Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

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Desolate, hopeless, desperate. My inevitable suicide.

  March 19th, 2010 by loopey

Hi.  My name is Lucy, I am 20.  I feel much older.  Before dismissing me as an emo teenager, please read a little of this.  I might be 20, but I’ve been through more than most people ever do – both good and bad things.  But it’s the bad things that get to you, wear you down.

I don’t know where to start – it seems like there have been so many starts, so many horrible life events and so much negativity.  I am currently actively suicidal.  The thought of dying will not leave my head – I’m pretty sure by this point that I only …

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PostSecret

  March 12th, 2010 by painterofmusic

Two months ago, I got a refund check for my student loans. I said that as soon as the money was gone, I would be too. I’ve drank over a thousand dollars worth of alcohol, and it wasn’t the expensive stuff.

I’m down to my last fifteen dollars. I’m on my way to the store now to buy the stuff to kill myself with.

I’ve said that I’m going to do it before on here, but my racing heart, the logic telling me that dying is right, the gutter I purposely through my life into all says that it’s time.

For two months, I’ve slept with countless guys …

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SILENCE

  March 6th, 2010 by emoscars

I see a star and wish upon it that one day everyone could disappear or i could die,in my mind there is silence in the real world theres nothing i care about.I wanna not see and hear anyone and the things people tell me keeps getting worser and worser asking myself why am i suffering and why doesnt wishes come true.Peple ask what happened to that fun,happy person she was she would answer she grew up and saw the real truth, she was introduce to the real world she found hatred she found better she knows better than what she used to know.Guess what the

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No longer.

  February 23rd, 2010 by Lianeh

  So, I currently just turned 17 years old last Saturday (The 13th, bad sign eh?) I’ve always been a fairly short male, which is fine by me, I love being short. I’m underweight at an amazing 93 pounds. When I was too young to remember, my parents got divorced. I had to live with my father. I’ve always been a person to be extremely shy..and I have VERY few interests. My only interests are video games, and very very slightly poker. I spent most of the time playing video games. At about the age of 10 or so, I began to understand the kind of …

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In my restless dream…

  February 19th, 2010 by Masquerade

I had a great life until I got raped and sick almost 5 years ago. Since them, I’ve been trying to get my life back.

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i was alone

  February 11th, 2010 by Garth

It seems like everyone ive ever been close to or trusted has has betrayed me. My friends, my family, mom ,dad..everyone. I used to think my family was a happy family with nothing to hide, man i was wrong. It turns out just about everything i knew growing up was a lie. The person i believed to be my best friend betrayed me and Lied to me more times than i can count. I used to have love for these people i trusted and was close too. But now im just empty inside.

So after everyone i love or trusted betrayed me i Closed myself in …

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The ‘What the hell is wrong with you all’ rant

  February 7th, 2010 by Strange_Kid

Hello all. First of all, don’t start judging me from the title. I’m not some suicide-hater or sth. I accidently stumbled on this site because I too am ‘one of you’ and keep thinking of ending my life.

The reason I am writing now is because after skimming through some of the posts (because I HATE reading), I’ve noticed a few things. The one thing I noticed that disgusted me was this 34-year old man WHO HAS A 3-YEAR-OLD DAUGHTER and is planning to die,  make it look like an accident and his family would collect the life inssurance. He ends his post with “We’ll all …

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And I just keep going on…

  December 23rd, 2009 by fallen_angel_y

People are hypocrites . I’ve always thought it’s best to be by myself. Why? It may sound sad, but I’m the only one who understands me. I’m sick of people .And they are sick of me .Even my parents make me miserable and don’t like me. My friends avoid me. They don’t care about me, it’s the same if I exist or not. Then what? Does this makes me a bad person? Maybe. When I put all my efforts into something, it’s still for nothing. And there it comes the pain. The pain of being lonely? No. I like being by me. Just the pain …

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Together We’ll Stand

  December 21st, 2009 by takemyhand

For the past 3 days and many more to come, my days have been a blur. My best friend’s; my brother, but support system, my everything, mother took their life. The mom has been sick for a long time, and this wasnt her first attempt. Knowing that, i thought, “how could the family not get her help sooner than before it was too late?” then i realized, the woman wouldnt accept the help that the family gave her and that wasnt the right path for her. The way she did it was the way she wanted to. The way it would take her life and …

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Perfect Life

  December 4th, 2009 by violet

I don’t have reason to complain. My life mostly has been going very well, except for being picked on in middle school, and now years later, not doing well in school. I have a family and a boyfriend and other friends that love me. I have accomplished a lot and am not in debt, yet. I know that I am smart and not ugly and a good person. However, I am sensitive and overreact to things, and even though I know I am I just can’t stop myself. I know I can change things, which I am trying, sort …

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I just want this feeling to go away..

