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Venting…

by This_iz_me 9/7/2014

written by This_iz_me

I cannot sleep…. I keep thinking about what someone said to me “no one gives a ish”….

No one cares and to have no one in your corner ,hurts. I tried telling a friend a few minutes ago that I still deal with depression and cannot get rid of these sucidal thoughts, And just said ” i thought you wasn’t going to go to that place no more”? Like really…. if i could really had a choice to feel the way I do don’t you think I would choose not to be feeling sucidal, depressed and lonely all the time…Damn, I do wanna be happy but I […]

9/7/2014 3 comments

????

by emokidd 9/6/2014

written by emokidd

I hate life. I made an entire 7 page long story telling u guys y I recently tried to kill myself. And now I accidentally deleted it… God I hate life

9/6/2014 5 comments

next week

by lovemyshihtzu 9/6/2014

written by lovemyshihtzu

when my stuff i ordered online gets here, I’m done. my mom is making fun of the way i am feeling, calling my dad and my aunt telling them I can’t clean my apartment, I’m sorry I’m depressed and my mom is making fun of me for it

9/6/2014 42 comments

Too Depressing

by depressednihilist95 9/4/2014

written by depressednihilist95

I’ve accepted that I’m too pessimistic or depressing for anyone to like or take seriously. I would have lost many friends if I were honest about how I feel. I remember being judged in therapy sessions for telling the truth, like how I was bored during a conversation.

Still, I don’t know what to do. I don’t really like humanity, nor do I really like existence at all. I try my best to ignore reality and daydream, or think of ideal, romanticised situations that have never happened in my life.

9/4/2014 6 comments

it’s been said…now i wait

by overit20 9/2/2014

written by overit20

I have a huge heart and helped out the man I was/am in love with by helping him buy a car. Since we purchased it in February, excuse me, since I, he has given me very little for it. Something else came up so he talked me into getting a title loan on it for him. The car is all in my name and he wants me to tag it…which means everything will continue to be in my name. I want out from under it. It was suppose to be a few month deal and he’s doing nothing to change it. We currently are friends […]

9/2/2014 8 comments

given up

by kateralia 9/1/2014

written by kateralia

I am so beyond lowest of low points that I have given up on everything. I couldnt be bothered showering, brushing my teeth, washing clothes even eating. I don’t sleep one day just so I can sleep through the next. I am in immense pain from my back and my rotting teeth.

I once cared so much about my health and my appearance. Where did it go wrong?

Finally my doctor is listening to me & trying to help. Why now after nearly a year of seeing him, telling him my troubles, what I want to do, does he now want to do something?

I made my very […]

9/1/2014 5 comments

Lost,Empty, and Hopless

by HereticBlood 8/30/2014

written by HereticBlood

No idea where to turn to anymore..

Everyday feels like I only am left to waste away more. Tired of people telling me “there’s so much to be thankful for” “think of the positives”.. Only how can I be so positive when the nightmares and flashbacks are a movie stuck on repeat. So vivid so clear.. The anger rushes over me and I quickly return to the blade . The one thing I know will never judge me. The one thing I know will never leave me or betray me. Suddenly feeling ashamed. Who am I?.. Where has all this gone. Why did I die the […]

8/30/2014 71 comments

today.

by Kailee3 8/28/2014

written by Kailee3

Today as I got up for school, my mother came into my room.. telling me if I don’t go to school she’s going to kick me out of the house .. I’m only 16, I can’t drive, I don’t have a job, and I have no friends .. As I finished getting ready for school my mother tells me she mad me breakfast. I informed her I wasn’t hungry, she thew the food In the hallway, shoved me against the wall and repeatedly pushed me, therefore we moved into the kitchen. I told her I wasn’t riding with her, she grabbed me by my arm […]

8/28/2014 6 comments

Waiting

by BrokenClock 8/26/2014

written by BrokenClock

I’m lying on my bed waiting.
For the suicide and self harm thoughts to stop.
For my tears to stop flowing.
For my pillow to dry up.
The sun is coming up and I’m still awake.
Thinking.
Waiting.
Listening to the birds telling me to sleep.
More waiting.
For the numbness that will greet me soon.
Hopefully.
I just want to be at peace
Even if it means becoming numb and never being able to be happy ever again.
I’m waiting.
I don’t want to feel anymore.
I’m waiting to become numb.

8/26/2014 1 comment

I Despise Myself

by TwistedSpace 8/25/2014

written by TwistedSpace

I feel like I’m literally the worst person in the world. I look at myself each day in the mirror and resist the urge to punch my reflection into a bunch of tiny pieces. Nobody really cares about me. I guess I don’t really care about them, either. But that’s not true, because if I didn’t give a damn about anyone, I’d be dead right now. I’d be able to do this, and never have to worry about anything ever again.

I’m mean to others. I told my ex-Boyfriend that I hoped his mother, who is suffering from cancer, would die an agonizing death from it. […]

8/25/2014 12 comments

What do you find supportive?

by Rey 8/22/2014

written by Rey

I want to know what you really would like to see from people who are supporting you?

