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I am anyways

by Ava shade 4/10/2019

written by Ava shade

I am anyways letting you know…

Since age 10, I had depression, Now after 10 and more years I have realized it. Crying alone was the solution to all of my problems..
It’s true that I have tried to die 3 times. All in vain. I now live without any contact to the outside world. No friends. It didn’t hurt me so much before. But now it does I don’t know why. Who am I? I ask myself this question every day after opening my eyes from a long troubled not deep sleep. I cry every night in the darkness of the night when everyone is […]

4/10/2019 0 comment

If scars could speak…

by me-inside 9/1/2016

written by me-inside

If each cut could speak. If each scar could scream. They’d tell you the reason their there. Upon my arms, legs, stomach hips…every part. They’d tell you it’s for many reasons. Memories of the abuse, the rape replays in my mind. Voices shout say it was my fault…that I should abuse myself. Maybe I’m so use to it, that it’s the one thing I know well. My reasons..are one to many. Abused, pain. anger, hate….some even a suicide attempt or two. But there are a million reasons, if only they could speak…they’d tell you

9/1/2016 2 comments

Memories

by DesolateScorpio 1/6/2016

written by DesolateScorpio

Your skin, it’s so soft.

Your muscles, firm.

The smile on your face when you look down on me,

Intoxicating.

Running my fingers over your features.

Feeling yours against mine.

Being with you all night.

Your shoulder the perfect pillow.

Clutching the tags you always wear.

It’s so odd, how the color of your eyes change.

I thought I would never see them again.

I have those memories, yet if I lost you…

My reason for living,

It would also perish.

1/6/2016 6 comments

Memories

by LT1978 10/24/2015

written by LT1978

As I watched my husband walk out of the door, leaving my daughter crying for him to “take me with you” or “don’t go daddy” it hit me like a brick. I was that little girl. I cried for my daddy to stay….. My husband has worked for almost 3 weeks straight. Nights. Not by choice. But tonight, his first night off, he chose to go to a sporting event. My daughter’s heart was/is broken. She cried for an hour, I cried with her. Unable to comfort her because I was hurting too. I tried to explain to my husband but he just got mad […]

10/24/2015 4 comments

Protected: How will I know when I’m not here anymore?

by Tristeza 7/29/2015

written by Tristeza

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7/29/2015 13 comments

Memories they haunt me

by Beast 5/28/2015

written by Beast

I woke up quite early today, thought I’d grab the chance to enjoy The Witcher 3.. Turns out I should of slept away half the day instead. I dont know how but my most recent ex came into mind, its been over half a year but still.. Such happy memories, how can I possibly stop comparing what I am now, what I have now, with what I once had… Im over her, but I would like.. this kind of happiness again, with someone else.. anyway I know throughout our lifetime on this miserable planet we have our ups and downs, I’d like an elevator lift […]

5/28/2015 4 comments

Memories

by Matt 2/21/2015

written by Matt

I’ve been toying with what I think is my favourite memory recently, just letting it play on repeat behind my eyes. It’s kind of a double edged blade, because when I’m in it, I’m happy. But happiness leads to overthinking, a sword I think many of us here at SP fall on regularly.

Okay, so it’s his 20th birthday. It feels like only yesterday but it was a lifetime ago now. We threw him a party at the house and so many people came. A testament to how loved he was. Scratch that. How loved he still is. I was actually enjoying myself being around other […]

2/21/2015 6 comments

Memories

by synthaxe 10/13/2014

written by synthaxe

Sew this up with threads of reason and regret
So I will not forget. I will not forget
How this felt one year six months ago
I know I cannot forget. I cannot forget

I’m falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you

I can tell that you don’t know me anymore
It’s easy to forget, sometimes we just forget
And being on this road is anything but sure
Maybe we’ll forget, I hope we don’t forget

I’m falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me […]

10/13/2014 0 comment

WHY?

by rachel_rebellion 5/6/2014

written by rachel_rebellion

Back during my Freshman year of high school (I’m now a junior) I was really close friends with this gay guy in my drama class named Josh. He moved away that same year and we had our struggles keeping in touch, but he started collage last year and completely shut me out and stopped talking to me… It really hurt me because I had feelings for him for a while (yes I knew he was gay). We helped each other through things, he knew what it was like to be suicidal and struggle with self harm so we hit it off right away and became […]

5/6/2014 3 comments

Memories

by steelsasanquas 3/2/2014

written by steelsasanquas

The thoughts came on fast. This was about 10 minutes ago. They have never been this strong in my life. Usually I don’t break down and cry when I have suicidal thoughts but this time I did. I just started thinking about my childhood and playing on the beach with my mom and watching my dad sit around in the ocean. I remembered the small irrelevant things like the one time I fainted when my mom was brushing my teeth. Then I pictured myself now. Actually considering dying. It seems so surreal. Thinking about never being able to touch water again. Never being able to […]

3/2/2014 1 comment

Choice

by quaero 9/25/2013

written by quaero

Man is unable to handle his freedom.

