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Everybody is insane !!!!!!!!!!

by kupo95 5/26/2016

written by kupo95

OK so I’m going home for a week because my parents are fucking nuts I am going by myself. Enough days in a week to brain wash my husband that my family is Satan minions.the in laws are acting like y family will chain my down to ground so I don’t come back …not like O want to. But what am I gonna do nothing becuase I am a worthless piece of shit .

I all ready yelled at the top of my lungs to stop saying my family will hold me captive .they didn’t care my mother in law is already in her head looking […]

5/26/2016 0 comment

today!

by birds-will-sing-if-we-fall 5/13/2016

written by birds-will-sing-if-we-fall

The long awaited day has arrived, i’m ready to do it!
with no regrets, maybe a lot of unachieved and unfulfilled dream but that’s okay.

sorry Mama, i wish i was a good son, sorry for breaking your heart you are working all the time to afford me college i really appreciate it.
father, despite of everything i know you love me and i wish i were the son that you wanted but i can’t go on anymore.
my lil sis!!! 🙂 it’s gonna be okay! don’t worry, and i’m sure that Caroline loves you! i’m sorry because i couldn’t be that brother who you could […]

5/13/2016 5 comments

Only 5 or So

by AshCoveredAngel 4/29/2016

written by AshCoveredAngel

I’ve decided that once I’m not pregnant anymore I’m going to go through with it. My children can go live with their fathers. My son won’t have the things my daughter has to know I love him but it’s whatever. I can’t do this anymore. 16 years of this is enough. 3/4 a life is enough. It’s never going to get better and I’m ready to go. I have a playlist made and I’ll put a list of things like bearers, honorary bearers, flowers, body plans ect together.

I can also get started on the letters for people.

As you can see in 16 years […]

4/29/2016 3 comments

I have been hanging on by a thread for years – and now I’m tired.

by CallMeIshmael 3/27/2016

written by CallMeIshmael

I don’t have the energy right now to explain the full history. The short version is that since I took Chantix in September of 2008 I havr had massive depression, anxiety, and suicidal ideation.

I’ve now lost everything. My 2nd marriage crumbled 3 years ago, and I don’t think I will ever get over it. I’m currently 36. My oldest daughter is in college, my younger son is 15 and, although I have custody of him from my 1st marriage, I didn’t fight him a year ago when he announced that he wanted to go live with his mom. I wasn’t doing him any good – […]

3/27/2016 1 comment

for my family

by lifeisweird 3/24/2016

written by lifeisweird

My family are the only people I can count on. If I ever left this world my mother and sister would be broken beyond repair. No matter how much I think about the relief of leaving this burden called life, I don’t want to hurt the only people who gave a fuck about me. When people told me that I shouldn’t be alive because of the way I look, my mom still smiled in my face and hugged me everyday. I feel ashamed I’m not a better son. My mom deserved a son that’s talented, charming, and handsome But she’s stuck with me haha

3/24/2016 2 comments

Poem for baby’s baby

by kupo95 3/24/2016

written by kupo95

A child so small learning how to open your eyes .takeing your first breath in this beautiful world.

A mother looking down into the eyes of your heart. Learning the truest love on this earth the for your child.

Five days in this world smiling from ear to ear .

A mother looseing her breath because her heart is loosing his .

Five days old in pain eating threw a tube and under a microscope.

A mother finding her heart then finding other worldly fear of looseing it .

Her heart under a knife.

Tears of joy are now filled with fear.

A father see his son taken into the sky baby first […]

3/24/2016 2 comments

Kitty

by whiskered-fish 3/7/2016

written by whiskered-fish

3/7/2016 22 comments

Thank you all

by Disposable Human 1/5/2016

written by Disposable Human

Your words eased my pain in my time of need. I missed visitation with my son again today. Partly because of my reactions and anger.

Sorry to my parents that I’m angry. My family was taken from me and you’d rather judge me for my faults than be happy that I toughed out this loneliness as long as I did. I miss my son, and I miss my pug.

Sorry, I guess I’m just a coward, but I give up. I hope you’re all proud of what you’ve done.

Loaded Sig Sauer P250, hollow point 9mm Luger round, aiming for the roof of my mouth/tonsils, wish me luck. […]

1/5/2016 5 comments

Never Going to be Fucking Good Enough for you, am I?

by Take a Deep Breath 11/28/2015

written by Take a Deep Breath

No I’m not your son and I’m not a total car guru and whatever works for your bipolar episodes doesnt always work for me and you pick on me all the fucking time and I already know, ok, I ALREADY FUCKING KNOW I’M THE WORLD’S GREATEST PIECE OF SHIT FOR A DAUGHTER SO PLEASE, PLEASE JUST KEEP RUBBING IT IN. I know I forget and I am not always home and I’m SO SO SO SORRY!! I don’t know how to be the child you want, ok?I DONT KNOW WHAT YOU WANT I DONT KNOW I DONT KNOW. And I just try to get away […]

11/28/2015 23 comments

leaving soon.

by ready_2_die 11/27/2015

written by ready_2_die

I’ve decided Monday is the day. As soon as my son goes to school, I will leave to die. I was going to use pills, but, decided on a gun instead. I keep putting it off, because I think things will get better, but they don’t. I’m at peace knowing that I will be pain free in a few days. It’s nice to know that people will be relieved when I go. I won’t be a burden or annoyance anymore.

