I hate myself I can’t take being alone it’s sad…really! I work out but I can’t get abs I’m nice to people but they treat me like shit I treat the women I’m with like gold but they treat me like dirt I can’t talk to women I buy affection from strippers in the form of $30 topless dances. I have bad social anxiety I say stupid shit that’s meant to be funny and when nobody laughs I double down and run my mouth… […]
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Being so socially inept, isolated, and awkward, I completely damaged any social skills I had left. My own family doesn’t feel uncomfortable around me and I’ve just shut them out for months now. I can’t make friends even though I try so hard to be funny and nice, but my personality is so unattractive and annoying. It doesn’t help that I have social anxiety too. I’ve even stopped feeling attachment to people, like I can’t feel their emotions and care; it’s all dismissed as either “I don’t care” or they’re just manipulating me. Now I don’t even care about making friends, it’s such a bother; […]
This is my current muddled understanding of my situation.
A part of my brain (we’ll call it the emotional part) constantly tells me that something is wrong. I am not what I should be. I do not relate well socially. I do not have social status. I do not have real friends. I do not have a mate. I do not have children. I do not anticipate this changing. This is a problem, apparently.
Why is this a problem? The only reasons I can give are evolutionary – that my brain is a product of a process that elevates those who can maintain good social standing, relate […]
I feel like my issues are much different than anyone else’s. Not the depression and anxiety, I know that millions suffer from these mental illnesses. I don’t know what it is. Its along the lines of social phobia but it is even around close family and friends. I don’t know what to say. My mind is completely blank all of the time. Except for worried thoughts. Its like they consume my mind to the point I can’t even engage in simple conversation. Does anyone know what I am experiencing?
I don’t know why I came here and decided to do this after all this time. Maybe I have just reached that point of desperation where I am looking for anything to make myself feel better.
It’s probably gonna be a long one, so don’t feel the need to read, this is just me venting.
I have suffered from depression for as long as I can remember. I just cannot remember any point in my life where I was genuinely happy. I remember at about 8 years of age I used to come home from school and spend the rest of the evening alone, crying. I never […]
i wish i could get hit by a car. if i die then then great but if not i could get a clue to see who actuallly cares. ive had so many fake friends that ive completely gave up on being social. i avoid talking to anyone at all costs. my dad calls me anti social in a joking matter but its true i guess.
I made plenty of friends but none, absolutely nobody cared to be anything more than a casual friend. I was always wondering how others could form bonds, they saw me as nothing but a clown that kept them entertained. My girlfriends never loved me. Only a few childhood friends invited me to places, into their lives as companions, It’s a strong motivation for dying. How can I fail at getting close to people when humans are supposed to be social animals? It’s weird. I am too obscure to live, I was cast away by my fellows. They are done with me.
I don’t get it! I guess it’s a control thing. Society wants to keep terminally ill or mentally ill patients alive, yet abandon them. I seen it in my personal life and in others.
i want to focus on the mentally ill for this rant….
If your mentally ill, your friends will leave you, loved ones will blame you, you will be judged, ostricised, and forced into social isolation. But if you try to commit suicide and they find out, they will come back around just long enough to send the white coat fascist after you and lock you up against your will as if your a […]
Well it started in primary I was 4 when I started getting bullied I begged my parents to let me move school and they kept shouting at me and telling me no but when I told them they just shouted at me even more and told me they didn’t believe me, that was them on good days…
As I grew up it got worse in year 6 I started getting abused by people at school but I didn’t understand depression then, it came summer holidays I left primary and then it was high school
I thought I’d have a fresh start with new people from different schools, […]
Hi…
There are endless problems in my life and my life really seems like hell. I am tired of my life.
The problems are physically, mentally and socially troubling me continuously, all the time. Earlier I was a simple person living an ordinary life. I was physically somewhat less healthy. But rest things were going normal. But then chronically painful things happened later. Once during my holidays, I joined a swimming pool. It was only after a few days that I felt something wrong in my ears, as if they were blocked, perhaps water got trapped into them. There was a serious ear infection which painfully lasted […]
It is tough for me to explain and on the added front, it is tough for other people to understand as well. In the end, I am another person who wants to die but at the same time hangs on.
