Hey guys, Im in a situation where I have no friends and my family dislikes me. I hate my life to the point of suicide sometimes and I pull back from that edge because I want to achieve at least one friend or a few. If you guys ever wanna talk to me my email is Alex_Uchina17@hotmail.com It would really be nice to chat with someone and to see that there is light when needed.
April 2012
There was a boy I knew since 5th grade. He died on May 30th, 2011. He was only 15 years old. He liked this girl and so did his one friend. They got into a fight over the girl. Matt wanted to go out with her, but so did Christian. When Matt got home from the Stay-at-Home festival, he researched ways to shoot himself in the head without killing himself. He pulled out a gun and tried. He was sitting in his closet when he pulled the trigger. He was home alone and it was almost 1 in the morning. He had school the same […]
Ever heard that song about teddy bears in the woods having a picnic…?
‘If you go out in the woods today, You’re sure of a big surprise, If you go out into the woods today, You’d better go in disguise’.
I have no idea what that song has to do with this post or even my thoughts, but the song came into my head yesterday evening and has buzzing through my head like a constant bird’s song. And for the minority of the majority of you that are wondering whether or not i still want to kill myself, the answer is yes, i do.
Fuck.
I really want to […]
I googled “suicide” and “loneliness” yet again, and it brought me here. I’m lonely, suicidal, almost 30. Got help in the past, pills, therapy you name it, nothing helped. I fell in love with a girl who was also the best friend I ever had, a girl I’ve known for three years. She never responded to this love, like all the girls I loved before. I never even had a girlfriend. She stopped being my friend and started resenting me 6 months ago, almost every day I check her facebook, see her living her life, much happier without me in it. I had to move […]
i dont know what the lethal dose for cough medicine is, but i guess well find out
That’s always a sad realization, the days blur and the usual sign of the sun doesn’t even represent waking hours for me anymore. I’ve felt lifeless and hopeless…my big dreams shot down. Moved up here to this new place so far from my family…from the plains to the mountains. Had a big fight with my wife a couple of days ago, she really ripped into me, made me really feel like a bum…but the thing that hurt the most is when she mocked my tears. That was too much…too much to come from the one I love. I refused to stay but she blocked my […]
It is almost impossible to see from the inside wether it is time to go to a mental or psychiatric hospital (pardon me if the terms mental hospital and the like is slightly different from country to country).
I know that even though I had major problems and even though I was very keen on suicide, then I kept on thinking that I wasn’t all that crazy – crazy enough so that I should go to hospital. But a psychiatric hospital is often far from what has been shown on movies with all kinds of lunatics and nobody rather sane. And One doesn’t have to be […]
basically im purely on here to help anyone of you who want it, someone to talk to someone to ask advice from someone to just befriend you…I know how it feels to be constantly hated on and have barely anyone or anything to go to for comft but I’m here 🙂 may not be much help but it could save a life! And that is my aim ….if you want to get in contact here are my details
Funkayso@hotmail.co.uk
https://www.facebook.com/BabyRiRiSoph
BB pin – 279B3601
anytime you wanna get in touch, I’m pretty much always available x
I posted an article here on the thoughts of committing suicide. I just realized that my inspiration (a black and white that is) to commit suicide is my cousin who unfortunately took his own life.
The story is that he does not want his girlfriend to get an abortion. They argued, and shot his girlfriend slightly on her face. Then, he shot himself. The girl fortunately survived, as well as the baby girl. However, my cousin fought till the end until even the most advanced machines cannot save him anymore. I know he is in an immaculate peace right now, and […]
hi im new here and i dont know how i should start off…. but i guess i can tell you some background story…. ive been suicidal for a really long time now. when i was around 6 or 7 i tried to kill myself… i slit my wrist but sadly it was not deep enough to finish me off… ive been struggling with this depression on and off and i dont know what to do anymore… i can feel the thing inside me getting stronger… the urge to kill myself… ive caught myself a few times and stoped what i was doing or going to […]
I am going to commit suicide tonight.  I find every moment that I am alive to be sickening. My beloved cheat on me with my best friend. She feels nothing for me, insults me all the time, treats me like garbage. She hates me now… I still love her, she has no idea of how much she meant to me.
To my family, I am sorry. I have always been weak and pathetic, I have always been a burden. I will no longer be a burden upon everyone, tonight I will finally take responsibility and end it. I was never meant to be in this world, […]
Today is the last time I get physically and emotionally abused I hate you.obviously this will make you happy
I keep trying to tell myself it’s not that bad. It’s just a few scrapes. Then I look at my arm an realize what i’ve done; it’s become a bloody red mess. I hate myself. How could I possibly be this terrible of a person. I want to stop; I just don’t know how. If he were here he’d call me baby; say everything was alright. If he was here I would have a reason to live. But he’s not.. He never will be again. I miss him terribly. I wish I could have talked him out of doing it.. I feel as if it’s […]
This is when I lived in washington. I was about six. I’m ashamed to say I’m posting about a girl whose name I’ve long forgotten. I think, though, that it was Jules.
She was a friend of mine that lived right across the street from me in a nice little neighborhood. I never knew she was abused, but it was pretty bad apparently. We usually played outside and sometimes at my house. We typically never went to hers, which was okay with me, I didn’t like her house. Her mom made me uncomfortable and I wasn’t a fan of how dirty and unorganized things were with […]
Today was tough, wish I could share.i just can’t do this with her anymore, she doesn’t listen she’s fucking crazy and I can’t live like this anymore.my body hurts and I’m emotionally drained. Idk what to do..
This is my first time on here. After reading a few pages of stories, i decided i’d try. Cuz maybe somebody who doesn’t know me will care about me when my own family doesnt. I’m Rocky, 24f and completely lost. After trying, and failing, to kill myself, i decided to stick around. Why? Only because i’m in debt and my family can’t afford to pay for it. But my sister told me that next time i should try harder so i succeed. I’m actually thinking it sounds like a good idea. I’m so sick of all the pain and all the bad shit. The only […]
Tonight I got home from a night out with friends. I had had an amazing day. I got upstairs, threw off my boots, turned on my laptop and became someone else. Every night I strip for guys to help deal with my depression. I have never admitted it before to anyone. I use it as an outlet for all the horrible things that have happened to me, something to make me feel a bit better. But tonight was different. Tonight I was going to talk to my boyfriend. I havent loved someone like I love Matt in over a year. But it was hard breaking […]
..So maybe im being punished. Again I feel anxious and uneasy. This tends to happen when you’re gone. Usually I am able to control it with the reassurance that in due time you’ll be back. This time though it doesn’t seem likely. I feel like my world is slowly ending and there’s nothing I can do except wait. There’s no use crying anymore, no use wishing you were back. God, how i wish you were back. Its been almost a month since the last time your soft voice danced through my ears, and i smiled because the notes making my favorite soundtrack were you telling […]
You dont understand how i felt that day when you grabbed my hand and assured me it was okay. I could do nothing but think about what we were about to do, wonder if you were nervous too. My thoughts overpowered everything and caused my brain to shut off. Then you took my innocence and whispered soft, “it wasnt how i pictured, wasnt how i planned.” I hurt my head trying to process what you had just said. Its been me by myself ever since then, my finger on the button ready to push send. I want to tell you all my feelings, worries, thoughts, and fears- […]