I see these ads for a self-help depression website on TV and online a lot. It’s depression.org.nz and it’s for New Zealanders (though I’d imagine others can access it). Heaps of the media messages have been about getting out there and telling people, family and friends, about how you are feeling. However no mass-media campaign in NZ has yet to inform people specifically how they can help.

Since I started talking about my experience, I’ve had mixed reactions to my struggles ranging from “Oh that sounds hard” to “Don’t worry, sometimes […]

8/22/2014 2 comments

Pathetic

by depressednihilist95 8/19/2014

written by depressednihilist95

I feel like I’ll never emotionally connect with anybody. I have changed quite a bit in high school, since many of my friends moved away after elementary. I’ve become more cynical and depressive since then. People just don’t like a bitter personality. Also, admittedly, I’m lazy, but not couch potato lazy: I rarely watch TV because the news is depressing and reality TV is just a distraction from reality, so I either go on the computer or sleep. Many see this as a flaw and something that should be changed, but I think that this is who I am. I believe that life is pointless […]

8/19/2014 2 comments

My Dad

by Lainie 8/18/2014

written by Lainie

Ive been thinking about telling my dad about my cutting. I wanna do it tonight but im scared. I dont know if I can.

8/18/2014 2 comments

scars

by Sharn 8/16/2014

written by Sharn

scarsI don’t know what to do anymore.. I battle with severe anxiety, depression, insomnia and anger issues.I try my hardest to be what they want me to be.. the perfect daughter. Have the perfect grades, I was working 2 jobs but I just can’t cope any more. I’m lost. Dropped out of school at 15. Quit one job. Have barely any shifts at the other one. I blow up at everyone over everything. I can’t help myself .I cry everynight trying to think of new ways to be perfect… I tried cutting… It just wasn’t my thing so I started burning myself. The pain […]

8/16/2014 0 comment

Suicidal tendencies

by tacomonkey287 8/11/2014

written by tacomonkey287

So it’s been a while since I last posted anything. I feel like I’m getting worse as the day passes by, voices are still telling me to give up and die. Last night I broke my chain of self harming. The last time I self harmed was a couple of months and that’s all I think about now, all I want to do is die, why can’t I be happy as I use to. There ain’t many issues happening in my life but I still experience a psychological war against myself. I just need out.

8/11/2014 0 comment

Goals…

by k2fraser 8/6/2014

written by k2fraser

How come when I set the goal to kill myself and begin working towards it I have this feeling of drive and passion, but when I set any other goal and work towards it, it feels like a waste of time.

I’ve begun taking inventory of everything I own. I’m building a simple website to list everything so I can sell it. The idea is instead of placing a million classified ads, I just post a few and link back to my site for a complete list of what’s for sale. The money earned should help me correct my finances. I don’t want to leave any […]

8/6/2014 12 comments

four.

by emwhy 8/4/2014

written by emwhy

My last attempt at “100 days of happiness” is laughable. I got to day two before saying ‘fuck it’, so now I’m back to good old fashioned venting posts.. hence the numbering “four”. I guess I’m not cut out for that gimmicky bullshit. But I get a pat on the back for trying.

So today, it finally dawned on me that I need to lay off the carbs and sugar. I seriously feel like complete shit. Aside from the expected bloating, lack of physical energy, gain of ~6 pounds in the past month, constant breakouts… I’ve been feeling mentally slow, sluggish, lackluster. I woke up at […]

8/4/2014 7 comments

Help Me

by rich51bruhh 8/3/2014

written by rich51bruhh

I have prevented my self from preparing for my death many times but today it feels stronger. I feel like getting up at this very moment and getting what i plan on using to end myself. I feel sad that this night (or shall I say early morning) could be the moment I final do it. Each time I have these thoughts of preparation I always look online for a place to talk to someone just to know someone is there. I have lost so many friends and just want someone to know what I have been feeling and what I plan to do just […]

8/3/2014 1 comment

Why wont you listen?

by hmnwth 8/1/2014

written by hmnwth

You don’t have to read if you’re not interested. I’m just ranting. I have a friend that I cherish and care for. She has been supporting me and helping me through. I have a lot of problems in life although I’m just 15, it’s a long story so maybe I’ll write more about it soon. But recently I had a fight with her. I relied on her so much that I didn’t realize how much she was hurting. I tried to be nice, I tried to help. But it feels like she wouldn’t let me. She never tell me her problems and I […]

8/1/2014 4 comments

saved

by LydiaCoon 7/30/2014

written by LydiaCoon

Last year I would cut my self every chance I got. My friends, Hunter and Laura, were the first to notice. The keeper telling me to stop but I continued. Then my teacher, Ms.Ring sent me up to my school’s conciler. She told me all the reasons why I should live. I have a brother, a sister, and so many friends. When ask me why I wanted to die. I told her about how I get called so many names, and how everyone says I get my clothing at Walmart and the doller store. Then when I go home I get called more names like […]

7/30/2014 2 comments

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