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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

selfish

by noisefloor 4/16/2017

written by noisefloor

The future isn’t some far off thing . Its right fucking now! And I could be waiting for things to get better and hoping for a better future for days, years, or months. Its a bunch of bullshit and everyone dies it doesn’t matter when you die as long as you do. There is nothing wrong with wanting to be in control of your death but also I get to die when I WANT to die. Because its MY life not my moms or my sisters or my grandparents or my friends life its MINE! and the only reason people want suicidal people to stay […]

4/16/2017 9 comments

I don’t know anymore

by KidWithNoLife2000 4/16/2017

written by KidWithNoLife2000

I’m not sure where to start. But I feel like I’m on the verge of a mental breakdown. As I’m writing this I have tears coming out of my eyes. I’m not sure whether it is my mental state or the fact it is nearly 2 in the morning. But death is something I’ve wanted for a while over the course of my life. In primary school and I’m year 7 I was very lonely. I was liked by people but I had no friends. Even in some of year 8 in secondary school I still had very limited friends. At the start of year […]

4/16/2017 1 comment

Alone

by fighting_alone94 4/15/2017

written by fighting_alone94

So maybe it’s not much of a problem I mean I’ve been through way worse and felt way lower in my life but for some reason I can’t help but feel alone and depressed. Growing up I didn’t have friends and I hit my peak in middle school. I have hundreds of friends well I guess looking back none of them were really my friends but once I got to high school everything changed I didn’t trust anyone and I was the most paranoid person in the world. Not like omg the FBI is after me but like I always felt that someone was going […]

4/15/2017 1 comment

What is depression to you?

by M_f_p 4/15/2017

written by M_f_p

So this is my first time posting here. I’ve had depression for about 1.5yrs. Something I don’t really understand is why people don’t really understand what depression really is? Why are other things that are so pointless, educated in our lives like maths or science. I know there is so much to learn in this world but I guess you need to really feel it to know what it is.

Do you think killing your own self is worse than a terminal disease like cancer or even killing someone else? How hard would a decision like that be to kill your own self. Contemplation is my […]

4/15/2017 2 comments

Never ending pain

by Broken_Masterpiece 4/15/2017

written by Broken_Masterpiece

I know I write a lot, but I am so grateful to finally have a place to express myself without those I know judging me. The pain never stops. I feel like my soul is constantly being crushed. I smile and chat and it is scary how good I have become at hiding the pain. Or maybe they don’t want to see. It is sad how desperate you can be just to know someone is there for you, that longing for the most basic of human interaction. I thought I was ok. Always goes that way, then the darkness returns, always a bit worse, a […]

4/15/2017 4 comments

What makes me move on?

by kellinandrew 4/14/2017

written by kellinandrew

I am here to tell you one thing. Death isn’t my solution, it is my hideaway spot. The place I dream about when things get bad, the place I think about when I want to end things, but cant bring myself to do it. I find it comforting to dream about what could be if I died, but then it begins to scare me, it begins to make me feel alone, and sometimes I don’t know what to do. How to handle life, how to keep going. Im so tired of struggling, so tired of living off of nothing, having to rely on others, I […]

4/14/2017 1 comment

I’m Back

by kellinandrew 4/14/2017

written by kellinandrew

I haven’t posted in a while, I dont know why.. But I have a story to tell. I was looking for my sleeping pills, my Trazadone, when I found my moms Phenobarbital, which is a hypnotic. I used to be addicted to a lot of drugs, more than I ever thought possible. I broke those habits two years ago when I was 15, now I have fallen back into them. I have become dependent on these pills and I am trying to stop, but at first I didnt see a point, yes it can kill me, yes its hurting me. But maybe I was wrong. I […]

4/14/2017 0 comment

Have you felt it?

by Broken_Masterpiece 4/14/2017

written by Broken_Masterpiece

Have you ever felt utterly alone, even in a room filled with family and friends? I feel like I am in a different universe all alone…

How do you cope?

4/14/2017 5 comments

I’m ready to go but my son will be the one to find me. This has been a deterrent but while I am temporarily deterred my darkness increases….

by inapickle 4/14/2017

written by inapickle

As title. No, I don’t want to see a doctor, they don’t hear you. I don’t want medication, its a bandaid. I just want release. My son is a young adult in his twenties but I know, even if I leave a note saying just call the police and don’t come in, that he will come in and find me. Only the thought that he will have that imagery for the rest of his life stops me right now. Before you say go to a hotel, he would still be the one to identify my body. I love him but I hate myself, my existence, […]

4/14/2017 5 comments

Done trying

by Broken_Masterpiece 4/13/2017

written by Broken_Masterpiece

Trust me….

I am here for you….

How those empty words echo through my mind. I let my mask slip for a second to bare my soul, naked and alone. All I want is love, acceptance and maybe even a hug… The prison I am in is guarded by severe loneliness. Serving a life sentence. Why am I an outcast, why am I hated. Why am I alone. I have had it with trying, screw love, friendship and all those things, clearly I am not deserving.

