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Chronic Pain

I think about suicide everyday, even in college, thanks to Trump.

by JustSomeGuy4455 9/23/2018

written by JustSomeGuy4455

My name is Taylor. I’m 26 years old and I am an autistic atheist who questions his sexuality. I am turned on by all genders yet I have no desire whatsoever to engage in sexual intercourse. I live in the deep south, Georgia to be exact, and I hate every second of it.

What happened to this world? When did it get to the point where I found that this planet is nothing but a cancer cell on the universe? I used to be so happy and carefree until I became an adult, now it’s just never-ending misery. I’ve been abused since childhood by other people […]

9/23/2018 7 comments

it is deadly

by Yikrens 9/19/2018

written by Yikrens

to know I love the deaths creation.

but any of is for bme a taboo subject

so so don’t sing the deaths of. also I did.

this can’t be excused to some,

as strangers. maybe is takes a toll of relief..

but I’d stick to what I know as stranger.

and any must be alive. and that can be noone..

9/19/2018 0 comment

Life is boring , Reality is boring , real life is boring , real world is boring

by niki 9/14/2018

written by niki

Especially when you’ve realized that nothing we do here in reality will ever compare to our imaginations. And no, I’m not talking about petty, shallow, superficial, & stupid imaginations like most people only have with their simple-minded brains. I’m talking about all those best fantasy movies, games, novels, comic books, anime/manga, etc, with all their magic, superpowers, & magical, fantasy, adventurous world/universe with its limitless, unlimited possibilities.

Fuck this reality.
Reality is boring, stupid, & depressing.

reality is boring , life is boring ,
it’s all about money
i hate money
i hate business
i wish i live in the movie game anime manga novel comics books

I […]

9/14/2018 7 comments

I’m breathing

by ariusversea 9/12/2018

written by ariusversea

You don’t need to tell me all the reason I should hate myself. I already know them. I repeat them to myself every night with nootropics to keep me awake and kicking. Kicking myself for being a failure, for not doing anything right. For never being enough.

I try to do everything right. I read the textbooks, look over my notes, do the work. I could not work for an entire MONTH, an entire 30 DAYS, and I would STILL be advanced in my classes. because I work hard. I “grind” and “hustle” everyday. But unless I haven’t walked in the snow in nothing but flip […]

9/12/2018 1 comment

Honestly Honesty

by LiquidHuman 9/9/2018

written by LiquidHuman

I’m not going to lie to you.

Sometimes i wish I could just fade out right here and now.

Im not going to pretend that I think life is one big open door.

And no no I don’t need you to tell me there is so much worth living for.

Because I won’t believe that yet.

I mean with the hatred and rigidity and sorrow and cruelty,

And how everyone thinks they’re right.

And well, I’ve heard it so much,

The arguments and rants of our parliaments

That I no longer believe any of us got it right.

And it’s slightly annoying that we’re so petty.

But not nearly as annoying as sad.

And you can call […]

9/9/2018 1 comment

by DeadLast 9/7/2018

written by DeadLast

“Suffrage is the pivotal right.”

Susan B. Anthony

“Independence is happiness.”

Susan B. Anthony

“There is one thing higher than Royalty: and that is religion, which causes us to leave the world, and seek God.”

Elizabeth I

“I was walking along a

road one evening – on one side lay the city, and below […]

9/7/2018 2 comments

I’ve tried, but to no avail. Sadness turns the merry bleak, and all will fade

by sansfranzdeput 9/7/2018

written by sansfranzdeput

I am tired; I am worn: my eyes falter, and fail, wishing of and seeing only what I’ll never have- a lover: one of with whom I would love with, love things, make love, and care for love. I lust with myself to faceless women with wordless mouths and tear-less eyes. After all things, my heart is well traveled; for, despite not finding love as of yet, it seems as though emotions can be harmed without being brought out to the light. This makes me bitter: my lips let my tongue out, to speak vile things to innocent and unsuspecting family members and odd and […]

9/7/2018 1 comment

Why I’m a Worthless Person

by LiquidHuman 9/6/2018

written by LiquidHuman

I just fucked up today. I’m pretty sure I just ruined my relationship with my family. In all honesty, I hope they do hate me. I feel like I deserve it. Maybe this event will finally cement the idea that they raised a failure and they’ll just give up on me. So now, I’m writing this, as a way to publicly humiliate myself in a way that won’t make me a public nuisance. To tell everyone exactly what makes me such a piece of shit.

Honestly, I don’t know where to start. There’s so much wrong with me, putting into words how fucked up I am […]

9/6/2018 5 comments

Fever Talk

by PanicRevelation 9/5/2018

written by PanicRevelation

I couldn’t sleep again.

I couldn’t change anything, I can’t be changed, I want to but I don’t, I won’t, I keep changing but at the same time nothing has.

I can’t. Can’t what?

There are so many thoughts but nothing at all coming to mind, it becomes so hazy and bogged down.

I can’t do this. I’ve lost my way in life again, I say that but to begin with I never had a direction at all. My head hurts.

Why does my body have to ache like this, my head is dizzy and burning hot but my body is cold to the touch and sweaty. Maybe I have […]

9/5/2018 0 comment

wave of depression

by tiredofchronicpain 9/5/2018

written by tiredofchronicpain

I am a 29 year old male suffering from a soup of mental disorders and other tribulations, hence my other posts. I am unemployed, living with my parents after graduating with my electronics engineering degree. I am unable to find work, depressed, and tired. Instead of explaining my previous posts over again, I will just come to the point of how I feel now. At this moment, I am at a low no one else around me can surface. I suffer from something that I was afraid might get worse by time; I suffer from extreme self hate and body dysmorphic disorder – or as […]

9/5/2018 0 comment

Does it even matter

by PanicRevelation 9/3/2018

written by PanicRevelation

Does it even matter anymore? honestly it never did.

