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Will it fade or just level out?

by mo992 5/4/2018

written by mo992

When I’m happy, I often worry and get anxious that it wouldn’t last long.

Depriving myself of the pleasure of that moment. But I can’t seem to help it, past experience has always proved to me that my short moments of happiness swiftly follow with long painful experiences. It happens so often I have run out of fingers and toes to count.

Perhaps there are just people in the world whose jobs it is to absorb all the pain and suffering. Perhaps I am just one of those people who will never truly experience long periods of happiness.

Voice within my head : “Be positive, be optimistic. That’s […]

5/4/2018 1 comment

My Life Fell Apart

by Zeek 5/23/2016

written by Zeek

I’m not even sure if I can tell what is real anymore. The last year is a blur. I lost my wife. I quit my job. I lost my drivers licence. And now I cant even walk.

Recently I picked a fight with the wrong guy who broke my nose and then my leg when i was on the ground. As I am getting the shit kicked out of me I yell “KILL ME” at my attacker who immediately stops. Him and his friends back away as I black out.

I wake up in extreme pain. My foot is pointing the wrong way and I call an […]

5/23/2016 3 comments

End feels near

by nuclearbackpack 5/8/2016

written by nuclearbackpack

I live in a truly depressing dump, I don’t have the will to do anything and I spend hours awake in bed staring at the ceiling. I think I am sliding into insanity. I’ve got no friends – only aging parents to lean on. I’ve been on new medication for almost a month and it’s not working so far – only given me Insomnia. Laughably, I’m in the doctors every few days fighting to live a life that is truly awful – and to top it all I truly look like I’ve been dragged through hell. Why wouldn’t I? I’ve been a loner for thirty […]

5/8/2016 9 comments

Living in agony

by alina_01 5/2/2016

written by alina_01

I’m tormented every single day of my life by so many things and I don’t know how to keep going. My aunt passed away a little over a month ago and it hurts just as much now as it did the day I found out. It hurts to know the death will soon be coming for my great aunt and grandmother whom I have lived with my whole life. When they die I will truly have nothing and no one in this world. I don’t think any amount of time can prepare me for when it happens. I can’t live my life!!! I cry all […]

5/2/2016 1 comment

Bad Day

by J Doe 4/17/2016

written by J Doe

Hello. Today was a bad day. I didn’t get yelled at or anything, just an angry look. That just made me realize how alone I am in this. I understand SP will be there for me, but outside of that, I have no one to talk to. I’m alone on this. I’m kind of a disappointment. And they are justified in being disappointed in me. I’m not the most outgoing person and I’m kid of lazy and pathetic. To them they’ve put so much money and time and effort into me only to have me come out as a sort of nothing. I see why […]

4/17/2016 3 comments

Why do my comments keep getting sent to trash?

by chelle428 4/16/2016

written by chelle428

Does anyone know? I didn’t think they were inappropriate and they weren’t mean or anything. It just kind of bums me out since I take time and put thought into my replies and they keep going straight to trash.

4/16/2016 3 comments

In limbo

by Drowning 3/18/2016

written by Drowning

I’m not to sure what I feel but the longer I go on I think I’m less likely to act on my suicidal thoughts again I attempted twice but wasn’t really planned like don’t get me wrong I think about it most of the day and the last few days have been rather smooth in reality but things keep going smooth il see how things go not to say WHEN and that when will happen at some point thing will get bad again or something will happen that will get me thinking to act again but I hope I get the strength and courage to […]

3/18/2016 2 comments

I’m Okay…Really

by 3of6 3/15/2016

written by 3of6

I am okay. I mean, I may want to die, but I am okay with that. I don’t care about much anymore. It’s hard because everyone wants to help, kind of. They don’t want you to kill yourself. So they tell you how you have so much to live for, how they would feel if you left, how nothing lasts forever. I know nothing lasts forever. I just don’t see a reason to keep going, but I do keep going because I don’t really have a choice. What I wish they would see is that there is pain even when I do keep going.

3/15/2016 2 comments

If I could, would I? Yes

by arose 3/13/2016

written by arose

Background, bipolar, recently diagnosed as an adult in my 40’s. Have a relatively successful life, 2 great kids and am in the middle of a divorce because he is a narcissist. Apparently the only time my bipolar issues become an issue is when I am under extreme stress. Like say sharing a house for a year with someone you don’t like.

If I could figure out how to protect my kids I would be gone. That simple, that complex. I want my kids safe so I live.

I don’t know how to find the balance I need to keep going. Meds keep having weird side […]

3/13/2016 7 comments

Warrior

by BloodShallShed 3/4/2016

written by BloodShallShed

This song reaches out to those of us who have been told that they can’t do something, or to those of us who have had their hopes, dreams, and hearts ripped out. You can keep going. Inside all of us, there’s a warrior <3. Stay safe everyone.

