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The Last Letter

by hogpotter 9/2/2015

written by hogpotter

To Angela

Angela, this may be the last letter I write to you. I guess my time here is up. I’m sorry for everything… I didn’t mean to lie to you. This life is no fairy tale. This life is not a garden of sweet roses… rather, it is an fearful enigma of pain and sorrow. I thought that I could save you… give you happiness once and for all… but I am merely just a fantasy. I am fake. And though I have reached the crevice where I couldn’t reach out to you and pull you close to my chest again, but I need you […]

9/2/2015 1 comment

Constant

by smiars 8/22/2015

written by smiars

My sadness never goes away it’s constantly grabbing at me in the slightest saying “you can’t forget me” as if I had a choice

it latches on to every ounce of my living, adding to my anxiety, my confidence and me questioning, if I’m good enough for myself?

not once have I lived a day like the other kids, not once have I spent a day with out this lingering darkness, not once has this thing loosened its grasp, constant doesn’t let go.

Constant stares me in the eyes when my family dinner didn’t involve the middle child,

constant pushes me away from any school events because constant won’t […]

8/22/2015 2 comments

there’s no turning it around

by melodychild 8/15/2015

written by melodychild

. there is no way I can turn my life around. I’ve failed and I’ve accepted that. I didn’t think I’d even make it this long. At some point soon, I will go into the ocean, and finally be free. Ive accepted that my time is done. we can’t all be saved. time to let go

8/15/2015 4 comments

Harnessing Your Emotions

by Cateau 8/15/2015

written by Cateau

I recently heard, in audio precepts, a book I had long sought in my adolescence called Harnessing Your Emotions by Andrew Wommack. Although this is a Christian take on psychology, it did help me realize that our emotions are controled by our thoughts not the other way around. This in turn has aliviated me of social anxieties, personality disorders and psychological ailments. The populous runs with the idea of psychology that our cirumstances dictate how we should feel and act which becomes our excuse for destructive behaviour.

For those who struggle to smile or get out of bed, hearing that “you choose to be happy or […]

8/15/2015 9 comments

How do you let go of everyone that loves you?

by goodboy 8/14/2015

written by goodboy

I think if I didn’t have a mom and dad It would definitely be a lot easier to die. It must be a much harder choice for people who others rely on, how can you go through with it if you have kids? I’m lucky nobody relies on me, I’m only thinking how bad the effect will be on my parents who love me but don’t rely on me and actually want me to go live on my own now. How do I minimize the suffering death can cause? I’ve tried once before but I began thinking of my mom as an old lady with […]

8/14/2015 5 comments

by Bisban 8/13/2015

written by Bisban

Don’t sign for the solar-panels, let’s go to a better, how does the coal

8/13/2015 0 comment

here be dragons

by deathbylies 8/1/2015

written by deathbylies

life or something like that hey. Here we all are trying to …what exactly? humans are an incredible virus intent only to breed and feel . To feed off of selflessness in this poetic insanity. In all forms our humanity is formless. A virus intent with the production of destruction in a sick sad little world survived only by the fittest , the devils den . Welcome to the hell that is the human condition , frought with the distraction in every form. A narcissistic wounderland . The collective human experience ,so far beyond sodom and gomorrah.

I can think of no other animal so equally creative and […]

8/1/2015 3 comments

Insomnia

by thehusk 7/31/2015

written by thehusk

I can’t get no sleep

Ok, so that’s an exaggeration. Even on the worst nights, I usually manage 1-2 hours. What I mean to say is that I can’t get enough sleep to function properly. During my work week, I spend most of the time wandering around in a haze, zombified, narrowly avoiding bumping into people, longing for the day to end. But then the night finally comes, and I just can’t get to sleep at a reasonable hour, no matter how tired I am.

I feel like I’ve tried all the standard advice. Sticking to routines, exercise, limiting technology use, changing my diet, meditation, yoga, warm […]

7/31/2015 11 comments

back to the old house

by death bunny 7/24/2015

written by death bunny

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lbgdCzGfFt4

today we finished bringing all of my stuff back to my old room where i grew up, in my parents’ house. for two years i tried escaping this place, and six months ago i succeeded. then depression took hold of me once again, and now i’m back here. crushed between these four walls i’m hurt. i can’t handle the bureaucracy ending the contract of my old place. i am tired. i am broken. it feels like the world is slipping through my fingers. i need a quiet place to put my head for a while and forget about everything, and the old house isn’t […]

7/24/2015 2 comments

Stumbled across this gem on Bandcamp

by Rotted_Flesh 6/26/2015

written by Rotted_Flesh

Thought I’d take the effort to upload it to youtube, this song is just stunningly beautiful.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VwzTEq9CUGQ

Lyrics:
Call me crazy but maybe this seems a little movie like
This whole saying goodbye
This whole frozen in time thing
“Well it’s better to have loved..” I keep telling myself
Well anything is better than this

There comes a time when you realise
That it’s better to let go of a dove than watch it become the vulture
We pray that this won’t eat us up

To every chapter written be thankful it was a part of the book at all

There’s a lot of blood in the ink
There’s […]

6/26/2015 2 comments

2 in one night.. Sorry.

by Sammi6xoxo 6/22/2015

written by Sammi6xoxo

Theres this nonstop pounding in my head. I still haven’t found away to slow my thoughts. I just bleed them out onto a piece of paper, but still I’m overflowing. Craving silence, but I don’t know if I will ever find that. I’d kill for someone to hold me and lie to me. Tell me I’m okay. Tell me I haven’t completely lost it. Tell me anything but the truth. I’m not ready to fall yet, but this whirling and buzzing is dizzying. I just want to feel safe. I want to let go of my fear and paranoia. If only it could be that […]

