Even when I was on the brink of killing myself, when all I wanted to do was rip my skin apart and die, I never missed an assignment, or failed to sit through a two-hour-long lecture, even when I couldn’t breathe because of panic attacks. I never once missed a training session or a competition even though I could not stop coughing because of pneumonia. Even when I was burning at a high fever, I never even thought about my own health when I was staying up late to type an essay. I didn’t mind driving myself crazy wondering whether or not my essay was […]
My hair started falling out. I almost have a bald spot. I have anemia, vitamin deficiencies. I wish the supplements I take are real pills, that way I can just die without over thinking it. I hate my family so much;what an overrrated satement. I hear this so much, too much. They keep driving me to kill myself, day by day. I feel so alone, but I can’t/don’t want to reach out. I want suicide the easy way and I hate myself for that- man the fuck up.
They (the third party, your conscience, your therapist, your pamphlet, the suicide hotline)say that after suicide, the emotion […]
School is managed to turn me from someone willing to learn and grow into a person with bleak eyes who memorises facts only to be tested on them. It has managed to turn me into a person who perceives death and expulsion as the same thing.
The time has come for this worthless trash to go….this might be one hell of a lame post considering my skills at writting ( at everything in fact ).
Anyway, how should I even start ? By the truth maybe, I’m a 21 years old loser who disagree with the meaning of his life. I always lived a loser’s life as far as I recall, but childhood innocence (I guess ) prevented me from realizing it, ignorance is bliss after all, starting as an hyperactive, but outgoing kid able to make friends, to a slowly (but surely) shying away teenager, and adult too for that matter, […]
every so often i ask my mom to get me diagnosed with depression.
i doubt itll ever happen, and im probably lying to myself that i have depression but i wish i could get diagnosed within a second. i just want proof that i have depression. maybe some antidepressants to help me cope. my family probably cant afford them, so i feel trapped. ive attempted suicide once. my mom knows about it but she didnt know it was a suicide attempt, because i didnt tell her. anyways. i was talking to her earlier about me getting diagnosed, and at some point she said that my depression […]
Not necessarily suicide (though it can be if you want), but just death in general. Tell me: Age, exact cause of death, and misc information (optional). For me, I think I’d like to die at around age 31 (because I get to experience my billionth second), suicide, after I become a professor.
I feel like I’m only five steps away from falling off this cliff and depression is pushing my back to the edge. Depression, it’s always been there from the start, when I tried to commit suicide when I was 11 and whenever I do my late night cries in bed. I’m at the point where I just feel numb. I don’t feel happy, I don’t feel sad, I don’t feel angry. I just feel tired and numb and I want out of it. So then questions started to pop up, “how can I end this?” “where should I run away to?” “is there anyway I […]
this video may change your perspective. this guy knows what he is talking about! it certainly changed mine
My story starts in 2010. After a picture of me in underwear ends on internet and all my small city call me a whore all my “friends” started to stay away from me, because “no one wants do be friends with such a slut”, they said. The people I know started to ignore everything I was, all my qualities, and started to judge me just because that stupid pic. I was only 14. I suffered bullying, I had no friend. I couldn’t talk about this with my parents because I was afraid to let them down and ashamed for what I’ve done. So, I don’t […]
I have had the worse five months of my life; anxiety, bdd, everything has destroyed me and who I am. I look fucking 10 years older. I think it is time for me to go; the only comfortable thought I have: Suicide.
Why go on living ?
I am 99% sure that I want to kill myself. I really want to tell someone that so they could say they had a chance to save me, and they can feel less guilty when they can’t, so they can say at least they tried. But I don’t want to tell Julian (fake name) because he would try to stop me. I haven’t felt this sure about anything in a long time.
I’m going to do it. I need to at least try, or I can’t live with myself. (I guess I wouldn’t be living with myself anyway, ha.) I will be documenting the next few […]
My name is jon im 15 and i guess i have social anxiety. i’ve always been very shy when I was younger and never really had any close friends. I went to school knowing I had no friends but I didn’t care because I really loved learning and that was the motivation I had for going. In the beginning of 4th grade I was diagnosed with leukemia (which is a type of cancer) and had to be taken out of school for 2 months. when I returned everyone acted so nice towards me for the rest of 4th and 5th grade and I still really […]
Why movies are better than reality / real life / real world ?
Why movie is better than reality / real life / real world ?
Why reality is boring ?
What puzzles me the most is human’s mind / human’s brains and imagination better than reality ( human’s fantasy is better than reality )
for example:
just look at the movies, novels, comics, games, books, , animations (anime / manga), science fiction (sci-fi), fantasy , like Star Wars, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, X-Men, Marvels & DC universe / movies , The Avengers , Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, Swords Art Online, Naruto, Bleach, […]
The day that i’ve come to an end…
My boyfriend left me just 20 minutes ago…
He left me because i was depressed and he couldn’t take it anymore…
This is my third post here…
i’m gonna hang myself today, i’m gonna drink, i’m gonna use cocaine…
I’m not going to be alive this morning…
I’m hanging myself….
I’m sorry to everyone, my friends, my family…
I just can’t take it anymore…
I’m sad, i’m depressed, i’ve been trying suicide for years…
I don’t want to die, but it seems like the only way…
I don’t love anything anymore, i’m empty…
i’m in such much […]
I painted this picture one day when existentialism was strong on my mind. I hadn’t painted it because I was feeling suicidal. I hadn’t painted it because I wanted some attention from my parents. I hadn’t painted it just because it looked cool. I painted it because it spoke to me. I hear a lot of negative opinions from all of my family about suicide. They say those people are cowards. They say those people don’t know how good life is. They say those people are selfish. They say those people are mental. Well I say different. I say suicide is damn ugly and suicide […]
I’m an Atheist but quiet sure death isn’t the end and I have some scientific argument to support my this belief.
Just as 1+1 will always = 2
Death will be the result of you
Suicide, natural causes, it all leads to black
No god after life, a cosmic kick in the nutsack
I’m gonna level with you, all of you strangers. I don’t know you but, the suicide project is our connecting element.
I want to kill myself, if only I could shut off my brain long enough to do it. I feel most comfortable when seeing my own blood seep out of my skin after cutting, or the pale sting after branding my skin. -not normal, I know- but my dad died about a decade ago and I feel the loss of him most keenly. the marks show me how long.. maybe in a few shots I’ll forget my pain. the scars from my before mentioned pain […]
Just a few things on my mind and I may seem harsh but reading some of these comments are making me ill. Your all encouraging each other to take your life’s? Giving each other options for easy ways out? I have been in the exact same situation as many of you&it does get better. We don’t need to encourage each other to take the easy way out. We need to be sharing some fucking hope! So if I come across as harsh, it’s because I generally care.
First of all, I don’t give a shit what anyone says; There is no reason why you should take […]
Well… I’m a Brazilian boy, 18 years old (English is my second language, but i’ll try my best here.)
My first attempt of ending my life was in 01/01/2014, i tried taking antidepressant pills, i’ve ended up in the hospital for 3 days… my father commited suicide when i was very young, my mother never talks to me, when i was 7 years old i was abused by an older boy… later on i’ve became homossexual… no one knew about all this shit ’til 2 years ago…
i’ve dated a boy who is trying to help me now, i think sometimes that he’s the only person […]