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London Grammar “NightFall” 

I don’t know why im listening to this song but I love it.

I just came back from being bullied by people in my country from this chat room

I won’t beable to share the screenshots since the conversation was in Serbo-Croatian which is in my language.

So what I want to dress as a character, as a fan of something that I enjoy that makes me happy and you know what I’m actually smiling in this picture because I don’t care what people think just because I’m wearing a Dragonball Z shirt a hat, key chain or w.e who cares my job at work is getting done the way it’s supposed to be done! so why do people judge us? And why were they giving me that look like I’m some […]

What’s your favorite anime?

Does it help you cope with your pain?

Why do you watch anime?

Is there a particular strength of a character that you wish you had?

I have been watching anime since I was 5 been collecting statues and you name it. It helps me forget about reality and sometimes it helps me get my mind off things by making me fantasise wishing to be strong as the character in the picture for an example. These little things help despite me wanting/needing to die so bad

For me without a doubt I definitely definitely plan to end it soon could be a week could be tomorrow morning but definitely latest by the end of December I do not see 2018 or 19 or whatever what about you guys? when do you think will be the time when you guys do your next attempt in hopes of leaving?

If We’re 18+ conscious and on the verge of death we should be able to refuse treatment. Or if were discovered to have a deadly disease or cancer we should become to consent treatment.

Anyone know anything of this?

I just feel hospitals pressure patients for that $$ while we pay and suffer along with continuing this painful/lonesome life?

I just don’t want to be a vegetable if I fail

this was my gun that I was mentioning about in some of my comments/replys to people on the topic including member CAUSE OF DEATH: SUICIDE. this is the very same gun for the last 4 years that I have been contemplating to shoot myself with many many times I have gone on bridges or into the woods while pointing it at my head but I just couldn’t seem to pull the trigger and a few times I did but while my head was moved away. Originally […]

 few weeks ago I dropped my wallet somewhere and I couldn’t find it to save my life and that’s where I had all my money and all that stuff. I looked everywhere  in my room in my car practically everywhere  and I sat down I was trying to think when was the last time I saw it and the last time I remembered having it was when I was at Starbucks the night before. so I was like Wow Let me give it a shot. […]

but I tell them that I am. see… oh wait that’s me smiling while thinking about everything. Do any of you smile like this?

I have some online friends that I made from chats on YouTube live streams. And IDK how my online friend found my comment?  Could it be from my G+ account that’s attached to my gmail YouTube account+ IDK.  Anyways as you see my names Russ(Nick name) but I removed my last name and Sophie’s last name to.

THIS IS THE FULL COMMENT THAT I WROTE ONTHE VIDEO

“I came here because I am at the end of my line! to whoever is reading word of advice […]

Anyways a few months back my sister & my mother disconnected me from their T-Mobile family plan my mother claims she had no idea but it doesn’t matter because in the end my mom took her side & gave her full authority on the family plan. So I had no phone & no way to make phone calls to order food for pickup. So I noticed that the house phone Battery was dead so I inserted it back in its stand & left for a few minutes to charge & when I came back I couldn’t believe what I saw so I yelled at my […]

 yup I’ve been on this diet for the last 3 weeks. Being broke & surrounded by family like my mother who only comes to her kids when they have money. Which brings me to Domino’s. domino’s has these coupons which help me save money on food helping me get by the week living off pay check to pay check since I’m on minimum wage. If not this I’d strave since other types of food which that are healthy cost more and are served much […]

My married sister with 3 children visited us and stayed over for the night they rarely ever come since they live in New York and today I took my niece’s out to the park we got ice cream and of course as some of you know about my story about my past. I’m 26 going to 27 in Dec(which might not happen) even still never been in a relationship in serious debt hated by my family because at the moment I can’t support them like the way I was doing before besides myself since I’m in debt and make minimum wage. there’s just so much […]

view from the outside 🙂 hey everyone. hope everyone is getting by. I have seen a lot of comments here on how many of you were generating that fear when you were attempting to end it. Gotta say same 🙂 me to I caught that fear as well & my motiv timing & execution was there but  god bless us all well keep fighting I pray all of you get.better the will to live is stream.

I’ve been here just haven’t had the strength to comment […]

I think this video is very important for the community hit me even though my life will over soon

https://youtu.be/i_AAmPKnatA

How is everyone doing? I hope all the friends I made here found there solution in choosing a stable way to live. I myself have been unsuccessful even when I was gone from here for the year not once did suicide leave my mind. I am 26 and many of you know me and I have revealed myself both life and pictures of how I look for those to get the picture that my eyes are no different than yours. And for the record […]

How many of you are annoyed like me upon this day?

I was at Starbucks and ofcourse only I was the one who came “single” in line and who sat alone I’m 26 and a lot of you know that I’ve been single my whole life. Everyone around me seemed to have someone to whom they belong.  Me no-one ofcourse. I saw this cool guy smiling and walking in with flowers in his hand I’m like WTF how do you guys do it?

I’m tired of watching the cool people get everything they want with ease and no trouble.

If I only had a “girlfriend” geez she would […]

I am sooo depressed, lonely, damaged and bored so I wanted to make my Friday interesting at work especially since there is so many happy people at my job who get everything and who are happy so I was like hey why not fuck with these happy people with there simple life hahaha
OK so I did this in the bathroom

so no one can […]

Despite last night my mom randomly yelling at me about bills about paying this paying that so I for the first time in my life of 26 yrs told her “GET LOST” “Your not my mom when all you want is money for nothing” I didn’t curse or nothing I’m tired of her only conversations we have is for bills bills mortgage house I always “say sell it” “this house ruined my life I didn’t sign up for this if you love your kids please sell […]

As a lot of you know me I have never had a girlfriend in my life I am 26 hard working, passionate and a friend for everyone. I was recommended to match by some good friends however it didn’t work here are my conversations and results

This girl was one of the few girls who had replied to me out of the 70 girls I messaged and when you see the “Read” it means your comment was already viewed. As you can see […]

So I too was feeling down and I didn’t know what else to do since I’m always alone. Than I saw RedAndPurples SP

It was beautiful I took pics as well but there no where near as good as hers. I appreciate it I might take walks there more often

I always knew about these woods and […]