6/22/2015 4 comments

Captain.

by pondersaurus 6/18/2015

written by pondersaurus

I pick up my day as the weight I know mine
And push through the clouds again, time within time.
I see you beside me, lain flat at my step
You offer your wings up one day to the next.
Your eyes, blue like diamonds, through darkness they shine
Promising rest in a world that’s all mine.
Day after day I walk past, and yet
That moment I pass is the one I regret.
When darkness descends, I know you’re in tow
Watching and waiting for me to let go.
When finally I tire, my energy ‘plete
There find our eyes; once finally meet.
Lost […]

6/18/2015 1 comment

mixed feelings smoothie

by RealTalk30 6/15/2015

written by RealTalk30

This post is about a girl..
For the first time since my fiancé left, I’ve found myself between a rock and a hard place. I’ve been fortunate enough to date a couple girls since then, but they weren’t meant to be with me for various reasons.
I’ve spent too much time making friends in a bar atmosphere. I’ve questioned my own confidence and let go of a lot of insecurities. I’ve learned what I should say and not say, what is relevant and what is and is not who I am.
I still need to fix myself and get my shit together.. but […]

6/15/2015 9 comments

Letting go

by GalaxyEyesXx 6/2/2015

written by GalaxyEyesXx

We all die at some point even if no one wants to think of it that way. Why is it so wrong that I know the time and place? Why is it so wrong that I choose to release myself? People will say what they will when I’m gone but it will fall on deaf, dead, ears. We all say goodbye eventually…why did we as a human race turn death into something so taboo? When did we decide that denying death’s presence is natural? It’s so intertwined with life and I refuse to look away. I wish I could go with dignity in a peaceful […]

6/2/2015 4 comments

The love of my life

by Regreen 5/30/2015

written by Regreen

The love of my life wasn’t a romantic one. We shared an intimacy that – were I a writer – would be immortalized in literature. It’s akin to David and Jonathan – an epic friendship. It was one of laughter, humility, gentleness, and kindness. When he hugged me I knew he never wanted to let go, he always wanted me to be a part of his life. We could say anything to each other, knowing our friendship was strong enough to be shaken and still survive. We shared star gazing, hikes, dancing, road trips, cigarettes, moving houses, hospital visits, and train rides. We shared tears, […]

5/30/2015 5 comments

Addiction

by Terrible 5/29/2015

written by Terrible

I’ve been smoking cigarettes since I was in grade 7. Yep, that’s right, a 13 year old kid, smoking cigarettes. Now, I am in grade 9, and as much as I try to quit, I never can. I can’t get myself to not crave cigarettes anymore.
I always had thought that they would slowly kill me, but I guess they didn’t. They affect the way I do some things, like singing, or running – but they haven’t killed me yet.

Addiction is a hard thing to get over. Even now as I am writing this, my body is craving a cigarette. I know I need to […]

5/29/2015 9 comments

i don’t know what to d

by jasminlois 5/27/2015

written by jasminlois

I am so done with this world. I don’t want to commit suicide. I just want to die. Every single day I imagine myself getting run over by a truck or suddenly acquiring a terminal disease. I think of those people with cancer or aids and think that they don’t deserve that. There are lots of people who want to die, why not give them the cancer or something. I think I’m depressed and I tried telling my mom once. She told me “You’re not depressed.” Then she gave me a chocolate milkbox. I told my sister that I may be depressed and she’s the […]

5/27/2015 3 comments

Blurry tears

by Listen 5/26/2015

written by Listen

I’m happy till I sleep. Sleeping is my struggle.. Is my hell. Most of you struggle with suicide and cutting and I’m stuck with sleepless nights full of fear an torment. I’m happy. I’ve been sucked up by depression and spit out by suicide. Cutting didn’t give me the help I needed so I left. I’m not going back. I refuse to go back. My breathing shallows and I become more and more afraid of leaving this world before I complete one of my tasks. Anxiety hasn’t let go of my wrist and it hurts.. It hurts so bad. I can’t over power him.. I’m […]

5/26/2015 2 comments

Lost

by Tex 5/25/2015

written by Tex

Angry all the time. Lost. Frustrated. Tired. Angry at the world and at myself. Still blood dripping down my face from getting in a fight with my brother and getting angry about being weak and cutting my temple just to let go of some of the anger. Girlfriend of 4 yrs got angry and walked out, and rightly so. It’s hard to fight the enemy when the enemy is yourself. I……just don’t know what to do anymore, and maybe I never did. I can’t do this anymore. But I don’t know how to change. Been on meds, counseling, you name it…..I just…..still trying to figure […]

5/25/2015 0 comment

Bye Anxiety

by Listen 5/21/2015

written by Listen

Anxiety, you’re an asshole. You don’t give me comfort and I’d rather see you go but you don’t. You’re trying to find happiness clinging to me? We’ll you can’t have it, it’s mine now and I refuse to hand it over. Who are you? To alter my life like it’s your own. We’ll I’ve had it, I’m about to let go of everything you’ve ever known. Why? Cause I don’t need you anymore anxiety, you’re tragic. Everywhere you go, you go bringing havoc. I’m done anxiety, trying to see while you blind me in the night with your fears. I won’t shed no more tears […]

5/21/2015 0 comment

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