-BloodShallShed

3/4/2016 0 comment

Yesterday… Today… Tomorrow… Whatever.

by Ylem 1/9/2016

written by Ylem

I’m sick of feeling this way. I’m drained. I’m physically drained. Tired. I’m sick of being trapped. I’m sick of being stuck like this.

I have been wanting to die more than anything in the past few days. I know I can’t. I know I shouldn’t. But I want to. I want to so bad. I want to die. I really, really want to die. I’ve never wanted to die so much in my life.

My head is heavy. Even my body is a huge weight. I still can’t get out of bed.

I’ve been cutting like crazy. I’m running out of room on my left thigh. I […]

1/9/2016 2 comments

So ugly I should kill myself

by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful) 1/8/2016

written by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful)

I hate being an old ugly loser on my mom’s couch. Im such a ***** i can’t jump to my death even though its 10 minutes away. I hate being alive and stupid and lazy and suicidal for 3 decades. There is nothing to keep going for. I hate being consistently rejected and pointless. I cant keep trying. There is a reason i eat all the damn time. Its the only joy i can get from life. I don’t even have access to weed anymore. Im a fucking moron.

Edit: I keep thinking about how hopeless and pointless i am. I keep thinking how unnecessary i […]

1/8/2016 4 comments

When you hate what your life turned out to be…

by Alfred 1/5/2016

written by Alfred

I feel so sad and broken right now , it’s like my life is based on disappointment after disappointment. The year of 2015 was so tough, i’ve been feeling so unhappy. I’m graduated in a not so glamorous course in college, so it was not a surprise when i didn’t find a good job, having to accept any office sh** that appeared to me with a small paycheck, and by the way i hate every second of it.
Suicidal thoughts come often to my mind, but i never had the courage to do it, anyway sometimes i feel like i can’t handle that bad feeling […]

1/5/2016 1 comment

What a waste of space

by hatemy life 1/2/2016

written by hatemy life

hey sp im just here to say life is bullshit i tried my best to stay up but i keep going downhill i tried so many times topping myself never wrked ive dne alot of good but still get badluck for sme reason i got ppl who just act like they like me but its all fake i aint got no one im under anxiety but it get worse and worse when i take my meds i cry alot.Past few days ive been dwn want to leave this world asap. Im bored lonely depressed of life. Now im trying a differnt method of dieing starve […]

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It doesn’t get better.

by Thisisbullsht12345 12/30/2015

written by Thisisbullsht12345

I am 38 and have been living with depression for most of my life. I’ve always been told it gets better. Take these pills, talk to a shrink, get help, blah blah blah. After this much time, i can say for a fact that it does not get better. I longer I live with this the worse it gets, and nothing I do or don’t do makes any difference. I just want it to end. I can’t keep going on like this.

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12/30/2015 2 comments

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Help me…

by Lawli 12/15/2015

written by Lawli

I can’t keep going on like this, I have so much emotions that I want to let free, I want to cry and shed tears. But I can’t, I can’t even make my eyes water anymore and it’s making me just feel insane, like I’m a robot.

please, does anyone have any ideas for me, I don’t want to go on like this.

((btw I’m a 15 year old girl, just so nobody has to ask.))

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12/15/2015 3 comments

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Need to Vent

by Ylem 12/12/2015

written by Ylem

I survived yesterday. I don’t know how I’ll make it through today.
Yesterday I just slept. Today, all I want to do is get high. Maybe that will help.
It gets harder by the day. I don’t want it to end just yet, but if things keep going downhill every single second, I might not live to see next year. I don’t want to keep having these impulsive moments where I want it all to end now. I’m afraid soon enough I will act on them.
I don’t want to hurt my family. Right now is not a good time to end it. Not now. […]

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12/12/2015 2 comments

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So much work

by notsureifreadytogo 12/3/2015

written by notsureifreadytogo

So many lose ends to tie. Is it stalling? Is it because I care about the ones left behind? Does it matter once you’re gone? Its so hard to do anything. To even leave the house. I think I do care, if I didnt, I’d just keep going. Waiting on a paycheck to buy my materials. Gotta write the letters, leave a clean house, and find the thing I need to do the job. It sucks. I think only here can someone understand what its like to want something so badly, and not want it at all either.

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12/3/2015 3 comments

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I’m still breathing. ?

by safieeatszombies 11/18/2015

written by safieeatszombies

I have been suicidal as long as I can remember. If you need anyone I’m here. I’ll gladly share my story with you

I have this tattoo on my wrist.
It’s a peace sign and it says I’m still breathing.
I’ve had it for two years.
I couldn’t protect my sister, So I didn’t want to live.
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11/18/2015 2 comments

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by theresa_riot 11/10/2015

written by theresa_riot

I’m thinking a week from Thursday, if I can get my hands on what I need. This time feels different. I’m not in the pits of despair. I’m just tired. Too tired to keep going. I want to sleep.

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11/10/2015 4 comments

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