Who ever is having problems and doesnt know what to do or is scared to write it on here, email me. It will be totaly confidential.
Love,
naiomy
MY email: Naiomyhernandez@gmail.com
Who ever is having problems and doesnt know what to do or is scared to write it on here, email me. It will be totaly confidential.
Love,
naiomy
MY email: Naiomyhernandez@gmail.com
My TEACHER told everyone in the class when I went to the bathroom that I needed to go on more MEDS! I dont even take meds. She said All this stuff about me. She is a teacher. WOW. She also said I should loss some weigh. Yes I called myself fat in the past, but I am NOT fat! GOD!
The Universe is evil, at least partially. Yin & Yang. The pure existence of this place / website proves that there is a lot of evil out here… Just waiting to eat us all. I wanted to die several times, and wanted to live some other times. It makes me sad that a lot of other people are depressed too with suicidal tendencies. Everyone will die eventually, in old age or in an accident or something. Why the needless suffering then…???
“Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself.”
– Leo Tolstoy
He who thinks little, errs much.â€
Leonardo da Vinci
It seems to me, the wisdom and lessons of the past are ignored because humans are too egotistical and short sighted to think there once were and still are smarter & wiser people then themselves. So they try do everything ‘their way’ beause they think they are special or unique or smarter (sorry you are not), and yet often fail because they have not learnt the lessons of the past or even about themselves, and so, are forever repeating […]
People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own […]
I don’t even know where to start.
My life has been nothing but constant turmoil for as long as I can remember. Literally, my first memory, is my dad standing over my mom strangling her on the futon. I think I was three or four. I have very few happy memories. I used to feel so sad, or angry, 21 years have gone by and I just don’t think my body can handle emotions anymore, now I just feel numb. I’ll be sitting in my room doing nothing of particular importance and out of nowhere its like i’m gasping for air, my chest feels tight, and […]
Well, I guess I should start at the beginning. Â When I was in fifth grade, I was diagnosed with ADD. Â ADD makes it hard for me to focus for very long. Â Fifth grade was a very difficult year for me. Â I have always been a bit unique. Â I never really fit in. Â I listened to Christen music, which no one else thought was cool, even though I went to a Catholic school. Â I was made fun of for listening to TobyMac, who certain peers called “BigMac,” for reasons unknown to me. Â I told a guy I had like since second grade that I liked him […]
Well my name is travis i grew up in this little ass town where people was stuck up and rude and stuff. I know that since im older i realize how rude people are in this world that just because i was the fat gay kid in class didnt mean that i need to be picked on through school. I didnt know what i really wanted out of life i would sit in my room at night and just want to die and that was every night, not just once in a while but every night. I looked at people that felt like me like they […]
What’s up guys,
I want to reach out to you all. I recently discovered this blog and it’s been an amazing experience reading so many people’s stories. I want to hear more. It’s kind of keeping me going right now. I guess the question I have for everybody is why can’t we do it? Why can’t we take that extra step? What is holding you all back personally? I have failed multiple times in the past six months and I just can’t bring myself to do it just yet. That is why I’m reaching out to you all. I want to make sense of it […]
Actually I have the basic outline done,but need to start focusing all of my energy on the finer details. Im just so exhausted,mentally,physically,spiritually. Im so done with this world.
Has anyone ever Fat boy chronicles????If you haven’t,qo rent the movie!I just saw It for the second time and I can relate to It alot.I’m not fat(I consider myself a toothpick but at the same time fat!)and I’ve only qotten bullied threw most of my sixth qrade year but It’s that him that I can relate to,It’s his friend.One part In the movie the quy asks her “why do you cut yourself?…qirl-why do you think I cut myself,cause I like It,cause I enjoy It,I do It cause I’m dyinq Inside does that answer your question…The quy-you think your the only one.I went to a party […]
We all have those days where no matter what, we just feel empty and weak. Today, for me, was one of those days. It was odd, too, because it had started off a pretty good day. I had the music on that made me feel good, and classes were going well and so forth. When I get home, it seems like some indescribable pressure arrived (probably because with some school work, I tend to procrastinate..ha!) anyways, later on today I get a call from my dad. He had told me about how he had picked my eighth grade brother up from school today and keep […]
my depression is getting so bad again. i don’t know if my meds are working. I don’t know what to do. The only thought i really have on how to fix it is to kill myself. if im dead, none of my problems will matter anymore. i don’t really want to kill myself, i just don’t want to go on like this. when im off work all i can think of is when can i go back to that stability, but when i’m there i just want to escape and get away.
i just fucking want this to […]
i find im happiest when i read a good book, so i guess i should read all the time…
im also needing your opinion on something….. am i bipolar?
becuz like this morning… i woke up really happy and ready for the day… then my sister gave me attitude and my whole day was shitty in till i hour ago when i started reading…. Â and some people ask if I’m bipolar… but i don’t know if i am.. it just made me think… i don’t think i am.. but I’m not sure anymore.. so if you this i am or I’m not please let me know. i […]
I’ve lurked here, but I’ve never posted. (Thank you to you all, by the way.) It’s kind of scary. But I’m trying to calm down, and maybe this will help.
I don’t want to die. I just want everything to stop. I can’t control my thoughts. People make it sound easy, but I can’t just ignore them. Suicidal thoughts are on my mind quite often. I feel like they are in a constant battle with my normal thoughts. I’ve only really acted on these thoughts with the intent of dying once spontaneously, nearly two years ago now, and obviously wasn’t successful. Sometimes I’m grateful for that, […]
i don’t want to kill myself. i don’t know if that means i’m not welcome here, but i’m tired of my life, so does that count? and the biggest thing is my life is fine. at least i haven’t been abused. i have no reason to believe people don’t like me. (yet i still think my friends secretly don’t want me around…) i’m just gonna list all the things i can’t stand, and, really don’t want to.
-ever since September, i’ve suddenly felt like the energy of my life has changed. nothing really happened, except that my older friends went to high school. but it hurts. […]
So it’s my first post and I haven’t been lurking very long and so I have no idea how this works so I’m just going to go…
I’m a horrible person. I hate myself. Everything I say is so contrived and fake, including all of this. I’m awful. I suck. I’ll never succeed. I’m a born failure. I’m unremarkable. I’m boring. Everyone hates me. No one needs me. You’re all bored now.
I know I won’t do it. I won’t. But I have to. I wanted to wait until graduating high school but I can’t even wait four months anymore. I’m consumed by it every fucking day, […]
It’s he evening, and the day has finally started to catch up to me. A number of chance events have lead me to this.. Now I guess I finally have to suck it up.
Today, after being out of school since the holidays, and after a previous attempt at a meeting (which ended horribly with me ‘moving’ my principal out of my way), I was brought to another shitty, high school meeting. Yes, the police were invited this time.
So apparently a “warning sign” is writing “black poetry”. Their words. Not mine. There goes my expression..
They also mentioned about how I’ve added posts to here from school.. […]
Everythings so over whelming now that everyone knows my secrets i dont want to be here , i dont want to have to put up with the pain , My parents are disoppinted , My parents make me feel overwhelmed and scared and alone , i hate that i feel like this , i hate that i wanna be dead , I hate that im putting everyone through this shit ., i want to be dead
I was one of those people that were always like killing yourself is stupid. I realize now that was because I had it pretty close to I prefect life. But I worked hard to do that too. I had all As and great friend. And I was so pretty. In my freshman year of high my mom told me we were moving. I didn’t want too. But would any teenager want to move 1,000 miles away from their life, friends, everything. I throw I fit but I knew I was making it harder on myself so I told her I would be good and go. […]
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