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relaxing at death’s door

by tphg 8/9/2015

written by tphg

I’ve had this image in my head for the last several weeks. It’s of me sitting in an empty white space, leaning up against a solitary white framed wooden door. I imagine that once I arrived in this white purgatory, I spent a great deal of time beating against the door, jiggling the knob, trying to move on to what’s next. But after a while, I realized that nothing I can do will open the door, so I sit and wait. Occasionally I knock on the door softly, whisper sweet nothings to it, but the door remains firmly in place.

It’s a metaphor for the way […]

8/9/2015 8 comments

I miss her

by abbeysmom 8/9/2015

written by abbeysmom

my beautiful daughter took her own life in May 2014. She was 17. I miss her so much. I struggle each day to get up and go on. When this happens, people do not just move on. Life has stopped for me. If only she could have held on a little longer. Her life had so much promise.

8/9/2015 6 comments

last cigarette ever

by tphg 8/6/2015

written by tphg

Walking back to work today from my lunch break, I started thinking about the piano(keyboard) sitting in my apartment. I’ve had it for a year but have only played with it twice; still on the first couple pages of my 6 week lesson guide. I bought it to fulfill part of the destiny I laid out for myself. When you’re as cowardly as I am, suicide is nothing more than a silent longing, and so I fully expect myself to reach old age.

If and when I do make it to gray hair and wrinkles, I want to be away from society and on a farm. […]

8/6/2015 10 comments

My Story …..

by nessy03 8/3/2015

written by nessy03

Someone once told me that in order for me to move on in life I have to let go of all of these emotions that are keeping my hostile. So here is my story, that will hopefully help me move on and let go of the past so I can be happier. Including a photo might be my way of letting it all out there my own way. idk ………

I was feeling down today. So I made this account & I suddenly didn’t feel so alone. To know that there are other people out there that I can relate to comforts me in a way. […]

8/3/2015 2 comments

by nowhere man 7/27/2015

written by nowhere man

I’m a failure. There are so many things happening right now. My mother works so hard to put food on the table while fighting depression and a damn father who doesn’t give any money to help. And even with all this situation, I don’t know if I’ll be able to graduate because I’m so fucking stupid and lazy and weak. I’m just so fucking tired all the time and my cousin will get into a great college because she is working so hard and I’m just a damn lazy ass. I don’t study or really work for anything and I’m so tired of being a […]

7/27/2015 1 comment

I’m giving up, I’m giving in.

by LostAndBroken 7/26/2015

written by LostAndBroken

I know it’s recommeneded to not give out your name, but honestly right now I need a friend. I need someone. Anyone. I feel hopeless, broken beyond repair. My name Is James.

I’ve tried to die multiple times now. Times where I just snapped and gave in, others where I couldn’t take the pain anymore. I couldn’t take the abuse and the bullying. It’s left me completely broken. I thought it wouldn’t get worse.. But it got much much worse..

Lately my whole life has been destroyed. I let myself love again..and It only ended in pain. I let someone get too close..told them things about me […]

7/26/2015 9 comments

Confessions of a Psycho-Stalker

by NotAttentionSeeking 7/16/2015

written by NotAttentionSeeking

My whole world came crashing down today when I realised my whole world is not what it seemed and I am really in fact a stalker. It all started around two or three years ago, when I took a dance class with a dance teacher I never had before. I had not even walked into the room and I believe he was staring at me with awe in his eyes. I notice that he would pay special attention to me in class and when he told us to freestyle he looked uncomfortable but it as though he was getting turned on. This uncomfortable look was […]

7/16/2015 4 comments

The Name’s Bond..Vagabond

by ifuckedthequeen 7/16/2015

written by ifuckedthequeen

Fuck I feel stuck. It’s a shit feeling after escaping this town for a little while. I’m pretty confused after the NAET treatment. I’m confused in general. trying to keep my spirits up but it’s tough when you’re grieving and processing so many emotions simultaneously. Losing my twin was tough. Part of me hates her because she really fucked with my life hard. Adding tons of gender dysphoria and a sense of never being able to be me. I’m still as confused as ever about that but she did a number on me. I try to keep my head up. I know certain emotions pass […]

7/16/2015 4 comments

Nothing out of ordinary

by hereme 7/13/2015

written by hereme

I lie in bed, low, apathetic, empty. As usual. Like every day. Life hasn’t felt good since I was a child.

I’ve heard people say that suicide will not solve any problems and will only create a new ones. In my case, I think more problems would be solved that created. Of course, people close to me would have to deal with a loss, would have to burry me, which would be expensive, and then they would be grieving. It’s only two people that would have to suffer. I don’t want to hurt them like that, but I feel that me being alive is causing them more […]

7/13/2015 5 comments

Follow up – check in…Randall, Salt et all….I’m still here

by bayareaguy 7/13/2015

written by bayareaguy

Here is the link to my recent post:

A very bad week

My head is much calmer now. Yesterday (Sunday for me) was the culmination of a week of total hell. I really felt like I was loosing my mind.

Many of you know I am a person of faith and that the propaganda of the fundamentalist tradition I was raised in, often plays havoc with my psyche. I now worship in a very inclusive and nonjudgmental faith tradition. As I have asked in the past, please do not disrespect me regarding this. I would NEVER do that to you.