11/27/2015 8 comments

I love them but it’s becoming harder and harder

by nextime1988 11/22/2015

written by nextime1988

After lurking for a few months this is my first post here, let me just apologise beforehand for any spelling and grammar mistakes, english is not my native language.

i wish my parents were already dead so i could just go ahead and off myself, they have been so good to me throughout life i feel i can’t put them through the pain and grief of losing their only son.

But i dont know how much longer i can take this.

11/22/2015 8 comments

Feeling Alone.

by LucyFord 11/15/2015

written by LucyFord

Hello, this is my first times me and I’m glad I found you. I can relate to so many people here after reading their post.

its 2:22am and its one of those nights where my pain won’t let me sleep and my mind is racing.

i recently left my job because I was taken for granted. I did so much there and it all went unnoticed. I am fincailly stuck! I attempted to open up a store on etsy making bday banners. To be honest I feel like it’s a completely waste of time. Nothing seems to go right, it takes me so long to do one […]

11/15/2015 3 comments

My story

by abisslover25 11/6/2015

written by abisslover25

So this is going to be long and grammar has never been my strong point. Plus I cracked my screen really bad so it’s hard to type. Maybe getting it out will help, maybe not. Either way I have to try something to help.

I Had a rough childhood starting when I was 6 was when I first remember wanting to die. I never fit in.

Continue on and I never had any friends. Not once did a boy ever show interest in me (even the cute kindergarten crushes). I always felt broken.

When hen I hit puberty I gained a lot of weight and my mom decided […]

11/6/2015 5 comments

Almost.

by whirlwind 10/10/2015

written by whirlwind

I almost did it…. I tied a rope around the door and put my head through the loop…. As I stood there, standing on a stool, all I kept thinking about was my 4 month old son…. I started so feel so fucking guilty… If I do this… Will he have a fucked up life? Will his father give him up, neglect him… Would he think that this was his fault and that I didn’t love him…. I just can’t. I climbed down off the stool and thought to myself.. What the fuck r u doing. Ur such a weak *****!

10/10/2015 6 comments

almost time

by whoaminow22 9/20/2015

written by whoaminow22

my life has no hope. I plan on commuting suicide very soon. I am going to take all of my 30 200 mg seriquil and then sit on my car while it is running in the garage. Of the drugs don’t kill me hopefully the carbon monoxide will. My only fears are hurting my son and my mom. My son will be 3 in October, so he wont really understand. I know that my dad and my step mom will adopt him. They have asked about it before and I am still living. I’m 23, I suffer from extreme depression and social phobia. I can’t […]

9/20/2015 8 comments

Financial Disaster

by matthewdee 9/20/2015

written by matthewdee

Three months ago I sold my house. It was a perfect house and I was able to make the payments. I struggled for 7 years since my divorce to stay in the house. I filed bankruptcy. Finally last August I came out of that bankruptcy and started living life. My girlfriend urged me to sell my house. Telling me I would be better off with out it. Lower my expenses and finally be able to move in with her. I wanted to have financial security in my life and finally with two good incomes I could have that. The catch was that I could not […]

9/20/2015 2 comments

a background story.

by laddertothestars 9/8/2015

written by laddertothestars

I don’t know why I came here and decided to do this after all this time. Maybe I have just reached that point of desperation where I am looking for anything to make myself feel better.

It’s probably gonna be a long one, so don’t feel the need to read, this is just me venting.

I have suffered from depression for as long as I can remember. I just cannot remember any point in my life where I was genuinely happy. I remember at about 8 years of age I used to come home from school and spend the rest of the evening alone, crying. I never […]

9/8/2015 9 comments

its to much

by gabe1441 8/3/2015

written by gabe1441

Its to much to bear. I’m a terrible son and a horrible friend for turning to this. My life’s been going down for awhile and I just want to end it. I know when I go I’ll go to heaven but are there any Christians on here to talk to. Or just people who know what I’m going through. Plz respond

8/3/2015 2 comments

Residual Effects

by themanwhousedtobegoodenough 8/1/2015

written by themanwhousedtobegoodenough

Second post…

me and Shanna had a fight last night. I was talking to my son who was upset about a death we recently experienced. I was trying to console him and make him comfortable. She lit me up so hard and I just sat there and cried like a ***** in front of my son. Then, to top it all off, she took her engagement ring off and gave it back to me as if she found it in a crackerjack box and it meant nothing. I was crushed. She grabbed her daughter and left. I hate myself. I’m not a man. I am a […]

8/1/2015 4 comments

for now (vent)

by nomorepain461 7/26/2015

written by nomorepain461

my life matters. to my girlfriend and her son anyway. i am fighting for them. also, im scared of death. doctors might be able to help me one day. i will keep looking for a job, and not end it all just yet. maybe never.

7/26/2015 0 comment

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