my family but at the age of 26 I was over it.. I mean it helped to meet her… The person who I wanted to marry. Cute, beautiful, sexy […]

7/27/2015 3 comments

It makes no difference….

by Mark_1981 7/22/2015

written by Mark_1981

It is tough for me to explain and on the added front, it is tough for other people to understand as well. In the end, I am another person who wants to die but at the same time hangs on.

I definitely did not grow up “usual”. I grew up best described as isolated on a farm. I am the youngest. I have two older siblings, a sister (5 years older) and a brother (7 years older). We attended church and I attended Sunday school which was the sole social interaction that I had for my first 5 or so years of life. It was extremely […]

7/22/2015 3 comments

Nature is Nihilistic: my view of the world

by wndozh8er 7/22/2015

written by wndozh8er

no matter if you commit suicide or die of natural causes in old age, the end result is the same: you will die in the end! Nature is cruel, heartless, and incredibly restrictive. For example, nature says the Ebola virus, which has no good function whatsoever, is more important than a child’s life. To me this is a horrible reality. No wonder people make up gods and believe in an afterlife. I however, do not because I am a man of observation. I can not look truth in the eye and deny it without being delusional and ignorant.

All all we are is meat. Most brains […]

7/22/2015 7 comments

Given Up

by Shouldnttryanymore99 7/13/2015

written by Shouldnttryanymore99

I’ve been hiding my pain for ong time. All these feelings of hatred towards myself, my infinite flaws, and my terrible life. Anyone who does know about it is also aware that I’m not worth their time or effort to help. And they’re right. All I do is hurt people, piss them off, annoy them, let them down, burden them, and plenty more. When I finally successfully kill myself, I will be doing them all a favor. Not one would care, and it would improve their lives immensely. The closest I came to happiness was meeting my best friend, who actually could put a smile […]

7/13/2015 1 comment

A question

by Aguy14 7/11/2015

written by Aguy14

I’ve been thinking lately about life, I have accepted that everyone dies and I shall too at one point. For me personally I have no reason to go on, I do not hate myself but I do know that I have no ultimate goal in life or any real ties to anyone that I feel are important to me enough to the point that I care how they would feel if I was to die. Basically I’m wondering if anyone could give me some advice as to how to find a purpose in life that could keep me going because right now I just feel […]

7/11/2015 2 comments

My first post, hopefully the last.

by Gursten 7/5/2015

written by Gursten

This post started as my first reply to another post, I am just copying it in. I’m not rich but I’m certainly not poor. I made this account just to reply to you, and im using my username that I have everywhere. I don’t want to be anonymous. My life was just how you describe yours, playing games, watching random tv shows, maybe some youtube, or streams, and chatting with friends online. I have lived 90% of my life online for the past few years. Unlike you I was satisfied with that, I do not want what others seem to want in life. I don’t […]

7/5/2015 8 comments

Things never change

by Parzival 6/28/2015

written by Parzival

I’m depressed. Wouldn’t be here writing this if I wasn’t. I come looking for answers knowing that there really are none. I don’t even know where to start. Things have gotten so messed up. Situations change but in reality we are stuck. We can try to change who we are inside, we can try and mask our pain but in the end it is still there. Honestly I’m just typing this as I go with no plan in mind. I don’t even know what to say anymore. Being different sucks. People don’t seem to understand me and because I’m different people want to protect me. […]

6/28/2015 2 comments

I want it to end

by 2sick2care 6/25/2015

written by 2sick2care

I’m tired I’ve been tired, I’m a walking fuckin skeleton with nothing left to give you can look at me and see I’m no longer here anymore. 24 years old or 4 this is all I’ve known, a never ending black hole I’ve gotten fuckin stupider and have ultimately fucked myself up even more. I’m sicker than sick, I’m fuckin sick and feel like nothing in this world can “fix” me. I honestly believe this is it no heaven or hell we had a choice to make this world our heaven or hell, the more I look around and the longer I choose to stay […]

6/25/2015 3 comments

Apologies and Things Left Unsaid

by Black_Heart2001 6/21/2015

written by Black_Heart2001

To everybody that I’ve hurt in my life, and all the lives that I’ve touched, I’m sorry. I am sorry for bringing myself into your life and bringing trouble along with me.

Anna –

You were the friend that was always there for me even though you were the one who betrayed me in the end. During our friendship, you threw me under the bus over and over again, but I forgave you each time, because I trust people too much and I forgive too easily. There were times when you were the best friend I could ever think of, and there were times when I thought […]

6/21/2015 0 comment

dream

by keeprunning 6/12/2015

written by keeprunning

Writing is a huge part of me as a person. When I’m lonely or depressed, or even when I’m feeling suicidal, I sit down in front of my computer and write a short story about depression. Sometimes the character kills herself in the end, and sometimes she drifts off to sleep and the ending becomes ambiguous. Sometimes it’s not even about suicide. But writing fills me with hope, and it seems to be something I can follow.