So what happened yesterday? First of all, I […]

7/13/2015 5 comments

It Hurts

by thehusk 7/1/2015

written by thehusk

I think I may have cancer. I found what could be a lump. Of course it could be lots of others things. Or nothing at all. The rational thing would be to get it checked out. But a part of me thinks ‘If it is cancer, then that’s for the best. Let it spread.’ It would be a way out. I wouldn’t have to commit suicide. I wouldn’t have to do that to my parents. They wouldn’t be left with all the anger, confusion, and bitterness that suicide brings. There’d still be grief, but they could find closure and move on. I could talk to […]

7/1/2015 8 comments

Time Stops.

by aly_monster 6/28/2015

written by aly_monster

It’s not like I want to die, don’t get me wrong. I just…. want everything to stop. I want the world to wait for me to figure things out and then move on. Of course that can’t happen, and I know that.
Sleep, though, is something that helps. I want to sleep for a while. Or, forever. I want to go to bed and not wake up. Sounds like a good way to go. I want to forget everything, wind back time to where I wasn’t like this. Just a few months ago I was normal. Happy. I made a mistake, something that’s not a […]

6/28/2015 3 comments

Trying to figure it all out

by alina_01 6/25/2015

written by alina_01

You know I always try to move on with my life I swear but the two guys i’ve ever had a relationship with turned out to be wrong for me. The first guy I eventually gave up and let go like I should have way before then. The moment I did that is when he came back into my life. Wanting me back trying to be there and being somewhat of a decent human being for once. I stupidly allowed him back into my life and that lasted for five months until I began to realize it was a mistake for both of us. I […]

6/25/2015 1 comment

Can’t Do this..

by stacey.payne 6/23/2015

written by stacey.payne

I hate myself and I hate my life.

Yes, I know my life could be worse and I have so much to be thankful for. I just wish someone understood how I feel. I just wish I had someone to talk to that didn’t look at me as a whiny ungrateful young woman.

While I have a long list of unfortunate events in my life, the most bothersome is “The Other Woman.” Her name is Natalie, she was a friend of mine who was in my life for a short amount of time that has branded and mutilated my mind forever. This woman is an awful person. I […]

6/23/2015 3 comments

Need Your Opinions

by boomer13 6/19/2015

written by boomer13

I’m 27 years old, and at the age of 25, I was living the dream. Great career, awesome woman, finances in check, nice car, and nice house. Life for me was starting to settle down. Life took a turn around when I was betrayed by the love of my life. In the span of two years and up to this day, I am sitting with zero dollars to my name. I lost my career due to tardiness, as I couldn’t sleep due to the devastation that took over my mind after the betrayal. Because of that, I lost my car, and my house. Only option […]

6/19/2015 3 comments

I hate coming here…

by RealTalk30 6/10/2015

written by RealTalk30

But it’s the only place I can say what’s really on my mind.

I’ve lost so much.. more like thrown my life away.
Giving myself fake reasons to keep going. Faking every step forward, but what I’ve really been doing is setting myself up to end my life. Subconsciously tying loose ends so that I may relieve myself from this pain. So that there’s nothing left to hold on to.
I use to come here at a time when I should have been happy..but the fact is that I came here cause I’m most certainly not happy. Things have only gotten worse, and now I try […]

6/10/2015 7 comments

I should be content

by DarthBallsBung 6/7/2015

written by DarthBallsBung

I recently received my PhD in chemical engineering, I have a job in a good company and earn a decent salary. I’ve also been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I’ve never had a girlfriend although everybody says I’m a catch. Anyways I fell in love last week with a girl who’s way above me. She told me she loved me too. A week later she wants nothing to do with me. Now a normal dude would move on but every woman I have liked/loved had deserted me. Cold shoulder style. Is it okay if I just end it? I’m tired of trying. I’m tired of my […]

6/7/2015 3 comments

home

by silvermoon 6/6/2015

written by silvermoon

I wake up lonely and go to bed terrified. Complex ptsd is something nobody understands nor wants to. I hate taking meds and wondering what it will do to me. I am isolated living here yet triggered by the people around me. Lately I feel like I’m going insane. Too much rage and torment, self-blame, for years. Too much. Nobody is here. My therapist hasn’t called back, the clinic hasn’t called back, I feel like a discarded person. I left the church since nobody there cared either. The neighbors help superficially but not for friendship. I made a new friend but an old one I […]

6/6/2015 3 comments

My thoughts are torture

by alina_01 6/1/2015

written by alina_01

I had a bad dream the other night so horrible that I kept waking up, but I would fall back asleep. The pain from the dream has been lingering lately and truly saddens me. I sit here and tell myself and the rest of the world that I’m over the first guy I loved. It has been almost a year and the urge to have any contact with him has long been gone. I don’t love him anymore it feels like our whole relationship the past 10 years were all part of a dream. Him moving on helped me to move on and I needed […]

6/1/2015 2 comments

Accidents Happen.

by Mister Rhee 5/31/2015

written by Mister Rhee

http://youtu.be/fNx2Fmdp-4Y

Hi,

I’ve decided I’m going to end my life in just under 14 days. That’s fairly soon, but it’s my time to go… and we all know that when it’s time – it’s time. But first, a little about me:

I’m 26 years old, worked a job like no other and had been married for three years. I left my old job and ended up working in construction and telecommunications for a time, before meeting the supposed “love of my life”. Not many people escape my old job, but I managed to. I didn’t let it change me and a voice in my head reminds me that […]

5/31/2015 11 comments

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