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I’m Exhausted

by Dungeon 12/30/2015

written by Dungeon

Everyday is the same. I can’t sleep, I sit in bed trying to remember why I even do this anymore. When I get up I’m in pain and I shut myself in this little prison I’ve made of my room. I’m truly alone, I don’t exist to anyone.

When no one is home sometimes I’ll stare out my front windows and wonder what it’s like being those people that walk around with friends without having to worry about panic attacks or breakdowns. I’ve tried an extensive amount of medications and none of them help, they usually give me bad side effects too.

I can’t afford a therapist […]

12/30/2015 5 comments

because humans can be amazing…

by alexia 12/30/2015

written by alexia

“Who am I? Who am I trying to be? Not myself, anyone but myself. Living in a fantasy to bury the reality making myself the mystery; a strong facade disguising the misery. Empty but beyond the point of emptiness, full to the brim of fake confidence. A guard that will never be broken because I broke it long time ago. I am hurting but don t tell anyone, no one needs to know. Don t show or you ve failed, always ok, always fine, always on the show. The show must go on, it will never stop. The show must not go on but I […]

12/30/2015 2 comments

Couple pills and no one to stop me

by red_river 12/27/2015

written by red_river

I’ve been feeling like shit lately, turns out holidays and depression isn’t a good combination.Today was shittier than most, just one of those days you know? My parents know about my depression so they got me antidepressant and a roster of other goodies to turn those frowns around. Did you know if you take a lot all at once you feel shittier because they aren’t working and they just sort of numb you but it’s more depressing because you have to realize the only way to handle pain is popping useless pills. So then you grab a razor or a gun and you hold it […]

12/27/2015 2 comments

Holiday Pain & Loneliness

by Ending_Pain 12/25/2015

written by Ending_Pain

This year is especially hard for me. I’m separated, no close family, no close friends, new medical issues, no job, no kids, no pets… No one to be with through the holidays.
I see post after post on Facebook of people with either friends and/or family. All i want to do is cry!
I’m in so much pain physically and emotionally, i just want it to stop!

12/25/2015 7 comments

What is Love?

by Ylem 12/25/2015

written by Ylem

I don’t understand love.
I just… I just don’t.

I have never fallen in love with anyone. I have never been in a relationship with anyone.

I can’t interact and connect with anyone on that level. I’ve tried reciprocating if someone shows an interest in me. But I can’t. I just end up hurting the other person because I can never meet them halfway. I just feel nothing.

The only love I have is for my family. That’s the only love I know and can show. I think it’s because they are just the only people I can interact with, as minimal as I do that as well. […]

12/25/2015 2 comments

Protected: Flood of emotions

by daitya1989 12/23/2015

written by daitya1989

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12/23/2015 3 comments

by tteia 12/23/2015

written by tteia

everday i wish i was dead. my self image or self perception has gotten worse. everytime i look in the mirror, I realize why no one likes me. I try to avoid looking in mirrors or my reflections or pictures..etc just so i can get through the day specially on school days. this past month the feeling has gotten worse, and it feels like every day is a challenge, and idk what to do anymore i just want to give up so bad. my uncle just died, my mother struggles to pay for the funeral, and she’s been so depressed lately, 2 funerals would damage […]

12/23/2015 2 comments

Protected: I hate myself.

by daitya1989 12/23/2015

written by daitya1989

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12/23/2015 8 comments

I have to many secrets

by nicole123 12/21/2015

written by nicole123

I have so many secrets that are eating me up inside . That literally no one knows . I think it’s time to share some of them .

I’m addicted to meeting older guys online and meeting them in person. I just have a thing for older men. About 25-30 . I don’t know why. I feel like only
These people online give me the time of day . They listen to me . And plus I like
Getting free food from them.. I never end up really talking to them again. I just never feel a connection.

I think it is that I just […]

12/21/2015 5 comments

disordered eating

by jasal 12/18/2015

written by jasal

I don’t have an eating disorder, but I do use starvation as a form of self-harm. The pain and weakness that come with intense hunger are gratifying in a sick, sick way. Hunger is one part punishment, one part distraction. I deserve to suffer this way, and the suffering keeps my mind off of how terrible I feel emotionally.

I haven’t had a full meal in 3 days and have been sleeping through dinner. The best part is that no one in my family cares. I told you. I deserve this. No one in this house would care if I rotted away. I should really just […]

12/18/2015 4 comments

No one cares what I have to say

by nicole123 12/15/2015

written by nicole123

No one knows how much I’m suffering . And the ones who do tell me I’m too much. So what do I do?

