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Niece

To: Big Sister

by Blake SinBad 6/26/2013

written by Blake SinBad

Dear Jackie,

You know I love you. I love you with all my heart. I’m so proud of you, and congratulations on having your baby last night. She is beautiful. I remember the fights we used to have, and coming home being scared out of my mind by you. I remember the countless times that you were thrown out of the house. Thank you for being my role model. Thank you for watching all of those gory, bloody, violent, rated R movies with my when I was six. Thank you for letting your friend come into my room to molest me wen I was little. I […]

6/26/2013 0 comment

I just want to end it all.

by diamond1473 6/10/2013

written by diamond1473

all my life , I’ve been that fat girl, the ugly girl. The girl noone wants to be around. Okay . I’ve had my fights and stuff but I just still don’t get why nooone has ever liked me. I’ve had ftoends and boufroends but I always find out what they really think of me.. its always my personality .. Im numb.. all I do sometimes is cry. My dad used to be an alcoholic now my mom is an abusive alcoholic.. my first love is now gay.. Im 17 years old.. I weigh 200 pounds. I have acne all over my face and body […]

6/10/2013 4 comments

by SadSteve 6/7/2013

written by SadSteve

As I have mentioned many times before here on tsp, In 2002 I reclined the seat in my car in the garage and closed my eyes and waited but before I fell asleep forever I kept seeing images of my 1 yr old niece and 5 year old nephew. Â I got out of the car went up to bed, cried and have been living in pain ever since. Â But its all worth it after days like today, when they show up out of the blue and we spend some hours having fun swimming, playing wiffle ball and just being around these 2 great kids makes […]

6/7/2013 2 comments

Utterly useless

by GreySkies 6/6/2013

written by GreySkies

I’ve just joined the site, and this is my first post. I probably won’t write much because I can’t be bothered- nothing is worth bothering with for me. I’m one of those people that passes everybody by where it matters.
I’m 36, I’ve had great chances in life, but blown them all. I’m female, and single. I’ve mostly always been that way, regardless of the fact that i’m a ‘head turner’. It doesn’t mean shit when I don’t have a job, I lost my only baby (pregnancy), my only ever real boyfriend (he walked out in the night whilst I was sleeping and left […]

6/6/2013 10 comments

Contemplating Death

by xven45 4/28/2013

written by xven45

Let me start this off by saying that I donâ€™t have a bad life. I have two loving parents. I have a brother, a sister, and a sister in law who all love me. I also have a niece and many aunts, uncles, and cousins who love me. Yet, I still feel alone. I feel like nothing I do matters. I feel like Iâ€™m drowning in the ocean and every once in a while I catch some air, only to be forcibly dragged back down into the current.
I am not a horrible looking person but I refuse to live the â€œsocial normâ€ that people […]

4/28/2013 4 comments

Last night

by BrooklynBoxx 12/22/2012

written by BrooklynBoxx

They were siting on my friend audry and me and im the one in the black jacked with stripes shes the one crying xD

I went out of my house for a change, to hang out with some of my old friends. I rarely do this now since i tend to lock myself in my room, when im not inclined to go to school.

I hung out with 15 of my friends and we watched “end of the world movies” since that was the theme of the party. I was cuddling with my gay friend […]

12/22/2012 5 comments

I’m Sorry… (This Is Not A Goodbye/Suicide Note)

by kMd 11/23/2012

written by kMd

I’ve been a member of this site for 2 days. When i posted my story of getting better, i thought it was a basic read kinda site. I didn’t know this was an ongoing support system. I’m so glad it is, i feel like i’ve stumbled upon a place where i’m not so alone. I’m 17, soon to be 18. I want to be a psychologist, so i can help others in pain. When i see posts on here of those feeling hopeless, all i wanna do is help, find a way to save their life. I still get suicidal thoughts myself. I’ve struggled […]

11/23/2012 1 comment

by Imsodone 10/27/2012

written by Imsodone

I’m home alone, the only thing I can hear is the clocks ticking and my heart beating. that’s not entirely true, I hear my thoughts. my awful thoughts that tell me that I’ve had enough. the thing is I’m scared to give in. I’m scared to give up.

I was watching a movie with my family the other night, and I remember what one of the characters said to another, “Fear is what keeps us alive” right about now, I’m assuming that’s true. that’s the only thing keeping me alive. I want to die, but I’m afraid of what will happen to everyone else. leaving behind […]

10/27/2012 0 comment

Rosaleigh

by katiebear12 9/24/2012

written by katiebear12

I am suffering through this because my niece… she used to bring some light into my world but because i cant feel anything but saddness and fear anymore, im not sure if i love her…shes only one year old right now and i cant leave her be because she needs me, she has actually called me mommy and i cant […]

9/24/2012 2 comments

What’s the better answer?

by justwhatiam 9/15/2012

written by justwhatiam

Everyone always says suicide isn’t the answer. Well I wanna know what’s the better answer? I have a good life: I’m in college, I have a job, no bills to pay, and I have a 4 month old niece who is the most awesome baby ever. Yet no matter what l am never happy and even worse I always feel empty inside. Nothing excites me, I always feel alone no matter where I am, and I can’t do anything to change it no matter how hard I try!! So you tell me, what’s the better answer to my problems? I don’t even care about being […]