I definitely did not grow up “usual”. I grew up best described as isolated on a farm. I am the youngest. I have two older siblings, a sister (5 years older) and a brother (7 years older). We attended church and I attended Sunday school which was the sole social interaction that I had for my first 5 or so years of life. It was extremely […]
Suicide Project, that place to be…. or else what? Judges, just the thinking hurts. Ouch. P.T.S.D.
https://youtu.be/LRhNXrzMfew
Yep, leave you a gaggle of people standing by. Feel pretty ducky in this world, in a chicken suit. Tornadoes, Tsunamis, atomic plant melt downs, yep, there is a lot of gaggle-ing going on, you rubberneckers. Most go to these races hoping for a champion and often a wreck.
We need our own city to propel ourselves or the spirit must overcome the body to get day by day in an anxious mind.
Be a solider, 22 a day are hurting themselves irreversibly.
So put that most awful gaggle of people you might […]
The constant fear I feel due to my chemically imbalanced brain. I can’t socialize correctly unless I try really really hard, but the strain of wearing social makeup has left me feeling hollow and wishing for a swift end to my existence. I don’t care about my own life, and so I care about others even less; no point in me continuing to live. What about you?
I’m 25 years old and have suffered from severe depression and anxiety since I was 14. Medication and therapy have been of little assistance. I’ve had a very difficult social life due to this problem making it difficult to form friendships and impossible to find a romantic relationship the latter of which has devastated me more than anything. I recently spent a day with a girl I connected with more than anyone I have ever met, agreed to stay in contact with her and within a few days she completely cut off all contact with me without explanation. This is the only time in my […]
There are minimal external factors which constitute my claim that life is indeed a struggle for me, making it hard for other people to comprehend and/or understand the exact nature of my discontent. Most people retain the belief that misery absolutely must be invoked upon an individual due to trauma or tragedy, when the truth rests in our own perceptions all along. It’s the perceptions of those adverse external factors or events that cause the depression in most people, not the events themselves.
Anyone with half a brain knows this. What people don’t know, or at least often don’t recognize, is that a mind can turn […]
Why am I always on the computer?
Why do I never do anything else in real life?
I don’t have any friends in real life, MOM. I don’t see anyone in real life who has anything in common with me. What’s that? You think I won’t learn any social skills from online school? I’ve learned more social skills online than I have in real life. I have friends online who care about me. I only feel normal online because I’m one of many there, whereas, in real life, I’m all on my own.
I haven’t met anyone who’s transgender. I haven’t met anyone with autism. I don’t see […]
I’m such a fucking idiot.
I’m tired of not being able to manage my moods.
I’m sick of the fact that I have zero social skills,
and can’t really “read” people.
I’m tired of pills that don’t really fix anything.
I’m tired of not having the balls to kill myself.
(I’ve come pretty close though)
I’m tired of doctor’s who think they can heal me.
(They can’t)
I’m tired of the voices I hear, which I’m convinced are demons.
I’m tired of people not believing they’re real.
I’m sick of the fact that they’ll never stop until I’m dead.
I still believe in God.
I still think I’m going to heaven (but not certain anymore)
I sometimes don’t think […]
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It’s lonely tonight. I’m sitting here completely alone, no one to call or text. No one to say I love you, good night or good morning. And I’ve never been happier for some strange reason. I’m not a social person anyways, I hate crowds, I hate being at social gatherings, and I have a hard time conversing with people. Possibly I was made to be alone for life. A cold but comforting lonliness at least for now.
Hello. Idk where to start. I’ll make it short. So,long story short. I have extreme social anxiety/phobia. The worst thing is I get so sweaty whenever a girl passes by lol. I haven’t talked to a female until today more than just few seconds. I believe this is the only thing keeping me behind in everything because I don’t usually get anxiety attacks when I’m out around males.
So, I was thinking to get a female genuine true friend online who might’ve social anxiety or whatever it would be,whether depression or something else, So we could help each other in a two way street. Give […]