  November 24th, 2009 by TiedTogetherWithASmile05

I don’t think i’m supposed to feel this way. I’m only a fourteen year old girl, and i already hate life. So much has happened to me in the last two, maybe three years. And i don’t mean physically, i mean emotionally.

I guess it all started in seventh grade. I fell in love. I really did, and still am. I fell in love with this guy before i even knew his name! But of course, he never noticed me. In eighth grade, one of his close friends found out i liked him. So she decided to tell him. He thought it was cool i liked him, …

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So, would you guys think this is good or bad?

  November 23rd, 2009 by Korpulent

They really should legalize it >_>

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Still Alive…..need a reason why?

  November 11th, 2009 by on the verge

Hello,

 

I am here because I am an attempte,  I am currently in remission from severe depression& (hypomania&), PSTD, and am working very hard on keeping on top of life without the help of pharmaceuticals. My goal is to learn to live with Bipolar Disorder and not only survive the traumas that have happened in my life but excel, and be the best I can be, and help others achieve there ideal self-actualization. I am working towards my goals of being a Psychologist, Author and Artist.  If anyone is interested I can post more about what I have been though to give you more of a …

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Depressed and suicidal

  November 9th, 2009 by jeremyalb4

I feel so depressed i can’t concentrate I get so agitated just being here all I’ve been having is thoughts about killing myself there’s nothing worth living for, even in my dreams I dream about killing myself you know how bad that is when you dream about it all I want to do is to end it all. when I do not feel right I rather be In a dark room and just seclude my self away from the world and drink my life away.

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Somehow, I’m still here

  October 24th, 2009 by paradise_lost

I’m still waiting for something to happen. Not something special that could finally brings me to the end of this pain. Everything is fine, everything makes me feel this is the very end.

I don’t know if I’m the weird one. I want some help but at the same time I isolated myself avoiding others, even my friends, with some silly escuses. Hardly I recognize myself when I look into the mirror.

I started to hate being surrounded by people when found everybody in my life betraying me. Was really my fault? My parents, my friend, my boyfriend. I can’t go out without feelin’ uneasy, sickened. Maybe …

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more_hate_life

  October 20th, 2009 by katherineendsitnow

Today I called my college and dropped out of one of my classes. I talked with my parents about this and they fully support my decision. After my dad and I talked about this, he took me off to the side and told me, “You seem to be going down hill again… Do you want to talk about it?”
I said, “No. You just wouldn’t understand.”
Then my dad said, “Please talk to me Katie.”
I turned and look at him and said, “Justin (my boyfriend of 7years) and I are on a …

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Diana

  September 27th, 2009 by erased_orion

You asked me once if my wounds healed.

They do, but only on the outside. I wonder if you’ve realized that on your own. I can’t find it in me to tell you that, and i don’t know why.

I would like them to, really. I want to stop…but i can’t do it on my own. I guess it’s because i’m such a weakling, huh?

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Someone help me

  September 3rd, 2009 by TJ

Okay, so I’m starting a new thread because I was hijacking someone elses with my problems and that’s not fair at all, I feel really bad about doing that. I’m sorry.

I basically wrote my story in a comment so I’ll just paste it here and explain a little more.

Such a long story.. I was so desperate last night. I still am and I don’t know what to do. I’m 20 years old, still living at home and I don’t have a job. My biological dad killed himself as did my uncle, we were very close. My mom, who has been married to another man for …

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Financial Loss Causes Much Grief

  September 1st, 2009 by Jason80

After a few months I grew tired of feeling sorry for myself so I started developing a website to help myself keep busy in my spare time, but to also inform others of the dangers of spending money foolishly without thinking. Econochristian.com is my website. As you can see, I somehow discovered a path to religion when all of humanity seemed to have failed me. I guess this happens quite often, but it does help to rely on a religion with many followers to help you get back on your feet.

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Daddy Gone… Forever.

  September 1st, 2009 by itszyahgirl

I was 13 years old and about to finish up my 7th grade year. It was March 10, 2004 when my life changed forever. It was in the evening after dinner when my ma got the call. My sister was on the other line, sobbing and very hard to understand. She told her what had happened, as I sat back and wondered. I was way to young to understand what was going on. I had never experienced anything like that before in my life. My ma hung up the phone and said “I will be back.”

About 2 hours later, my ma shows up with my …

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