For months on end I have been quiet, festering on the inside, like a virus eating at my soul. Now I am […]

4/13/2017 4 comments

Fucked Over by Public Schools

by kloudkat 4/13/2017

written by kloudkat

I’m eighteen, I’m a senior in high school, and I’ve attended four different high schools, one for each year essentially. I’ve suffered from depression since I was eleven (due to childhood abuse), and during the beginning of my sophomore year, I suffered from my first severe flash back starting my downward spiral of PTSD and Major Depressive Disorder. During the fourteenth week of school that year, I was admitted into a private mental health facility for inpatient treatment. I was there for eight days, and right afterwards, I attended iOP which is intensive outpatient; it lasted for six weeks. So I was gone from school […]

4/13/2017 3 comments

disgruntled

by Lazarus 4/13/2017

written by Lazarus

Sorta upset. Sorta not. Mostly disgruntled. Okay, I’m pretty upset.

Its my birthday in a few days.. April 15th. I’m turning 18. Having a dumb party and all that good shit. Which.I’m excited about, yeah. But after that I have to take my fucking GED test that I’ve been studying for for years now on top of regular high school. (Its a weird homeschool situation.) sorta upset I had to drop out. That my high school diploma I would get if I didn’t drop out wouldn’t even count. Really upset that I have to take this dumb fucking test. I just want to pass. I’m so […]

4/13/2017 1 comment

My Life, Why I Want to Die

by AnonymousUser27 4/11/2017

written by AnonymousUser27

4/11/2017 2 comments

I just want to get out of everything

by Lawli 4/10/2017

written by Lawli

Hockey season is starting and already there has been lots of drama in my team. It really doesn’t have much to do with me but being around it and talking to people about it got really stressful. Although it’s mainly over now I am still tired from it and already made me feel really down getting into the season. My club games have already started and I’ve played pretty average. I always feel like I’m letting me team down ever since my Dad told me in the car before a game that I was letting the team down and I wasn’t doing good enough. I […]

4/10/2017 1 comment

I’m sorry dad

by mindgear 4/9/2017

written by mindgear

Dad, I’m sorry. I love you. Its weird writing in the past tense when Im not gone yet.

I was your project. I could never stick to anything. Please don’t blame yourself though. this was entirely my fault. My idea. It was what I wanted. I loved danciong with you when i was little

but I’m not little anymore

I know you stay awake some nights wondering why I cant have a passion for fitness, a passion for my own health like you do.

Mom please know that I felt loved. I love you and Dad so much. More than I can put into words. More than I can […]

4/9/2017 3 comments

I was doing so well.

by 96530 4/8/2017

written by 96530

I was doing so well. I was enjoying life more than I could have imagined for the last few months. I have great career prospects, excellent friends and a marvellous family but there’s that one thing missing, that one thing which will always be missing.

4/8/2017 9 comments

I’m here

by thelostandneverfound 4/8/2017

written by thelostandneverfound

i realize a lot of people , like me are looking for one last chance, a sign.

So I’ll be here, to talk if you ever need to.

Kik: emifay123

dont hesitate.

4/8/2017 2 comments

I need advice on what to say in a note related to my suicide but it’s not my suicide note.

by wishingforatimemachine 4/7/2017

written by wishingforatimemachine

I have no idea what state my body will be in when I finally do this. I don’t want to traumatize my mother with the sight of me like this. So I need to post a note for her outside my bedroom letting her know that she needs to not come into my bedroom, that I’ve died, and she needs to call the police to handle it. And I guess that’s where some angels on the internet come in to tell me if I sound like I’m being cold or if it’s going to make her want to come in the room more and so on.

This is […]

4/7/2017 34 comments

Fear I guess tho it feels more like rambling

by 2tales 4/5/2017

written by 2tales

I’ve never really tried to commit suicide. I’ve thought and thought about it and he’ll I almost tried once or twice but I can never seem to go through with it.
Recently tho I’ve been trying to figure out why that is, mostly I just assume that it’s fear. Typical of every human I guess I’m scared shitless of the thought if taking the leap and not knowing where I’ll land. Sometimes I feel like I’m a faker like by living I keep on hurting the people around me and if I ever show people who I truly am they’d hate me all the more […]

4/5/2017 2 comments

Fear, but not for what you think.

by Invisibledaughter 3/31/2017

written by Invisibledaughter

My biggest fears are 1. That I’ll be found prematurely and 2. That I’ll be sent to the psych ward. I don’t want it to be public knowledge that I even thought of actually attempting suicide, let alone attempted and got “saved” because my timing was off or some mysterious thing happened that made someone have to come back and they discovered me. I don’t want doctors and nurses to know what’s wrong with me or think I’m “one of the crazies”. I don’t want other “crazies” to know who I am or what I did or that I’m there. I guess it’s my pride […]

3/31/2017 2 comments

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