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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

Two Little Lights

by LiquidHuman 8/19/2020

written by LiquidHuman

I’ve always cared about my younger brothers. Even when I was a kid. I may be a girl, but I still feel a deep desire to protect them.

My middle brother used to get bullied in elementary school. Even back then, as a preteen, I wanted to kill someone. He was the quiet, nerdy type. He’s intelligent, extremely intelligent. Always looking at the technical side of things. The type to tell you about how a patch in Smash gave Samus’s up-b two less frames or something like that. Makes sense why he’d gravitate towards computers and coding. He doesn’t have any friends. That scares me. He doesn’t know […]

8/19/2020 2 comments

A break from ‘friends’

by Virus.Found 8/18/2020

written by Virus.Found

Wow, just wow. I’ve been doing better without any friends but it was really hard in the beginning. So after a week I check my messages: 0 Just why do I care so much…? When you’re someone, that has so much affection to give, what the hell do you do.? Seems like, everyone who’s not depressed, is just not much of a friend these days. Oh, to be 16 again and have a bunch of depressed friends and they have so much free time, you could actually form a ball of clay and stick together for forever. Loneliness is no joke…

8/18/2020 1 comment

dont cry why try die

by Itscolourlife 8/14/2020

written by Itscolourlife

Dont cry
You dont have right to cry

Oh why
Because you already know but you only asking why

Just try
I am enough with all these try

Ill die
Just shut up and let me die

I HATE YOU
THIS ME
THIS FAMILY
THIS WORLD

8/14/2020 3 comments

18 hours of sleep

by Virus.Found 8/12/2020

written by Virus.Found

Have you ever kept the seriousness of your mental state to yourself.? Just to finally open up to a person and they’re not being understanding whatsoever.? Yeah, well. That happened to me tonight.

It’s night and I’m miserable. I’ve told my friend, that they have not been there at all, when I needed them to be. And I understand, that they are busy and I’ve been ever so patient. But it only goes so far, you know.? I’ve been feeling extremely lonely lately. I’ve just slept 18 hours straight. I’ve reached out to many people, just to get nothing back in return. Isn’t that already […]

8/12/2020 4 comments

Ramblings of a madman

by Shadymoon 8/9/2020

written by Shadymoon

At this point, the glass isn’t half empty or half full, the glass is shattered and the pieces are embedded deep in my flesh. I have final “insurance” if you will, I’m just waiting for the right time to use it. I’ve practiced over and over. It’s not a matter of if I choose to make my exit, but when. And oddly enough, having a surefire “insurance” policy helps me through the bad moments, the mere knowledge that I can reliably end it when I choose to do so, when the time comes, is almost enough to bring me peace. I’m playing a sick game […]

8/9/2020 1 comment

The Funeral

by ghostingthem 7/31/2020

written by ghostingthem

It was back in January. Our friends and I were sat all of five feet away from her casket during the service. She wasn’t religious, but they held a service anyway.

I felt like I couldn’t be seen crying. My friends were distraught, feeling sick and bawling like newborns. I was like a rock. I don’t think I cried at all. How sick does that make me? The monster who didn’t cry at their friend’s funeral. What’s worse is I’m now realising I never got to break down like them. I didn’t cry for hours or get comforted by doting parents. I was left […]

7/31/2020 0 comment

My Eye

by Scolopendra 7/27/2020

written by Scolopendra

That’s the silly nickname I’ve given My Eye. My Eye’s unresponsive now, gone, I can’t reach My Eye. My Eye had just confessed to being very, very depressed. My Eye’s LGBT and from a really abusive family. I love My Eye, but I asked My Eye a difficult question right before My Eye went radio silent. I’m scared My Eye will commit suicide. My Eye’s the best I’ve ever had, I don’t… it’s… what do I do? I’m suicidal too. I don’t think I can take it. There has been a long string of deaths around me. I’m a bad luck charm, I guess. I […]

7/27/2020 0 comment

Sad and Mad/Mad and Sad

by DovaKitten 7/22/2020

written by DovaKitten

I’ve been thinking about things that have happened to me a lot lately, and I have realised that I am stranded, stuck, lost, alone in this world now.

My parents, as much as I love them dearly, have no idea about what I’ve been through, and wouldn’t (couldn’t) understand if they did.

My friends don’t understand why I am not the same, why I am not the old me. They have noticed that I am not miraculously better, even after being given time and space.

The only one who does know, is the one that left me like this, and they don’t care. They just went back to […]

7/22/2020 5 comments

fond memories

by c-note13 7/17/2020

written by c-note13

i’m here after two months. feeling slightly better as my second year of uni commenced a week back and i became a part of a pretty good research club. i’m here to talk about fond memories and clinging on to them. this post is mainly about a friend i made in grade 10, four years back. if you’re ever here, N, i hope you come across this.

she transferred from an all girls school to a co-ed school (mine) in 2016. i was one of her first friends. turns out she lived literally two fucking minutes from my house. we bonded pretty well and got close […]

7/17/2020 0 comment

My sister’s birthday

by Lacey D 6/30/2020

written by Lacey D

At my sister’s 11th birthday party, she invited all of her friends to this place where you could bake a cake with fancy equipment. And she is an outgoing person, so there were 15-20 people there along with our extended family.
I had a mental breakdown in the parking lot, just complete and utter depression. When my parents got me to come inside, I locked myself in the bathroom so I wouldn’t embarrass my sister. My mom thought I was trying to kill myself again, so she got the people to unlock it and then wouldn’t let me go back in. So I spent the […]

6/30/2020 1 comment

DOLLHOUSE

by Rosesareblue 6/28/2020

written by Rosesareblue

I hate my family.