I’ve been going about every day all by my self . And I am alone . All my thoughts get to me . Some days I stand outside and notice how beautiful it is and feel the warm sun and close my eyes and i somehow feel content in that moment , being by my self .

Whenever I’m going to hangout with someone , they end up making excuses to why they can’t hangout. I wish people would straight up tell me they […]

12/15/2015 3 comments

Nobody in the middle of nowhere

by babypanda 12/14/2015

written by babypanda

Son of a *****. I’m at it again, having a breakdown where no one will find me. I’m so tired, so tired (SO GODDAMN MOTHERFUCKING TIRED), of not being happy. I want to be able to be content with myself. I never tell anyone I know of these breakdowns and how severe they can get because I don’t want them to think less of me. But I’m exhausted from keeping it in. I just want a hug, a soul crushing, tear gushing hug. I want to feel loved wholly, for my depression and everything else. I don’t want to hide, bu t I shall continue to […]

12/14/2015 1 comment

Why??

by abisslover25 12/14/2015

written by abisslover25

Seriously the days are getting so hard :(. I don’t want to do this anymore. I am so sick of pretending to be happy and doing what I am supposed to. I know my life isn’t going to change. Tonight it took almost everything I had to not just run away and hide and start over alone. Seriously I have like no friends. No one to talk to and I am so sick of being alone and having no one when I need them. The only voices I hear are on tv. :(. I don’t know how long I can live in this sucluded life.

12/14/2015 6 comments

8 years and counting

by thehusk 12/14/2015

written by thehusk

I feel incredibly alone. I have no meaningful connections in my life. No one who knows who I really am. Because who I am is not ok. And I don’t know how to change it so that it would be ok. How to change what goes through my mind. And so I have to hide myself. Even from myself most of the time.

I want so desperately not to be this anymore. To be free of it. To be free of myself. But then there would be no me to be free. Is an end to all experience preferrable to this hole inside me? I guess […]

12/14/2015 6 comments

Letter to no one and everyone

by the_quiet_1 12/14/2015

written by the_quiet_1

Hi, my name is Angelica Cuenca. I’m 17years old and I’ve been living with depression for about 6 years now. It’s started after I lost my best friend which is my mom from cancer. I stop believing in God because he was supposed to be the good but he took someone that I loved the most, someone that I could talk to no matter what. A week or so my sisters and I went to live with my mom’s parents which are my grandparents. I never wanted to lived with them but I had no choice my father was not fit to take care of […]

12/14/2015 9 comments

It’s still there..

by alina_01 12/12/2015

written by alina_01

whether I want it or not. I don’t want to cut myself nor do I want to die anymore the mere thought seems absurd to me. Sometimes it’s hard to believe I used to want to not only that but I attempted suicide countless times. Yay such a huge step but the truth is I’m still sad inside the only difference is I’d rather live with the sadness than die and feel nothing. I have so many issues that plague me for one I have become emotionally numb that or maybe I haven’t found anyone worth having feelings for. I use sex as some coping […]

12/12/2015 1 comment

Why?

by insignificant02 12/11/2015

written by insignificant02

Why?

Why does no one care?

Why does no one see that I’m hurting?

Why does no one understand that to me, presence is more important than presents?

Why am I still alive if I don’t want to be?

Why does life feel like a stream pulling me down? Why do I feel like it would be a lot easier to give up than to keep fighting?

Why can I not be happy?

I guess it doesn’t matter. Because, if they don’t understand my silence, the won’t understand my words.

12/11/2015 3 comments

i feel so down

by dolphin 12/10/2015

written by dolphin

12/10/2015 0 comment

no hope.

by HannahGort99 12/8/2015

written by HannahGort99

So it turns out that I’m on antidepressants now, a weak dosage. It’s not doing anything and tomorrow this when I’m going to see my doctor who prescribed them to me to gain my dosage because it’s not changing my depressing and suicidal thoughts.
Right now I can’t stop thinking about slicing my wrists open and seeing my crimson blood run down my arms, the urge is too strong. It’s all I can think about and I hate it. I’m trying to fight through it for my best friend and my family.
I feel scared, hopeless, I don’t even feel like I’m in my own […]

12/8/2015 1 comment

somethings .!

by jano.11 12/8/2015

written by jano.11

i am totally alone and lonely .. I have no friends at all have no one to talk to or to see or anything else
I’ve lost all my friends for my boyfriend who had left me .. alone !
today wasn’t any better than the last whole YEAR and a half .! duh.!
I want to do something to be alive but I have nothing in mind
I want to be new when 2016 comes
I want it to be a new year not another copy of 2013 becouse after 2013 all the years was just a worst copies of it .! I want […]

12/8/2015 4 comments

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