I tried so hard and so hard to die but each attempt failed leaving me here. So many years wasted.

How much more shame can i build up.

I thought maybe appreciating the small things in life would lead me to a happier life. after every failed jump and drowning and overdose. After bleeding out and forced into therapy for years and years at a time. I still feel so empty inside. Nothing has helped. I just want to die but even that has proven to be useless.

So I thought dying in a different way would be more effective.

More […]

9/3/2018 1 comment

Precognition of Pain

by Yikrens 9/2/2018

written by Yikrens

it’s okay that everyone turn missing for a little, for a short, for long, for ever.pretending soon or close to have born alone, to be raised alone, to learned alone and to loved alone, cried alone and married alone.

to have fucked alone, till I found myself in a lie, one of which the wreck turned to recover and inserted in this world alone that suddenly I turned insane to not been at all alone.

but all I meet, anyone there is getting me to know is fading out life.

the world is yet not close to understand, healed. corruption is raised and cultivated. any declaration destroyed and […]

9/2/2018 0 comment

stuck

by niladri54321 8/26/2018

written by niladri54321

i dont know how to say this but failure always been part of my life.been following this page for 4 years n it gives me strength to survive this harsh world.

i m stuck. all my friends r moving forward n i feel like i m the only one no one gaves a damn my friend started ignoring me i guess bcoz they have jobs n i m still in college have tried to kill myself but i m a coward bcoz i dont want to lose my life like this all i have known is” giving up is not an option” no matter how hard […]

8/26/2018 1 comment

CAN YOU RELATE?

by LoneSoul 8/26/2018

written by LoneSoul

I hope this song helps

8/26/2018 0 comment

I’ve been taking Valium for 4 years

by Titania 8/24/2018

written by Titania

I lost all my emotions 2 years ago. I feel less pleasure. I lost all my motivation.

I know it was the drug (Valium) that caused this.

But I can’t stop it, withdrawal is unsustainable. I can’t go to a mental hospital. I’ve been there before and they give neuroleptics. They’re not helping, they’re hiding the problem.

Who’s been taking benzodiazepines for years?

8/24/2018 6 comments

reality is boring , life is boring , it’s all about money , i hate money , i hate business , i wish i live in the movie game anime manga novel comics books

by niki 8/18/2018

written by niki

reality is boring , life is boring , it’s all about money , i hate money , i hate business , i wish i live in the movie game anime manga novel comics books

I hate reality , reality is boring !
I hate real life , real life is boring !
I hate real world , real world is boring !

I wish I live in movie / movies , I wish movies were real
I wish I live in video games , I wish games were real
I wish I live in novels , I wish novels were real
I wish I live in anime […]

8/18/2018 3 comments

sorry mom

by thisisnothing 8/14/2018

written by thisisnothing

my mom told me to go drown about a year ago. the thought stuck in my mind and it really just cant be erased or ignored to the point that i actually conidered it. she doesnt love me. it’s obvious. i’m pointless. pointless to the point of my own mother wanting me dead. i decided to be numb and quiet. a bit recently, she said that if i would kill myself she wouldnt care. she shamed me in front of everyone and cursed at me. i know that i can’t bear this anymore. i tried to get help but she told me that everyone experiences […]

8/14/2018 4 comments

Pain wins in the end, everytime

by ButterBoi 8/11/2018

written by ButterBoi

I do not want to die. I really don’t. I just cannot keep living like this. I was injured. Bad. I should start by saying I am a very sensitive and empathetic person, maybe too much so, but to me people just seemed cruel, and so growing up I preferred the company of animals. I turned my empathy into a wonderful career, saving endangered species in very remote locations of the world, with very little interaction with people. It was perfect for me, and I loved it. Unfortunately, it is also very dangerous work. I did it long enough that my number finally got punched. […]

8/11/2018 4 comments

Broken

by blackout21 8/9/2018

written by blackout21

I am just going to describe my situation, thoughts and feelings here in arbitrary order:
-I am addicted to dimethyl ether(gas in hair spray cans) and media including porn.
-I just now realize how much damage this has caused. I fail at almost everything I try. (85% of the last 7 bigger things I tried)
-I was diagnosed with 3 different mental health issues.(ADD, PTSD, paranoid schizophrenia(here in Europe the chances of being employed with this alone is only around 15%(https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/15133589))
-I think I have lost a good chunk of my intelligence.(I once had a high IQ(well seems like I only now know what I have […]

8/9/2018 2 comments

Where the Lonely Ones Roam

by sansfranzdeput 8/7/2018

written by sansfranzdeput

If you’ve ever seen any of my previous posts on my chronic mental and emotional afflictions, then you must know this: that I am in pain; and, for most people- if not all- pain is something people hate. They most often turn to addiction or something essentially the same to hide or suppress their issue, whatever it may be.

I myself have had addiction issues before, and still struggle with an addiction to Pornography. That, and my depression and all around loneliness will be the topics I so boringly lay out before you all in this post today.

Since a very young age, I have been obsessed […]

8/7/2018 2 comments

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