One day I went to my Language Arts teacher to talk about a poor grade I had received on a allegorical-type story. I asked her if she had interpreted it wrong […]

6/12/2015 3 comments

Final post.

by Nihilism000 6/9/2015

written by Nihilism000

This is my final post on here, I thought it would help me. Some of the people on here are really helpful. But I know my decision now. I will go away, in a sense. I have issues befriending people. In the end however they leave, that’s ok though. They are forgiven. So is everyone else who has caused me pain, you are forgiven. I am now at peace, I feel no more pain. I have dreaded posting this, because I felt that maybe hope was somewhere. But certain events today proved to me otherwise. I know that there is no other way. I’ve no […]

6/9/2015 12 comments

Vampires are chasing me.

by sickfromthemelt 6/7/2015

written by sickfromthemelt

You cannot reason with some people, some people will not stop, they cannot stop, until they kill your soul, whether they kill you in the process is more of a happy accident than an unfortunate consequence.

I have a soul, I had a heart, I don’t have much else.

No matter how hard you try, you can’t placate them, because they do not know that love and acceptance are very different things, hell, some don’t even know how to love to begin with.

I’ve met them all, and I was dumb enough to put my trust in them, those that will never understand me and, as such, want […]

6/7/2015 4 comments

nobody cares

by sadsadist 6/5/2015

written by sadsadist

Another truth to life I have discovered nobody ever did so much pretending in the end were born alone we die alone no one is there at least not for me never for me many could say I’m just angry and hateful I am but not nearly as much as all the sadness regret loneliness

6/5/2015 0 comment

Why live?

by Worthlesslife 6/4/2015

written by Worthlesslife

My whole life I’ve felt so empty and worthless, it’s like I don’t belong here, I used to be the kind of person who just put on a mask and tried to live life thinking, “Well if I can’t know happiness I’ll just try and make others happy instead.” Bad idea. People will take advantage of you every single time whether you see it or not, no one cares, and the ones who do are only pretending so they can get something out of you in the end. I hate living, hate it. every time I look at my own reflection I get […]

6/4/2015 2 comments

When does it get better ?

by sisterwife4 5/27/2015

written by sisterwife4

When will this all get better ? For years I’ve been waiting to just have one person I could love & grow with that would love me back . I loved & I gave 100% & I still got played . I changed my life, my ways, my views & in the end it was all in vein . I’ve never felt betrayal like this before … I’ve never felt pain like this before . I’m always so strong & now I don’t know where that girl is anymore . I allowed people to steal my joy & everything else that made me, me . What […]

5/27/2015 4 comments

gone

by sadsadist 5/25/2015

written by sadsadist

Its been 5 minutes and I already miss her I miss many in the end were all alone so why have I driven them away so early I’m sorry to everybody and to E I wish I was enough today its obvious I never will be I miss everyone I truly am alone and I cant cope with that too long being alone so alone

5/25/2015 8 comments

everyone leaves eventually

by lost_hopeless27 5/24/2015

written by lost_hopeless27

Everyone I know left…those who don’t will eventually do…everyone does…everyone leaves eventually it’s just a matter of time before they get tired of telling you that you’re going to be better or even things will be alright…they can’t stand being with someone who lost too much in their life…they can’t stand knowing that words are just not enough to help someone like mesk…so one who is broke into a million piepieces and having the broken pieces shattered by those who I thought wouldn’t leave…in the end all you can think of is that all of them are better without you…because just face the fact…in that […]

5/24/2015 3 comments

Not Getting Easier

by thatmazdaguy 5/17/2015

written by thatmazdaguy

Well, it’s not getting any easier. Everyday seems to be more and more challenging. I think I’m at the end of my rope. Everyone just keeps saying time with heal everything, and it’s becoming a very annoying phrase to hear. Everyday I question my existence. I’ve wrote my not last week while at work. I’m leaving it in my box for access when I’m gone. I want to scream out for help so bad, but I know I can’t. It seems like a act for attention to most people. I’ve really only told one person that I considering it. And once again, I get told […]

5/17/2015 4 comments

Midnight train

by AfflictedSmile 5/14/2015

written by AfflictedSmile

It comes to rob in the pale moon light.
resistance is futile no need to fight.

All it seeks is your life to steal.
Bringing with it unbearable pain to feel.

Darkness creeps out of the corners of your mind.
Escaping its grasp is impossible you will find.

It starts out innocent, telling you things you once knew were lies.
Unable to see truth in darkness through your own eyes.
It begins to convince you the lies are really the truth in disguise.

Your life is meaningless, how could anyone like or love you.
You attempt to deny it, but you know it’s all true.

You find yourself alone again […]

5/14/2015 3 comments

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