Why can’t i choose between my heights and depths? why do i get so weak Â when it comes to my choosing, and start searching some strength from here and there?

This base force…its very powerful. and its power is in its persistence, its ever-presence in background. I want to rise. i even know formulas for that. then why don’t i? because in all void moments of life this base force becomes active. and then i seek oblivion, self-forgetting, escape…then i seek non-responsibility, just letting everything happen…then i seek darkness, destruction, wanting everything to end. and in those moments its so […]

9/25/2013 0 comment

Eleven months

by snader 8/25/2013

written by snader

Have to get this off my chest.

It’s eleven months ago today. Eleven months since he killed himself, my dear brother.
You know, the longest I ever had to miss him was 10 days. That was when he left for a camp with a youth movement. And I remember missing him so badly, I just couldn’t wait to see him again. I still can’t believe he’s not coming back now, I mean, how can he be gone? How can a life, built up over 16 long years, just disappear in a second?
If a stranger would come in our house, they wouldn’t even know he’s not […]

8/25/2013 4 comments

An Empty Love

by XxemofuckxXD 8/25/2013

written by XxemofuckxXD

When I see you smile,

And hold your hand

I feel blesses, so full of soul.But inside my chestI’m bleeding,

From a cavernous, heart-shaped hole.

When you hold me tight it feels like flying,

When you kiss me softly I feel like crying.

I seem okay, but inside I’m dying.

For you have my soul, my dying breath.

WhilstÂ cling to only memories left.

from when it hurt us both to part,

From when you held me in your heart.

On the surface all I have is passion.

But beneath the mask is pain.

And every time I fell renewed,

I’m plunged into sorrow again.

Each day is painful to live.

And I have nothing left to give.

The blue skies darken […]

8/25/2013 3 comments

by brokendream 8/24/2013

written by brokendream

images (38) Â Memories are something where you can not escape. Haunt you day and night. They make you relive every pain they caused. They dont let you sleep, eat, think. You feel like they are stabbing you again and again until you can not breathe. Tears run down your cheeks. Makes you do crazy things where eventually you will find out that it was not your intention of doing them. And so it will continue for the rest of your days. Waiting for the day that someone will save you. And avoid falling again.

8/24/2013 0 comment

Memories.

by DutchTimes. 8/23/2013

written by DutchTimes.

When does something become a memory..?

When does a short term memory become a long term memory. And why is it that we rememberÂ certain things that happened and or not able to forget them regardless of how hard we try.

8/23/2013 2 comments

Memory

by -alone- 8/5/2013

written by -alone-

Dear, “Friend.”
It hurts.
You’re my friend, or at least I thought you were…
I’m not a toy that you can use.
I have feelings.
You are not here when I need you, you don’t care.
When I cry out for help, you act like you didn’t hear.
You call me a loner, but I’m trying to talk.
But you wont let me… You’re scared of me leaving.
I’m a loner.
I’m a weirdo.
I’m nothing.
I’m a *****.
Oh, It hurts.
Keep calling me names, It will only make me worse.
You say you’re kidding, just playing around.
But look closer at me what […]

8/5/2013 0 comment

1 year

by blahh 7/27/2013

written by blahh

its been a year since it all started… was gona say its not gona be easy having all the memories hit me again, but i will manage i guess… i dont know, all i wanted was to be busy enough so i dont have time to think it through, although i know i have to think it through and itll hurt less every year. Being busy is quite a hard job, thinking that everybody i know has a partner and doesnt have time for me so im not sure how can i be busy enough and wont stress out. it just started and im already […]

7/27/2013 0 comment

My self harm story

by PrincessBrooke 7/22/2013

written by PrincessBrooke

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C08Ini72mZw

Thats my story.. please subscribe gonna post more videos soon

7/22/2013 0 comment

Poor Talia R.I.P. & Fuck Cancer.

by Deyanight 7/16/2013

written by Deyanight

I hate OWLS. It’s said if you hear an owl cry it means someone you know is going to die.

I thought I was done hearing them after my boyfriends cousin died from Cancer last summer. Today I find out that Talia died. I’m so sorry for anyone who has or knows someone who’s going through this. Idk, I just decided to write what I felt because I’m sad, and all this brings memories from when Ernie my boyfriends cousin passed away. I always thought life was so hard for me, but it’s harder for people suffering.

Rest in piece to all the souls that were taken […]

7/16/2013 0 comment

Like a relapse…

by clevername 7/6/2013

written by clevername

I just caved and wrote to the wrong person.

It had been a while, but i know that writing is at best futile, and at worst, potentially problem-causing.

But just the other day, i had a series of “seemingly connected experiences,” which resulted in… memories, thoughts, feelings i just couldn’t shake, and they wanted control… and i lost that battle. Maybe i forfeited. Maybe i hate my vulnerability so much that i lash out at any little thing that might expose or exploit it. When something is going to hit you where it hurts, the only “right way” to react, is to “go all in,” and either […]

7/6/2013 31 comments

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