Lightning strikes on a summer night
The August heat makes way for a storm
With screams of agony and gasps of fright
There came an odd and terrible form
“It’s a girl!”
The doctor said with a grin
But they all knew the evil within
A child born in the midst of sin
“What happens to her if he breaks again?”
End the world
She was loved and cherished
But they always knew
The good would parish
If he didn’t stay true
What a man
He could never really understand
What would […]
I have seen a fair amount of television drama and inspirational quotes about humans’ reason for existence. They always go on and on about how it will come to you and you just have to wait and most of the time the answer to your being is to find your one true love (which is really stupid, having to exist because of some stranger you cannot help but produce oxytocin to).
I lived a carefree and, at the same time, tedious childhood. I’ve try to commit suicide in already different ways since I was seven. Most of the time, I was too coward to go […]
Well ive finally built up the courage to end it, there zero chance things get better . its like i try to talk to about my problem and ppl including my own mom just toss aside how i feel my depression , everything like is nothing. I just feel alone, im playing to lose.if i feel angry or sad my own family looks at me like i have no right to feel that way . funny thing is me and my mom got in an arguement just now and she wished me death at least she thinks so too . well someones wish is going […]
That worthless feeling the knowing that its true. I can’t help but to feel so dumb for holding on to hope I should have went through with it. I should have known that it was too good to be true. Now I’m past depressed and I’m filled with so much hate I cant fucking deal with myself.. They say live life with no regrets but it still living life that I regret ????
I had the most beautiful dream – in it, I sat somewhere.. under a tree or on a bench – I’m not sure
A man sat next to me – I don’t think I knew him, or maybe I did – he slowly leaned over and kissed me ever so gently on the lips. The feeling that came over me was absolute love… there were no expectations, no sexual innuendos, nothing but pure, unconditional love. When I awoke – that kiss fresh on my lips – and found that it was a dream, my heart shattered into a thousand pieces. It was only a dream […]
Her Blade
(Chorus)
Nobody sees behind her happy eyes
Nobody cares when she cries
Every night she gets out her blade
And she cries
Everyone says that that they care
But she doesn’t listen
Her voice tells her to not believe
To protect herself
(Chorus)
Nobody sees behind her happy eyes
Nobody cares when she cries
Every night she gets out her blade
And she cries
She says that she tries
But everyone knows that’s not true
She really doesn’t care anymore
She will be missed
Her mom walks in
To see her on the floor
With letters everywhere
And she cries
(Chorus)
Nobody saw […]
I sit at home alone everyday .. When my sister gets home she bombards me with nasty comments about how I do nothing with my life and I sit on my fat ass all day .. Sometimes she calls me a depressed annoyance and how one day shes gonna slap me.. Maybe I should just kill myself . its not like they are gonna miss me. My mom constantly yells about how the dirty dishes need to be done while I’m thinking about how I should kill mysf tonight . I’m tired all the time… I have no friends. . is it true that it […]
What if when you die, if you kill yourself, your punishment is to come back worse than now. A starving kid, someone with a horrible debilitating condition. I guess thats true of any way you die.
I feel guilty about everything I did and didn’t do. I’m failing so hard at life right now. I spent £150 on an exam retake, it’s in three weeks time and I’ve practically done zero revision. I was feeling fine when I paid for it, I thought I could do it.. Now.? I feel like shit, feel guilty about eating, I don’t deserve to have food. So many people have it worse than me and they don’t loose their motivation. I’m such parasite and a waste of space. I couldn’t even keep a job. My parents do too much for me. I’m too old to […]
So me and my momma aren’t talking. Well I’m not talking to her. My depression really affects her the worse. She’s seen me at my worst and in rehab. I’ve fought her. We argue like crazy and I’m not very respectful. I mostly take all my anger out on her because of some childhood shxt that I won’t get into. Point is we aren’t talking because she said I don’t respect her. Which is 100% true.
I’m gonna break this down. Imma horrible fckn person. I cut myself. I’ve tried to kill myself. I don’t bellieve in myself. I don’t love myself. So how […]
I can keep it together for pretty long. Sunglasses on, hair down, blank fuckin stare.