9/15/2012 6 comments

I’m finally done. I just can’t stop the madness in my head. I tried all kids of meds. Zoloft, xanax, paxil, Prozac, etc. this list goes continues. Every shrink diagnoses me with the same thing, major depressive disorder and generalized and socialized anxiety. I think hospitalization would only out me in a worse mental state. Talking sometimes helps but mainly I can’t focus that long. Breathing exercises would be eat if I could take a deep breathe. Sure there are circumstances that depress me but there always is and always will be. It’s my own self, my own head. Nothing helps me. No one can help me. After more than 15 years, I’ve felt this way, I don’t have anymore in me. I’m not looking for sympathy or jokes or even asking the best way to go. I just needed to write it down. I do think about my family and the 2 friends that have stuck by me. I thrill of my 11 month niece that won’t know me her auntie. I don’t want anyone to find me. I will leave letters for those who meant the most and I will simply disappear for a stranger to find later.

by mlrobin 9/11/2012

written by mlrobin

9/11/2012 1 comment

All I get is misery

by TheUglyOne 8/30/2012

written by TheUglyOne

People have called me selfish for feeling suicidal but really I am far from it. I have just thought about it and when I die I would like my donate my body to help other people who need the help. I have done pretty pathetic things in my time in order to lets say “make up” for things I fail at in life. I sleep with a dumbell or my little dog in order to make up for that loneliness I feel in my heart. My dog though is one of the things that keeps me alive. To see her little tail wagging when she […]

8/30/2012 2 comments

Why Is It Only Me?

by TheUglyOne 7/12/2012

written by TheUglyOne

This is the question I ask myself everyday and honestly I don’t ever expect the answer. All my life people have had little faith in me. Telling me I will go to jail when I get older, saying I beat down a girl when I did not, and so much more. In fact I wasÂ accused of rapeing myÂ Â niece when I LOVE that girl and have told everyone that I always want to be there to protect her. If I raped her that would go against my word AND my morals. Â People have told me numerous times I look like a pedophile and that I have […]

7/12/2012 2 comments

our stories:)

by hailey_baby 5/31/2012

written by hailey_baby

well i guess ill start with my story since some of yall on here are new and i havent posted in awhile. when i was little the one man in my life who was supposed to be there for me left { my dad } and told my mom he hoped i died and was born with aids luckly i wasnt i was just born sick then my mom got with another man who i grew to love and called dad they broke up but i still went to his house with my new half sister everyweekend { to keep you unconfussed later i have […]

5/31/2012 3 comments

My Instruments Are Calling Me…

by solace 5/21/2012

written by solace

Just had another fight with him today. That’s all we do these days.
I always take the passive side and don’t say what i really want to because i know he’ll just hang up, walk away or not talk to me.
Such a child.

All i want to do is learn how to stand my ground and make him listen but in our fights it always becomes a ***** sesh about what i have done wrong. Although i guess that’s everyone’s opinion when they are in a fight.
I moved out of my brothers today, my little niece finally isn’t around so i can cut again.

5/21/2012 0 comment

I’m so scared

by chanel 3/2/2012

written by chanel

I’ve wanted to die since I was 17. That was the first time I tried but I was just sick all night.

I remember all the negative about the past and it is hard to concentrate on the positives.

I took speed a couple of weeks ago and felt like I had instant happiness. People said that I made them laugh. If only they knew how I want to be out of this eternal pain.

I have a friend who is always saying that she doesn’t eat properly. Well I don’t. I exist on nourishment drinks and bananas cos I have no appetite.

My psychiatrist is good. She is […]

3/2/2012 9 comments

Worthless

by schroeder 2/11/2012

written by schroeder

I have spent the last two weeks in bed. I have no desire to get out of it. I feel like i am dead but still alive. I am worthless and dont deserve anything. I was the last born in a family of five. My parents had me late in life. My brother who was twelve when i was born was murdered. My brother had a friend that was dealing drugs and setting fires. He was going to testify against is fromer friend. His family had my brother killed. He was struck a car late one night and died of massive head and chest. It […]

2/11/2012 25 comments

encouragment:)

by hailey_baby 2/10/2012

written by hailey_baby

some of yall may not know me but im hailey_baby. over my life time ive been through a lot.Â Horrible father, abusive boyfriend, sisters that hate me and now i have a 3 year old niece to take care of. my life has not been easy but having my niece saved me. if it wasnt for her id be dead. i believe in life theres always someone there to help you. they may not be here now but you gotta hold on and pull yourself through. life may be difficult but it will all be worth it. for me i wait 14 years for that […]

2/10/2012 2 comments

Don’t know what else to do.

by wooliebear 7/26/2009

written by wooliebear

I’m a 25 year old who is married to a very loving husband. Really he is my only good thing in my life. I feel so depressed because I can’t graduate from college. I’ve tried to hard to pass math to graduate but its not working and I’m unable to finish. I have taken it several times and I have tried every method in the book. I am just not a math person. So I’m working at a movie theatre with teenagers to make ends meet even though I’m barely making them because I get min. wage and not very many hours, just part time. […]

7/26/2009 4 comments