I hate living inside this dollhouse of play pretend.

Everyone thinks we are happy, but inside all four walls is a child crying for help.

I am the child and in this dollhouse I’m nothing but a doll. Staying still, witnessing every hatred and anger between a mother and a father.

The dollhouse is burning, but the angry smoke filled my lungs until I suffocate.

The dollhouse is burning, and I don’t have the chance to escape.

The dollhouse, pretty but plastic, is what would kill me in the end.

6/28/2020 1 comment

The Tunnel

by fallencrescendo 6/12/2020

written by fallencrescendo

In the state if Arizona, there is a tunnel known to grant you wishes. If you drive through it, hold your breath until the end, you can make a wish and only hope it to come true. When I was younger, I’d always wish for a bike, finding my soulmate, or a house, camera, etc.

When I was 12, my wishes started to change. I had started wishing for a permanent home to stay, for someone in my family to show me love, for me to be happy; I gave up on that quickly as things were always getting worse. So I started wishing for my […]

6/12/2020 7 comments

I don’t know what to do.

by bee 6/11/2020

written by bee

I’m feeling hopeless. I hate my life, I hate myself. I want to get away from these people, my family. They’re all racist, homophobic, sexist, and just hateful people and I don’t want to be around that. Yet they make fun of me because I care about people, how can they possibly think I’m wrong and they are right when their views are so hurtful to other people. I can’t wait until I’m old enough to move far away and never have to live here again, but I don’t know if that can ever happen. I know it’s my own fault but I’ve felt so […]

6/11/2020 2 comments

it hurts too much

by care 6/6/2020

written by care

The worst part isn’t the loneliness, or the emptiness, or the coldness.
It’s the fact that people care, that the people in my life love me.
No matter how much I wish everyone hated me or how much I wish nobody cared,
if I died I would be missed.
Did you know that sometimes when a mother’s child dies, she only lives a few years after? My mom says that when a mother’s child dies, the mother loses her will to live;
the driving force for life. The fact that people care feels like my last hope has been ripped away from me. Tell me […]

6/6/2020 3 comments

Please do not make her like me, ever.

by 21andfuckedup 6/5/2020

written by 21andfuckedup

She doesn’t deserve a sister like me. She’s so kind and innocent. She cares about people. She is sensitive and sensible. She looks up to me as an inspiration. But honestly I never want her to be like me. She should never feel these things. It is said that we should experience everything but believe me, no one deserves to experience these things. So doesn’t she. I love her. That smile on those soft cheeks XD. She’s so cute. She was born cute. Please keep her safe. Teach her to never hide things from herself. Also, teach her to never hurt people. Teach her to […]

6/5/2020 1 comment

If you could…

by WolfieDepressionWorld 6/1/2020

written by WolfieDepressionWorld

If you could restart, would you?

I have a debate with the voices in my head on this question. The reason I’m still alive is because I know I’ll be missed. I don’t know why they would miss me on some days. I find myself useless. But sometimes I think about how I am a survivor of all the bad times and all the times I wanted to hurt. I am a survivor to all the times I wanted it to end, of the times I was assaulted. I still stayed, and yes I look around and think to myself all the ways I could stop. […]

6/1/2020 2 comments

food circle

by namrahellz 5/15/2020

written by namrahellz

You can’t just give them one thing and then give me another. When I try to make the same thing you’d yell at me, forbidding me from eating it. I’d understand if you’d just say you were saving it for them, they’re young and whatnot. But I can tell that you just don’t want me to eat like them because I’m still fat and haven’t lost enough weight for you. It makes me upset and I’d rather not eat anything whatsoever but then you’d make yet another dish and invite me for a bite. I’d decline and you’d threaten me saying I might as well […]

5/15/2020 0 comment

fucking sitting duck

by namrahellz 5/11/2020

written by namrahellz

I don’t like
Having to witness this
I can’t
Get the courage to tell her to apologize when she’s in the wrong
she might turn around and yell at me. I dont want that. I’ve had enough of that
How can I make myself better. How can I be good enough to not be yelled at. To not be looked upon in such manner
I hate it
I hate it
I hate how she hits them for a reason that she believed to be true, but wasn’t. And doesn’t apologize but continue to yell and hit for an extended reason that justified the initial one. […]

5/11/2020 1 comment

If anyone want

by lovepeaceandcake 5/10/2020

written by lovepeaceandcake

I feel incredibly alone and if you too we can talk

+52 1 9841469948

5/10/2020 2 comments

Targeted with mind control technologies

by Drewski 5/6/2020

written by Drewski

Apparently I have been placed in a suicide program of some sort.

It began years ago but kind of ebbed and flowed over time but came to a dramatic and sudden head more recently, where acoustic audio and psychological torture weapons are being used on me, the same kind you hear about the military using on foreign soil.

I’ve realized I don’t have much power in the situation and the ‘perpetrators’ even offer an ‘assist’ in the suicide. Meaning, they are able to pull the trigger for you, remotely. They have demonstrated this for me. I guess that helps with some of the remaining troubles I would […]

5/6/2020 1 comment

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