Threw up “mop that shit up with your hair *****, i want you to get on your fucking knees and mop it up. You’re lucky i dont make you eat it.”
Lol. Call me a monkey, I love monkeys, im a ****, i love that word, very empowering.
Keep it together, don’t laugh, for gods sake don’t cry. I’ll be laughing when I’m selling my engagement ring. I’ll be […]
Surely, you’ve heard the phrase “old soul.” Dammit, that’s me.
I’m not that old. I’m still young, most people would say. But the things I’ve been through and the perspectives I’ve held must surely tell another story. I say this with sincerity, not grandiosity. In fact, I’m sorry to admit it. I wish I saw things differently.
All my life I’ve dealt with depression. To be fair, I didn’t start noticing it until I was maybe 9 years old, but I did notice it, and it only got worse with time. Depression brings […]
So today I attended my sibling’s graduation ceremony and, for some reason, the thought of my future has never seemed to be… true. Whenever I imagine myself after high school, I literally cannot see myself being a college student, or living on my own, or having job, or even being homeless. It’s all blank. It makes me think that I will probably have gone through with my plans before high school even finishes. As I was thinking this during my sibling’s graduation, I looked up to the gloomy sky and thought, “Today is a beautiful day to die.”
Please, please read if you’re considering suicide:
I have bipolar disorder and I’ve tried to kill myself 5 times. Every single one was a nightmare. I’m totally with you and understand you when you say you feel hopeless, lost, worthless or in pain. My depression is with me frequently and I often wish it would end.
The fact of the matter is that it will be with me, in some degree, for the rest of my life. And I’m ok with that. Because despite the difficulty and the occasional emotional torture, I know – I know – that life offers happiness too.
Relief does come, it will come, […]
I’m part of a ****** chat room called Crisis-Chat, and most if not all of the users from there, are from here. I was one of the few… okay maybe the only one, to have joined SP AFTER I joined ******. Anyway.
Lots of people post here, lots of people threaten suicide. I seem to do it enough that I might as well post it here for attention, right? I don’t even fucking know what I want to do anymore. I’m tired but I’m not. I’m hungry, but when I eat, I feel sick. My head hurts but its magically fine if I go to take […]
I keep having dreams where she kills herself, and I wake up feeling as if the world had ended. The crushing weight and anxiety on my chest is too much to bear. Seeing her alive and well makes everything better and soon I forget the dreams but then they come again and I see her, then I wonder for how long all of this will last before the dreams come true, it would kill me. I dint want to even think about it but in trapped in this cycle now
Well, I will uh, I’ll keep this concise. I am admittedly young. I am old enough to realize that I have feelings for members of the same sex, and, when my parents found out, indeed, my dad broke into my phone and found my boyfriends contact, we’re not happy. Their supposed perfect son was…. Undesirable as far as they are concerned. They have tried to get me to fix my “lifestyle” and “help me though this phase.” As it is, this is just…. Breaking me. I physisically cannot fathom how who I care about can make me undesirable. And while, I have figured might as […]
Don’t let me die alone /
I feel weakness in every bone/
I worry every second I think of you/
Because I’m so scared I’m not sure what to do/
My heart beats strong for you/
And I always long for you/
Our future can appear so bright/
Ik that doesn’t make it right/
But I will stay true late into every night/
I love you E even as I cry/
I love you E even as I die/
I love you E even as I try/
I will not fail anymore/
Because without you I have nothing to live for/
And your the only one I can adore/
Deep depression isn’t how I want to live/
Major regression isn’t all […]
Yes its true, we made a vow
For better or for worse
You want my heart I’ll cut it out
And throw my veins in the dirt
For years and years I’ve kept my vows
Up until today
We both know its over now
But for my children I will stay
You say you hate me
‘Cause you think that you know what I’ve done
But its all crazy
knowing that she’s truely the one
I’ll listen to what you have to say
Just cut out my eyes
When you speak I hear her voice
Although my vision cannot lie
You say you hate me
‘Cause you think that […]
Suicide note or would a Irish goodbye be better? My words are unworthy of her greatness my only true friend ive ever had maybe shed be better off with the Irish goodbye what’s all of your opinions? Say goodbye or just going no note
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